Prologue
Eyemouth, Scotland, 1863
LAVINIA LAY IN her bed, her secret keeping her warm against the night’s chill.
She giggled but quickly bit her tongue, even though there was no conceivable way Mamma or Papa could hear her all the way on the opposite side of the thick-walled vicarage. The old house she’d lived in for all of her sixteen years had its quirks—some helpful, like the secret passage off the library where she and her brother, Caleb, had played hide-and-seek as children, and others annoying, like the insistence of the third stair on the first flight on creaking no matter how she tried to fix it.
Tonight, however, she would avoid that stair altogether and opt for an altogether more inventive method of escape.
Three whistled notes, so soft they might have been a trick of the wind, sounded in the night. It was time.
Slipping out from between the covers fully dressed, she collected the black leather boots she’d hidden under her bed earlier that day, shoved her feet into them, and laced them up. Then she crept to the window and lifted the sash. It glided up on its track with nary a sound—coaxed by many applications of oil she’d stolen from the gardener’s shed. With a grin, she slung her leg over the sill and began her descent. Really, if Mamma and Papa hadn’t wanted her to climb out the window at all hours, they shouldn’t have ordered the installation of the trellis that stretched so conveniently to her window.
The ball of her foot hit the ground, and her grin widened. The evening was going exactly as planned, and it would only improve. She’d make sure of that.
A layer of frost crunched under her feet as she slipped out through the garden gate and pulled her thick woolen shawl closer around her shoulders. She probably should’ve donned a coat, but she hadn’t wanted to risk the bulk weighing her down as she climbed. Besides, her anticipation would keep her warm.
When she was almost to the end of the street, a figure stepped out from behind a dark hedge, and Lavinia broke into a run toward the man. It had been a struggle convincing him to agree to meet her at night, and she wasn’t going to waste a moment of it.
“Andrew!” Her arms looped around his neck and she was kissing him—right here in the lane. His lips were soft and warm, and when they moved over hers, she shivered with delight.
Lavinia was sixteen and in love with the best man she knew. There was nothing better.
“Shh, you’ll wake the entire town.” Andrew tried to scowl, but when she arched a brow, he kissed her again swiftly, his lips curving into a smile against hers. “You made it out without being caught?”
“It was nothing,” she said, waving her hand dismissively.
“What of Caleb?” he asked. Her younger brother—fifteen to her sixteen—was Andrew’s friend, but that didn’t mean he would approve of her sneaking out of the window at night. It was fortunate, then, that what Caleb didn’t know wouldn’t hurt him.
“He’s fast asleep. He only just arrived home from school last night. Come along and stop stalling,” she said, tugging Andrew’s arm. “This will be such fun.”
Stifling giggles, they raced down the street and took a left to the footpath that led to the edge of town. The night was silent save for their quick breaths and fast footsteps, and the sound of waves crashing against the shore.
When they were clear of the last house, the path became narrower, and Andrew hugged Lavinia to his side to make sure she didn’t stumble on the hard, frozen dirt. This close, the scent of him was intoxicating. Andrew always had the comforting smell of the sea on him, fitting for a boy who’d been sailing merchant vessels since the age of twelve. Today, however, he wore an ocean spray earned while working with his father, ferrying people back and forth between Edinburgh and Eyemouth. It clung to his hair and had dried on his skin—hair she could touch, skin she could lick, if only she dared.
That night she’d dare.
“There it is,” Andrew murmured, lips against her ear.
Atop the hill above them a huge house rose up out of the darkness.
“It’s beautiful,” she said.
Andrew chuckled. “Only you would look at a house that’s been abandoned twenty years and think it’s beautiful.”
“But it is. And one day it’ll be ours.”
“That it will,” he said, his voice a little less sure than hers. No matter. She could dream enough for both of them.
Veering off the path, they pushed their way through the overgrown bushes that surrounded the once-grand merchant’s house. The grounds had been left to go wild for as long as Lavinia could remember, and a few years ago she, Andrew, and Caleb had found a gap in the hedge next to a side gate they could squeeze through. It had become their own personal playground until Caleb had been sent to school in Edinburgh in anticipation of his reading law, and Andrew had sailed out. Since then it had become the place where Andrew and Lavinia met for quiet moments alone in those blissful weeks when he was at home, waiting for his next voyage. Tonight it would become so much more.
After pushing through the weed-choked lawn that might once have been the site of teas and games of croquet, Andrew shouldered the rotted drawing room door open.
As soon as she shut the door, Lavinia slipped her arms around his waist and pressed a kiss to the hollow where his throat and collarbone met.
“This is all I’ve been able to think about all week,” she whispered against his pulse.
A low rumble sounded in Andrew’s throat, but he deliberately took a step back, putting her at arm’s length. “You’re sure of this?”
“As sure as I’ve ever been of anything.”
His hand slipped down her arm to tangle his fingers with hers. “Then come this way.”
He led her through the house, avoiding the broken boards in the corridor between the drawing room and the morning room. When they reached the double doors leading to what had once been a dining room large enough to hold a table for sixteen, he stopped.
“Close your eyes,” he said.
“Do you have a surprise for me?” she asked.
“You won’t find out unless you close your eyes, will you?” he teased.
Lavinia shut her eyes tight. A door in front of her creaked on its hinges. Squeezing her hand, he helped her take a few faltering steps forward.
“Right here,” he said, his hands on her shoulders to steady her. “Now you may open your eyes.”
The room was lit up with lanterns, and she blinked against the sudden infusion of light. The room was exactly as she remembered it, except for the addition of a straw-stuffed mattress and a pile of blankets.
“It’s not much . . .” Andrew started.
“It’s perfect,” she said.
This time it was Lavinia who grabbed him by the hand and led him over to the blankets. They’d argued about this. She knew he’d been as horrified as he was intrigued when she’d told him that she wanted him to make love to her before he left Eyemouth once again, but she’d been persistent. She trusted him. They were in love. They’d kissed and touched and done so many things that everyone said a young couple mustn’t do before they were married. Except this.
Her skirts pooled around her as she sank down onto the mattress. She patted the spot next to her. “Come.”
But Andrew hesitated. “You’re really and truly sure?”
“I’ve never been uncertain of anything when it comes to you, Andrew.”
He nodded stiffly and then bent on his knees. But he didn’t kiss her. Instead he stuffed his hands into his pockets.
“I’ve been thinking,” he began.
“Always a dangerous prospect,” she said with mock solemnity.
A slight smile touched his lips. “I have two weeks before I sail again.”
“Two weeks we have to make the most of,” she said.
“I love you. I would understand if you didn’t want to wait for me but”—he pulled his closed right hand out of his pocket—“Lavinia Malcolm, would you do me the very great honor of becoming my wife?”
Her hand covered her mouth as her heart pumped so fast it threatened to burst. “Oh my.”
He opened his hand. In the center of his palm lay a small gold ring. “It isn’t much—”
“It’s perfect,” she breathed. “Oh, Andrew, yes.”
She launched herself into his arms, kissing him over and over again until he pulled back, laughing. “I’d hoped you’d say yes.”
“How could I say anything else?” she asked, watching the glint of gold in the lantern light.
“I know I should’ve asked your father’s permission first, but it didn’t feel right. You should be the first person I ask.”
He also knew, as she did, that her father would never say yes.
“I’ll buy you a new one in a few years. I’ll even buy you this house if you like. When I’ve made my fortune,” he added.
She bit her lip. His fortune. She’d been telling him for the last year whenever he was home and in the letters she wrote that she didn’t care what money he made or that he had to work for it. She’d rather have him here with her, a ferryman’s son, than out on the dangerous seas, risking his life in the pursuit of a mythic wealth. Andrew, however, would not be deterred.
“This one is beautiful. I won’t want a new ring, all I want is you,” she said, kissing him lightly.
“Your parents won’t be happy, especially your mother,” he warned.
It was true. Her mother had been trying for months to place her in front of all the “eligible” bachelors of Eyemouth. Andrew, Mamma never ceased telling Lavinia, did not rank in their numbers. Not for a gentleman’s daughter.
“You should never have allowed her to run around half-wild with that Colter boy,” she’d overheard Mamma scold her father. “There are already rumors about the two of them.”
“Rumors?” her father had said sharply, in a way that made Lavinia even more determined than ever not to give Andrew up.
Her mother, however, was proving to be equally as determined. The day after Lavinia had turned sixteen, Mamma had begun to talk about taking her to Edinburgh to give her a proper season—a prospect that horrified her. She didn’t want a season. The man she loved might be gone for months at a time, but she wanted to be in Eyemouth whenever he returned.
“I’ll weather the rumors,” she said, cupping his face with her hand. “Just promise me you’ll come back to me.”
“I promise. I love you.”
He kissed her then, slowly untying the shawl from around her shoulders as she pushed his jacket down his arms, and they lost themselves in a tangle of clothes and love and promises of the future.
A few hours later, Lavinia fell back into her bed with a smile on her face. There were few things certain in life, but she knew that she could rely on the ocean’s tides, the rising of the sun, and the simple fact that Andrew Colter would always come back to her.