Despite what happened, he had made progress from when I first met him. The difference was he wanted to change whereas before I didn’t think he thought he had that option.
It just wasn’t enough.
He was beyond dangerous—entirely unpredictable—and I couldn’t afford to let him into this part of my life. If I offered another chance, he might hurt me, or worse, hurt Clara.
My first commitment was to my daughter, and they just didn’t work together. Delicate and dangerous. Fragile and frightening. No, I wouldn’t let it happen.
“Yes, good idea. You better go.” I didn’t want more blood on my hands, and I knew I’d end up killing him if he so much as looked at Clara wrong.
Fox took a step back with a heavy nod.
Corkscrew moved forward. “Hey, you want some help? I came for a quick session when Clue told me she was heading over, but I’m more than happy to run a few errands if you need anything.” His black eyes flickered back to Clue.
She nodded with a slight smile. It seemed all three of us had banded together in operation get ‘Fox away from Zel’s daughter.’
Clue said, “That’s a good idea, Ben. I’ll come back and pick you up when I’ve dropped Zelly and Clara off at home.”
Clara’s little hands shoved my hip, bumping me out of the way. “I don’t want to go yet. I like it here.” Her lips pouted and she pointed at Fox. “I want to know more about the bad man. He scarred my new friend, and I don’t like it.”
Before I could grab her, she darted across the small distance and stood so, so close to Fox. Too close. Dangerously close.
My heart f**king clawed into my throat when she placed her hand on Fox’s hip, looping her finger through a belt loop.
Fox’s eyes snapped closed, and he sucked in a huge lungful of air.
Everyone froze.
Clue and Ben had no idea the risk Fox presented, but they sensed it. They tasted my panic, and we all moved at once.
Gravel kicked as I rushed forward and grabbed Clara’s hand, jerking her away.
“No!” She clutched Fox’s belt loop, fighting me. “I want to stay.”
She’d never pulled a tantrum in her entire life. Never. She knew better, so what the hell was she doing? Twice in one day!
“Clara Hunter you obey me right now.” I slammed my hands on my hips, glaring at my disobedient child. The same child who held onto a monster as if she found a new pet.
Fox tumbled suddenly—he went from standing to kneeling in a second flat. The same position I found him touching my daughter. The same position that put him just below Clara’s full height.
His snowy eyes opened, locking onto Clara’s. “You need to listen to your mother. She wants you to go.”
Clara pursed her lips, colour dotting her cheeks. “I don’t want to go. You have stories. I want to hear stories. I want to hear about the bad man. I want to stay.” Her huge brown eyes welled with tears.
A few times in the past, Clara used crocodile tears to wrap me around her little finger. I was immune to her wily ways, but Fox…he wasn’t.
He groaned and hung his head, clutching his skull in his hands. I never thought I’d see such a violent threatening man come undone by a few glass tears from a child.
Clara stopped instantly and did something that turned my dark hair grey.
Her little arms wrapped around his head, pulling his face against her tiny, breakable, oh so vulnerable chest.
“No!” I rushed forward, but Clue jerked me back.
“Zelly, you’ll frighten her. It’s okay. Ben’s here if anything goes wrong.”
She didn’t know what Fox was capable of. She didn’t know!
I wriggled in Clue’s hold, tears springing to my eyes as Fox ever so slowly pushed my daughter away. Every move was precise, controlled, seething with discipline and strictness.
Clara didn’t stand a chance at holding onto him. With his large hand splayed on her stomach, Fox pushed until an entire arm length separated them.
Her arms unravelled from around his head, and she stood with wide hurt eyes. “You don’t like to be hugged? I like to be hugged if I’m not feeling well or hurt myself.” She fidgeted, never taking her eyes from Fox. “You’re hurting, so I wanted to hug you. It’ll make you feel better. I promise.”
My legs trembled. I had no idea how I remained standing.
Fox looked at her as if she was the only thing in the world. His entire body trembled; his hands clutched his thighs, digging hard into muscle. “A hug isn’t the same for me as it is for other people, Clara.”
She inched closer again. “So…how do you make yourself feel better?”
Fox’s eyes rose to latch onto mine. The power of his silver gaze untangled the rest of my emotions, and a small moan trailed from my mouth.
“Well, your mother has been helping me a little.” He smiled, his eyes looking more like soft snow than harsh blizzard when he looked back at Clara. “She’s amazing. You’re very lucky to have her.”
Clara looked back at me and shrugged. “She’s okay, I guess.” A small giggle escaped her.
Ben laughed and my legs gave out. I had no choice but to sink to the floor and kneel just like Fox. The two of us stared across the gravel; my daughter in the centre.
His eyes shot silent promises.
I promise I won’t hurt her.
I give you my word.
Please…
I didn’t know what the final plea was for, but I shut my eyes, blocking him off. I’d never known a man who could frustrate me, terrify me, and undo me all at once.
My heart, bruised and torn thanks to Fox, shed the armour I’d conjured against him. A fissure broke the hardened shell, and something twisted deep inside.
I wouldn’t be able to help Fox.
But my daughter could.
My tiny, dying daughter who I would miss for the rest of my life.
My eyes flew open, ready to answer his silent beg. He wanted permission to be around Clara. I could manage for a few hours, and then I would whisk her away and lock her behind closed doors. There was only so much tempting danger I could handle.
You hurt her, I’ll kill you.
I’ll do it with no hesitation.
But okay…
His large shoulders rolled inward and a faint smile kissed his lips. “Klyanus' moyey zhizni ya ne budu yey bol'.”
Clue shifted beside me, crossing her svelte arms. “Um, care to repeat that in English?”