Midnight Tides

In the exhausted aftermath of a surprisingly short period of release, when it seemed in truth that she was empty inside, hollowed-out calm, she could explore what was left, without the fetters of emotion. She had chosen to have faith in Buruk the Pale, believed – because it was easy – that he would not give up on life. She never did, after all. She had refused the evidence of his sudden ease, the strange freedom in his words to her during those last few days. When he’d already made up his mind. He’d seen the war coming, after all, and wanted to excise his own role in its making. Cut himself from this particular tapestry. But there had been sorcery in her own self-deceit, the path to grief and guilt, and there had been a comforting familiarity to the ritual.



From her failure sprang the requirement to be punished.



She had not invited the rape. No sane person would do that. But she had woven the scene and all its potential horror.



Not all things about oneself were likeable.



So she had wept for her flaws, for her weaknesses and for her humanity. Before two witnesses who no doubt had their own stories, their own reasons to grieve.



But now it was done. There was no value in repeating this particular ritual. Exhaustion gave way to sleep, and when she awoke it was dawn. The squad had camped in the glade, and all were still asleep with the exception of Iron Bars, who was sitting before a small hearth, intent on stirring the flames to life once more.



A blanket had been thrown over her. The morning air was cool and damp. Seren sat up, drawing the wool about her shoulders, then rose and joined the Avowed at the smouldering fire.



He did not glance up. ‘Acquitor. You are rested?’



‘Yes, thank you. I don’t know if I should apologize-’



‘For what? I’ve been hearing horses, south of here.’



‘That would be Brous. There’s a garrison there, a small one.’



‘Brous is a city?’



‘A village, set in the midst of stone ruins. It was once a holy site for the Tarthenal, although they didn’t build it.’



‘How do you know?’



‘The scale is all wrong for Tarthenal.’



‘Too small?’



‘No, too big.’



He looked up, squinted, then rose. ‘Time to prepare a meal, I think.’



‘You’re a strange officer, Iron Bars,’ Seren said, smiling. ‘Cooking every breakfast for your soldiers.’



‘I always wake up first,’ he replied, dragging close a food pack.



She watched him working, wondering how often he had done this. How many glades like this one, how many mornings the first to rise among snoring soldiers. So far from anything resembling home. In a way, she understood him in that regard. There were two manifestations in the Empty Hold that spoke to that nature. Walker and Wanderer, the distinction between them a subtle one of motivation.



The Avowed, she realized, was an easy man to watch.



Coughing, the mage Corlo clawed free of his blanket and stumbled over. ‘Where’s that tea?’



‘Almost ready,’ Iron Bars replied.



‘Got a headache,’ Corlo said. ‘Something’s up.’



‘Heard horses earlier,’ the Avowed said. ‘Screaming.’



‘That’s brewed enough for me.’



The Avowed dipped a ladle into the pot, filled the tin cup Corlo held out.



Seren saw the mage’s hand trembling.



‘May need the diadem today, sir.’



‘Uh, rather not. Let’s try to avoid that if we can.’



‘Aye.’



‘The diadem?’ Seren asked. ‘The one you used to open that path in Trate?’



Corlo shot her a sharp look, then nodded. ‘But not for that. There’s other rituals woven into it. Forty of ’em, in fact. The one we might have to use speeds us up, makes us faster than normal. But we go that way as rarely as we can, since it leaves us with the shakes – and those shakes get worse the more we use it.’



‘Is that why you’re trembling now?’



He glanced down at his hand after taking a sip of the herbal brew. ‘No. That’s something else.’



‘Whatever’s happening right now at Brous.’



‘I guess.’



‘Wake up the others, Corlo,’ Iron Bars said. ‘Acquitor, should we be avoiding Brous?’



‘Hard to do. There’s a ridge of hills to the east of here. No tracks to speak of across them. We’d lose a day, maybe two, if we went that way.’



‘All right.’



‘I’ll see to the horses,’ Seren said after a moment.