Scarlet inhaled sharply to dispel another wave of nausea that hit her. She looked down at Logan who was happily eating his breakfast and cursed the school for sending him home with all sort of viruses. This was the second of its kind that she had caught, and she was doing her best to ignore the symptoms. After the company had been bought out by Lucas, she had decided to take an extended vacation to deal with her family issues. It had been two months since she reconciled with Lucas and they were still figuring out how things worked. They now spent most of their nights together and she had begun learning to deal with not having her son over the weekends, it was hard sharing but she loved the relationship that had developed between Logan and Lucas. They hadn’t signed any papers as yet because of Lucas’ lawyers but she thought it was time Logan learned Lucas was his father

There was a knock on the door and she rushed over to answer it. She looked through the peephole and saw her sister Cecile.

“Open up!” her sister shouted

She opened the door and found a smiling Cecile looking up at her.

“Wow, what happened to you?” Cecile asked

“Logan needs a more sanitary school” she replied

“I agree” Cecile replied

“What’s up,” Scarlet asked as she walked into the apartment

“I got my grades,” Cecile said, “all A’s and I have an exhibition coming up in two days. You have to come.”

“I’ll be there” she replied

“Alright so how are things with you and Luas, last I heard you two finally got this co-parenting thing going.”

“Yes, we have” Scarlet admitted.

She was both happy and sad. It was great that Logan had his father but the more time she spent with Lucas the more she loved him. He was a great man and she saw the love he had for his son. She couldn’t have imagined a better version of him. The only problem was that she didn’t think he loved her and she didn’t think it would be wise to reveal her feelings and mess up the tenuous bonds they had created.

“How do you feel about him now?” Cecile asked

“I have no idea” she replied, “I still love him but now I don’t know if it makes sense to feel that way seeing that we can’t ever be in love.”

“That’s not true” Cecile replied, “you should talk to him, see what he has to say.”

Scarlet was about to say something when another bout of nausea hit her. She rushed to the bathroom and emptied the egg sandwich she had managed to scarf down a few minutes before.

“Yikes, what did Logan bring home?” Cecile said coming into the bathroom and handing her a towel.

“I have no idea, but I’m moving him,” Scarlet said wiping sweat from her forehead.

“Is he sick too?” Cecile asked

“No, he’s fine” Scarlet replied, “I’m the only one who’s sensitive to these things.”

“So how do you know it’s a stomach flu?” Cecile asked

“These are the symptoms of it” she replied, “I’m tired all the time and I’m sick all the time.”

Cecile looked up at her skeptically and Scarlet felt a bit uncertain,

“Scarlet,” she said, “how is it that you’ve been pregnant before and you still can’t tell that you’re pregnant.”

“Wait what?” she asked incredulously “I’m not pregnant”

“You’re so pregnant.” Lianne said with a smirk, “wait, is it Lucas’ baby again!”

“Oh god,” Scarlet said lolling her head back. She was mortified.

“I have a pregnancy test n my bag, let me get it,” Cecile said

“Wait why do you have a test in your bag?” Scarlet asked as her sister ran out of the bathroom

“For moments like this” Cecile said from the sitting room.

She came into the bathroom and handed the box to Scarlet. Ripping it open., Scarlet looked over at her sister who was still standing there and watching her

“I see you vomit, I can see you pee?” She said

Scarlet shrugged and flushed the toilet before sitting down to pee. It took her a while to get anything out but finally, the test was complete, and they sat to wait the five minutes it would take the results to come through. It was the longest five minutes of her life and she prayed that the test wouldn’t come back positive.

Before she could take it up, Cecile grabbed it and stepped away from her.

“Now, before I tell you the results, you need to promise that you’ll tell him your feelings.” She said

“I can’t make any promises,” Scarlet said,

“Promise me,” Lianne said,

“I’ll talk to him about it,” she said

She grabbed the test from her sister’s hand and held it to her chest.

“I’ll talk to him eventually,” Scarlet said

She smiled but when she looked down, her smile turned to a frown. She was pregnant, and the obvious father was Lucas. How was it that she managed to get pregnant for the same guy twice? What were the odds that her one-night stand would turn out so tragically?

“I was right,” Scarlet said looking down at her.

“Unfortunately,” Scarlet replied

“You should talk to him” Lianne replied, “he may feel the same.”

Scarlet sighed. She couldn’t talk to Lucas just yet. He was out of the country for the next three days and she didn’t think this was the type of conversation they should have over the phone.

“I’ll talk to him when he gets back,” she said more to herself than to Cecile, “for now just keep this between us please.”

She would talk to him and then she would have another of his children. At least they had developed a good enough relationship to continue co-parenting. Even with these reassuring thoughts running through her mind, she still couldn’t help the sadness that engulfed her when she realized that she was building a family with the man she loved yet still he would never be hers. It was a hard pill to swallow and even harder to accept. Maybe she could start the process of letting him go once she had this baby, maybe she could find love elsewhere. She banished the thought; as long as Lucas was in her life, she could love no-one else.