Tonight was a lot of firsts for me.
First time I brought a guy back to my place.
First time I hadn't immediately drained a man after sex.
And most importantly, it was the first time I ever felt intimate with someone before.
I'd been with a lot of men before and none of them compared to Henry. It wasn't just the fact that I didn't feel the hunger with him. It was the way he made me feel like a human being again.
I had gone on for so many years thinking that I was less than human. A literal monster. That I wasn't meant for this world anymore. The thought of suicide was a daily thing. It was the only way to end the eternal struggle.
But after Henry, I couldn't imagine ever leaving this world.
I stayed up all night and watched Henry sleep. He didn't need to know yet that I could only sleep in the day time. He barely moved nor made a sound. He was completely at peace. As the hours passed and the sun began to creep up through the blinds, I wanted that moment to never end. If I ever had one wish, it would be that I could spend the rest of eternity holding her in my arms and never letting go.
Henry stirred as the sunlight hit his face. His eyes fluttered open and the biggest smile appeared across his face.
“How did you sleep?” he asked, stretching his arms above his head.
“Like a baby,” I replied. I sat up in bed. “Would you like some breakfast?”
“You actually have stuff to make breakfast here?”
I playfully shoved him. “Just because I don't have much furniture doesn't mean I don't eat.”
“What are we eating then?”
“Pancakes sound good?” I got up and put on my pair of boxers from last night. The thought of Henry sucking my cock crossed my mind. If only I could last all day, I'd have him go down on me for hours.
“I'll eat whatever you make as long I get to watch you cook because I don't believe it's possible.”
“Well then prepare to be amazed. This guy has a few tricks up his sleeve.”
Henry joined me in the kitchen as I had just finished mixing the pancake batter. He was only wearing my boxers from last night and they didn't leave much to the imagination.
“You going to do some cooking or just stare at my dick all day?”
“If I have a choice I might just choose to stare because the view is amazing.”
“You don't have a choice because last night made me extremely hungry.”
“I know what you mean.” I poured the batter onto the hot pan and paid close attention to make sure I didn't burn them.
I placed the cooked ones on a plate and handed it to Henry while I cooked mine.
“Do you have any syrup?” he asked.
“Check the bottom shelf in the door of the fridge.”
Henry walked around the counter and opened the fridge. He bent over and gave me a quick peek of his nice ass until he stood up with the maple syrup. I had to press my hips against the counter to keep how hard I was hidden.
I listened to Henry savor his first bite and it reminded me of him coming. This guy was very easy to please and I liked that.
“These are damn good pancakes. I had my doubts, Spencer, but I have to give props to the chef.”
I joined him at the kitchen island with my own stack of pancakes. “I'm glad my skills impressed you.”
“You keep cooking like that and I might not ever leave.”
“I'd definitely like to do last night and this morning over and over again.” I slipped him a charming wink.
Henry kicked my ankle with his foot. “I would too but I have some housework to do today.”
That seemed like a bullshit excuse to me. I was ready to give up all my plans to spend the day with him. I'd give up everything to spend the rest of my life with him. It also helped that I didn't have to worry about my hunger around him.
“Must be some pretty important housework to throw away the promise of future pancakes.”
Henry's face turned serious. “It's my parents' house. I've been trying to renovate it and make it look like a real home.”
“I wouldn't have thought you were so handy around the house. Must be nice to work on a project with your parents.”
“Actually they passed away. They left me this broken down shell of a house and I want to restore it to what they would've done to it.”
My heart sank. “I'm sorry. I didn't mean to be insensitive.”
“No I'm sorry, I probably should've told you sooner. But we were having such a nice night and I didn't really want to think about it.”
“Hey, I totally understand. Do you need some help?” I flexed my arms. “You might need another strong man around.”
Henry had a mouthful of pancakes and almost spit them out from laughter. “As much as I want to watch you make a fool out of yourself, this is something I kind of wanted to do on my own. To remember my parents.”
I put my hands up in surrender. “Say no more.”
I cleaned our dishes while Henry went back into the bedroom to change. I tried to find a reason to make him stay but nothing came to mind.
Henry came out fully dressed in his clothes from the club. He looked good enough to eat. I stopped him in his tracks and gathered him in my arms. I felt his knees weaken as we kissed.
“It's going to take a lot of willpower to let you leave here when you look this good.”
Henry laughed. “You're just going to have to survive without me.”
My missing hunger returned to my mind. If Henry left, it wouldn't be long before it returned. I'd never gone for so long without blood before. I didn't know how my body would react.
I could keep Henry here as my prisoner. That kind of thinking scared me. What would I be willing to do to keep the hunger at bay? He needed to leave before I did something I would regret.
“Want me to take you home?” I asked.
“Thank you but I already called a cab.”
For some reason this felt like the last time I was going to see him. I walked him over to the elevator holding his hand.
Henry took a pen out of his pocket and bit the cap off. He grabbed my hand and wrote his phone number down.
“Will you call me later?” he asked, pressing the down button.
“Nothing will stop me,” I replied.
The elevator dinged and the doors opened. Henry kissed me on the cheek and stepped into the elevator. I felt so helpless, standing there and looking deep into his eyes. I want to memorize every bit of his face in case this truly was the last time.
The doors closed and I was all alone again.