Wedding Night
“Lottie? Lotts?”
“Oh, Fliss …” She erupts into a massive sob. “I really, really thought he was going to propooooooose.…”
“Oh God. Oh, Lottie.” I cradle the phone, wishing it was her. “Lottie, sweetheart—”
“I spent three whole years with him and I thought he loved me and wanted babeeeeees.… But he didn’t! He didn’t!” She’s crying as bitterly as Noah does when he scrapes his knee. “And what am I going to do now? I’m thirty-threeeee.…” Now she’s hiccuping.
“Thirty-three is nothing,” I say quickly. “Nothing! And you’re beautiful and you’re lovely—”
“I even bought him a riiiiiing.”
She bought him a ring? I stare at the phone. Did I hear that right? She bought him a ring?
“What kind of ring?” I can’t help asking. I imagine her presenting Richard with some sparkly sapphire in a box.
Please don’t say she presented him with a sparkly sapphire in a box.
“Just, you know.” She sniffs defensively. “A ring. A manly engagement ring.”
A manly engagement ring? No. Uh-uh. Doesn’t exist.
“Lotts,” I begin tactfully. “Are you sure Richard is the engagement-ring type? I mean, could that have put him off?”
“It was nothing to do with the ring!” She erupts into sobs again. “He never even saw the ring! I wish I’d never bought the bloody thing! But I thought it would be fair! Because I thought he’d bought one for meeeeeeee!”
“OK!” I say hastily. “Sorry!”
“It’s fine.” She calms down a little. “I’m sorry. I don’t mean to have a meltdown.…”
“Don’t be silly. What else am I here for?”
It’s awful to hear her so upset. Of course it is. Ghastly. But secretly I can’t help feeling a bit relieved too. The façade is down. Her denial has cracked. This is good. This is progress.
“Anyway, I’ve decided what to do, and I feel so much better. It’s all fallen into place, Fliss.” She blows her nose noisily. “I feel like I have a purpose. A plan. A goal.”
My ears twitch. Uh-oh. A “goal.” That’s one of my post-breakup alarm-bell terms. Along with “project,” “change of direction,” and “amazing new friend.”
“Right,” I say cautiously. “Great! So … um … what’s your goal?”
My mind is already scurrying around the possibilities. Please not another piercing. Or another crazy property purchase. I’ve talked her out of quitting her job so many times, it can’t be that again, surely?
Please not move to Australia.
Please not “lose a stone.” Because 1) she’s skinny already, and 2) last time she went on a diet, she made me be her “buddy” and instructed me to phone up every half hour and say, “Keep to the plan, you fat bitch,” then complained when I refused.
“So, what is it?” I press her as lightly as I can, my entire body screwed up with dread.
“I’m going to fly to San Francisco on the first flight I can get and surprise Richard and propose!”
“What?” I nearly drop the phone. “No! Bad idea!”
What’s she planning to do, burst into his office? Wait on his doorstep? Kneel down and present him with the so-called “manly” engagement ring? I can’t let this happen. She’ll be utterly humiliated and devastated and I’ll have to pick up the pieces afterward.
“But I love him!” She sounds totally hyper. “I love him so much! And if he can’t see that we’re meant to be together, then surely I have to show him! Surely it has to be me who makes the move! I’m on the Virgin Atlantic website right now. Should I get premium economy? Can you get me a discount?”
“No! Do not book a flight to San Francisco,” I say in the firmest, most authoritative tones I can muster. “Close down your computer. Step away from the internet.”
“But—”
“Lottie, face it,” I say more gently. “Richard had his chance. If he’d wanted to get married, it would be happening.”
I know what I’m saying sounds harsh. But it’s true. Men who want to get married propose. You don’t need to read the signs. They propose and that’s the sign.
“But he just doesn’t realize he wants to get married!” she says eagerly. “He just needs persuading. If I just gave him a little nudge …”
Little nudge? Bloody great elbow in the ribs, more like.