Memories of Ice

Murillio paused, glanced over. 'So?'



'Well,' Coll rumbled, 'it might well take him three bells to make a bed.'



His friend's expression filled with suspicion. 'That was supposed to be funny?'



'Not entirely. I was thinking in pragmatic terms. I was trying to imagine the physical awkwardness of attempting to do anything with swords stuck to your hands. That's all.'



Murillio made to say something, changed his mind with a muttered oath, wheeled and resumed his pacing.



They had carried the Mhybe into the temple five days past, settling her into a room that had once belonged to a ranking priest. They had unloaded the wagon and stored their food and water in the cellars amidst the shards of hundreds of shattered jugs and the floor and the walls made sticky with wine, the air thick and cloying and rank as an innkeeper's apron.



Every meal since had tasted wine-soaked, reminding Coll. of the almost two years he had wasted as a drunk, drowning in misery's dark waters as only a man in love with self-pity can. He would have liked to call the man he had been a stranger now, but the world had a way of spinning unnoticed, until what he'd thought he'd turned his back on suddenly faced him again.



Even worse, introspection — for him at least — was a funnel in sand, a spider waiting at the bottom. And Coll well knew he was quite capable of devouring himself.



Murillio strode into view again.



'The ant danced blind,' Coll said.



'What?'



'The old children's tale — remember it?'



'You've lost your mind, haven't you?'



'Not yet. At least I don't think so.'



'But that's just it, Coll. You wouldn't know, would you?'



He watched Murillio spin round once more, step past the wall's edge and out of sight. The world spins about us unseen. The blind dance in circles. There's no escaping what you are, and all your dreams glittered white at night, but grey in the light of day. And both are equally deadly. Who was that damned poet? The Vindictive. An orphan, he'd claimed. Wrote a thousand stories to terrify children. Was stoned by a mob in Darujhistan, which he survived. I think — that was years ago. His tales live in the streets, now. Singsong chants to accompany the games of the young.



Damned sinister, if you ask me.



He shook himself, seeking to clear his mind before stumbling into yet another pitfall of memory. Before she'd stolen his estate, before she'd destroyed him, Simtal had told him she carried his child. He wondered if that child had ever existed — Simtal fought with lies where others used knives. There'd been no announcement of any birth. Though of course the chance of his missing such an announcement was pretty much certain in those days that followed his fall. But his friends would have known. Would have told him, if not then, then now …



Murillio stepped into view.



'A moment there,' Coll growled.



'Now what? The beetle flipped on its back? The worm circling the hole?'



'A question, Murillio.'



'All right, if you insist.'



'Did you ever hear tell of a child born to Simtal?'



He watched his friend's face slowly close, the eyes narrowing. 'That is a question not to be asked in this temple, Coll.'



'I'm asking it none the less.'



'I do not think you're ready-'



'Not for you to judge and you should know better, Murillio. Dammit, I've been sitting on the Council for months! And I'm still not ready? What absurdity is-'



'All right all right! It's just this: there's only rumours.'



'Don't lie to me.'



'I'm not. There was a span of more than a few months — just after your, uh, demise — when she made no public appearance. Explained away as mourning, of course, though everyone knew-'



'Yes, I know what everyone knew. So she hid out for a time. Go on.'



'Well, we believed she was consolidating her position. Behind the scenes. Rallick was keeping an eye on her. At least I think he was. He'd know more.'



'And you two never discussed the details of what she was up to, what she looked like? Murillio-'



'Well, what would Rallick know of mothering?'



'When they're with child, their bellies swell and their breasts get bigger. I'm sure our assassin friend has seen one or two so-afflicted women on Darujhistan's streets — did he just think they were eating melons whole?'



'No need to be sarcastic, Coll. All I'm saying is, he wasn't sure.'



'What about the estate's servants? Any women who'd just given birth?'