“What good would that do?”
“It’s better than you sitting here seething all day.”
“Seething? Hardly!” He didn’t understand. I could roll with a lot of punches now that the voices were quieted. “I was in a great mood earlier.”
“Bullshit! Over what? You’re exhausted, starving, and you doan know where your next meal’s coming from.”
“You didn’t get decapitated by sheet metal and we scored some fuel. Win!”
“But no food.” The wipers scraped louder across the windshield. Grate, grate, grate . . .
I threw my hands up. “All right, you talked me into it. I’m officially in a pissy mood.”
“Damn it, you doan need to miss meals.” Early on, he’d been giving me the lion’s share, calling me a “growing girl.”
As he’d explained: “Hell, Evie, I like where you’re goan with this”—he’d motioned to indicate my chest—“I want to see where you end up.”
Now he muttered, “Thought I’d be shooting some game.” On occasion, we’d see a bird or a rabbit. “And you ain’t exactly contributing to the pot.”
No, but I could. If things got really bad, I’d grow food from the seeds in the back. Refusing to rise to the bait, I said, “It’s getting late.” The winds were dying down as the sun set. The ash started to settle, revealing a waxing moon. “Shouldn’t we be looking for a place to overnight?”
“We need to get past this area. The gas took longer than I thought.” He glanced over his shoulder, then back to the road, picking up speed. “Sick of these storms.”
“What about the Bagmen? You said we can never drive past sundown.” This afternoon, we’d crossed bridge after bridge. If they flocked to old bodies of water, at night . . .
“I’m changing the rule, adding: unless we’re in slaver territory. We got to make up some time anyway.”
My stomach growled more insistently.
“Suck it up, Evie! We can’t risk looking for food right now. If anything happens to me, you’re screwed.”
“One more time, I’m not arguing with you about food, I’m not complaining, and I might surprise you by actually surviving without you.”
“You can’t hunt or ferret out supplies. You’re a resource-suck. You’re hopeless in the kitchen—”
“Here we go again.” I could deny nothing. I was awful at cooking, couldn’t seem to heat a can of ravioli without screwing it up.
“You should end each and every day with a ‘Thank you, Jack. It’s great to be alive.’ ” Another glance over his shoulder, another increase in speed.
“Clearly, I’m just a nuisance to you, a ball and chain around your ankle. I’m surprised you haven’t gotten sick of me and dumped me already. I keep waiting for you to say, ‘Screw this,’ and ditch on North Carolina.”
“I doan let puzzles go unsolved.”
Which is why I won’t tell you about the crops until you’ve gotten me where I need to go.
“Besides”—he flashed me a wolfish grin—“I ain’t even slept with you yet.”
My lips parted. “You’re talking about having . . . sex. With me?”
I should have known this conversation would arise soon enough. It seemed like each night together, Jackson and I had grown less comfortable with each other.
If he felt relatively secure with our overnight, he’d sleep without a shirt. Those tantalizing glimpses of his chest—I always looked away—flustered me, making it difficult to sleep.
At other times, I’d cast wary glances at the bed, while he cast hungry looks at me.
“Sex is what you sit in this car thinking about?” Just as I’d suspected, I was better off not knowing.
His expression was bored, as if to say Grow up. “Why wouldn’t I? I’m a red-blooded male, and you’re the only game in town. Tell me you doan think about it.”
I had. I’d fantasized about what might have happened at the sugar mill if we’d kissed, if we’d explored that sizzling chemistry between us. Then I would feel guilty and out of sorts. “I-I’m not having sex with you!” I finally answered. “I can’t believe you would just put it out there like that.”
Though I knew the world was different now, I still held on to the naïve idea that losing my virginity should be special—something I did with my boyfriend.
Not something I did solely because the guy with me was red-blooded.
He flashed me a knowing look, with a wicked glint in his eyes. “So you doan deny thinking about it?”
I sputtered. “That’s the main reason you volunteered to help me—because you wanted to make me one of your gaiennes, one of your doe tags!”
“De bon cœur.” Wholeheartedly.
“All that bullshit about remembering the bayou and Why-whoever-will-I-talk-Cajun-to? was just lip service. You couldn’t care less if we speak the same language or share a history!”
“I told you the truth. It’s not my fault all that comes in a pretty blond package that I want to take to bed—”
BOOM! BOOM! Explosions sounded just outside.
The car careened out of control. He stomped the brakes, but we rushed toward an embankment.
My hands shot forward to grip the dashboard. “Jackson!”
Chapter 23
“Hold on, Evie!” he yelled, arms straining as he fought the steering wheel.
The car swept up that embankment sideways—a ramp launching us off the ground.
Then . . . weightlessness. Jackson surrendered the wheel, shoving his arm over my chest. The engine revved as we rolled in the air.
My feet were above my head. When the ground suddenly punched the top of the car, I screamed; airbags deployed.
Still we plummeted . . . rolling . . .
Sudden stop. The car landed upside down. Windows shattered on impact, metal shrieking from strain.
Jackson and I hung from our seat belts. And it’d sounded like we’d landed on another car?
Even over the wheezing gaskets, our breaths were loud. “Wh-what just happened?” I peered out the window opening, disoriented. We were off the ground, by at least half a dozen feet.
At once, Jackson’s buck knife flashed out, stabbing the airbags. “I hope you got your bug-out bag packed right. Now stay still.”
“You’re not going to cut my seat—”
He cut my seat belt.
“Ow!” I scrambled upright, hunching down on the roof of the car.
Then he cut his own belt, twisting to his back. “Evie, grab your bag and shut your mouth! You hear me?”
I reached back, rummaging until I laid hands on my pack. “What is going on?”
“We’re in a heap of trouble.” He grabbed his own pack, his bow, and the shotgun, then shimmied out through the window hole. Jumping down, he hurried to help me out.
As we crawled free from the wreck, comprehension dawned. We’d landed on an old car. All around us were more wrecked vehicles.
A graveyard of cars.