He went still, his lips pressed against the hollow of her throat. “You want me to stop? Now?”
“Please … for just a minute. Did you say you thought I’d been to your office?” She wanted that confusion cleared up first.
“It’s what Gary told me.” He raised his head, eyes clouded with passion. “It doesn’t matter—I’m here now. I’ve missed you so much. I can’t believe either of us let this go on so long.”
“But it does matter,” she argued. “Because I wasn’t there.”
Steve shut his eyes and seemed to be fighting something in himself. Finally, he straightened and eased away from her.
“I’m glad you’re here,” she whispered. “I’ve missed you, too. It’s just that before we …” She felt as though her face was on fire. How she wished she was more experienced, more sophisticated. “You know.”
“Make love,” he finished for her.
“Yes … We should come to some sort of understanding. It’s like you said—we should talk first.”
Steve took her by the hand. He led her into the living room and chose the big overstuffed chair that was her favorite.
He sat and, reaching up, pulled her onto his lap. “So let’s talk.”
“Okay,” she said, hating the way her voice trembled.
“First I want to clear something up. You say you didn’t stop by my office this afternoon?”
“No. I was at the store until after six.”
“I didn’t see you there.”
“I was in the back room, processing orders.” Because she was afraid he’d think she was lying in order to save face, she added, “You can check with Laura if you want.”
Steve frowned. “I believe you. Why wouldn’t I?” He studied her. “But that isn’t why you stopped us just now, is it?”
Meg lowered her gaze. “No,” she whispered.
“I didn’t think so. Are you going to tell me?”
“Tell you what?” Steve’s arm went around her waist. It felt good to be this close to him.
“I suspect your reluctance has to do with your marriage.”
“My marriage?”
“It doesn’t take a detective to figure out that your ex-husband hurt you badly.”
“No divorce is easy,” Meg admitted, “but I’m not an emotional cripple, if that’s what you mean.”
“It isn’t.” He drew her even closer and kissed her again. She kissed him back, offering him her heart, her soul, her body …
“I can’t seem to keep my hands off you,” he murmured. “I wanted to talk to you about your marriage. Instead, I’m a second away from ravishing you.”
And she was a second away from letting him.
“It was a friendly divorce,” Meg insisted, returning to the subject he’d introduced. It wasn’t a comfortable one—but it was safer than touching and kissing and where that would lead.
Steve eyed her suspiciously. “How friendly?” he asked.
“We parted amicably. It was a mutual decision.”
“What caused the divorce?”
Meg closed her eyes and sighed. “He had a girlfriend,” she said, trying not to reveal her bitterness. For years she’d kept the feelings of hurt and betrayal buried deep.
In the beginning, that had been for Lindsey’s sake. Later, she was afraid to face the anger for fear of what it would do to her. “Dave didn’t love me anymore,” she said, in an unemotional voice. As if it didn’t matter. As if it had never mattered.
“What about Lindsey? He abandoned her, too?”
“He knew I’d always be there for her, and I will. He lives in California now.”
“What about his commitment to you and his daughter? That wasn’t important to him?”
“I don’t know—you’d need to ask Dave about that.”
“How long did this business with the girlfriend go on before he told you about her?”
“I don’t know,” she said again. She had her suspicions, plenty of them, but none she was willing to discuss with Steve. “I do know that when Dave got around to telling me he wanted a divorce, she was pregnant.”
“In other words, you felt there was nothing you could do but step aside?”
“I had no problem doing that.” Maybe if she’d loved Dave more, she would’ve been willing to fight for him. But by the time Dave told her about Brittany, she wanted out of the marriage. Just plain out.
“So you got divorced.”
“Yes, with no fuss at all. He gave me what I wanted.”
“And what was that?”
“He was willing to let me raise Lindsey.” She shook her head. “It’s not what you’re thinking.”
“And what am I thinking?”
She placed the back of her hand against her forehead and gave him a forlorn look, like the heroine of a silent movie. “That the divorce traumatized me.”
“I wasn’t thinking that at all,” he assured her. “Your marriage had already taken care of that.”
Meg dropped her hand, then raised it again to brush away her tears. How well Steve understood.
“It wasn’t enough that your husband had an affair. When he walked out on you and Lindsey, he made sure you blamed yourself for his infidelity, didn’t he?” She didn’t respond, and he asked her a second time, his voice gentle. “Didn’t he?”
Meg jerked her head away for fear he’d read the truth in her eyes. “It’s over now …. It was all a long time ago.”