Rhett

The final leg of Ayla’s book tour is tonight, in Washington, DC, at a shop in Georgetown. We had a home game earlier today, and when it was finished, I threw my things in my car, hit I-95, and drove three hours nonstop.

I stood in a line that was wrapped around the building for hours, and when we finally moved inside, I found a seat in the middle of the room amongst hundreds upon hundreds of overly excited, chatty women.

The bookshop owner introduced Ayla right on schedule, and the ladies around me went nuts, just like the last time. And just like the last time, the lights went low, Ayla read a passage from her book, Hard Hearted, and they opened the floor for questions.

A bookstore worker with a green button down shirt, thick black glasses, and a microphone walks around the room, nervously hopping between people with urgent, raised hands.

Almost everyone has a question tonight, including me.

“Hi, Ayla, I’m Deb from Alexandria,” the first woman says, clutching the mic with both hands and smiling big as a small spotlight illuminates her narrow face. “I’ve read your book four times so far, and I was just wondering if you could tell us when we can expect your follow up?”

“Hi, Deb! May seventeenth,” Ayla says.

The woman passes the mic to the lady beside her.

“I’m Candace from Parkersburg, West Virginia,” the second woman says. I’m not sure why they’re all feeling the need to introduce themselves, but if this is the precedent, this Q and A session is going to take for fucking ever tonight. “I was wondering if you could tell us what your second book is about?”

Ayla smiles. “Of course! It’s a love story for one, much like Hard Hearted. And in a broader sense, it explores the themes of fate and how everything is connected. It’s about not getting what you want, but getting what you need, and also acceptance and forgiveness.”

The room is quiet.

“Basically, it’s about a girl who meets a guy under false pretenses,” she adds, looking down at her podium. “And she falls in love with him, almost overnight. But he finds out who she is, and he’s really angry with her. They have to figure out how to move through the hurt and the betrayal and the pain because there’s still that undeniably powerful undercurrent of love that isn’t going away no matter how hard each of them try.”

The worker takes the mic and moves to a different part of the room, handing it to a white-haired woman in a hot pink sweater.

“Ayla, I’m wondering if you can tell me why you made Stassi so unlikeable in Hard Hearted?” she asks. “You’re a great writer, but I couldn’t get past her attitude. Loved James though. He was perfect.”

“Aw, I’m sorry you didn’t like Stassi,” Ayla says. “I wanted her to be sassy and spunky, and maybe I went a little overboard with her personality. I know sometimes she was super blunt and didn’t really filter her opinions. Maybe you’ll like Ariana better? In Cold Hearted? She’s a bit softer. Big heart. Very emotional. Probably too emotional…”

A fourth person takes the mic. “Are they going to make Hard Hearted into a movie?”

Ayla smiles. “I don’t know. I hope so. I guess the right people need to see it? It’s only a few months old, so who knows. Anything can happen.”

The worker scans the dimly lit room and eyes a woman a couple spots to my left with her hand wagging in the air as she bounces on her toes.

“Yes, Ayla, hi,” she says, breathless and smiling. “I’m Nicole from Baltimore, Maryland, and I was wondering if you’re single? Because you would be perfect for my little brother!”

The crowd laughs and Ayla blushes.

“I am single,” she says.

“Perfect! I’ll give you his number after this,” Nicole says.

My chest squeezes, I can’t take this anymore.

My hand flies into the air and I make direct eye contact with the shop employee, motioning for her to come my way.

The second the mic is in my hand, my heart thuds and everything around me goes black except for her. The spotlight moves to me, and I feel its subtle heat.

“Hi, Ayla,” I say, my stare piercing across the room. “Rhett. From Philadelphia.”

She’s frozen, eyes fastened on mine and face white as a ghost.

“In your book, Cold Hearted, which I was fortunate enough to read in advance,” I say, feeling the collective weight of the jealous stares around me. “I was wondering if you could tell us how much of your book was inspired by real life.”

Her eyes flash and then narrow. She thinks it’s a trick question.

“I used to think some of it was,” she says after careful consideration. “But I can confidently say that it’s purely a work of fiction. You’d be hard pressed to find a real life version of either of my characters.”

“Are you sure?” I ask. “Because they felt so real to me. It felt like I knew them. Personally.”

She flushes and glances away, fidgeting.

“Maybe a small part of Reed is based on someone I knew a long time ago,” she says with a sigh. “But Reed and this guy, they’re nothing alike. Night and day.”

“Another question, if I may,” I say when the employee tries to take the mic back. “Are you still in contact with this man? The one who inspired the character in your book?”

Her gaze narrows. “I don’t know what you’re getting at.”

“In Cold Hearted, Reed tells Ariana he loves her constantly, every chance he gets. I was wondering if Reed—the real Reed—ever told you he loved you?” I ask.

She doesn’t blink, she only stares straight ahead. The room is silent until she clears her throat.

“Never,” she says. “We never got to that point. I told him. Many times. He never said it back.”

“Is it possible,” I ask, “that Reed was in a bad place at the time? That maybe he loved you, but he didn’t know how to say it because it meant giving up control of the one thing in his life he could protect—his ice-cold heart?”

“Anything’s possible.” Ayla tucks her dark waves behind one ear.

“Have you spoken to him recently? Maybe he’s ready to tell you? Maybe he wants to apologize for being such an asshole? Maybe he’s ready to finally go deep with you.”

She tucks her chin against her chest.

“I love you, Ayla,” I say as she glances up. “I’m sorry. I messed up.”

All eyes are on me now. The woman in front of me is dabbing at her happy tears with a tissue and the one to my left is glaring like I’m some sort of monster.

“Kiss him!” someone yells from the back of the room, and suddenly everything blurs into the background.

I’m squeezing between aisles and rows and chairs and women, pushing my way to the front of the room where I climb onto the small stage and storm the podium where the love of my life stands motionless, paralyzed.

Cupping her cheek in my hand, I slide my fingers along the nape of her neck and guide her mouth to mine.

The readers whistle and clap and cheer, and I feel Ayla’s lips curve against mine.

“I love you,” I whisper into her ear. “It’s only going to be you for me.”

“I love you too.”