All I Ever Wanted

“Oh, sure. All of us Vermont kids get dragged there in fifth grade. The American Craftsman place?”

He nodded. “They’re doing a show on David Morelock. I bought tickets to the opening. Thought we could go with your grandfather.”

I looked up at him, my mouth opening slowly. “Ian…thank you!”

“You’re welcome.”

“No…thank you! This… Noah will be…you know what? You’re getting laid. Right now, mister.”

“Well, if you insist,” he said, and with that, he pulled me close and slid his hands under my fleece coat, and though it was cold and started to rain halfway through, we managed to stay quite warm. Quite warm indeed.

“SO YOU’RE DATING HER,” Noah said a few days later. We were having an early dinner before heading to the David Morelock retrospective.

“Yes, sir,” Ian replied.

“Honorable intentions and all that crap?”

“Noah,” Jody chided. She’d been a frequent guest around here lately.

Ian said nothing, just looked at me. His eyes crinkled a little, and my girl parts gave a happy squeeze. How many hours ’til bedtime? Betty Boop wondered. Too many, I answered.

“Just treat her right,” Noah instructed, pointing at Ian with his fork. “And no kissing in front of me. This is my house. I have rules, young man.”

“Oh, please,” I said. “I have rules, too, and they include not using my bathroom.”

“You never use that tub,” Noah said, glancing at Jody with a little smile.

“And now I never will,” I answered.

Jody laughed. “We should probably get going, don’t you think? Ian, what time does the show open?”

“Seven,” Ian answered. He looked at me. “Thank you for dinner, Callie.”

I smiled, reached out with my foot to touch his leg. Oops. Got Noah’s prosthetic instead, shifted to the left…there. Ian didn’t get too many home-cooked meals. I was hoping to change that.

LIKE SO MANY MUSEUMS, the Museum of the American Craftsman had a still and sacred quality about it. In the large foyer, a huge black-and-white photo of Mr. Morelock was on display, his lined face intent as he hand-planed a piece of wood. Thank you again for my chair, I said silently, a lump in my throat. I hope you can see how much it still means to me.

Glancing at Noah, I saw his face was somber. “Well,” he said, not looking at me. “Jody and I will wander off, then. See you two young people in an hour?”

“Sure, Noah,” I said. I reached out and put my hand on his arm, and he gave my hand a squeeze.

“This was a nice idea,” he said gruffly, nodding to Ian.

“My pleasure,” Ian replied.

We watched them go, Jody’s hand on Noah’s elbow, Noah using a cane, for once. “I’m glad he’s with Jody,” I said quietly. “He doesn’t have a lot of friends left anymore.”

“How old is he?” Ian asked.

“Eighty-four,” I answered, that melancholy tightness still clamping my throat.

“He really loves you,” Ian said.

I looked up at him and smiled, shaking off any melancholy. “Well. Let’s go see if there’s anything as pretty as my chair,” I suggested, and off we went.

Each piece of furniture was lit from above, reinforcing the churchlike atmosphere. The show was well attended, and people murmured with the appropriate amount of awe. Little placards described each piece—Butler’s table, 1984, cherry & oak, made for the Glidden Family of Bennington, Vermont, mortise and tenon joinery… Dining room table, tiger maple with mahogany inlay, 1993, made for Edwin Whitney, New York, New York.

There were benches, small cabinets, kitchen chairs, end tables. Each one was unique, each one seemed to glow, the clean lines and innate strength creating a sense of surety. Mr. Morelock had really had a gift.

At the end of the exhibit was the show’s crowning glory…the rocking chairs. Four of them, arranged as if they were on a porch, waiting for a family to sit down and relax.

“They’re beautiful,” Ian murmured. I nodded. “None as nice as yours, though,” he added with a little smile.

“You’re right,” I said. “And mine’s also the last one he made, apparently.”

A short, gray-haired woman suddenly materialized at my side, quivering like a hummingbird. “Did you say you own a David Morelock rocking chair?” she asked.

“Yes,” I answered, a tad smugly.

“The last one he made?” she answered, then glanced at Ian. “I’m sorry to interrupt. I’m Colleen McPhee, the curator of this museum.”

“Nice to meet you,” I said. “The exhibit is beautiful.”

“So you own the last chair? Are you sure?”

“I think so,” I said. “Mr. Morelock gave it to me three days before he died. My grandfather told me it was the last one.”

“There’d be a number on the bottom,” she said.

“Fourteen,” I confirmed.

“Oh, my God,” she breathed. “That’s it. You do own the last one.” She took a deep breath, as if overcome with the news. “We’d be very, very interested in acquiring your piece.”

I smiled. “I’m sorry. I’d never sell it.”

She smiled back firmly, a woman on a mission. “We have quite an endowment, Miss…”

“Grey,” I said. “Callie Grey. It’s not for sale.”

“I could offer you $25,000 for it right now.”

“Holy guacamole!” I blurted. Twenty-five grand was a down payment on a house! But even as staggering a number as that was, I knew I’d never do it. “That’s really generous, but it’s not for sale,” I told the curator. “But thank you.” Ian smiled at the floor.

Her face fell. “All right,” she said, her voice considerably less enthusiastic. “Well, if you ever change your mind, we’d really appreciate the chance to acquire it.”

“You know,” I said, “you might be interested in meeting my grandfather. Noah Grey of Noah’s Arks. Have you ever heard of him?”

“You’re kidding! Noah Grey is here?”

I pointed over to where Noah and Jody were standing, admiring a dining room chair. “The man with the white beard and the cane,” I said.

“Thank you!” she said, springing away. “Lovely meeting you!” We watched as she approached my grandfather, said something, then clasped her hands to her chest, no doubt gushing.

“You’re very good with people,” Ian commented.

“Was I working the room?” I asked.

He gave a half smile, acknowledging our little discussion a few weeks back. “I’ve never seen you sit in your chair,” he commented. “Why is that?”

I glanced up at him, then back at the display. “I’m sort of saving it, I guess,” I said.

“For what?” he asked.

I hesitated. “Um…just for…I don’t know.” For when I’ve earned it. I slipped my hand into Ian’s, and he looked at me, always seeming a little startled—and happy—when I showed him some affection. My heart gave a nearly painful squeeze. Standing on tiptoe, I kissed his cheek. “I like you, Ian McFarland,” I said.

His eyes crinkled a little. “I hope so.”

“And you like me, too, of course,” I prodded.

“Yes,” he agreed. “You’re fun to look at.”

“Like a circus monkey?”

“Exactly.”

I punched his shoulder. “I’ll bet you never expected to be with the crazy woman from the DMV.”

“You would win that bet,” he answered easily.

I paused. “What did you think of me, that day?”

“I thought you were a junkie.” He grinned.

“Nice, Ian! I have to teach you to lie a little bit.”

“Well, it was logical. You were clearly agitated and very…kinetic.”

“Got it, Mr. Spock,” I muttered.

“You couldn’t stop moving, couldn’t finish a sentence. I thought you needed a fix.”

“Flatterer,” I muttered.

He squeezed my hand. “I also thought you had pretty hair. And I liked your ears.”

Ears. Who knew what men would fixate on next? There was that smile again, starting in his eyes and staying there, making that pure blue seem as warm and lovely as a September sky.

“And what about my horrifying propensity to blurt out my feelings, Ian?” I teased. “My ‘emotional diarrhea,’ as you called it. You seemed quite disgusted, I remember.”

“Yes,” he said, lifting my hand and studying it. “I was. At first, anyway.”

I waited for more. Another couple passed us, cooing over a chest of drawers they wished they could afford.

“But then?” I prompted when too much time had passed.

“Then I wondered…” He hesitated.

“Wondered what, Ian?” I said. He didn’t answer. “Wondered what it would be like to cry in the DMV? Because I’m sure they’d be happy to arrange that. Most of us do cry, in fact. Leaving dry-eyed…that’s a fluke.”

He met my eyes abruptly, giving me the full force of the pure blue. “I wondered what it would be like to just…let everything out.” He glanced past me. “Even though I thought you were a little crazy, I sort of admired you, too. For being so…open. And honest.” His eyes came back to mine and softened. “And…well…so full of life.”

Realizing that my mouth was open, I closed it.

That day had been one of the worst days in my adult life. And Ian had found something admirable there.

“Thank you,” I whispered.

“You’re welcome,” he said quietly.

“Callie! Did you send that pit bull over to talk to me?” Noah came hobbling up, Jody at his side.

I shook myself out of my haze. “Um, yes, I did. I take it you’re overwhelmed.”

“Some granddaughters should learn to keep their mouths shut,” he grumbled. “But they don’t.”

“Some granddaughters should smother their grandpas in their sleep,” I returned. “But they don’t. But they might, so watch it, old man.”

“They want a canoe for their collection,” Jody explained. “Noah, it’s a compliment.”

“I didn’t ask for this,” he grumbled.

“Oh, boohoohoo,” I said. “You’re flattered. Admit it.”

“Hush you. Mind your elders.” He glared at me, but his beard twitched. I knew the truth. He couldn’t have been more pleased.

Ian held my hand the whole way back, and just the simple sensation of his warm, strong hand holding mine so firmly had me quite ruttish. My heart felt swollen and tender after what Ian had said. That my worst moment had, in some way, shown something good about me. It was somewhat astonishing.

When we got to Jody’s house, a muttered conversation took place in the backseat. “I think I’ll be stayin’ here, Callie,” Noah said.

I turned around in my seat. Even in the near-dark, I could see my grandfather blushing. “Okay,” I said, opting not to tease him. “See you tomorrow.”

Noah looked at Ian. “Thank you,” he grunted. “And if you stay over, make sure you’re gone by the time I get home. You may be a good man, but she’s my granddaughter, and I don’t want my face rubbed in the fact that she’s all grown up.”

“Two words, Noah,” I said. “Bath. Tub. Okay?”

Jody laughed, and Noah opened the door. “How you put up with her is a mystery,” he growled at Ian, but he reached over and pinched my chin. “G’night, youngsters.”

“Thanks for an absolutely wonderful evening, Ian,” Jody said.

“My pleasure,” Ian answered. We waited ’til they got inside Jody’s house, then headed to my place. Upon our arrival, Bowie twirled and sang, then sniffed Ian’s shoes with religious fervor.

Ian hadn’t stayed over here yet…well, obviously, since Noah was usually in residence. A gentle quiet fell as we looked at each other. The refrigerator hummed. Wind gusted outside, and a shower of yellow leaves fluttered against the window.

“Well, it’s pretty late,” I said, the universal code for make your move, sonny.

“Yes,” Ian said. Right. Forgot who I was dealing with.

“Would you like to stay?” I asked, my heart rate kicking up a little.

“Yes,” he said simply.

“Will Angie be okay?”

He nodded. “I fed her before I left, and there’s a dog door to the backyard.”

Of course. Ian would have all the angles covered. “Well,” I said, suddenly shy, but then he kissed me, his mouth gentle and warm. I didn’t know why, but I never expected the man who looked like a Russian hit man to kiss me so…tenderly. If I was a person who read into things—and God knows I was—I might think that Ian could only kiss me this way if it really meant something, because the way Ian kissed me made me feel…cherished.

Then the kiss changed, became hotter, and harder, and his hands slid down to pull me tighter against him, and he was so warm and delicious—

“Come on upstairs,” I whispered, and taking his hand, led him to my room, shutting it before Bowie could come in. “Go sleep on Noah’s bed,” I told my dog through the crack, and he whined, but then trotted off.

My room was dark except for the moonlight spilling in the eastern-facing windows. Ian stood, waiting, looking at me. I slipped off my shoes. “Have a seat,” I whispered. He went toward the bed, but I took his hand, stopping him. “Have a seat,” I repeated, pointing to the Morelock chair.