She swayed in her harness. Eyes hazed and nipples hard. A trickle of her release glittered on her inner thigh.

As my hands went to my belt and undid the loop, I made yet another colossal mistake.

The worst one yet.

I allowed our eyes to lock.

I allowed myself to see.

To see the same thing in her that had grown unavoidable in me.

Something that shouldn’t exist. A demon that began in the heart and slowly ate its way through mind, sense, and soul.

Despite everything that I’d done. Despite our roles in each other’s lives…that demon had grown. Mirroring pieces that looked a lot like budding, unfurling, dangerous, treacherous love—

No.

No fucking way.

I backed away.

I tripped.

My phone alarm went off.

Announcing it was time for Eleanor to be fucked by Roy Slater.

Chapter Twenty-Six

I COULDN’T KEEP UP.

Two moments ago, Sully had his tongue between my legs, his touch inside me, and a blistering orgasm—invoked purely by emotion and connection, instead of that cursed elixir—had ricocheted through me.

Now, a stranger stood before me. A man with an unreadable face, black-blue eyes, and an ever blacker mood.

Wrenching the trolley to stop beside me, he opened the boxes he’d used during my first preparation for Euphoria.

My heart cracked as he poured oil into his hands and spread it over my body. Clinical and angry, no lingering over the parts of me that throbbed for his attention.

Once the oil gleamed, he inserted the earbuds, the eye lenses, the astringent scent under my nose, and made me swill with whatever magic that changed my sense of taste. His hands were icy as he clutched my fingers and placed the sensor pads on each. His nostrils flared as he ensured the harness that another one of his staff had placed on me was locked securely.

Part of me swelled with tears. The other part snarled with anger.

How dare he kiss me? How dare he bring me to an orgasm? How dare he drag feelings I didn’t want to face to the surface and then witness those feelings bobbing like a capsized boat in my eyes, waving a white flag in surrender, begging him to save me.

For a second, I’d thought he’d scoop me up and release me from my position of whore. I envisioned a conversation that unknotted the twisted, tightening, electrifying rope between us. I’d seen a mirroring boat in his gaze, packed full of similar feelings. But unlike mine offering surrender, his was a pirate ship ready to plunder.

Raking a hand through his hair, he refused to look at me as he stepped back and pulled up an app on his phone.

He’d prepared me so fast, I couldn’t see very well through the lenses. My vision hadn’t accepted them yet. My ears rebelled against the hushed world behind the buds. My fingers itched to feel truth not lies.

I didn’t want to go into Euphoria like this.

I didn’t want to go in at all.

I didn’t want another man to touch me after Sully had made me come.

It made me feel dirty and worthless. A coin passed from one billionaire’s pocket to another. Useless and unwanted.

With the app open, Sully placed his phone onto the trolley, then swallowed hard and pulled the dreaded vial from his pocket.

I cringed away, fighting against the imprisonment of the harness. “Sully…please. Don’t.” I searched his sea-blue gaze for any sign of what he’d shown before. Any hint that I might not be the only one drowning beneath such horrors. But his eyes were closed off, impenetrable, resolute.

Stepping into me, he pulled the stopper out and cupped the back of my head.

Wordlessly, he held the vial to my lips.

I clamped them shut and shook my head, pleading silently to stop.

His chest heaved as his fingers dug into the back of my head. He fisted a handful of hair, and with a sadistic yank, he pulled my head back, igniting pain over my scalp.

With my lips open in a soundless scream, he tipped the elixir onto my tongue.

I wasn’t fast enough to spit this time.

His large hand clamped over my mouth, pinching my nose at the same time.

Our eyes locked again, but unlike last time, our roles were very clear. No muddy guesses or tentative hope that this meant more. Just tyrannical clarity that I was his to use, rent, abuse.

I swallowed.

I swallowed the elixir, my stupid hope, my eternal optimism, and most of all, I swallowed any unruly affection until I could no longer feel its fluttering wings in my belly.

I wanted it to die.

Forever.

With a tortured noise in his chest, he ran his thumb along the seam of my lips, gathering up whatever lingered. With a darkness etching his eyes, he placed his thumb into his own mouth as if tasting the residue of elixir he’d fed me.

His eyes snapped closed.

My heart quickened.

Maybe, he wouldn’t go through with it. Perhaps, he’d keep me—

He snatched his phone from the trolley.

And before I could speak, he pressed the button.

The world went white.

My system overloaded.

I traded real world for illusion.

Chapter Twenty-Seven

I WASN’T A MAN.

I was pure rage.

Rage and confusion and turbulence.

Churning storms full of blurring lines and major fuck ups.

A monster with a heart that’d suddenly remembered how to care.

I cared about her.

I wanted her.

I love—

Fuck.

Fuck.

Fuck!

Chapter Twenty-Eight

I STOOD ON A doorstep.

A simple, suburban doorstep in a cookie-cutter neighbourhood. I glanced around, trying to figure out what the hell this meant. A potted pansy rested by the front door, bright red paint highlighted the entry, and a perfectly mowed lawn swept all the way to a snowy white fence and flamingo-shaped letterbox.

I tried to stay focused on the strangeness of this normal world, but a dangerous bubbling had already begun in my blood. An insidious hint that the elixir Sully had poured down my throat had attached itself to my nervous system and begun its swift takeover.

Biting the inside of my cheek, I fought it as best I could.

I tried to understand this new universe.

I didn’t know what I’d expected, but I’d braced myself for another cave. Another fire crackling, blizzard blowing, mildew painted prehistoric cave. I shuddered at the thought of another caveman coming to mount me without any introduction.

A moan tried to claw up my throat as my nipples hardened and a flush of heat worked its way down my belly to my core. Wild need licked under my skin, searching for relief.

Hugging myself, I tried to contain the bubbles and rapidly pinging lust within. I hadn’t prepared to find myself standing on some stoop with sun that felt so real beaming on my skin and the squeals of kids playing on their bike down the road.

Where was the man I’d been sent to?

Who would help me when I could no longer function as a girl and became a writhing creature instead?

Please…

My pussy clenched on nothing, sending another flood of heat through my insides.

Oh, God.

Sully might’ve given me an orgasm before my arrival, but it wouldn’t be enough. One would never be enough.

I need…