From behind me the monstrumologist screamed, “What have you done?”
I did not know whether he spoke to von Helrung or to me. It may have been both. It may have been neither.
“What in God’s name have you done?”
Nothing, nothing, nothing, in God’s name, nothing.
FOUR
Abram was dead, and Pellinore was inconsolable. I’d never seen him so broken and helpless, borne down by what he had called “the dark tide.” He wailed and railed, cried and cursed; even Mr. Faulk sensed that it could not continue indefinitely: Either Warthrop would best the spell or the spell would best him. I bore a special responsibility, not because I felt in any way responsible for von Helrung’s death—no, fate had decreed me his sole caretaker, the lone guardian of the Warthropian animus. It had taken me years to understand this. He didn’t need me to sustain his body. He could hire a cook to feed him, a tailor to clothe him, a washerwoman to keep those clothes clean, a valet to wait upon him hand and foot. What he could not afford, though he possessed the wealth of Midas, the one indispensable service that only I could provide, was the care and feeding of his soul, the nurture of his towering intellect, and the incessant stroking of his pitiful, mewling, insufferable ego, the I am! squeal to the silent, inexorable Am I?
I understood my duty in that hour. Understood it with greater clarity than I had in Aden, on Socotra, or even on Elizabeth Street. I understood all too well. What are you? he had asked. It was a disingenuous question. He knew very well what I was, what I had always been without either of us understanding it, much less acknowledging it. And what did it matter if we did? Would it have changed anything?
There is no place where it begins. No place where it ends.
I called down to the desk and ordered up a pot of tea. I mixed a healthy dosage of sleeping draft into his cup and pressed the cup into his hands. Drink, Doctor. Drink. After a few moments he allowed me to lead him to his room, where he threw himself upon the bed and curled into a ball, and I was reminded of his father, whom he had found in the same position years before, naked as the day he was born, dead. I closed the door and returned to the sitting room, where Mr. Faulk was waiting for me. He was contemplating the head, his massive brow furrowed in existential concentration. He, too, understood his duty in that hour.
“It’s a shame, Mr. Henry. I always liked the old man.”
“The last of his kind,” I said, not without some irony. “He must have changed his mind and gone to see Competello himself. I only hope he brought Walker with him and that that head is bobbing somewhere in the East River.”
I threw myself upon the sofa and closed my eyes. I pressed my fingertips hard against the lids until red roses blossomed in the darkness.
“Slate clean now,” Mr. Faulk said.
“I suppose that is so,” I acknowledged. “From Competello’s perspective. But true recompense demands that my head be in that box, Mr. Faulk.”
“All in all, better it’s still on your shoulders, Mr. Henry.”
I opened my eyes. “On Elizabeth Street, between Hester and Grand, there is a little restaurant; I cannot remember the name.”
He was nodding. “I think I know the place.”
“Good. Start there. If the padrone isn’t there, someone will be who knows where you can find him.” I fished one of Warthrop’s cards from my pocket—I always carried a supply with me—and handed it to him. “Tell him the doctor requests a meeting.”
“When?” Mr. Faulk asked.
“Nine o’clock.”
“Here?”
I shook my head. “He won’t come here. It must be a public place—or at least a crowded one.” I gave him the address.
“The doctor?”
“I gave him enough drug to knock out a horse.”
“He shouldn’t be left alone,” he said. “I know a man, a very trustworthy fellow.”
“All right. But two would be better. One outside the door and one downstairs in the lobby.”
He nodded, and again his eyes were drawn to the box.
“What’s he got in his mouth?”
“The cause of it all. I don’t know what brings Warthrop more torment—the death of his best friend, the death of that thing, or the death of something not quite so corporeal.”
“I’m sorry, Mr. Henry?”
“It wasn’t Yorick who gave the Dane such distress, now was it?”
“You’ve lost me there, Mr. Henry. Yorick? Dane?”
I waved my hand. “It’s a very old story. Out of date.”
He left on his errand and, after a few minutes to tidy up, I left on mine. I left the box sitting on the table; von Helrung’s bright eyes followed me all the way to the door. The day had turned very cold, though the sky was clear, and there is no burden, there is no weight upon your shoulders. I arrived at Riverside Drive feeling as if I had stepped into a dream, or perhaps out of one: My mind was as clear as the sky. The butler informed me that Lilly and her mother were away shopping, but I was free to wait for them in the parlor, which I did with the patience of Job, sipping a gin and bitters and watching the sunlight slip across the floor, listening to the mournful droom-droom of the tugboats and the occasional sputter of a motorcar chugging past. The butler sent in a plate of cucumber sandwiches, which were very good, but I desired something of more substance. I finished my third gin and then took a nap. I woke with a start, for a moment ignorant of my location, thinking I was back at Harrington Lane and the doctor was in the next room reading, dinner was through, the plates washed and stacked, and this was the best part of the evening, when Warthrop gave me some peace and I felt a little less burdened, the weight upon my shoulders a little less heavy. From the back of the house I heard the laughter of women, more joyous than water in a fountain, and Lilly came in wearing a taupe-colored dress and her feet were bare; I’d never seen her feet and forced myself not to stare.
“And here you are!” she said. “Why? And please don’t begin the conversation by saying you had nothing better to do or some other insulting remark that you mistake for wit.”
“I wanted to see you.”
“Now that is an excellent answer, Mr. Henry.” She was in a good mood. She took off her hat, shook free long curls. The entire maneuver caused my mouth to go dry, and I thought of having the butler fetch me another drink.
“But it is rather awkward, don’t you think?” she went on. “Since we have already said good-bye.”
“I didn’t,” I said. “Say good-bye.”
“You must have news. No, you must, I can see it by the look on your face. You’re easier to read than you may think, Mr. Henry.”
“For you, perhaps.”
“Honesty and flattery? It must not be news; you must want something.”
I shook my head and sucked on a piece of ice. “There is nothing I want.”
She leaned forward and rested her forearms upon her knees. Her eyes really were identical to her uncle’s. It was unnerving.