“Nicholas didn’t have one, I don’t think,” Alex said. “Jocelyn said that Stephan gave them to the Keeper’s he marked.”
“I still can’t believe it…all this time…my mom….” I shook my head, thinking about before, when I knew nothing about her—when I thought she was dead—and I use to wonder what kind of a person she had been. And now I had her back, but it turns out she was marked with evil.
“Gemma.” Alex voice was cautious. “I think you should go talk to your mom about this…there are some other things you need to know and I think you should hear them from her.”
“Bad things?” I asked, even though I was sure they were.
He wavered momentarily. “Not necessary bad things, but things you need to know.”
I nodded and got to my feet. “Where is she?”
He pointed over his shoulder at the stairs. “Up in Marco and Sophia’s old room.”
He gave me one more look that made me feel like I was some sort of Greek Goddess shimmering in the sunlight, and then I headed off up the stairs to go chat about the dark side with my mom.
She looked miserable, lying on the floor, bound to the wall by chains. What I was wondering, though, was where all the stuff came from? The hooks in the wall that held the chains—the chains themselves. Had Marco and Sophia owned this stuff or had someone went out and bought them?
Her head was resting on a pillow, her brown hair a tangled mess. Her eyes were shut and she was breathing softly.
I shut the door behind me and her eyes shot open.
“Sorry, I didn’t mean to wake you up,” I said apologetically.
She sat up and I went over and sat cross-legged on the floor in front of her. We both stared at one another, not knowing where to start.
“I’m sorry, Gemma,” she finally said with a guilty look on her face.
I traced a star pattern in the carpet with my finger. “It’s okay. I understand you couldn’t say anything about the mark to me.” I paused. “But there’s one thing I don’t understand. How is it you’re marked, yet you went to The Underworld to protect me?And how was it you could tell us all those things that day—about the ending of the world? Shouldn’t the mark have stopped you?”
She shook her head. “There are always loopholes, Gemma.”
“You keep saying that, but it doesn’t make sense to me at all.”
“I know. Some things are hard to understand and even harder to explain.” She rested her head back against the wall. “Sometimes my mind gets all cloudy as if it doesn’t belong to me, and I say words that aren’t my own.” She traced the cut of the Blood Promise on the palm of her hand. “It’s not cloudy right now, but it won’t last forever.”
“The Blood Promise won’t?” I asked.
She shook her head sadly. “I won’t.”
She was freaking me out. “What do you mean? You’re not leaving me again, are you?”
She didn’t answer right away, and when she did speak, she dodged around my question. “Remember how you told me that you saw the vision of Stephan forcing me into the lake.”
I nodded. “How could I forget?”
She smiled, but it was forced. “Well, you didn’t understand the vision completely—there were things that happened that confused you.”
“Like what?” I asked.
She let out a sigh. “Stephan didn’t force me into the lake, like he—and you—thought. I went in there on my own….I chose to go to The Underworld on my own.”
I was shaking my head. “No, you didn’t…I saw him force you to go in there.”
She reached for my hand, the chains dragging across the floor. “No, you didn’t. That’s what it may have looked like, but that’s not what happened.” I was still shaking my head as she continued on, “I’ve always had this gift....kind of like super willpower, and for the longest time, even after Stephan marked me, it stayed with me—made me strong.”
“How did he mark you?” I asked. “How did he mark everyone? Didn’t anyone fight back?”
“That’s hard to do when there are Death Walker’s there,” she explained, her blue eyes drifting off into empty space. “He picked us off one by one…And some didn’t make it out alive…like Laylen’s parents.”
“I—I—But he told me his parents died in a car accident right after you were sent to The Underworld?”
“No, they died putting up a fight when Stephan ambushed them.”
I swallowed hard. “Does Laylen know this?”
She shook her head. “There is a lot of memory tampering that has gone on throughout the years, including with Laylen.”
I remembered Laylen mentioning memory loss once, when he had been changed into a vampire, and he couldn’t remember how.
“But why did you want to go to The Underworld?” I asked, fearing her answer. “Why would you ever want to go to a place like that? So full of death and torture?”
“Because I could feel Stephan gaining control over me,” she whispered. “I was the hardest to gain control over. Even after he marked me, he still couldn’t get me to do things, especially when it came to you. But he kept working and breaking me down and finally I felt it diminishing—my gift. I knew it wouldn’t be long before I wouldn’t have the say, and I just couldn’t do it—I couldn’t just stand around and watch them detach your soul and ruin your life.”
“So you decided just to leave me then?” I was trying not to get angry, but it was hard. “Even though you knew they would still take away my soul?”
“I’m sorry.” She tightened her grip on my hands, her bright blue irises pressing me to understand. “But even if I stayed, it would have happened.”
So that was it. My mom had never sacrificed her life to try and save mine. She had sacrificed it so she wouldn’t have to watch my life get ruined.