Finding You

About to state my case, I heard someone clear her throat. Alex and I both turned to see a mom staring at us with her daughter sitting there with her mouth dropped to the table. Smiling, I said, “I’m not going to have mindless sex tonight . . . well actually I am, but I always use protection and . . . ouch!” I called out as I felt a stabbing pain in my shin from where Alex kicked me. Turning back to her, I yelled, “What the hell, Alex?”



Alex’s eyes were widened as she shook her head. “Grace, stop talking.”



The mother stood and motioned for her daughter to follow as Alex sat back and moaned. “Great, some mother I’m going to be.”



Letting out a laugh, I shook my head and said, “You’re going to be a kick-ass mother. Just like Ellie. Hey, so we never really got to talk about how your parents and Will’s parents reacted to the big baby news.”



Alex shrugged her shoulders. “I think they were all in shock. My father’s biggest worry was school. I’m so glad we’re all graduating this December.”



Taking a bite of my taco, I nodded my head. “Yeah, I’m glad too.” After swallowing the taco, I worried my bottom lip. I had been trying to figure out how to ask Alex if she had changed her mind about our plans.



Alex reached across the table and took my hand in hers. “The baby doesn’t change anything, Grace. I want to still follow our dream of opening up Wild Flower. We’ve been dreaming of opening a flower nursery for years. Nothing is going to change that.”



I instantly felt my body relax. Our whole focus throughout school had been to open a nursery between Fredericksburg and Mason. The news of Alex having a baby had scared the piss out of me. Smiling, I said, “I’m not going to lie, I thought I might be doing this on my own and I was scared as hell.”



Letting out a chuckle, Alex shook her head. “No way. Will and I have already talked about it. I fully intend on pursuing our dream, Grace.” Shrugging her shoulders, she said, “Besides, we will own the place! I can bring the baby. She’ll learn to dig in the dirt probably before she learns to walk.”



Sitting up straighter, I let out a gasp. “Oh my gosh! We can build a little baby nursery beside your office. I mean, I’m sure y’all will have more kids in the future. I bet my dad or your dad could easily add that into the design. Move the storage space somewhere else.”



Alex’s eyes lit up as she nodded her head. “Grace, that’s a great idea! This will be perfect for both of us.”



Narrowing my eyes, I let out a confused chuckle. “How is a baby room perfect for me?”



Giving me a sly smile, Alex said, “For when you have kids.”



Nearly choking on my tea, I held up my hands. “Whoa! Whoa! Holy hell, woman! Don’t even speak such words. This girl has no plans for kids in the near future. Fuck, I’m not even having sex and the last time I checked . . . you can’t get knocked up from a vibrator.”



Alex looked around as she put her finger up to her lips. “Why do you have to talk so loud?”



“Why do you have to say such things? My God! There is already something in the water with you and Libby both getting pregnant. I’m sure Lauren is probably going to be announcing something in the next few months. Well . . . no thank you. I’m not having kids anytime soon.”



Alex’s eyes looked sad. “Grace, do you not want kids?”



My heart instantly hurt as I plastered on a fake smile. “Someday I’m sure I’ll want kids. Right now, it is the furthest thing from my mind. All I want right now, Alex, is to move on and have a good time.”



“Grace, I talked to Noah the day Lauren got out of the hospital. He desperately needs to talk to you.”



Swallowing hard, I fought to hold back my tears. “W-what did he say?”



Shaking her head, Alex said, “He asked how Lauren was and then for your number. I gave it to him. He said he needed to talk to you.”



Feeling my entire body start shaking, I quickly stood up. “Why would you give him my phone number, Alex? He’s married for Christ’s sake! Besides, it’s been over two weeks since Lauren left the hospital. He must not be that desperate to talk to me. Damn it, Alex. Why did you give him my number?”



Alex motioned for me to sit down. “Grace, just give me one second to explain.”



Grabbing my food and drink, I glared at Alex. “I have to go; I have to head home and grab a book a forgot and head to class.”



“Grace! Let me finish talking!” Alex called out.



Racing to the door, I pushed it open and quickly dragged in the fresh air. Glancing at my watch, I sighed. I was going to be late for class now. Quickly making my way to my car, my phone buzzed. Pulling it out of my purse, I saw it was Alex.