“Don’t mock me, man,” he says, getting up, going over to the mirror. He scratches at an imaginary mark on his chin, turns away.
“It’s no use,” I say suddenly.
“I’m too young,” he says. “Duh.”
“I can’t even remember when I met you,” I say, quietly, then I look up at him.
“What?” he asks, surprised. “You expect me to remember?” He drops the sheet and, nude, walks back to the toilet and sits down and takes a swig from the bottle of white wine. I notice a scar on the inside of his thigh and I reach out and touch his leg. He pulls back, takes a drag on the joint. My hand stays there, in space, and I bring it back, embarrassed.
“Would a smart person make fun of me for asking you what you’re thinking?”
“I have—” He stops, then slowly continues. “I have been thinking about how awful it was, losing my virginity.” He pauses. “I have been thinking about that all day.”
“It usually is when you lose it to a truck driver.” A long, hateful pause. I turn away. “That was stupid.” I want to touch him again but sip Chardonnay instead.
“What makes you so f**king perfect?” His eyes narrow, the jaw sets. He gets up, bends over, picks up the sheet, walks back into the bedroom. I get up out of the tub and dry off and, a little drunk, walk into the room, naked, holding the bottle of wine and my glass, and I get under the sheet with him. He turns channels. I do not know why he is here or where we met and he’s lying next to me, naked, gazing at videos.
“Does your husband know about this?” he asks, a tone of false amusement. “He says the divorce isn’t finalized. He says he’s not your ex.”
I don’t move, don’t answer, for a moment I don’t see Danny or anything else in the room.
“Well?”
I need another glass of wine but I force myself to wait a few minutes before I pour it. Another video. Danny hums along with it. I remember sitting in a car in the parking lot of the Galleria and William holding my hand.
“Does it matter?” I say once the video ends. I close my eyes, easily pretend that I’m not here. When I open them it’s darker in the room and I look over at Danny and he’s still staring at the TV. A photograph of L.A. at night is on the screen. A red streak flies over the neon landscape. The name of a local radio station appears.
“Do you like him?” Danny asks.
“No. I really don’t.” I sip the wine, easing toward tired. “Do you like … him?”
“Who? Your husband?”
“No,” I say. “Biff, Boff, Buff, whatever.”
“What?”