The words hang in the air, float there, like smoke.

Behind Little’s shoulders, I see Alistair and Ethan, their eyes wide; I see David, his jaw dropped. Norelli, for some reason, turns her gaze to the floor.

“Dr. Fox?”

Little. I bring him into focus, standing across the island from me, his face bathed in full afternoon light.

“Anna,” he says.

I don’t move, can’t move.

He takes a breath, holds it. Expels. “Dr. Fielding told me the story.”

I screw my eyes shut. All I see is darkness. All I hear is Little’s voice.

“He said a state trooper found you at the bottom of a cliff.”

Yes. I remember his voice, that deep cry, rappelling down the face of the mountain.

“And by that point you’d spent two nights outside. In a snowstorm. In the middle of winter.”

Thirty-three hours, from the instant we dove off the road to the moment the chopper appeared, its rotors swirling overhead like a whirlpool.

“He said that Olivia was still alive when they got down to you.”

Mommy, she’d whispered as they loaded her onto the stretcher, sheathed her little body in a blanket.

“But your husband was already gone.”

No, he wasn’t gone. He was there, very much there, all too much there, his body cooling in the snow. Internal damage, they told me. Compounded by exposure. There was nothing you could have done differently.

There’s so much I could have done differently.

“That’s when your troubles started. Your problems going outside. Post-traumatic stress. Which I—I mean, I can’t imagine.”

God, how I cowered beneath the hospital fluorescents; how I panicked in the squad car. How I collapsed, those first times leaving the house, once and twice and twice more, until at last I dragged myself back inside.

And locked my doors.

And shut my windows.

And swore I’d keep myself hidden.

“You wanted someplace safe. I get that. They found you half-frozen. You’d been through hell.”

My fingernails gouge my palms.

“Dr. Fielding said that you sometimes . . . hear them.”

I squeeze my eyes tighter, straining for more dark. They aren’t—you know, hallucinations, I’d told him; I just like pretending they’re here every now and then. As a coping mechanism. I know that too much contact isn’t healthy.

“And that you sometimes talk back.”

Feel the sun on my neck. It’s best you don’t indulge in these conversations too often, he’d warned me. We wouldn’t want them to become a crutch.

“See, I was a little confused, because from what you were saying it sounded like they were just someplace else.” I don’t point out that this is technically true. There’s no fight left in me. I’m hollow as a bottle.

“You told me that you were separated. That your daughter was with your husband.” Another technicality. I’m so tired.

“You told me the same thing.” I open my eyes. Light douses the room now, draining the shadows. The five of them are ranged before me like chess pieces. I look at Alistair.

“You told me that they lived somewhere else,” he says, curling his lip. He looks repulsed. I didn’t, of course—I never said they lived anywhere. I’m careful. But it doesn’t matter anymore. Nothing matters.

Little reaches across the island, presses his hand onto mine. “I think that you’ve had a hell of a time. I think that you really believe you met with this lady, just like you believe you’re talking to Olivia and Ed.” There’s a tiny pause before that last word, as though he isn’t sure of Ed’s name, although maybe he’s just pacing himself. I peer into his eyes. Bottomless.

“But what you’re thinking here isn’t real,” he says, his voice snow-soft. “And I need you to let this one go.”

I find myself nodding. Because he’s right. I’ve gone too far. This has to stop, Alistair said.

“You know, you’ve got people who care about you.” Little’s hand bunches my fingers together. The knuckles crackle. “Dr. Fielding. And your physical therapist.” And? I want to say. And? “And . . .” For an instant my heart leaps; who else cares about me? “. . . they want to help you.”

I drop my gaze to the island, to my hand, nestled in his. Study the dull gold of his wedding band. Study mine.

Quieter still now. “The doctor said—he told me that the medication you’re on can cause hallucinations.”

And depression. And insomnia. And spontaneous combustion. But these aren’t hallucinations. They’re—

“And maybe that’s okay by you. I know it’d be okay by me.”

Norelli breaks in. “Jane Russell—”

But Little lifts his other hand, without looking away from me, and Norelli stops talking.

“She checks out,” he says. “The lady in two-oh-seven. She is who she says she is.” I don’t ask how they know. I don’t care anymore. So, so tired. “And this lady you thought you met—I think you . . . didn’t.”

To my surprise, I feel myself nod. But then how . . .

Except he’s already there: “You said she helped you in off the street. But maybe that was you. Maybe you . . . I don’t know, dreamed it.”

If I dream things when I’m awake . . . Where have I heard that?

And I can picture it, like it’s a film, in living color: me, hauling my body off the stoop, rock-climbing those front steps. Dragging myself into the hall, into the house. I can almost remember it.

“And you said she was here playing chess with you and drawing pictures. But again . . .”

Yes, again. Oh, God. Again I see it: the bottles; the pill canisters; the pawns, the queens, the advancing two-tone armies—my hands reaching across the chessboard, hovering like helicopters. My fingers, stained with ink, a pen pinched between them. I’d practiced that signature, hadn’t I, scrawling her name on the shower door, amid the steam and the spray, the letters bleeding down the glass, vanishing before my eyes.

“Your doctor said he hadn’t heard about any of this.” He pauses. “I was thinking that maybe you didn’t tell him because you didn’t want him to . . . talk you out of it.”

My head shakes, nods.

“I don’t know what that scream you heard was . . .”

I do. Ethan. He never claimed otherwise. And that afternoon I saw him with her in the parlor—he wasn’t even looking at her. He was looking into his lap, not at the empty seat beside him.

I glance at him now, see him gently deposit Punch on the floor. His eyes never leave mine.

“I’m not sure about this photo business. Dr. Fielding said that sometimes you act out, and maybe this is how you ask for help.”

Did I do that? I did do that, didn’t I? I did it. Of course: guess who—that’s how I greet Ed and Livvy. Greeted. guesswhoanna.

“But as for what you saw that night . . .”

I know what I saw that night.

I saw a movie. I saw an old thriller resurrected, brought to bloody Technicolor life. I saw Rear Window; I saw Body Double; I saw Blow-Up. I saw a showreel, archive footage from a hundred peeping-Tom thrillers.

I saw a killing without a killer, without a victim. I saw an empty sitting room, a vacant sofa. I saw what I wanted to see, what I needed to see. Don’t you get lonely up here? Bogey had asked Bacall, asked me.

I was born lonely, she’d answered.

I wasn’t. I was made lonely.

If I’m deranged enough to talk to Ed and Livvy, I can certainly stage a murder in my mind. Especially with some chemical help. And haven’t I been resisting the truth all along? Didn’t I bend and bash and break the facts?

Jane—the real Jane, flesh-and-blood Jane: Of course she is who she says she is.

And of course the earring in David’s room belongs to Katherine, or whomever.

And of course no one came into my house last night.

It crashes through me like a wave. Slams my shores, cleanses them; leaves behind only streaks of silt, pointing like fingers toward the sea.

I was wrong.

More than that: I was deluded.

More than that: I was responsible. Am responsible.

If I dream things when I’m awake, I’m going out of my mind. That was it. Gaslight.

Silence. I can’t even hear Little breathe.

Then:

“So that’s what’s going on.” Alistair is shaking his head, his lips parted. “I—wow. Christ.” He looks at me hard. “I mean, Christ.”

I swallow.

He stares a moment longer, opens his mouth again, closes it. One more shake of the head.

At last he motions to his son, heads for the door. “We’re leaving.”

As Ethan follows him into the hall, he glances up, eyes shining. “I’m so sorry,” he says, his voice small. I want to cry.

Then he’s gone. The door cracks shut behind them.

Just the four of us now.

David steps forward, speaking to his toes. “So the kid in that picture downstairs—she’s dead?”

I don’t answer.

“And when you wanted me to save those blueprints, those were for a dead guy?”

I don’t answer.

“And . . .” He points to the stepladder braked against the basement door.

I say nothing.

He nods, as though I’ve spoken. Then he hitches his bag farther up his shoulder, turns, and walks out the door.

Norelli watches him leave. “Do we need to talk to him?”

“He bothering you?” Little asks me.

I shake my head.

“Okay,” he says, releasing my hand. “Now. I’m not really . . . qualified to deal with what happens next. My job is to shut all this down and make it safe for everyone to move ahead. Including you. I know that this has been hard for you. Today, I mean. So I want you to give Dr. Fielding a call. I think it’s important.”

I haven’t uttered a word since Norelli’s announcement. Your husband and your daughter are dead. I can’t imagine what my voice might sound like, must sound like, in this new world where that sentence has been spoken, been heard.

Little’s still talking. “I know you’re struggling, and—” He stops for a moment. When he speaks again, he’s hushed. “I know you’re struggling.”

I nod. So does he.

“Seems like I ask this every time we’re here, but are you okay to be left alone?”

I nod again, slowly.

“Anna?” He eyes me. “Dr. Fox?”

We’ve reverted to Dr. Fox. I open my mouth. “Yes.” I hear myself the way you do when you’ve got headphones on—remote, somehow. Muffled.

“In light of—” Norelli begins, but again Little raises a hand, and again she stops. I wonder what she was about to say.

“You’ve got my number,” he reminds me. “Like I said, give Dr. Fielding a call. Please. He’ll want to hear from you. Don’t make us worry. Either one of us.” He gestures to his partner. “That includes Val here. She’s a worrier at heart.”

Norelli watches me.

Little’s walking backward now, as though reluctant to turn away. “And like I said, we’ve got a lot of good people for you to talk to, if you want.” Norelli turns, disappears into the hall. I hear her boots click on the tile. I hear the front door open.

It’s just me and Little now. He’s looking past me, out the window.

“You know,” he says, after a moment, “I don’t know what I’d do if anything happened to my girls.” His eyes are on mine now. “Don’t know what I’d do.”

He clears his throat, raises a hand. “Bye.” He steps into the hall, draws the door closed behind him.

A moment later I hear the front door shut.

I stand in my kitchen, watch little galaxies of dust form and dissolve in the sunlight.

My hand creeps to my glass. I pick it up gingerly, rotate it in my hand. Lift it to my face. Inhale.

Then I throw the fucking thing against the wall and scream louder than I’ve ever screamed in my life.