Neanderthal Seeks Human
“Oh.” I thought about that. “And the Boss just decided to purchase five floors in a skyscraper overlooking Millennium Park?”
“If you think about it, it makes sense.” He stood, took one step, grabbed my hands in his, then brought us both back to the window seat. “It’s a nice perk for employees. This is a nice place to live, near the Loop and the rest of downtown, the park. Cypher’s main business is security. Having employees spread out all over Chicago makes it difficult to ensure everyone’s safety. If everyone were to live here then, it’s close to work, it’s easier to keep tabs on people-”
“You think the Boss wants to keep tabs on people?”
“Yes and no, not in the way you mean.”
“In what way then?” I was frowning.
He sighed, running a hand through his hair, and studied the floor for a tense moment before speaking; “You don’t work much with the private accounts.”
I blinked at this assertion, wondering where he was going with the seemingly out of left field statement, “Yeah, so?”
“I can’t explain what I mean in much detail.”
I searched this statement and came to a speedy conclusion, “Does this have something to do with the nondisclosure agreements?”
“Something like that.”
“Are they- the private clients- are they bad guys?”
He gave me an assessing sideways glance even as a whisper of a smile brightened his features, “No. Not exactly bad guys. Just powerful.”
“Hm.” I began tugging at my bottom lip again, my eyes wandering over the apartment without seeing. Without meaning to speak the words out loud I said, “Are you moving into one of the new apartments?”
He hesitated then said, “No. Not one of the new apartments.”
“Oh.” I looked at the door leading to the bathroom, “Do you know how much the rent would be?”
“Yeah, I have an idea. It would be more than what you two are paying now, probably a little less than double.”
“Oh. Well. That makes sense. It isn’t a lot actually.” I crossed my legs, my foot started tapping the floor, “It would be strange to live and work with the same people… What if I quit my job? Would we have to leave?”
“Are you planning to quit your job?” His voice was monotone but held just a slight edge.
“Well, no. Not right now. Not anytime soon, actually.”
“Do you like it there? Do you still like the work?”
I nodded, “Yeah. I do. It’s strange but I never much enjoyed account management at my old job. All I could think about was applying for one of the architect positions. Now I actually really enjoy it. It’s different.”
“What’s different about it?”
I glanced at him; he appeared as interested as he sounded so I drew my leg up to the wooden seat and faced him, the view of the park momentarily distracting me; “It’s- well- it’s better. I’m learning about a new business which is- on its own- interesting. And Carlos and Steven are really open to my ideas for improvements to billing structure and operations whereas, at my old place, they weren’t interested in any new ideas. I also like the people-”
Quinn’s eyebrows lifted and he gave me a broad grin, “Oh, you do? Which people?”
“Well, let’s see, there is of course Keira, she’s very nice, and Steven. Dan is also very friendly. And Carlos...”
Quinn frowned. “What about Carlos? He hasn’t been making the moves on you, has he?”
I chuckled, actually chuckled, and gave him a big grin, “No. No, not at all. Don’t be ludicrous.”
“Why would it be ludicrous?”
“Because Carlos is my boss. I’d never be interested in my boss.”
Quinn’s face froze; he blinked at me like I’d said something truly disturbing, “Why not?”
“I-“ it was my turn to frown, “Are you trying to get me to go out with Carlos?”.
“No- no, definitely not. But, just because someone is your boss shouldn’t put him into the automatic no category.”
“Uh, yeah it should. Dating your boss immediately puts you at a disadvantage.”
“Like dating someone who is wealthy?”
I huffed, “Yeah, I guess. It’s similar but worse.”
“Why worse?”
“Quinn.”
“Janie.” His tone and his expression were granite.
“Why are we having this conversation?”
“Humor me.”
“Even me, with my lack of ability to grasp the obvious, understands this concept.” I poked him, not liking how serious he looked, trying to figure out what I might have said to cause the abrupt shift in mood.
His eyes, as though focusing their intensity, narrowed and his features remained impassive, “I think you’re being closed minded.”
I crossed my arms and straightened my spine, “Really? How so?”
“Why do you like to assign everything a label?”
“It makes things simple.”
“People aren’t simple.”
“But labels help make them simple. Why don’t you like labels?”
His jaw ticked as his eyes moved between mine. “When you use labels as the only factor in defining another person, and therefore how you treat them, that’s called stereotyping.”
I opened my mouth but then abruptly closed it and swallowed. My chest felt hot with a stinging mixture of discomfort and annoyance. We were glaring at each other and my breathing had become somewhat agitated.
“I do not stereotype people. Stereotyping implies I make judgments with no valid data but rather based on ignorant societal shortcuts.”
“Bosses can’t be dated.” He deadpanned.
“That’s just common sense-” I stood up and he grabbed my arm, not forcefully just firmly, and spun me toward him as he stood.
“Rich guys make bad boyfriends?”
“That’s not a label, it’s a preference.” I countered.
“Slamps and Wendells?” he challenged.
“Well if it walks like a duck and quacks like a duck and it has sex with multiple partners indiscriminately then…!” I widened my eyes with meaning as my voice rose; I was moving beyond annoyance into something else I now recognized as very close to anger.
He growled and shifted restlessly as though caged, “I don’t like being categorized.”
“Don’t tell me I stereotype people just because you don’t like your label; if you don’t like being a Wendell then don’t be one. It’s your actions which dictate how you are perceived and how you are treated.”
“Or you could decide to stop being such a close-minded, judgmental-”
“And what?” I pulled my arm out of his grip, “And become so open minded my brain falls out? Make so many excuses for people’s bad behavior that I become spineless? No thanks. I have no desire to cherish each person’s bullshit and call it a beautiful snowflake. I will not make excuses for all the ways they treat the people around them like garbage. If I wanted that I’d still be with Jon making excuses for his cheating or loaning my sisters’ money for their criminal exploits, living in a state of perpetual disappointment.”
His teeth were clenched, “I’m not proposing that you allow people to treat you like garbage. I’m suggesting that you make an effort to understand their behavior, and the motivations behind it, rather than merely dismissing them because they meet the criteria for one of your shortcuts-”
I couldn’t help the sarcasm that spewed forth even though the words made me cringe as I said them, “Then correct me if I am in error: I imagine the motivation behind being a Wendell is wanting to have sex without being limited by number, variety, and frequency of partners-”
He continued as though I hadn’t spoken, “-and also be open to the possibility that just because someone behaved one way in the past doesn’t mean that’s what they want moving forward.”
“People don’t change.” I said the words thoughtlessly even though I didn’t really mean or believe them and I immediately regretted the statement. After what I knew, after what Quinn confided in me last night about his past and his brother, I wanted to apologize but instead I started chewing on my bottom lip.
His eyes flashed dangerously. He swallowed as he fixed his gaze to a point over my left shoulder. I saw him shift his weight as though he was preparing to walk past me.
“I’m sorry.” I blurted, my hands gripping his wrists in order to hold him in place. His eyes met mine and I took a small step toward him, “You’re right, people can change and motivations matter. I don’t know why I said that. It’s just-” I released his wrists, rubbed my forehead with my fingers and sighed, “It’s just, you have to understand, growing up- my mother- she-” I rolled my eyes, hating that I was going to admit to someone that my mother’s decisions had any impact on who I was as a person and the decisions I made.
Quinn crossed his arms over his chest and titled his head to the side, “You’ve never mentioned your mother.” He said it as though he just realized it.
I gritted my teeth, “I don’t especially enjoy discussing her.”