Joan nodded, making her short gray hair sway along her chin. "That's why I was sent here. The department doesn't want to lose you and your freakish brilliance, but we just can't afford the additional expense right now. Since your salary comes out of the Linguistics Department budget, we had the final say. I'm so sorry."
Noelle closed her eyes. What would she do now? Finding a job that didn't require her to say, "Do you want fries with that?" was going to be nearly impossible. It wasn't as if she had employers beating at her door, begging her to come to work for them. Mathematical linguistics wasn't exactly a booming field. Someone in an obscure career like hers would need months, if not years, to find another suitable position—likely one that would have to be built specifically for her. What would she do until then?
She had racked up tons of debt in student loans just to get her Ph.D. The loan payments by themselves were more than her other living expenses combined. She could hold off the bill collectors for a while, but she was going to need a decent income—not the kind she could make flipping burgers.
Noelle swallowed past the panic that clogged her throat. It was just money. She'd find some way around this obstacle.
"You could always take the grant," suggested Joan.
Noelle wished it was that simple. She was sorely tempted just to give in and make her life a whole lot easier. But for someone who started college at sixteen, easy clearly wasn't her modus operandi. "I can't do that. It's blood money."
"Don't be so dramatic," scolded Joan. "No one's asking you to hurt anyone. In fact, it's entirely possible that doing this could save lives."
"And if you're wrong?" Noelle stood and shoved her laptop into its black nylon tote. "I can't take that chance. I wouldn't be able to sleep at night wondering if my work cost the lives of innocents."
"This is your career we're talking about—your entire future rests on this decision."
"Now who's being dramatic?" scoffed Noelle.
"I'm serious. If you walk away from this grant, chances are you won't find another position anytime soon. If you take the job, then you stand the chance of becoming famous in academic communities as the woman who revolutionized mathematical linguistics."
Noelle rolled her eyes. "I'm sure they'll write that on my gravestone, right next to the part about how I helped kill thousands of innocent civilians in some country where the children don't even know what math is."
"I can't let you do this to yourself" said Joan. "You're too brilliant to slaughter your career because of something that might happen."
"It isn't your choice to make. You've been by my side, supporting me when everyone else pointed fingers and laughed at the scrawny kid with more brains than social skills. You are more than just my mentor, you're my friend, but you can't ask me to do this. I won't be a part of killing, no matter how necessary some general thinks it may be."
Noelle shoved students' homework into her bag, refusing to look at the woman who had given her nothing but good advice and steadfast support.
"I'll call you mis weekend, after you've had some time to think," said Joan.
Noelle didn't bother to tell her that she'd already done all the thinking she needed to. Her mind was made up. And just to be sure she wasn't tempted to change her mind when the financial panic truly set in, Noelle pulled her laptop back out from its case and typed the command that would kill every trace of data on her hard drive tied to the project.
There was no going back now.
She'd be out of a job come spring, but at least she'd be able to live with herself and that was something no amount of grant money could buy.
Fired or not, Noelle still had a job to do until spring, and she had just settled in for a wild Friday night of grading clumsily executed Calculus I homework when the hghts in her tiny rental house went black. With a sigh that came all the way from her toes, she pulled open a drawer that held one of many flashlights in her home. She'd always been told that old houses possessed great amounts of charm and character, but in her experience, they simply possessed noisy plumbing, abundant drafts and faulty wiring. It was the third time this week that she'd blown a fuse in the house's ancient fuse box.
Making her way to the basement more by memory than sight, Noelle descended the bare wooden stairs. With the speed of much practice, she unscrewed and replaced the same fuse she'd put in just two days ago. Mentally, she made a note to speak to Mr. Hasham about this problem when she paid him next month's rent.
Even with the new fuse in place, the lights didn't come on. That had never happened before.
Above her head came the crash of breaking glass, followed by the muted tinkle of brittle shards falling to the hardwood floor.
Noelle jumped, then froze, listening. The sound had come from her back door.
Someone was breaking into her house.
CHAPTER TWO
Noelle's heart slammed around inside her chest as she rumbled to switch off the flashlight so she could hide in the dark basement. Overhead, she heard the slow, methodical step of at least two people walking over the floor.
She prayed that they'd just take whatever they wanted and go.. As silently as she could, she tiptoed over the dusty floor toward the stairs. The basement was relatively empty and the only hiding place was behind the creaky stairway.
Noelle held her breath until her lungs burned, listening as the footsteps came near the top of the stairs. A beam of light flashed into the basement, falling on the spot where she had been standing only seconds before. In the center of the white pool of light sliding slowly over the floor was a tiny red dot—the kind cast by a laser pointer like she used when lecturing.