I was now hunched over and about to lose it again as the van was gliding around the corner of Bedford and onto Elsinore.
The house sat innocently in daylight, but even in daylight the house seemed menacing.
I was scowling with fear because I couldn’t help studying it as the van pulled into the driveway.
“Here goes,” one of the guys said. They both eagerly exited the van. They had been filled in on the various particulars of “the situation” and they were ready to party. They moved to the doors at the back of the van and started unloading equipment with frat-boy expectancy.
I wasn’t aware I had left the van and was floating toward the house until I was standing so close to it that I could have touched the thing.
The front of the house was now the same color as the side of the house.
The writer forced me to notice this since I was blind.
Look, the writer said. Touch it.
The wood had turned to stucco.
Because of this, I couldn’t go back into the house.
I walked away.
Miller followed me out into the field behind the house, and then I was pacing, and then I was standing still again. I couldn’t control my breathing. My mouth was dry and chalky from chewing the Klonopin tablets.
“You’ll be protected,” Miller promised.
“This was not a case of possession,” he assured me.
“You need to be in the house” was his gentle order.
“Why?” I pleaded. “Why?”
“Because you are its focus. Because we need to find out what the source of the haunting is.”
They needed to invoke the spirits.
And you’re being used as bait. Do you get it now, Bret?
I didn’t even crave a drink at this point—I would have thrown up if I swallowed alcohol.
Pass that sage advice along: Want to stay sober? Move into a haunted place.
Miller impatiently redirected me to the house, because there was nowhere I would be safe if this was not dealt with.
(The writer prodded me along with a reminder of the ashy handprint on the pillow.)
My response: “If there’s anything inside the house, I don’t think I can take it.”
I hesitated then shuffled quickly toward the front door.
I slipped the key into the lock.
I opened the front door.
I stepped into the foyer.