Stalker
Jack
When she finally walked into the kitchen wearing nothing but my T-shirt, I almost turned her ass around and marched her right back into the bedroom. Ignoring the throbbing in my shorts, I stared into her nearly empty refrigerator. “You have no food,” I complained, closing the door.
“I eat out a lot.” She shrugged. “But I have cereal. And bread.”
She put four slices of bread in the toaster, and I led her by the hand to the kitchen table, pulling her chair out for her. I placed an empty bowl and spoon in front of her, followed by the milk and a box of cereal. Then I sat next to her, filling my bowl to the top with the crunchy shit.
“Can I hear about the stalking now,” she pleaded as she poured milk into her bowl.
“First of all, Kitten, you have to understand that I made myself a compromise. I had to put you in the back of mind until the season was over. I knew that if I lost both baseball and you, I’d have nothing in my life. I’d never be able to survive that much loss.”
I was sure she understood this, knowing me as well as she did, but it still needed to be said. The mere thought of not having baseball or my Kitten gutted me inside and left me hollow.
“I get that.” Her eyes softened with understanding before narrowing devilishly. “Now get to the stalking.”
Slowly I spooned a large heaping of cereal into my mouth before saying another word. My pace of storytelling was torturing her and I knew it. I liked having the upper hand in a situation where I really had no hand at all. I was lucky she didn’t slam the door in my face last night. Normally not one for second chances, this girl broke all her rules for me. I’d give her anything she fucking wanted. I’d answer every question twice if she needed me too.
“You’re stalling,” she said, rising from her chair to grab the toast.
My compromise ended the moment we lost the last home game and our postseason finished. I had two weeks to pack up my temporary apartment in Arizona and move out. I didn’t have very many things there since most of my stuff still sat unattended at the house in Alabama. The house I’d shared with that bitch Chrystle. I knew I’d have to head back there to pack it all up before my life could move forward again, but I dreaded the very thought. If I could help it, I’d never step foot in that fucking state again. Thank God Alabama doesn’t have a major league baseball team.
Grabbing a bottle of water, I walked into the living room and fell onto the couch. I reached for my cell, searching for my lawyer’s name in my contacts. I selected his number, pressed Call, and relaxed into the cushions, pushing my head into the pillows.
“Hey, Jack, what’s up?” Marc’s voice rang out loudly, cutting through the noise in the background.
“Do you have a minute? I need to talk to you.”
“Of course. Hold on a sec.” With the slamming of a door, the previous distractions were silenced. “OK, I’m here. What’s going on? Are you OK?”
I nodded, forgetting for a minute that he couldn’t see me through the phone. “Yeah. I just want to talk to you about what I need to do to end the marriage.”
“Right,” Marc responded quickly, and then I heard him typing. “OK. So, obviously your two options are a divorce or an annulment.”
I realized my jaw was clenched, and I tried to relax it. The fact that I was even having this conversation pissed me off. “An annulment means the marriage never happened, right?”
“Yes, but you can only file for one under certain circumstances.” He continued typing.
“Chrystle lied about being pregnant,” I said, longing to make this bullshit marriage disappear completely. I hated waiting this long to deal with everything, but I couldn’t take the necessary steps during baseball season. If I needed to be in court to testify or make a statement, I wouldn’t be available while we were in play-offs. My personal life outside of my baseball had to wait.
“I know.” The rapid tapping continued as I waited. “OK, here’s the deal. We’ll file the dissolution of marriage under the fraud category, and the burden of proof is on us, if necessary. I’ll file the paperwork first thing tomorrow morning. It should be a no-brainer.”
I sucked in a deep breath. “Awesome. Thank you, Marc.”
“You’re welcome.”
“So, is there anything else I have to do? How long does it take?”
“You don’t need to do anything yet. I’ll find out if you have to make a legal statement in front of a judge or not. As soon as Chrystle signs it, we submit the paperwork, and it should only take a few weeks to finalize.”
“Shit. Seriously? Only a few weeks?” My mouth dropped open before transforming into a huge grin.
“Yeah. It’s just a process, but it’s not a long one. I’ll be in touch.”
“Alright. Thanks again, Marc. Talk to you later.” I pressed End before tossing my phone onto the coffee table and reaching for my laptop.
Only a few weeks. Fuck, yes!
I opened my Internet browser and typed a name in the online search engine: “Cassie Andrews.”
When a ridiculous amount of options appeared, I narrowed down my search: “Cassie Andrews photographer.”
Her name came up first with a link to her new position in New York. I clicked it and found myself on a page filled with her contact information. I scrambled for a pen and something to write on, as if I didn’t get it down on paper immediately, it would disappear forever and I’d never get it back. I jotted down her work number, followed by her work e-mail address just in case.
Just in case what?
You cannot call her until you have your shit together. Until Chrystle is out of your life for good. No calling or e-mailing Cassie until you’re rid of all your baggage.
I glanced at the clock on my DVD player. Eight p.m. That made it eleven in New York.
I thought we just covered this?
Desperation coursed through me at the very idea of hearing how she sounded. I suddenly needed to hear Cassie’s voice. Convinced there was no way she’d still be in the office, I dialed her work number, my heart thundering in my chest with each ring.
“You’ve reached the desk of Cassie Andrews, junior photographer.”
My abs contracted as the sound of her voice coursed into my ear.
“I’m sorry I missed your call, but please leave me a detailed message and I’ll return it as soon as possible. If this is urgent, please press zero to return to reception. Thank you.”
A beep played, and I quickly pressed the End button on my cell, my breathing ragged. She sounded happy… cheerful, even. My heart pinched with pain at the realization that she could be just fine without me. I longed for her happiness, but in all honesty, I wanted to be a part of it. She had become a permanent fixture within me. I struggled to remember what it felt like before she burrowed herself into my soul. I couldn’t remember existing without her. Every part of me had become tied to her. It was in that very moment I realized how fucking desperate I was for her to feel the same way about me, and how I honestly had no idea if she still did.
“You called my work phone and hung up? I love it.” She leaned her head against my shoulder before pressing her soft lips against my cheek.
“I did that a lot.”
“How much is a lot?”
“Almost every night,” I admitted, reaching my hand through the open space in the chair and resting it on the small of her back. I hoped she’d think my actions were cute instead of creepy.
“You called my work voice mail almost every night, but you never called the real me?”
Shit.
“Not while I was still…” I paused, not wanting to say the word “married.” I shuddered.
“You’re so stubborn sometimes,” she chastised.
“I know. But I swear my heart’s in the right place.” As if I hadn’t asked her to understand enough already, I longed for her to understand this part as well.
“Your heart and I are going to have a chat later. Get on the same page.”
“I look forward to it.” I raised my eyebrows, and she swatted my shoulder.
“So, once your season was over, did you move back home with Gran and Gramps in California? I think I remember Melissa telling me that you were back there.”
I pushed my chair back from the table, grabbed both of our bowls, and placed them in the sink. I’d wash them later. And for the record, I do not do dishes. But for Cassie I’d do the whole city’s dishes if she asked. “Yeah. I flew back to stay with Gran and Gramps right after the season ended. I really missed them.”
“I bet they missed you too.” Her green eyes twinkled with her words. I love how they do that sometimes when she’s excited or reminiscing.
“It was nice being home, you know? Surrounded by people who actually give a shit about you and your future.”
I wiped my hands on a dish towel before leading her toward the living-room couch. I pulled her head onto my chest and sighed as she wrapped her arm around me, her fingers gripping my skin.
“Is it weird that I miss your grandparents more than I miss my own parents?” She giggled against my chest.
“Nah, your parents sorta suck.”
“So do yours,” she shot back defensively, her body tensing.
“No shit.”
“Well, aren’t we a pair?” She relaxed her shoulders and my nerves eased.
“I think so.” I kissed the top of her head, breathing in her shampoo. She always smelled so damn good.
“Were Gran and Gramps freaking out about everything?”
My stomach tightened at the memories currently flooding my mind. “They were really sad, mostly. I think Gran took it the hardest. It hurt her knowing something was happening to me that she couldn’t fix or make better.”
Cassie’s head nodded into my chest. “Poor Gran.”
“Yeah. It sucked. I felt fucking horrible. I still do.” My breath hitched.
She arched her neck, pulling back her head to look at me as cold air filled the now empty space on my chest. “Don’t do that to yourself, Jack. It’s over now.” Her mouth formed into a smile, and I tried to smile back but failed.
“Do they know you’re here? With me?” she asked, her voice trembling. What the hell would Cassie have to be nervous about when it comes to my grandparents? They adore her. She had to know that.
“They know. They’re over-fucking-joyed about it.”
“Really? Were they scared at all that I wouldn’t take you back?” Her eyes focused on mine with intent.
I grinned. “Not really.”
Her jaw dropped slightly. “What do you mean, not really?”
“Gran said she knew real love when she saw it. She was convinced that you’d forgive me. That it might not be easy, but eventually you’d come around.”
Cassie’s lips formed a closed-mouth smirk. “Gran’s smart.”
My fingers twisted through long blonde strands of her hair as my mind drifted for a moment, convinced this was only a dream. I’d waited to be right here, holding this girl in my arms, for so long now I almost couldn’t believe it was really happening.
“Back to the story.” Her words cut through my thoughts.
“I’ve missed you!” Gran squeezed me before looking me up and down. “You look healthy, so that’s good.” The smile expanded across her whole face until her eyes were scrunched into half moons.
“I missed you too, Gran.” I leaned down to plant a kiss on her well-aged cheek.
“You look bigger,” Gramps said with a nod of approval, and I laughed, hugging him tight.
“I’ve been working out. I have to at this level.”
“You always worked out,” Dean said as he walked out of his bedroom and into the living room. Since I left home to play ball, I don’t think Dean ever planned to move out. I couldn’t blame him really. Gran and Gramps were the best.
I reached for him and pulled him into a tight bear hug before he choked out an unrecognizable sound.
I laughed. “Not like this. Not to this level, this many days or hours. It’s literally a whole new ballgame being in the majors.”
“Is it harder?” Dean asked.
“Way harder. They can hit my ninety-four-mile-per-hour fastball. And they can hit it far.”
“That sucks.”
I opened my mouth to respond. “How’s the kitten?” Gramps interrupted with a cheeky grin, and my smile fell.
Gran tapped her foot against the carpet. “Let Jack put his things in his room. We can talk about all of this over dinner.”
I shot Gran a look that screamed “thank you” before walking down the hallway to my old room. I looked around at my things, untouched since I’d been gone. A framed picture of Cass and me sat on my nightstand. I reached for it, running my finger across the curves of her face. Overcome with the desire to call her, I grabbed some loose paper and started writing. I’d only do this sort of bullshit for her. No one else. Ever.
Kitten,
The postseason is officially over. I was going to move out of my apartment in Arizona and fly straight to Alabama to pack my stuff, but I missed Gran and Gramps. So I’m sitting in my bedroom at home, thinking about the last time we were all here together. I miss you almost as much as Gramps does. Ha!
I forgot how much being home makes me feel secure. Maybe it’s just nice to be surrounded by people who genuinely love and care about you, instead of people trying to take advantage of you. Who would have thought I’d be so easy to manipulate?
I talked to Marc the other day about the annulment and he got the paperwork started. Hopefully it will all be over soon, and I’ll be there before you know it, begging for your forgiveness and praying you’ll take me back.
Please don’t give up on us.
I’ll always love you.
Jack
P.S. I saw your photographs online today. They’re really beautiful, Cass. I’m so proud of you.
Heading into the kitchen, Dean and Gramps were already sitting while Gran finished up at the stove.
“Can I help you, Gran?” I asked before reaching my seat.
“No, dear. You sit down and start talking.”
I laughed. “Talking? About what?”
“Oh, you know what! What’s going on with everything? When will your divorce from that awful woman be finalized?” The spoon in Gran’s hand shook with her anger as she mumbled something under her breath.
“Marc filed the paperwork for an annulment. We’re just waiting for her to sign it.” I shrugged, feeling the weight of Dean’s and Gramps’s stares on my shoulders.
“She will sign it, right?” Dean asked, his tone concerned.
The weight of my little brother’s question was something that hadn’t occurred to me until he asked. “I don’t know why she wouldn’t,” I said, looking around the small kitchen I’d spent most of my life in before locking eyes with Gran.
Dean choked back a laugh. “I do. Have you met her? She’s a total bitch.”
“Dean! Language!” Gran’s forehead furrowed as she waved her wooden spoon in his direction.
“Sorry, Gran.” Dean slumped lower into his chair.
I leaned forward, placing my elbows on the table before adding, “But it’s so over between us. She signed a prenup before we were married, so she doesn’t gain anything by not signing.”
“Except control,” Dean remarked.
My temper flared. “What the fuck are you talking about?”
“How many times do I need to remind you both to watch your mouths?” Gramps interrupted before giving Gran a nod.
I huffed out a long sigh, willing my temper to calm. “Sorry, Gran.”
“I just meant that she’d have control over you if she didn’t sign the papers. She knows how badly you want out of this marriage, so it wouldn’t surprise me if she pulled a bunch of sh—” Dean paused before continuing, “stuff just to mess with you.”
I considered my brother’s words carefully as Gran appeared, placing dishes filled with steaming food in front of each of us.
“He’s right, Jack. She’s been so evil from the very start. What’s to stop her from being difficult now?” Gran asked, her voice shaky.
I reached out my hand, placing it on Gran’s shoulder. “I don’t know. I guess I’m just hoping that she knows this is over and there’s no point in delaying the inevitable.”
“I hope you’re right,” she said with a sympathetic smile.
“How’s the kitten doing? Have you talked to her since she moved to New York?” I watched as Gramps’s face lit up like a kid at Christmas.
“Gramps, if I didn’t know better, I’d think you had a thing for my girl,” I joked.
“Your girl?” Gramps teased back.
My fork clanged against the side of the plate. “Uh-huh. My girl.”
Dean laughed. “Maybe I’ll make her my girl. Keep her in the family.”
I glared at him, the heat instantly spreading across my cheeks. “And I’ll disown you before I kick your—”
“Boys, that’s enough.”
Dean shoved a spoonful of rice into his mouth as he grinned at me. “You’re lucky she’s like a sister to me.”
“Yeah? I’d say you’re the lucky one. ’Cause I’d kill you if you touched her and you know it.”
“I’m your only brother and this is how you treat me?”
I tried to stop the smile from spreading across my face as Gramps interjected, “You’re trying to take the man’s kitten, Dean.”
Gran laughed and my smile widened.
“Worry about your own nonexistent girlfriend, little brother, and leave my girl alone.”
“Do you have a girlfriend?” Gran’s focus shot to Dean as her eyes widened.
Dean shot me a warning look through narrowed eyes. “No. Jack’s just talking about Melissa.”
“She’s Cassie’s best friend, right?” Gran asked.
“Yeah.”
“Did you talk to her yet?” I asked, putting him on the spot for once.
He shrugged one shoulder. “No.”
“I told you to talk to her,” I reminded him.
“I told you she’s not into me,” he snapped back.
“That’s crap and you know it. She is definitely into you.”
“Then what’s the problem?” Gramps dropped his chin into his hand, his gaze shifting back and forth between me and Dean.
“I don’t know. She says she doesn’t want a boyfriend, but I think she just doesn’t want me as a boyfriend. Can we talk about something else now?” Dean fidgeted in his chair as he filled his mouth with more food.
“Who wouldn’t want you as a boyfriend? Rubbish,” our ever-loyal Gran said with a huff.
“Can we please talk about something else? Anything else,” Dean pleaded.
Taking pity on my poor, uncomfortable brother, I changed the subject. “I found some of Cassie’s photographs online today.”
Silence filled the air as everyone stopped chewing their food, directing their stares at me. “What?” I asked nervously.
“How did you find them?” Gramps asked, blotting the corner of his mouth with a napkin.
“I went to her magazine’s website. They had a feature online about moving to New York, and all the photographs in the article were hers.” My chest swelled with pride as I talked about her.
“That’s fantastic news! I want you to show me after dinner.” Gramps’s eyes lit up with enthusiasm as he slapped his hand against the table.
“Wait.” Dean tilted his head as a smirk appeared. “You follow her magazine online?”
I squared my gaze, meeting his directly. “You’re goddamned right I do. I want to know what she’s doing every second she’s not with me. And if there’s a photograph she takes for that magazine, I want to see it.”
“I think that’s sweet,” Gran said.
“I think it’s psycho,” Dean countered.
I changed the topic of conversation for him and this is how he repays me? “Really, Dean? After everything Cassie and I have been through, you think my following her work online is psycho?”
“It’s a little weird, don’t you think? You won’t even talk to her in real life, but you’ll follow her online?”
The chair scraped against the floor as I shoved back, jumping to my feet. My breathing hitched as my defenses rose. No one talked about me and Cassie like that. Not even my brother.
“Jack, sit down!” Gran said sternly. “And Dean, stop calling your brother names! You two are acting like little boys.”
I inhaled a sharp breath before sliding the chair back toward the table and sitting down. “I can’t talk to her until I’m not married anymore, OK? So until then, yeah, I will follow everything she does online. And if that magazine can give me a glimpse into how she’s seeing the world, I’ll take it. Because until I’m back in her life, that’s the only Cassie I get. And if that makes me psycho, then I don’t give a fuck. Sorry, Gran,” I offered before she swatted my shoulder.
“I’m going to ground you! I don’t care how old you are,” she threatened with a slight chuckle.
“He started it,” I said, nodding my head toward my brother. “Let’s talk about Melissa some more.”
Dean waved his arms in the air in defeat. “I’m sorry. Truce?”
Before I could respond, Gran asked, “How long are you planning to stay home?”
Gramps looked up from his plate and directly into my eyes. “Your whole off-season?”
I swallowed my last bite of food. “I don’t know. I figured I’d wait for Marc to call me about the annulment, and then I’d go to Alabama to sign the papers and pack up the house at the same time.”
“And then what?” Dean asked.
“I’ll have to bring my stuff back here, but I want to get to New York as soon as possible to make things right with Cass,” I admitted. “I only have a few months before I have to be back in Arizona for spring training, and I still need to find a place to rent.”
“That’s not much time.” Gramps sounded worried.
“I know.”
“What are you planning on saying to Cassie?” Gran tilted her head toward me. “How are you going to win her back?”
“I don’t know yet. But it will be something along the lines of how much I suck and how much she doesn’t.”
Gramps laughed at my words, and I smiled.
“Very romantic.” Dean sarcastically popped two thumbs up in the air.
“Shut up, Dean. No one likes you.”
“You know you’ll have to give her more than just some nice words, dear,” Gran said as she eyed me meaningfully.
“Trust me, Gran. I know.”
Cassie’s face relaxed as she leaned up to kiss my cheek. “I like that you followed me online. I followed you too.”
My adrenaline started racing as I adjusted my position on the couch. “You did?”
“Of course I did. I still loved you, Jack. I cared about you. I wanted to see how you were. It was a big deal that you’d made it into the major leagues. I wasn’t going to miss it,” she explained, her shoulders shrugging like she had no choice in the matter.
“So you don’t think I’m psycho?”
“I didn’t say that,” she teased playfully.
I pounced on her before she could get away, pinning her body beneath mine and against the couch cushions. Her chest moved heavily up and down, and it took everything in me to not rip her shirt off and lose myself in her body. My shorts tightened as I leaned down to kiss her, brushing my tongue along her bottom lip. She moaned slightly as she arched her head back, her lips parting. I pressed my mouth against hers, my tongue and hers touching erotically in a playful tease of push and pull.
I wanted to tear her clothes off and devour her inch by inch. I sucked on her neck, the taste of her skin almost sending me into a frenzy. She ran her hands down the length of my back as she pulled my shirt up. She pressed her fingers into my skin as I kissed and licked her ear and neck before working my way back to her mouth. Jesus, I wanted this girl. She fired me up like no one else. Trying to maintain some semblance of self-control, I pulled back from the kiss, and her hands tightened around my neck. I chuckled and asked, “Don’t you want to hear more?”
Her grip tightened as she pulled my face to hers. “In a minute,” she said, as she grazed her tongue across my lips.
My hands explored the length of her body, stopping at the top of her thigh. “I want you so fucking bad. You make me crazy.”
“Then take me.” She sucked her bottom lip into her mouth, and I longed to put something of mine in there instead.
I grabbed the bottom of her top and lifted it over her head, unable to get it off fast enough. She reached for my shirt, tugging and pulling before I sat up and tore it off myself. My insides flared as she ran her hands down my bare chest, stopping at the button of my shorts. When her fingertips gently grazed over my hardness, I shuddered. Just that single touch from her and I almost came unglued.
It’s twisted how much she owns me. She always fucking has, but still.
I kicked my shorts off, silently giving myself a pat on the back when I noticed where Cassie’s eyes were locked. Half tempted to make some smartass remark about how much she loves looking at my dick, I stopped myself. I hadn’t even been back in her life for twenty-four hours; no need to screw it up already.
My gaze moved from her eyes down to her naked body. “You’re so fucking sexy.” I meant the words, but they came out in a lusty growl and she bit her bottom lip again. I dropped my mouth to hers, sucking that lip between my teeth, my body falling to meet hers.
Heat shot through me as we touched. The feeling of her skin pressed against mine caused my lust to hungrily take over. I curled my fingers in her hair, forcefully tugging her head back so I could kiss her throat and jaw.
“Oh God, Jack. I want you inside me. Please. Stop teasing.”
I pressed my hardness against her, and when she howled with pleasure, I pulled it away. “Goddammit, Jack. Stop fucking around.” Her fingers dug into my backside as she forcefully guided me to her.
Without another word I pushed inside, my body shivering as the warmth of her completely enveloped me. “Jesus Christ, Cassie. Why do you always feel so amazing?” My breath was labored as I worked in and out of her. The sight of her nipple drew me, so I traced a finger gently around it before I sucked it into my mouth, my tongue flicking around it.
Cassie moaned, her body arching beneath me as she clawed her fingernails down the length of my back.
“You better stop that,” I breathed out.
“Or what?” she teased, running her fingers along my back once more.
“Or I’ll be done before you are,” I admitted.
She shook her head. “We can’t have that.”
“Then behave,” I demanded, grabbing her arms and pinning them above her head, as my thrusting continued. She laughed beneath me, and I swept my tongue across her lips before pushing it into her hot mouth. She mumbled something unintelligible against me, and I kissed her harder.
“Jack,” she whispered, her breathing quickening as her hips rose up and down to meet mine. “Oh.”
She moaned again as her body shuddered against mine.
Thank fucking God.
I rocked into her one last time before exploding. My thrusting slowed as I collapsed on top of her, my weight pushing her body further into the couch.
“Why do you enjoy suffocating me?” she said, swatting my shoulders.
“I like lying with you this way.”
She cocked her head. “What way? With me dead?”
A quick laugh ripped from my throat. “No. I like being inside of you.”
“Well, get out.” She smirked. “I need to pee.”
I pulled out slowly and she scooted out from under me, hurrying to the bathroom.