Holly

I woke up wrapped in someone’s arms and jumped slightly. I’d been having an erotic dream and my body was pulsing as I breathed in slowly. I looked around the room, seeing infomercials playing on the TV as my eyes moved around. I could tell that it was a hotel room as memories rushed through me of the night before.

Logan.

His mouth all over my body.

My mouth on his.

The feeling of him inside of me.

I shuddered as I finally looked at the man beside me. He was peacefully sleeping, and I took in his rugged, gorgeous face. Logan could be a model if it weren’t for the scars that dotted his skin from the game. He was still the most stunning man that I’d ever seen, and I let my eyes rove over his thick arms that held me so securely, tracing his back gently as I smiled.

This felt so fucking right. I knew that he was the forbidden fruit, but I wanted him. I needed Logan. How could I tell Shelly that? How could we tell his family about us?

We had to be a fling. We’d have to end. There were so many reasons that this wouldn’t work out with us.

I moved slightly, turning to face him. I slipped my hand down his body to find him half-hard. I gripped him softly and smiled as he moaned, his cock thickening in my grip. Logan stirred, his eyes fluttering open as he looked at me with dark eyes.

He let me stroke him for a moment before turning to his back and hauling me over him. I bent down to kiss him hungrily. His cock pressed between our bodies. He was pressed against my wet pussy and I rocked to feel the necessary friction against my sensitive nub. I knew that I’d come fast when I finally felt him inside of me and rose a bit as he reached down to guide his cock into me. I sank down, groaning with him as I felt him fill me completely.

“Jesus,” Logan moaned as I started to move over him. “You feel so damn good.” He reached for my hips and we moved together as I closed my eyes. I tried not to think about tomorrow morning when we’d be apart again. Even though he’d be home for a few days, I couldn’t freely see Logan whenever I wanted to. I had a car, but I also had a busy college life and couldn’t just travel a few towns over. Besides, Shelly knew that I wasn’t close to anyone enough to just stay the night. I was going to have a hard time pulling this off.

I whimpered as Logan slipped over my sweet spot and knew that I was close. I dropped over him, kissing him as I gave him the control. Logan held me and fucked me with hard jerks of his hips, making me come within seconds as I cried out his name. Logan followed and held me as I slumped against him, breathing deeply.

We went back to sleep and woke up when the sun was up. Logan told me that it was eight, asking if I needed to be back at the dorm for anything. I told him that I was okay for a few hours and he ordered breakfast from room service as I went to use the bathroom. This felt strange but oddly comfortable. I didn’t know Logan well, but I appreciated who he was as a man. I felt like I could like him as well as feeling attracted to him, which felt dangerous. That meant I could get attached.

We ate with the windows open for the fresh air, sipping coffee as he asked me about my family. I told him that we did keep in touch but weren’t close. I was an only child and my parents were busy people. I admitted to being envious of his family as I looked out to the blue sky, trying to push away the fear of losing that. I wanted it all, but that was selfish, silly really. I was barely anything with Logan.

He packed to go back to his house, and I dressed in my clothes from the night before. Logan gave me a t-shirt representing the team, and I balled it up to put into my large purse. I wanted to hide it from Shelly, at least for a little while. I might be able to introduce it naturally as if Logan gave it to me once we knew each other better. Shit. We did know each other, but I was planning to the times I’d see him at their parents, the torturous times that we would not be able to touch.

I told him that I’d leave first, pulling up the app to get a car since it was too risky having him take me back to the campus. It was already bad enough that I’d need to be dropped off a few blocks away from the dorms to make it appear that I stayed there last night.

I saw Shelly’s text when I unlocked my phone. She was asking who it was and telling me that she missed me. I never even read this last night and felt guilty as the following messages asked if I was okay. I considered answering but just got the ride, knowing I’d be back soon. I looked at Logan as I slipped my phone into my purse and he zipped up his suitcase before striding over to me.

His eyes were hot on me as he cupped my face, leaning in for a slow kiss. I closed my eyes and gave in to it as pain filled my chest. I knew that walking away from him was going to be hard.

“I had a great night, Holly.” His words were soft before he kissed me again as I wrapped my arms around his waist. I didn’t want to let go but reality was waiting outside in the warm sun. We both pulled back reluctantly, gazing into each other’s eyes as I dropped my arms. I didn’t know what to say to him and he cleared his throat as he shuffled his feet. “I’ll be in touch. Let me know that you got to the dorm safe. I hate not taking you.” His eyes were narrowed as he glanced at me and I sighed.

“You know how risky that would be.” I reminded him as he nodded. I stepped back and made my way to the door, looking around the hotel room that changed my life. I gave him a long look before walking out and heading to the lobby to find my ride home. I lowered my head as I walked through the massive room after stepping off the elevator, not wanting to do this. I wanted to go back and throw myself back into his arms.

I slipped into the nondescript blue car, leaning back as I greeted the woman driving. I’d fixed myself enough to be realistic for my lie and I closed my eyes as I played last night back in my mind. The campus was only about twenty minutes away and I was being dropped off a few blocks away within no time. I walked through the streets to the dorm and took several deep breaths before I walked into my building.

Shelly was sitting at the small desk and looked back as I entered. Her smile was faltering, and I closed the door quietly.

“I was worried about you. Is everything okay with your friend?” she looked genuinely worried and I felt guilt wash over me in waves.

“Yeah. She’s okay now. It was the flu, and she was scared to be alone.” I went to my bed and set my purse down on the mattress, thinking about the shirt inside.

“Who was it? Do I know her?” Shelly asked as I proceeded with the lie.

“No. Just a girl that I’m partnered up with for a project. I guess we’ve been getting closer, and she tried me after a few other people. I couldn’t say no even though the movie sounded great.” I shrugged gently. “Was it good? Did you have fun?”

Shelly beamed as she told me about the inappropriate comedy and I knew that she was distracted from my story. I dropped to the mattress, feeling exhaustion hit me as I dropped back to the pillows. She talked about the small bar they’d hung out afterward and I feigned regret at not being able to be there.

“That sounds great, Shel. I think I’m going to take a nap. I didn’t sleep well last night.” I kicked my jeans off and got under the covers as she slipped some ear buds on. I made sure that she was working on her paper before I sent Logan a text telling him that I was home. I slipped the phone on my table beside the bed after muting it, closing my eyes as I closed my eyes. Even if Shelly got a hold of my phone, I had him under a different name. She wasn’t like that though.

I woke up later that afternoon and stretched, feeling the parts of me that were still sore from the night with Logan. The dorm room was empty, and I yawned as I propped myself up on the pillows. I reached for my phone to see a text from ‘Kelly’ and read it with a smile. Logan told me that he was glad I was home safe but that he missed me. I responded in kind and deleted the messages before I checked my a few apps, lost in memories from last night. I heard the door and looked up to see Shelly coming inside with bags, smiling at me.

“I got some Thai for dinner. I knew you were tired and thought it might be an easy dinner.” She set the bags down on the desk and got water from our tiny fridge as I smiled at her. Shelly was a great friend, and I needed to take a second to appreciate her. It added to the guilt I had for sleeping with Logan, but Shelly was one of the best friends that I’d ever had.

“Thanks. That smells great.” I told her as I kicked the blankets away, reaching for some yoga pants crumpled up in the corner of the bed.

“I ran into Cory. Remember him from English?” Shelly asked as I searched my memory. “That dark-haired god?”

“Yes, I do. How is he?” I asked as I wiggled into the pants and moved to help her with the bags.

“Great. Hard to believe this but he only looks better to me. He wants us to go to a club with him and a friend this weekend. You know that you had that crush on him.” Shelly smiled at me expectantly as I felt dread wash through my veins. I did have a crush on Cory but that was months ago. I couldn’t follow through with it now… could I?

“A club? Where?” I asked as Shelly went on to describe the place a few blocks away from campus. She loved going out in any form and was bursting with excitement. I knew that a night out could be fun, but I didn’t want Cory now. I only wanted Logan. “I got his number and told him I’d call him about it.”

We ate on our beds and turned a movie on, relaxing for the evening since it was back to a busy school week tomorrow. I managed a text to Logan before I went to bed and wished him to have a good practice in the morning. I had no idea how we were going to see each other again or when. I felt empty inside.