Beauty and the Mustache

I could sit tight, say fine, wait for the narcissists to tire themselves out, then go back to my business; or I could try to fight back. Fighting back never worked. It was like trying to hold back a bursting levy with duct tape and a plucky can-do attitude. Better just to let the tide wash over you and ride out the egomaniac storm.

Drew was now two feet away. “You say fine, but I know you’re going to go back in there and sleep on that cot again tonight.”

I gave him my stone face. This wasn’t any of his business. I wasn’t his business. What I did or didn’t do wasn’t his business. But for some reason, my brothers and my momma had invited the entitled Dr. Runous into their lives and given him the reins.

I could do nothing about that, but I didn’t have to like it.

Brow furrowed, mouth stern, eyes piercing, Drew stepped closer. I was forced to tilt my head backward to maintain eye contact, and my silly heart began to pound out a staccato rhythm.

Whether I liked it or not, whether it was convenient or not, Drew’s proximity affected me. I was awake to him now, fully aware. I might have been barely going through the motions and neglecting my personal hygiene; nevertheless, he was an irritating reminder that I was very much a woman, and my body responded to silver-eyed, fictionally handsome men—especially when this man seemed to make it his mission to look after my momma and brothers.

“Ash, Sugar, you need to take better care of yourself.” His voice dipped, deepened, and became soft and coaxing. He lifted his hand and pushed the hair behind my neck, his hand lingering for a beat. The back of his fingers brushed against my shoulder down to my elbow, making me fight against a shiver.

Then, abruptly, he snatched his hand back as if he hadn’t realized what he was doing.

“Don’t call me Sugar, I’m not your Sugar.” I said this dumbly and without energy, my neck hot and itchy. I had the strangest, most insane desire to press and/or rub myself against him. He was so ludicrously manly and gorgeous and swoony.

“You can’t hide the sweetness, Ashley. It’s not something to be ashamed of.”

“I’m not sweet.” This emerged somewhat breathlessly.

“Yes. Yes you are. You are working yourself to ragged taking care of your momma. You’re so sweet you’re giving me a stomach ache and cavities.” He said the words as though he were both impressed and aggravated, and he said them suddenly, as if he hadn’t planned to speak them out loud.

He was looking at me with the same intensity he’d employed that night in my room when Sandra was sizing him up. He was looking at me like I was sugar, like I was cake covered in frosting, and he couldn’t decide whether he wanted to bite me or lick me first.

I held my breath as I watched him, wondering what he was going to do, wondering if I would stop him. His eyes grew unfocused as he gazed at my lips, our heads inching closer.

The sound of voices from inside the house broke the spell, and Drew stiffened. His gaze moved over my face like he was surprised to see me there. Drew must’ve disliked what he found because his scowl intensified and his eyes narrowed into slits. Then, abruptly, he turned away.

His tone was clipped and low as he said, “Infuriating woman.”

With that, he disappeared into the house, his exit punctuated by a slam of the screen door.

I released the breath I’d been holding and would have staggered if I hadn’t been leaning against the porch post. I decided to wait a minute to give my body time to simmer down before I went back into the house. I definitely needed to simmer down. Drew had my heart beating a million miles a minute; he made my chest hot and my belly disconcertingly—yet deliciously—achy.

After several deep breaths, I took a few steps toward the house only to be greeted by Cletus poking his head around the screen door followed by two plates of fried chicken, mashed potatoes, and green beans.

“Hey, baby sister, I have food for you.” Cletus’s warm hazel eyes and affectionate words softened my heart more than a little. He gave me an imploring smile, and his tone was imploring as he said, “Come eat with me on the swing. I’ll tell you about my auto shop.”

Just like that, faced with sweet Cletus, I surrendered.

I inhaled then released a steadying breath, my hands falling to my sides. “Sure, Cletus…that sounds nice.” I took my plate and sat on one end of the swing.

CHAPTER 8

“Something will have gone out of us as a people if we ever let the remaining wilderness be destroyed.... We simply need that wild country available to us, even if we never do more than drive to its edge and look in.”

? Wallace Stegner, The Sound of Mountain Water

“When was the last time you went outside?”

“What?” I said, squinting as I glanced from my backlit eReader to my brother Billy. I had a gray spot in my vision from staring at a bright screen in a dark room for too long.

He glanced at Marissa. Even with the lingering gray rectangle clouding my vision, I saw them exchange a look. Her lips pressed together, her eyebrows raised meaningfully, her eyes slightly narrowed.

Marissa the traitor.

Billy’s eyes widened, then he looked at me and growled. “That’s it. Get up.”

He didn’t wait for me to move. He walked around my mother’s hospital bed where she lay asleep, and he pulled me from the recliner by my elbow and steered me out of the room.

Billy didn’t stop until we were at the bottom of the stairs, and he only stopped then because I tugged my arm out of his grip.

“Wait a minute!” I spluttered, “Would you just hold your horses?”

His expression was impatient and irritated. “What?”

I frowned. He looked tired. His suit was wrinkled, and his beard was askew. “Are you okay? Did something happen?”

“I’m fine, Ash. Except for the fact that my momma’s down the hall dying and my sister, after disappearing for eight years, has returned home just to become a ghost. Other than that, everything is just fine.”

I flinched, partly because the family room was brighter than the den; but mostly because his words scalded the marshmallow wall I’d been trying to build around myself.

I had dropped all of the balls I should have been juggling—specifically, the care and feeding of myself and my family—in favor of spending every spare minute with my momma. She’d even remarked on it, joked that I was hovering, commented that I’d become so pale I was translucent. She called me a glowing white angel sent to take her to heaven.

A week had passed since my strange interaction with Drew on the porch. Since then I’d been pointedly avoiding him and everyone else. Whenever he came into the den to visit Momma, the air seemed to shift. I always ignored it and him by burying my face in a book. Seeing him and being near him made me feel off-kilter.

Something in my expression must’ve made Billy regret his last statement, because his eyes softened a fraction, and he tsked.

But then he growled with exasperation and said, “You need to snap out of it—out of this. You can’t sit inside all day. Plus, you’re not eating, you don’t speak to us, and you don’t even acknowledge when we’re in the same room with you.”

“I don’t?”

“No, you don’t. Since your friends left, I think I’ve heard you say three words that weren’t spoken to Momma or to one of the nurses about Momma.”

He was right. When Momma was awake, we talked, I fed her, I bathed and dressed her, or I read to her. Every day, however, she continued to dispense random bits of perplexing wisdom.

When Momma was asleep, Marissa tried to draw me into conversation.

But mostly I slept, made mental lists regarding Momma’s eating and sleeping habits, or I read. If I remembered, I ate.

Until this moment, my brothers had let me be.

But I sensed that they were waiting for me to step up and demonstrate strength of character and leadership. I didn’t want to, and I honestly felt like I couldn’t. I wasn’t a leader—but I wasn’t a follower either.

I’d reverted to my childhood default; in Tennessee, I was an overly sensitive loner.

Now, as the truth of Billy’s words sank in, my gaze dropped to the floor and I shifted my weight. I saw that my feet were bare and a little dirty. Then I noticed that I was in yoga pants. I wondered when I’d last changed my underwear.

Gross.

“This is it,” Billy said. “This is your come-to-Jesus moment, care of your big brother. You’re going to go upstairs,” he pointed up the stairs. “You’re going to take a shower, because you stink. Then you’re going to put on clean clothes and come back down here. I have an errand for you to run, and you’re not allowed to come back to the house until supper.”

I stared at him, opened my mouth to object, but realized I had no idea what time it was. “Wait, what time is it?”

“It’s almost noon.”

“Why are you home? Shouldn’t you be at work?”

“I came home during lunch because I was worried about you.”

I flinched, startled. Billy was worried about me. One side of my marshmallow wall melted into goo.

“Get on upstairs or I will strip you naked and force you under that shower myself. No need to knock; nobody is on the schedule for today.”

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