“That must have been so scary for you.”

“Try not to think about that. Just be with me now. We have to trust that even when our time here is over, the powers that led us to each other will bring us together again. In the meantime, don’t waste another second worrying about what could have happened that day. Okay?”

“This moment…that’s all there ever is.”

“I’m glad you remember some of what I’ve taught you over the years.”

I reached over to kiss him on the cheek, but he abruptly turned his face toward me. His mouth devoured my lips in a ravenous kiss. My body melted into his. It had been too long. My hand started to slide down to his crotch.

“Whoa, whoa, whoa. I thought we were following the doctor’s orders,” he said over my lips. “I’ve been very good, but if you touch me like that, I can’t be responsible for what happens next.”

“This is what the doctor ordered tonight.”

“Fuck. It’s been five weeks.” He placed his hand firmly on my ass and pulled me into him. “You’re not gonna hear any argument from me.”

“I know how hard for you this wait has been.”

“Hard for you. Yes. You got that shit right.” He sucked on my bottom lip before slowly releasing it. “Let’s not talk anymore.”

“Less fighting, more fucking. See? I remember that, too.”

He laughed as he kissed down my neck and said, “That one might just be the wisest thing I ever came up with.”

As he started to lift up my nightgown, I snapped, “Turn the lamp off.”

“No.”

“Yes.”

“No way. I want to see every inch of you while we fuck. Your body is amazing like this. You know how I feel about it.” He palmed my breasts. “There’s even more of what I love. I want to enjoy it.”

“We’re not doing it with the lights on.”

Ignoring me, he said, “How about I start?”

He got up and slowly took his pants off, kicking them away. His body was rock solid, jacked, and his skin was flawless. Jake only got better with age. Meanwhile, I felt fat, and knew the insecurity would stick with me until every ounce of the baby weight came off.

He still had his underwear on when he kneeled over me. “Like what you see?”

“Mm-hmm.”

“Keep your eyes on me, but don’t touch me,” he said gruffly.

I went along with it.

My eyes travelled from his strong jaw, down the length of chest to his six-pack. A thin happy trail of hair formed a sexy line down the middle of his V muscle.

His voice was low. “What do you want, Nina?”

“I want you to take these off.” When I tugged on his underwear, he grabbed my hand and moved it off him.

Giving me a sexy smirk, he slid his tongue across his bottom lip. “No touching.”

“Okay.”

The tip of his cock stuck out from the top of his boxer briefs. He was fully hard.

“So, you want me to take these off, huh?”

“Yes.”

“The thing is, you wanted to shut the light off. Then, you won’t be able to see me, either. Don’t you want to see me?”

My mouth was agape. “Yes.”

“I want to see you, too. Let me see you first.”

I reluctantly slipped my nightgown over my head but left my nursing bra on.

“Take it off.”

I unsnapped it from the front and threw my bra on the ground.

“Good girl. Now, your panties.”

I slid my boy shorts down my legs and tossed them aside.

A month and a half felt like an eternity. It was a really long time for us to go without contact. We’d barely touched each other since the baby because it would have been too much of a tease if we weren’t going to be able to have sex.

“Do you have any idea how much this body turns me on, Nina? Look at me. Look what you’re doing to me.” His cock stretched the fitted cotton of his boxers to capacity. A wet spot from his arousal dampened the material.

He went on, “When we fuck, I need to feel every inch of that naked body against me.”

The sneaky bastard still wasn’t touching me. This was his way of getting me so hot and bothered that I no longer cared about the way I looked, no longer gave a shit about anything but what I needed from him.

His eyes were dilated as he looked down at me and began to jerk himself off hard and slow. This was Jake’s modus operandi: denying me for fun until I was practically begging him for it. He got off on it and honestly, so did I. The stimulation of watching him masturbate to me was making me so wet and caused my full breasts to tingle. A little milk leaked out. He swiped some of it before sucking it slowly off his thumb.

What my body looked like was starting to matter less and less. Clearly, from the look on his face, he was very turned on. How he was looking at me was quickly becoming more important than my hang ups about what I looked like.

Jake bent his head back in ecstasy. I couldn’t take watching him pleasuring himself anymore. I grabbed his hand and stopped him from stroking his cock. Spreading my legs open wide, I begged, “Please.”

His mouth spread into a wry smile as he lowered himself and finally entered me. Letting out a throaty moan as he buried himself deep inside, he fucked me slowly until he saw he wasn’t hurting me. Then, he picked up the pace and eventually our entangled naked bodies were rocking the bed. Our fingers were locked as we stared into each other’s eyes until we came together.