There was a knock on my door right at seven o’clock. Checking my hair in the mirror, I gave my head a quick shake and smiled. I felt my prettiest just like this. At home, fresh out of the shower, wearing jeans and mascara and a simple tank top. I loved to dress up, don’t get me wrong. But I hated feeling like I was trying too hard.

Tonight, I wasn’t trying hard at all. I felt comfortable in my skin. Sexy. Probably had something to do with the fact that Charlie seemed to very much appreciate me just being…me. Not the princess. Not the public figure. Just a woman who liked whiskey and blackjack. Who liked to talk and laugh and have a good time with a cute guy on a Friday night.

I couldn’t wait to fuck that cute guy on a Saturday night. Judging by his kiss—that was usually, though not always, a solid predictor of how a man would be in bed—Charlie was going to be a rock star. Although I had to admit I was still a bit mystified by how he’d pulled away like that. The kiss had been good. Intense.

Maybe a little too intense.

My pulse thumped at the memory of it. I needed to be careful with Charlie. He was hot. Kind. He got it. Got me in a way no one had in a long time.

Just tonight. That’s all I’d give him. We’d hang out, have some dinner, have sex. Then I’d send him on his merry way, and I’d go mine. I’d worked too hard to put myself back together. I didn’t want to risk falling apart over someone again. No matter how handsome that someone was.

I took a deep breath. Squared my shoulders. Then I opened the door.

And went into cardiac arrest when Charlie’s blue eyes flicked up to meet mine. He had a bottle of Jameson in one hand, a deck of unopened cards in the other.

Goddamn him. Of course he’d be thoughtful like that. Cute.

He was dressed in a plaid collared shirt—similar to the one he’d worn last night, but green this time—buttons undone at the throat to reveal an enticing wedge of chest. Jeans and scuffed up trainers and scruff. His hair was artlessly tousled, the strands burning gold in the intense early evening light.

He looked like a scruffier James Dean. Half hipster, half Hollywood. All handsome.

I tightened my grip on the doorknob. I’d never needed a cigarette more in my life.

His eyes went dark, went a little pained, as they moved over me. My stomach flipped. Was I upsetting him again?

“You look…” He sputtered. Shook his head. His voice had more gravel to it than usual. “Jesus Christ, Jane, you look fantastic.”

I looked at Charlie. Looked. Something was going on with him. It was obvious he was waging some kind of internal war—holding back—even though he didn’t need to. I’d told him point blank I wanted him. He wanted me, too.

So why the struggle? Maybe he was just nervous. I was, too, if I was being honest. The good kind of nervous. The kind that came from wondering how we could possibly top last night.

The kind that came from knowing we’d be naked in an hour or two. Maybe less.

“You say that like it’s a bad thing,” I replied, a little flirty. Trying to lighten the mood. I didn’t want to do deep. Not with anyone. Least of all someone as delicious as Charlie.

He shook his head again. “It’s not. You look great. I like you dressed down like this.”

I grinned. Nodded at his bared chest. “I like the chest hair.”

“Thanks.” He smiled. It was like the sun coming out from behind a cloud. “Took me thirty four years to grow it, so. Figured I should show it off.”

“I’m enjoying the view.” I stepped inside, pulling the door open a little further. “Come in, please.”

He hesitated for half a second. His eyes were on me again. They went a little hazy. My pulse went a little faster.

Then Charlie blinked, and his eyes snapped back into focus. He stepped up, stepped inside. Now that I was barefoot, he seemed so much taller than me. So much bigger. A frisson of anticipation shot up my spine. His physicality—his maleness—it scared me a little.

It turned me on.

He ducked his head and pressed a kiss to my cheek. Even this kiss was delicious. Soft. Deliberate. His scruff felt prickly against my skin.

He smelled so. Damn. Good. Like sandalwood and spice and soap.

Heaviness gathered low in my belly. An instant, slow, eviscerating pulse. I sucked a small breath through my teeth.

Charlie immediately pulled back, eyes clear with concern.

“Did my scruff get you?” he asked, moving the deck of cards to the same hand that held the Jameson so he could smooth the offending facial hair with the other.

I shook my head. Looked away. “No. No, it’s fine. I’m fine.” I reached for the whiskey. “I told you not to bring anything.”

Charlie held up the cards. “Thought you’d like to have this stuff on hand. So you could, I don’t know—ply your guests with whiskey, then steal all their money playing blackjack. Because you’re scary good at that game.”

I didn’t want to smile this hard. I didn’t want to think this was the cutest thing ever.

I didn’t want to keep liking Charlie. I wish he’d stop already—making me like him. Pressing all the right buttons.

The sooner I got this guy in bed—the less we talked—the better.

“You’re sweet. Thank you,” I said. I nodded toward the kitchen. “Dinner’s about ready. What can I get you to drink?”

Charlie picked up the bottle of chardonnay between us. Raised his brows in silent question.

I held out my glass. We’d just finished dinner out in the garden. Charlie sat across from me at the rustic farm table strewn with empty plates and a picked over chicken. A pergola of sweet-smelling wisteria arched above us, dappling the soft light that filtered through from a wide open sky. This time of year, it didn’t get dark in London until well past ten o’clock at night.

The air was soft. Warm without being humid. A rare, perfect summer evening.

Maybe that explained why my blood was dancing. Couldn’t be the chardonnay. This was only my second glass.

Or maybe it was the way Charlie was looking at me as he poured wine into my glass. His eyes were playful. Alive. Aroused, too. Just like I was.

“Honestly. Is there anything you can’t do?” he asked, setting the bottle on the table.

I grinned. “What do you mean?”

“You can shoot whiskey. Crush blackjack. You kiss like a motherfucker. And now I know you can roast the hell out of a chicken, too. Here I was, thinking princesses were only good at waving and sipping tea.” He shook his head in mock disgust. “God, I really was a douchebag.”

My blood danced a little faster at the mention of the kiss.

I looked down at my wine. I wanted to hate his thoughtfulness. But I couldn’t. Everything was so easy with him. Conversation. Kissing. Confessions.

“I thought that for a while, too,” I said.

“What?” He swallowed a sip of wine. “That I was a douche?”

“Well, yeah. When we first met at least.” He laughed. I did, too. “But no, that’s not what I’m talking about. I’m talking about me being that perfect princess. For a long time, I thought I had to be that person, especially when I was with my ex. He wanted me to be more polished. More…regal. Remote.”

“So more douchey, basically,” Charlie said with a smile.

I smiled back. “Basically. But no matter how hard I tried—and I tried bloody hard—I just couldn’t be his version of a princess. Deep down, that wasn’t who I was. Over the past couple years, I’ve discovered there’s more to me than that.”

Charlie’s gaze softened. “Funny how everyone’s so quick to judge you for what you are. So quick to—”

“Pigeon hole you.” I couldn’t resist finishing his thought. I’d had it so often myself.

“Yes.” He kept looking at me. “When really they have no idea who you are.”

I grinned. “Exactly. Yes.”

I tilted my head. I was more curious than I should’ve been about how Charlie’d come across that nugget of wisdom. I’d had to fight tooth and nail for it. I was still fighting for it.

“And who are you?” I said, leaning my arms on the table. “Outside of the obvious—the self-made billionaire from the Bay Area.”

Charlie’s eyes bore into mine. They flickered with uncertainty.

A beat of silence stretched between us. It was almost uncomfortable.

Then his mouth moved into a grin. “I’m just a guy who’s honored to have the privilege of meeting you. The real you. Not just the princess.”

Bloody hell. Did he have to be so perfect?

He was too good at this. Too good at me.

Which meant it was time to steer the evening in a different direction. Sex I could do. It allowed me to keep a safe distance. I could do physical. It was the emotional stuff that tripped me up.

I refused to let a man trip me up again.

“So first-date sex is a no-no in your gentleman’s handbook,” I said, taking a sip of wine. “But what about second-date sex?”

His eyes flicked to meet mine. He looked—

I couldn’t tell how he looked. Scared? Turned on? Conflicted? This struggle of his—what the hell was it about?

I noticed his fingers tightening around the stem of his wine glass. The knuckles were white.

“I thought we’d agreed to take things slow.”

“We agreed to a compromise,” I said. My heart skipped a beat. “Look, if you don’t want to, just tell me—”

“I want to, Jane, believe me,” he replied, scoffing roughly. “But I also want to do the right thing.”

I pulled back, confused. “Do the right thing? What’s wrong about having consensual sex with a woman who wants you?”

Those blue eyes went fiery.

A pause.

Then: “Tell me why you want me.”

The entire universe seemed to contract into the space between us.

“Because.” I swallowed. Heat pooled between my legs. “I think you’re sexy. Kind. Funny. And you have brilliant taste in whiskey.”

“You can have sex with anyone you want, Jane. Why me?”

I blinked. He was really pushing me. Pushing me to go deeper. Think harder. Be honest.

Wrong that I liked to be pushed toward those things? My ex—he’d pushed me to be someone I wasn’t. He only cared to hear the truth when it fit his worldview.

But Charlie wanted the truth, whether it served him or not.

“It’s been a while,” I said slowly. Choosing each word carefully. “Since I felt a connection like this, I mean. And that connection—it usually leads to a physical connection that’s out of this world, you know? It’s been so long since I had decent sex, Charlie. So. Bloody. Long. And I have a feeling you’d be decent at it.”

His nostrils flared.

“I’d be better than that,” he said after a beat.

The desire between my legs pulsed. My eyes moved to his mouth. That mouth. Perfect, expressive, pillowy lips. White teeth. A tongue that had worked wonders last night.

“Is that a yes?” I said, suddenly breathless.

He looked at me for another beat. Then another.

“I want you to know that I tried to do the right thing, Jane,” he said at last.

I blinked. What the hell did that mean?

“What if the right thing is fucking me as well and as hard as you can? We barely know each other,” I said. “You don’t know what I’ve been through. What I really need. So I’m telling you what I need, Charlie. Fuck me. Please.”

We looked at each other. And looked. The air blooming with sexual tension.

“All right,” he said on an exhale.

I set my glass on the table. He did the same, settling his palms on either side of it.

We moved to our feet at the same time, chairs scraping against the brick pavers.

Charlie started gathering the plates.

“Leave it,” I said.

He paused. “You sure?”

The question hung in the space between us. Yes. No.

“I’m sure,” I said. Then I grabbed his hand and led him inside.