A calm, then, drifting on like flotsam in the stream, not yet caught by the rushes, not yet so waterlogged that it vanished, tumbled like a severed moon into the muddy bed. Of course it couldn’t last. One more betrayal was needed, to shat-ter the world once and for all.
The night just past Endest Silann, making his way to a back storeroom on the upper level, came upon the Son of Darkness in a corridor. Some human, thinking the deed one of honour, had hung a series of ancient Andii tapestries down both walls of the passage. Scenes of Kharkanas, and one indeed showing Dorssan Ryl-although none would know if not familiar with that particular vantage point, for the river was but a dark slash, a talon curled round the city’s heart. There was no particular order, arrayed so in ignorance, and to walk this corridor was to be struck by a collage of images, distinct as memories not one tethered to the next.
Anomander Rake had been standing before one, his eyes a deep shade of amber. Predatory, fixed as a lion’s before a killing charge. On the faded tapestry a figure stood tall amidst carnage. The bodies tumbled before him all bled from wounds to the back. Nothing subtle here, the weaver’s outrage dripped from every thread. White-skinned, onyx-eyed, sweat-blackened hair braided like hanging ropes. Slick swords in his hands, he looked out upon the viewer, defiant and cold. In the wracked sky behind him wheeled Locqui Wyval with women’s heads, their mouths open in screams almost audible.
‘He did not mean it,’ said Anomander Rake.
But he did. ‘Your ability to forgive far surpasses mine, Lord.’
‘The body follows the head, but sometimes it’s the other way round. There was a cabal. Ambitious, hungry. They used him, Endest, they used him badly.’
‘They paid for it, didn’t they?’
‘We all did, old friend.’
Endest Silann looked away. ‘I so dislike this hallway, Lord. When I must walk it, I look neither left nor right.’
Rake grunted, ‘It ts indeed a gsuntlet of recrimination,’
‘Reminders, Lord, of the fact that some things never change,’
‘You must wrest yourself loose, Endest. This despondency can… ravage the soul.’
‘I have heard there is a river that empties into Coral Bay. Eryn or Maurik. Which seems depthless.’
Anomander Rake, still studying the tapestry, nodded.
‘Spinnock Durav has seen it, walked its shores. He says it reminds him of Dorssan Ryl… his childhood.’
‘Yes, there are some similarities.’
‘1 was thinking, if I could be spared…’
His Lord glanced over and smiled. ‘A pilgrimage? Of course, Endest. If, that is, you can return before a month passes.’
Ah, are we so close, then? ‘I will not stay long, Lord. Only to see, with my own eyes, that is all.’
The glance had become something more focused, and the amber glare had dimmed to something like… like mud. ‘I fear you may be disappointed. It is but a deep river. We cannot touch the past, old friend.’ He looked back once more on the tapestry. ‘And the echoes we imagine we hear, well, they deceive. Do not be surprised, Endest, if you find nothing you seek, and everything you fear.’
And what is it, Lord, that you think I seek? I would not ask what you think I fear for you know the answer to that one. ‘I thought the walk might do me some good.’
‘And so it shall.’
Now, the next day, he sat in his chamber. A small leather pack of supplies rested beside the door. And the thought of a walk, a long one, up rugged moun-tainsides beneath hard sunlight, no longer seemed so appetizing. Age did such things, feeding the desire then starving the will. And what, after all, would seeing the river achieve?
A reminder of illusions, perhaps, a reminder that, in a realm for ever beyond reach, there stood the ruin of a once-great city, and, flowing round it, Dorssan Ryl, living on, ceaseless in its perfect absence, in playing its game of existence. A river of purest darkness, the life water of the Tiste Andii, and if the children were gone, well, what difference did that make?
Children will leave. Children will abandon the old ways, and the old fools with all their pointless advice can mutter and grumble to empty spaces and nod at the answering echoes. Stone and brickwork make ideal audiences.
No, he would make this journey. He would defy the follies of old age, unmea-sured and unmocked under the eyes of the young. A solitary pilgrimage.
And all these thoughts, seeming so indulgent and wayward, will perhaps reveal their worth then, driving dire echoes forward to that future moment of revelation. Hah. Did he believe such things? Did he possess the necessary faith?