Styxx

Styxx didn't even react. He didn't care. The only thing he loved was gone and he had no way of finding her.



Tears pricked the back of his eyes as he pushed open his bedroom door and saw Apollo in his receiving room. Ah, beautiful. Could his day be any better?



Apollo raked him with a sneer. "Where have you been?"



Styxx sighed. "I didn't know you were looking for me."



The god materialized at his back and grabbed his jaw in one powerful fist. He snatched Styxx's head back until he could see Apollo's angry glare. "Are you breaching our agreement?"



Hopeless despair filled him. What difference did anything make now? He felt as if his entire life force had been ripped out of his body. He was nothing more than an empty shell. "No."



Apollo nuzzled his neck, scraping his skin with his fangs. Then he punched Styxx in the back with his fist, knocking him forward. "Bathe yourself and return to me. I've had my fill of your mewling sister and her whiny voice. And don't be long. If I have to come get you, you won't be happy about it."



As if any of this made him happy?



Styxx resisted the urge to pass an obscene gesture at the god. The last thing he wanted to do was have the bastard think it was an invitation.



Without a word, he went to bathe and tried his best not to think about what would happen once he finished.



Styxx paused in his bathing pool as he heard Acheron and Ryssa laughing together in her room. The two of them had always done that. When he'd been a boy, he used to try and join them, but Ryssa had never allowed it.



You have other people to play with. Leave us alone, you little brat.



But his tutors had never allowed him to play and other children had been too afraid. So he'd wander off to make up friends.



He dunked his head under the water and tried his best to ignore his siblings. Yet their laughter and conversation continued to stab his heart. He understood his father doubting his blood relationship, but Ryssa knew he was as related to her as Acheron was.



And with Acheron ...



They were full-blooded brothers.



And still they ignored him at best, rebuffed him at worst. All he'd ever wanted in his life was to feel like he belonged somewhere.



That he belonged to someone.



No one would have him. Except for the brief time when he'd found happiness with Bethany. Tears filled his eyes as he looked down at her necklace on his wrist. Please don't leave me here alone, Beth. I can't survive this without you.



What if she really was gone from him?



Forever?



"Styxx!" Apollo's snarl cut through his thoughts as he made the mark on Styxx's back burn.



With a ragged breath, Styxx wiped away the tears with the heels of his hands and left the water to do what he did best.



Endure hell.



January 27, 9528 BC



"What is wrong with you?" Styxx snarled as he found Acheron drunk and naked on the floor of Acheron's room.



Sneering at him, Acheron grabbed the wineskin he'd been cradling under his body and drank from it. "Go away, you quim! I hate you! I wish we were dead...." His voice broke off into sobs.



Acheron's pain reached out to him, making him feel bad that he'd yelled at him.



Styxx knelt beside his twin and took the wineskin away. "Acheron ... listen to me. I know you haven't eaten in at least two days." Their shared hunger pangs attested to it. He took the bread that Hestia had left earlier for his brother and held it out to Acheron. "You have to take some. Do you understand?"



"Fuck you ... you worthless whore!"



Flinching at the insult that cut to his bones, Styxx tried to put a piece of bread in Acheron's mouth, but he bit him so hard, he bled.



Styxx cursed and snatched his hand away. He glared at his twin, wanting to kill him. "Father is going to have you beaten or restrained and force-fed again. Is that what you want?"



Tears welled in Acheron's swirling silver eyes. "No. My want has abandoned me. Slapped me." He glared at Styxx. "Beat me. Because I'm not you! If I were a prince and not a whore ... But you're both. You are. I know you are. You aren't that, but you are. I saw it. They saw ... you. It..."



Acheron was so drunk, he was incoherent. Even his thoughts made no sense whatsoever.



Styxx pressed the heel of his hand to his eye as he tried to sort through Acheron's mad ramblings. They were so fast and nonsensical, they set his brain to aching.



Sobbing hard, Acheron curled into a ball on the floor.



Styxx's throat tightened at the sight of his brother's agony, and at his own need to join him there. Like him, his brother was in absolute misery over something that had happened. But what?



He knew he was the last person Acheron wanted to confide in. He'd go get Ryssa for him, but she was with Apollo.



I'm all he has.



Gods help us both.



"Adelphos," he whispered, placing his hand on Acheron's arm. "Please, I'm trying to help you."



Acheron punched at him. "Get off me!"



Break the whore in for the rest of us....



Pass him this way....



Styxx cringed as those phrases shouted at him from Acheron's scrambled mind. No wonder his brother was so upset. He had the same flashbacks and nightmares that haunted him, too. Worse, Acheron's memories were similar to what Xan had said to Estes after they'd raped Styxx the first time. No matter what he did, the jeers of those who'd violated him and then laughed and gloated about it would return to torture him.



He laid his head down on Acheron's shoulder and tried to comfort him. "Shh, brother. I know your pain."



"You know nothing of my pain! When has anyone ever spurned you, Highness?"



You and Ryssa both have. Constantly.



As had their father and mother.



And now his precious Bethany.



But this wasn't about his pain. He could drink himself stupid later, as he'd been doing for days. Right now, his brother needed him.



"Acheron-"



Faster than even Styxx could react, his brother spun on him and caught his throat in a fist so tight it was crushing. Acheron rolled with him and pinned him to the ground with a strength that was startling and unimaginable.



"Acheron," he coughed and wheezed, trying to dislodge his brother's iron grip from his throat that reminded him of how Apollo often did him.



And as he stared up at his brother, Acheron's eyes turned to a bright, burning bloodred. His hair darkened as his skin became a marbled blue. His lips turned black.



"You say you know my pain," Acheron snarled, showing a set of fangs that caused Styxx's anger to mount as he involuntarily felt Apollo biting him in places that made his stomach heave. "You know nothing of my pain. No one has ever defiled you, prince. Never held you down and made you beg for a cock you'd rather be dead than taste or feel."



Rage and pain darkened Styxx's sight at those words. Worse, he heard what Acheron had said to him in Atlantis.



"Tell me how it feels to have your royal hole stuffed tight, Highness. Just wait till they flip you over, it gets even better.



"Welcome to my pain, brother...."



Acheron's mocking laughter as others raped him rang in his head.



Roaring, Styxx punched Acheron's blue arm as hard as he could, breaking his hold. Styxx cried out as his own arm hurt. But he didn't care. Too many memories of his own were mixing with his brother's.



And they were all brutal.



He kicked Acheron's demonic form back and rolled to his feet. Terror filled him as he saw Acheron return to a human appearance. His brother lay on his side now, panting and weak.



"What are we?" Styxx breathed.



Acheron's eyes were still red. "Damned." Then he started laughing hysterically.



Shaken and terrified by all that had happened, Styxx left him there and headed for his own room. He looked down at his hands and turned them over. Would his skin become blue, too? Would his eyes and lips do that?



Did Ryssa know about Acheron's alternate form? Was that why she was so protective of him?



And as he leaned against his bedroom door to block it, he could just imagine what their father would do if he ever saw that.



They would both be confined to the Dionysion.



Forever.



Raking his hands through his hair, Styxx felt some of his sanity slip at the mere thought of returning to that nightmare.



And this time there would be no Estes to intervene.



Because I killed him.



January 28, 9528 BC



Completely drunk and high on Atlantean herbs, Styxx sat in the banquet hall with his father, Apollo, and his sister as the night wore on interminably. He feigned laughter, even though he wasn't really sure what Apollo had said. Not that it mattered. Apollo wasn't here for conversation, he merely wanted them to fawn over him, and since Styxx was used to being ignored, he followed his father's cues.



And drank heavily.



So much so, that he'd passed extremely drunk probably a good day ago. How he was still conscious, he wasn't sure. At this point, he couldn't even remember the last time he'd been sober.



Which was good. Because whenever he sobered, his mind went to places he wanted to avoid. And focused on the fact that Bethany, like everyone else in his life, had abandoned him.



His head spinning, Styxx held his red clay kylix out for a servant to refill. He sat on Apollo's left while Ryssa sat on the right and his father on the other side of his sister, which was how Apollo had wanted it.



This way, the god could lean across Ryssa to speak to the king while he covertly fondled Styxx out of their sight. Although Styxx had finally found a way to deal with it. Every time Apollo groped him, he drank another cupful.



It was becoming quite a game and making him all the drunker, all the faster.



"Is that not right, Styxx?"



Frowning, he blinked at Apollo. "What?"



Apollo laughed then picked up a slice of cheese. "I fear we're boring your heir, Xerxes." He took a bite of it.



"Styxx? Where's your head, boy? Pay attention! You're with a god! Give him his due."



Styxx lifted his cup to hide the snarl of his lips over his father's comment.



Smirking in satisfaction that he had the king's blessing for their twisted relationship, Apollo held the cheese out to Styxx for him to finish off.



He hated this game. If they were alone, he'd knock Apollo's hand aside, but the god knew he didn't dare do that in front of his father. Cringing, Styxx opened his mouth and let Apollo place the cheese on his tongue.



Apollo caressed Styxx's chin. "My compliments to you, Xerxes. You made two beautiful children."



Styxx jerked as Apollo's hand drifted a little too far south on his body while Apollo kissed Ryssa's cheek.



"Excuse me," Ryssa said. "I'll be right back."



Styxx watched as she went to meet Hestia off in a corner. While his father was distracted by her actions, Apollo took Styxx's hand and led it to his hard cock.



Grimacing, Styxx snatched his hand back to his own chair and glared at the Olympian who laughed as he gave Styxx a lecherous smile that promised him retribution later tonight when the god came for him.



"I know not, Your Highness." Hestia's loud whisper made Apollo arch his brow. "I haven't seen him in days. I leave food and when I return it's untouched. No one's slept in his bed."



"What?" His father's roar made all of them jump. "Guards! Follow me." He stormed out and headed in the direction of Ryssa's rooms.



Shrieking in protest, Ryssa ran after him.



Styxx groaned as he realized his father was about to go beat the shit out of his brother. Needing to head it off, he went after them with Apollo following him while trying to shove his hand into parts of Styxx's body he didn't want touched.



Was Apollo trying to get caught?



But then what did Apollo care? Not like his father would hate him for it. Styxx, on the other hand, wouldn't be so lucky. Either his father would beat him down over their twisted relationship, or box him up like a gift for the Olympian.



Either way, Styxx would be screwed.



In more ways than one.



"What's going on?" Apollo asked in his ear, pressing his groin against Styxx's hip.



Making a sound of disgust deep in the hollow of his throat, he moved away from Apollo. "It's Acheron," he said before his drunk mind could think better of it.



Apollo arched a curious brow with a speculative light in his eyes Styxx knew all too well. There's another prince? Apollo's thought almost sobered him. In that one heartbeat, Styxx saw his future and it was nauseating.



You know, Estes, you should bring him to Atlantis. I'd pay you a fortune for a go at him and his brother at the same time.



No, better yet, to watch the two of them have a go at each other.



Yeah, Apollo with his greed would want the full matched set....



And his father was just sick and greedy enough to agree to it. Styxx almost threw up at the mere thought. But how could he stop it from happening?



The god's ego.



It was the fact that Styxx was a renowned prince and Apollo had power over him that appealed to the bastard. The only way to keep Acheron out of their repugnant relationship was to make his twin appalling to the Olympian....



Make Acheron beneath Apollo's desire.



"He's a worthless slave who used to be a tsoulus." Styxx cringed as Apollo appeared intrigued and he remembered that he bore the brand that Acheron didn't. A brand Apollo had already seen and bitten on many occasions.



"Um, unfortunately his life is tied to mine so we have to keep him healthy. Although I feel fine so I'm sure he's only doing this for attention. May the gods forbid we ever be allowed to forget his presence here for one single day." Styxx clamped his mouth shut as Apollo frowned at him as if he'd lost his mind.



Fuck, what did I just say?



Did any of that even make sense?



Whether it did or not, it succeeded in causing Ryssa to give Styxx a vicious sneer.



I'll pay for that later. But so long as he paid for it alone, it was fine by him. He just didn't want a menage a trois with his brother and Apollo. His menage a deux was miserable enough.



His father threw open the doors to Acheron's room and stormed inside with Ryssa right behind him, while Apollo returned to grabbing at Styxx.



His temper snapping, he glared at Apollo. "Stop!" he said in a fierce whisper.



Apollo flashed his fangs at him then licked his lips. "You know you're going to pay for this later," he whispered.



"Fine," Styxx said under his breath.



"I told you he couldn't be trusted." Furious, his father turned on Ryssa, who ignored him as she ran to the balcony.



The Olympian finally left Styxx alone as he went to investigate what had everyone so distraught.



Unsure of what was about to explode all over him and Acheron, Styxx edged closer to the commotion.



Lightning flashed as rain poured down outside. Acheron sat on the balcony with his knees bent and his arms folded over them. Completely naked, he stared into space as if unaware of the rain and frigid cold. His hair was plastered to his head and at least two days' growth of beard dusted his cheeks.



Ryssa approached him slowly while taking care to remain under the awning that shielded her from the rain. "Acheron?"



He didn't respond. At least not verbally. But mentally, he was as far gone as Styxx was.



Styxx scowled as he tried to understand what thoughts were his and which were Acheron's. Ironically, they overlapped, and if he didn't know better, he'd swear his brother was heartbroken, too. That a woman had left Acheron the way Bethany had abandoned him. But that couldn't be. Acheron didn't have a woman.



Those are my thoughts.



Aren't they?



Damn, I'm seriously fucked up tonight....



Worse, Styxx's shredded emotions were tangling with Acheron's to a dangerous level.



Ryssa knelt beside Acheron. "Little brother?" The tenderness in her voice enraged Styxx and it made him more volatile as it brought home the fact that without Bethany, no one loved him.



Not like that.



No one ever cared when he was hurting and in pain. If he were the one on the balcony, there wasn't one person here who would get wet to help him. No one who would ever check to see if he was all right.



Acheron turned a hate-filled glare toward her. "Leave me," he growled.



You ungrateful kopros....



His father had the same reaction. "Don't you dare speak to her that way!"



Acheron met Styxx's gaze. He raked him with a sneer. "Fuck you, you bastard."



Something inside Styxx snapped at that. The whole family had come to check on Acheron and who had bothered to come to him these last few days while he'd been pawed and chewed on by Apollo?



No one ...



Not a soul gave a single shit about him and Styxx was their "beloved" heir.



Growling low in his throat, he rushed Acheron. His brother came to his feet and ran at Styxx with the same fury.



Styxx caught him by the waist and slammed him back on the floor. Ignoring the pain it caused him, he went after Acheron with everything he had.



"I hate you!" Acheron snarled in his ear as he rolled and punched him in the jaw.



Styxx flipped him over his head and rose to his feet. He kicked Acheron in the ribs and gasped as the pain hit him, too. "You're pathetic."



Rolling away from him, Acheron pushed himself up. Rain dripped off both of them as they faced off with mutual disdain and hatred. As Acheron went for him again, Styxx knocked him back.



Rain ran down his face, mixing with the blood that poured from his eye, nose, and mouth. And still Acheron came at him, over and over again.



"Guards, take him," the king ordered.



They started for Styxx, but his father cut them off and pointed to Acheron.



His brother tried to fight them, but he was too weakened by their fight. They hauled him back into his room.



Styxx wiped the blood from his own face as their father buried his hand in Acheron's wet hair and snatched his head so that Acheron could see the full contempt of the king's expression. "Beat him until there's no skin left on his back. If he passes out, wake him and beat him again."



Styxx winced at an all too familiar order. He had those same scars courtesy of his own stupidity.



Acheron laughed coldly. "I love you too, Father."



The bastard backhanded him. "Take him out of here."



"Father?" Apollo asked with an arch stare.



The king scoffed. "He calls me that, but he's no son of mine. My former queen whored herself and begat that abomination."



Tears fell down Ryssa's face. "He's just a boy, Father."



The king laughed at something Styxx didn't find particularly amusing.



Infuriated, Ryssa ran after the guards and Acheron.



Well aware of the fact that he didn't have long before Acheron's beating would render him screaming in pain, Styxx headed for his rooms.



The moment he entered them, Apollo appeared in front of him.



The Olympian screwed his face up at the sight of Styxx's damaged features. "You found a way to ruin my fun tonight, didn't you?"



"Sorry."



"No, you're not. But you will be." Apollo left as quickly as he'd come.



Before he could take more than three steps, Styxx cried out as his back exploded with pain. It was so fierce that it cut through the herbs and alcohol in his system and dropped him to the floor.



Writhing in absolute agony, he couldn't move as lash after lash tore through him. He shook all over from the cold of his wet clothes and the pain of Acheron's punishment.



By the time it stopped, Styxx was shaking uncontrollably. His breathing labored, he crawled to his bed, but hurt too much to even attempt to rise and get into it. Instead, he reached up from the floor and pulled the blanket off then wrapped himself in it.



Tears streamed down his face as he remembered being a boy and cocooning like this whenever he was hurt and aching. Only then, he used to pretend the blanket was his mother and that she was hugging and consoling him.



As he lay there, he heard Ryssa's muffled voice through the wall as she tended his brother. "Don't worry, Acheron. I'll take care of you."



Closing his eyes, Styxx pretended that he was Acheron and that Ryssa was in here with him. But just like when he'd pretended the blanket was hugging him and all the times he'd made up friends to play with, he knew the bitter truth.



Without Bethany, he was completely alone.



And no one cared about the prince.



Not even him.



January 29, 9528 BC



While his brother and sister laughed through the walls, Styxx stared at his gaunt and bruised features as he shaved in the mirror. He looked like utter Hades. For all his cowering, Acheron could hit. Styxx's right eye was completely red and his brow cut.



But what did it matter? There was no one to look at him. No Bethany to run her gentle hands over his face now and sympathize with his pain.



And as Styxx pulled the razor over his chin, he tried not to remember anything about her. Tried not to think at all.



But still those memories surged.... He could see her so clearly in his mind the day she'd fingered the center of his chin and scowled at what she found there.



"What is this?"



"A goatee."



She'd made an adorable face at him. "The goat part is right. Why would you intentionally do that to yourself?"



"I thought you'd think it manly and sexy."



She'd scoffed until he'd shown her what he could do to her with those whiskers. Then she'd been all behind his keeping it.



Tears filled his eyes, but he blinked them away. He missed so many things about her. Yet it was the loss of having someone to laugh with that burned most.



Unable to deal with it anymore, he lowered his hand and pulled the razor across his forearm, careful to pick an area he knew he could cover with his ornamental gold cuffs so no one would see it. He hissed in pain, allowing the physical to overshadow the mental anguish as he made several long cuts there. It'd been awhile since he'd done this.



Not since he met his Bethany. With her, he hadn't needed the painful distraction.



Styxx glanced at the scars on his thighs and arms where he'd cut himself repeatedly when he'd been younger ... anything to divert his emotions and thoughts from what really hurt. Most of the scars were so faint and fine, they were only visible whenever his skin darkened from the summer sun.



A sudden knock sounded. "Highness?"



He set the razor aside and went to answer his door. It was one of his father's scribes.



"Sorry to disturb you, Your Highness. His Majesty requests you join him downstairs in his study immediately."



"I'll be there in a moment." Styxx shut the door and finished dressing, making sure to cover the cuts he'd made in his forearm with the thick gold cuffs he wore for decoration then went to see what his father wanted.



The instant he entered the room, a feeling of dread consumed him.



This won't please you, boy. His father gestured toward the chair in front of him.



Shit.



Styxx sat down while everyone withdrew to leave them alone.



Double shit.



Worse than the haste with which the room was vacated was the expression on the king's face. One of controlled fury that had never boded well for Styxx in the past. "Father?"



"What is this I hear about your interference with the soldiers' pensions?"



Interference? He'd merely seen to it that they'd been paid properly. "They weren't getting what was owed them."



"Pensions are only awarded to those who are killed in battle."



"I know."



"Then why did you authorize payment to be given to those killed in a whorehouse?"



"They-"



"You do not speak!" his father roared. "You listen!"



I thought you wanted me to answer....



"Have you any idea the drain you've put on our resources?"



Styxx kept his gaze on the floor.



"Have you?"



"You told me not to speak."



His father backhanded him. "I should have you whipped for going behind my back as you've done and draining my finances with such frivolity. How dare you!" He growled furiously then kicked at Styxx's chair. "Get up!"



Careful to keep his expression blank, Styxx stood.



"Since you think it's funny to spend my money so recklessly, I'm selling your farm and your horse."



The farm he'd bought with his own coin from the blood of his own brow and back ... for Bethany.



Styxx ground his teeth as pain racked him. But he didn't dare let it show. He knew better.



"You are being stripped of your military rank. And your armor, hoplon, and swords were sold and melted down this morning. Furthermore, you are cut off financially. Since I can't trust you to spend wisely, I'll treat you as I do Ryssa. You will have to come begging to me for every obolos, and then only if I deem your need worthy will you get one. I'm increasing your daily obligations for work and you will pay back every single bit you authorized paid for such rampant stupidity. Now what have you to say for yourself?"



Don't do it....



Stay silent.



But he couldn't. He was too raw and angry. Glaring at his father, he pulled the gold cuffs off and slammed them down on his father's desk. Next he removed his fibula and chlamys then his shoes.



The king curled his lip. "What are you doing?"



"This is about punishing me, is it not? You're stripping me of everything I own to pay for your soldiers. Fine. Take it. Sell it all. I don't want it, anyway." Styxx dropped his silk chiton to the floor. With his gaze locked on his father's, he jerked his signet ring off and slammed it down next to the cuffs.



Completely naked and with what little pride he possessed, he turned and walked out of the room. Ignoring everyone who turned to gape at his horrifically scarred and marked body and speculate over it, Styxx headed out the main doors and descended the steps.



With no place else to go and too sick to walk very far today, he went to the barracks. Thankfully, they were empty of Didymosian soldiers.



Galen rose to his feet as soon as he saw him nearing his headquarters. "Oh dear gods, son..." Pulling his cloak off, he wrapped it around Styxx. "What happened?"



"Nothing."



Galen frowned, but didn't question him further as he guided Styxx into a chair. "Your eye should have had stitches."



"I know. But there was no one there for it."



Galen poured a cup of wine and handed it to him. Then he went to fetch him clothes.



Styxx didn't say a word as he dressed. Unfortunately, Galen's shoes were too small for freakishly large feet. "Would it be all right if I bunked with you for the night?"



"Of course, son. You know you're always welcome wherever I am."



"Thank you, Master Galen."



"Highness-"



Styxx held his hand up to stop him. "I've been disowned, Galen."



His old mentor gaped. "What?" he asked incredulously. "When they came for your armor and equipment this morning, I thought it was for you to be dressed in it."



He shook his head. "I've been decommissioned. The king has sold off my armor."



"This is outrageous! Why?"



Styxx refused to tell him the reason. Galen would feel guilty for his part in it and Galen was not at fault at all. "It doesn't matter."



"You should go to your Bethany."



"She's gone, Galen. She left me ... a while ago." Styxx bit back a sob at the loss of the only thing that really mattered to him.



That and his horse. He was really going to miss Troian. Bethany more, but he'd been through a lot with that horse.



"What can I get for you?"



"I'm fine, Master Galen."



"You're not fine, Styxx. I'm old, not stupid."



"And I'm stupid and not old."



Galen laughed at him. "You look like you've been swallowed by Charybdis and spat back out. Come with me and lie down and rest for awhile."



Styxx started to argue, but he had a bad fever and vicious sore throat from being chilled last night after his fight with Acheron. Coughing, he followed Galen to his quarters.



Styxx lay down on the bed and Galen pulled the covers up around him and tucked them close to his body. Strange, it was the only time in his life someone had done this for him.



"Sleep if you can. I'll be back to check on you soon."



"Thank you, Galen." Closing his eyes, Styxx tried to sleep, but it was useless. Too many voices and too many bad memories tormented him. And the worst were the memories of a gentle hand in his hair that he'd never know again.