CHAPTER FOURTEEN
It’s time to find out how close my father is to drowning in trouble, and maybe my brother right along with him. I enter the house, stepping into the half-moon-shaped foyer. The stairwell directly in front of me is made of the same gray wood that is beneath my feet and leads upstairs to a cluster of rooms, one of which is the bedroom I’d once called my own. The glistening teardrop lights of a chandelier dangle from the ceiling high above me, another of my mother’s personal touches to the house, proving she still dwells within these walls. But there is more than my mother here right now. Pocher is gone, but not absent.
Shutting the door firmly behind me, I slip off my coat and hang it on the steel coatrack designed to look like the Eiffel Tower. To my left is an archway revealing the library. To the right, sealed white double doors leading to my father’s office, where I am certain he would have met with Pocher, and I resist the urge to charge in there and make demands. As much as I like demands and often find that they shock people into reactions that tell more than their words, they have to be properly timed. In other words, bitch that it is when I’m feeling as impatient for answers as I am tonight, I’ll start the night out with observation and restraint. Not quite as exciting as the alternative, but in this case, necessary.
I head toward my father’s office, the doors opening as I approach. He joins me in the foyer, his black slacks and white shirt fitted, expensive, and endearingly rumpled. And as most fathers would, be they good or bad at parenting, he reacts to my presence, his blue eyes alight as they fall on me. “Lilah,” he greets me, closing the small space between us and pulling me close, his big arms wrapping around me.
This, I think, as he hugs me tight and I hug him as well, is a good-parenting moment, and I find myself transported back, at least momentarily, to a gentler place and time, to my youth when I’d thought him able of saving me from the monsters in the closet. But now I know those monsters are not dragons and trolls but serial killers and rapists. And no one can save me but me.
Done with fairy tales, pretty much now and forever, I pull back, but my father doesn’t let me escape, his hands settling on my upper arms the way my brother’s had last night, while he, as Andrew had, gives me a fast once-over. “You look good, baby girl,” he declares.
The thing about my father is that he’s charming, a perfect politician, even before he held office. Everyone looks beautiful to him, even if they aren’t. Even when they look too thin, as everyone has told me that I do. “Thank you, Dad,” I say, despite the certainty he doesn’t mean the compliment, and moving past that, I stroke the hair at my temple to indicate his hairline. “I do believe you’re going gray by your ears.”
“Indeed I am,” he says, releasing me to touch the offending areas with his fingertips. “I’m getting old,” he adds, the laugh that follows low, warm, as inviting as always, and part of the reason people like him so damn much.
“You’re fifty-seven, Dad,” I say. “That’s not old. And you look great.” I pat my flat belly. “Fit and trim. Not even a beer belly for me to tease you about.” And digging for what influences are in his life now, I wiggle a brow. “Does that mean there’s a lady friend about?”
“No one worthy of my daughter,” he assures me, dodging that question, but with as much charm as I expect from him, of course.
“He means no one that can handle his daughter.”
At the sound of Andrew’s voice, Dad and I rotate to find him joining us. Andrew’s dark jeans are now paired with a black New York Giants tee rather than his uniform shirt. “He’s dating,” he informs me. “But no one seems to make an appearance beyond a few dates.”
Dad rubs his always-clean-shaven chin. “Being mayor of this town isn’t as easy as it looks. It’s small, but it packs one hell of a punch.”
Seeing an opening, I take it. “With men like Pocher coming around for favors, I imagine it does and he does.”
“Pocher doesn’t ask for favors,” he replies a little too quickly in my not-so-humble opinion. “But plenty of others do,” he adds but doesn’t give me a chance to ask any of the ten questions that come to my mind, motioning me toward the hallway to the right of the stairs. “Let’s head on to dinner. Katie should be ready to serve.” His cell phone rings and he digs it from his pocket, giving it a glance. “I’ll meet you both in there.” He disappears into his office, shutting the door resolutely behind him. Shutting us out.
“Katie?” I ask, returning my attention to Andrew. “What happened to Jennifer?”
“Married and no longer in New York,” he replies, motioning for us to walk.
I fall into step with him, stunned by his explanation, considering Jennifer is sixty-something and has been with this household since we were children. “Who in the world did she marry?”
“No idea,” he says. “She just was gone one day. Didn’t even say goodbye.”
“The woman helped raise us,” I say. “How in the world can she say nothing to you?”
“She must have been swept off her feet.”
“I’d love that if it were true, but still. This isn’t strange to you?”
“Lilah,” he scolds. “Everything isn’t a crime you have to solve, little sister.”
“She’s family,” I say, walking through the archway to the dining area, and anything more I would add falls short on my lips, and not because the room has changed. It hasn’t. It’s still as long as it is wide. It still has a massive, rectangular light-oak table etched with flowers as the centerpiece. It still has a fireplace to my right and expensive artwork lining the walls. Those things fit what I know of my family home. What doesn’t fit is who’s sitting at that table. My ex–best friend Alexandra is sitting next to Eddie on the far side, facing me.
Andrew moves to sit with them, as if their presence is expected by him and acceptable. But then, he and Eddie have always been pals, while Eddie wanted to be his brother. And sure, my father might be all hugs and love right now, but I am jolted into remembering all the times I knew he’d settled for a daughter in hopes that I’d become my mother’s mini-me. Tonight, he’s stuck with me, just me, and he will soon know this and know it well.
Andrew claims the seat at the head of the table, his back to the dormant fireplace, while I hone in on Alexandra. “Why are you here?”
She shoves her long dark hair behind her ears, spine straightening and discomfort radiating from her. “I tried to tell you today—”
“Tell me what?” I snap.
“She’s my wife,” Eddie announces, sliding his arm around her shoulders, the star on his tan shirt pocket snagging her hair.
“Your wife,” I repeat, with one reaction in this moment: pissed off. Really damn pissed off, and with good reason. I walk to the table, stopping directly in front of Alexandra, and I press my palms to the surface, leaning toward her. “You set me up today,” I bite out. “You played dumb. I expect that idiocy from Eddie, but not you.”
“I didn’t set you up,” she insists. “Eddie was already meeting me for coffee and—”
“Bullshit,” I say. “You called him.”
“What the hell’s going on?” Andrew demands.
My brother’s apparent confusion tells me one of two things: A) He wasn’t in on the diner setup today; or B) He’s really damn good at lying, and Samantha fits him like a glove I didn’t think he could wear. Whatever the case, I stay focused on my bitch of an ex–best friend. “Leave,” I order her, pushing off the table, looking at Eddie, her husband, and bona fide proof that she still has shitty taste in men. “You, too. Now.”
“Lilah, damn it,” Andrew growls. “What in the hell is going on?”
“You tell me,” I say, turning to him. “Because they’re here after she baited me for information about the murder at Micki’s Diner this morning, acting as if she knew nothing when she clearly knew more than I did. Three minutes later, Eddie is at my table, trying to measure dicks with me when I don’t have a dick to think with instead of my head.” I look at Eddie. “I have something bigger. A badge. My FBI badge, and like it or not, I’m here on official business.”
“I don’t give a fuck about your FBI badge,” Eddie snaps. “This isn’t your investigation. And we have our man. Go back to LA where you belong.” He glances at Andrew. “She met with Beth without consulting me.”
Andrew’s eyes narrow on Eddie. “They’re friends, Eddie, and I told you to let me deal with Lilah.”
My gaze cuts sharply to my brother. “Deal with Lilah?”
“Don’t read into that,” Andrew cautions. “I’m simply stating the obvious. I’m the chief of police and you’re a visiting federal agent. Family aside, we’re the appropriate chain of communication. Not you and Eddie. And not you and Beth.”
“Communicate now, Chief Love,” I say. “Because I should have heard about new developments in this case before dinner at my family home.”
“Had you showed up to the press conference,” he points out. “I would have already told you.”
Doubtful, I think, but I say, “Tell me now.”
“After dinner,” he counters.
Since I won’t be eating with Eddie and his playmate Alexandra, I make a demand I manage to phrase as a question. “Do you have any real evidence on Woods? Otherwise, it looks like your detective is on a witch hunt to me.”
Andrew scrubs a hand across his jaw, light stubble rasping against his palm. “So much for ‘after dinner.’” He presses his fingers to the table. “Woods confessed but refused to turn himself in.”
“Confessed,” I repeat, finding this news a little too convenient, but I’m just not sure for who yet. “When, and to who?” I ask, proud of myself for remembering to include the question mark.
“I can answer that,” Alexandra surprises me by interjecting, drawing the room’s attention. “He left a message on my office voice mail. It was just before midnight last night.”
“And he said what?” I ask.
“He was rambling like a crazy person,” she says. “Talking like we were going to kill him.”
“Kill him? How so?”
“He talked about the murder and then said he wasn’t going to give us a chance to kill him,” she supplies.
“Is there a transcript of that call?” I ask.
“I’ll e-mail it to you,” Andrew offers.
“Tonight?” I press.
“Yes, Agent Love,” Andrew says. “Tonight.”
I smirk at the smart-ass. “Thank you, Chief Love,” I reply. “And where are we on locating Woods?”
“We,” Eddie says, “are doing this by the book and covering every possible base. And if you were going to be difficult tonight, why even come to dinner? I mean, we’re regulars here. You are not. You’re the outsider.”
I could react to this. I could tell him he’s a small-minded, small-dicked—if that is even a word—wannabe-good detective. And it would feel good. Really damn good, but I’m struck by the way he seems to be baiting me here at my father’s house, where he is normally well behaved. I mean, we insiders all know about my father’s lethal temper, easily provoked by disrespect and disorder. Two things he cannot tolerate. And where was Eddie’s car outside? And why would my father, or even my brother, who swears he wants me to return home to live, invite these two here tonight, knowing they would push me away, not pull me closer? Plus, why the hell didn’t Andrew call me about Woods today? It’s as if I was intentionally sideswiped tonight, my attention directed, if not forced, in one direction: Kevin Woods. Why is the question.
My conversation with Kane returns to me:
“There are rumors about your father but not your brother.”
I blanch. “What? My father? What about my father?”
“His run for a higher office and favors promised to the wrong people.”
I’m going to go out on a limb and assume that my father doesn’t want me to dig into his business. He wants me focused on Woods, not him. It might not be the case, but my gut, my best friend in times like these, says that’s exactly what is going on right now. My lips thin and I push off the table, and turn, walking toward the door my father has yet to enter. “Lilah,” Andrew calls out. “Where the hell are you going?”
I don’t stop walking. I enter the hallway and head toward my father’s office, only to have him meet me halfway. “What’s wrong?” he asks, looking concerned, but that’s a practiced skill for my father, and that’s exactly what his reaction strikes me as—practiced.
I stop in front of him. “Is Pocher backing you for a run as New York governor?”
To his credit if I’ve sideswiped him as I believe he did me, he doesn’t blink, and his reply is fast and easy. “Pocher seems to think the five years I spent in the higher ranks of the NYPD is a good launchpad for a run.”
“That’s a yes,” I say. “And I assume murder, especially one taken over by the FBI, isn’t going to please Pocher or help your aspiring political career. Tell me Woods isn’t an election-launch fall guy.”
“For God’s sake,” my father growls, that temper of his flashing in his eyes. “Why must you be difficult?”
“Difficult” is what he has called me all too often as I grew up, usually when I didn’t fit into his preferred mold for me, which was most of the time. It cut then, and it cuts now, but then he knows that. Because those close to him know that if he so chooses, he can use words with exceptional skill to hurt you, and do so with the precision of a killer with a deadly blade.
“It’s called doing my job,” I reply. “And I’m good at it.”
“We have a man who confessed, Lilah. If we get Woods, we win. If this connects to another case that you’re looking to solve, you win with us. We all look good. It’s not difficult. Don’t make it that way.”
“If we get him? Or if he’s guilty?”
“Why would he confess if he didn’t do it?” he challenges.
“Why indeed, Father?” I challenge, and with that I turn and head for the door, grabbing my coat and purse. I reach for the knob, only to hear, “Lilah,” in his most authoritative, fatherly voice.
I stop but I don’t turn, several silent, heavy beats passing before he says, “Family first, daughter. Always. Don’t forget that.”
My spine stiffens at the use of my mother’s words, no doubt chosen to manipulate me, and unless I’m stupid, and I’m not stupid, there’s a distinct inference that I might need to look the other way to prove my loyalty to him. I don’t bother to reply. I open the door and leave, pulling the door shut behind me, and for several beats I stand on the porch, a chime singing in the wind, seeming to replay his words, my mother’s words: Family first. And I wonder if he’ll still feel that way when he discovers just how “difficult” I’m about to become.