Cordelia tried not to look too much at Alastair; he was her big brother, and it pained her to see him as helpless as she was. She nodded along as Sona spoke, and told her mother it would all be all right in the end. At some point Risa arrived with a small valise holding a few of Cordelia’s things and took over. Cordelia could only be grateful as Risa gave Sona tea laced with laudanum. Soon her mother would sleep, and forget for a while.

She and Alastair went into the drawing room and sat side by side on the divan, silent and shocked, like the survivors of a shipwreck. After some time, Lucie arrived, breathless and tearful—it seemed James had indeed sent a runner to the Institute carrying Cordelia’s request. Alastair told Cordelia that he could remain and receive visitors, if any came; she and Lucie should go upstairs and rest. They all knew few would come to pay condolences: Elias had been neither well known nor well liked.

Lucie went to get tea while Cordelia changed from her dress into a nightgown—quite a few of her old clothes were still folded away in drawers. She clambered into bed. Though the sun had not yet set, she felt exhausted.

When Lucie returned, Cordelia cried a bit on her warm, ink-smelling shoulder. Then Lucie poured her tea, and together they reminisced about Elias—not Elias as Cordelia had come to know him, but the father she’d always thought she had. Lucie recalled the way he had shown them where the best berries were to be found in the hedges at Cirenworth, or the day he had taken them horseback riding on a Devon beach.

When the sun began to slip below the rooftops, Lucie rose reluctantly and kissed the top of Cordelia’s head. “I am so sorry, my dear,” she said. “You know if you need me, I will always be here.”

Lucie had only just gone when Cordelia’s door opened again, and Alastair came in; he looked immensely tired, fine lines drawing down the corners of his mouth and eyes. Some of the black dye had faded out of his hair, and there were still bits of blond in it, incongruous among the darker strands. “Mâmân is finally asleep,” he said, sitting down on the edge of her bed. “She kept weeping over and over to Risa about how this child will never know its father. I say: lucky child.”

Another Cordelia, at another time, might have scolded him for saying such a thing. Instead she sat upright against the pillows and reached out to pat his cheek. It was a little rough—she struggled to remember when Alastair had started shaving. Had her father taught him how to do it? How to tie a tie, put on cuff links? If he had, she couldn’t recall. “Alastair joon,” she said. “The child will be lucky, but not because our father is dead. Because it will have you for a brother.”

Alastair turned his face into her palm, gripping her wrist with one hand. “I can’t mourn,” he said in a choked voice. “I cannot mourn my own father. What does that say about me?”

“That love is complicated,” said Cordelia. “That it lies beside anger and hatred, because only those we truly love can truly disappoint us.”

“Did he say anything to you last night?” Alastair said and, when she widened her eyes, added gruffly, “He died in Shepherd Market, a few blocks from Curzon Street. It wasn’t a great leap to assume he was visiting your house.”

“He didn’t say anything to me,” said Cordelia. Alastair had let go of her wrist; she laced her fingers together thoughtfully. “He spoke to James. Asked him for money.”

“How much money?”

“Five thousand pounds.”

“Bloody hell,” said Alastair. “I hope James sent him packing with a flea in his ear.”

“You don’t think he should have given him any money?” said Cordelia, though she knew the answer. “He said it was for Cirenworth.”

“Well, it wasn’t,” said Alastair. “Our mother’s money paid for Cirenworth. Our father, on the other hand, owed money at bars and gaming hells all over London—he has for years. It simply would have gone to paying down those debts. Good for James, which are words I never thought I would speak during my lifetime.”

“I’m afraid I wasn’t as understanding,” Cordelia admitted. “I snapped at him about sending Father out in the snow, though I knew it wasn’t at all his fault. What does that say about me?”

“That grief makes us mad,” said Alastair quietly. “James will understand that. No one is expected to be on their best behavior the day their father dies.”

“It’s not so simple,” Cordelia whispered. “Something is wrong with Cortana.”

Alastair blinked. “Cortana? We are talking about your sword?”

“The last time I tried to use it in battle—and don’t ask for the details, I can’t tell you—suddenly the hilt went burning hot, as if it had been lying in coals. There was no way to hold on to it. I dropped it, and if James hadn’t been there, I would have been killed.”

“When was this?” Alastair looked shaken. “If this is true—”

“It is true, and it wasn’t long ago, but—I know why it happened,” Cordelia continued, not looking at him. “It’s because I’m not worthy of it anymore.”

“Not worthy? Why on earth would that be?”

Because I am living a lie. Because my marriage is a sham. Because every time I speak to James and pretend I do not love him, I am lying to his face.

She said, “I need you to take Cortana, Alastair. It no longer chooses me.”

“That’s ridiculous,” Alastair said, almost angrily. “If something’s wrong, it’s the sword, not you.”

“But—”

“Take the sword to the Silent Brothers. Have them look at it. Cordelia, I will not take Cortana. You are the rightful owner of the sword.” He stood up. “Now get some sleep. You must be exhausted.”

GRACE: 1899

“I’m going to ask the Herondale boy to come cut our briars,” Tatiana said casually one day after breakfast.

Grace said nothing. It had been two years, but she sometimes missed the approval her mother had once shown her in Paris. When they had returned, Tatiana had forbidden Grace to tell Jesse the details of their activities, and Grace had not needed persuasion. She didn’t want Jesse to know what she had done. He might have thought she was a terrible person, and Grace couldn’t bear that. She knew Jesse would never compel someone’s will, even if Tatiana bade him to. But there was no comparison to be made. Tatiana would never have lifted a hand against her boy, and she would never have willingly infused him with sorcery, either. Tatiana had different rules for her son and her daughter. There was no point in questioning them.

Tatiana looked out the window at the manor walls. “The thorns have overgrown the gates. We can barely open and close them without cutting ourselves to ribbons. It’s badly needed.”

Grace was taken aback. Her mother did not normally act familiar with the idea that a house needed to be maintained, or even repaired when broken. Grace knew that the hated Herondales had come to stay at their own family manor, not too distant, for the summer, and that there were a boy and a girl, both near her age. They’d come in summers before, and Tatiana had always forbidden her to meet them. “I thought you didn’t want us to have anything to do with them,” she said carefully.