Owen squirmed in the wooden booth next to her. “Mo-om. I’m so hungry I think I’m going to die.”
Ava laughed, hoping her son couldn’t see through the reaction to the nerves that lay beneath. Normally she’d give him a snack in the car—a bag of goldfish crackers or one of those squeezie applesauce pouches—but she hadn’t wanted him to be full once they got to the restaurant. He needed the food to keep him from getting bored. And to keep him from being idle enough to scrutinize anything about Jack he might not want scrutinized.
“In a few minutes, bud. Promise.”
But it was five minutes to one, and Jack wasn’t here. Yet. Because of course he was coming. She hadn’t spent the whole hour mentally reassuring herself only for him not to show.
Oh shit. What if he didn’t show?
She’d chosen to sit with their backs to the door. Otherwise her eagerness to see Jack enter would get the best of her. But this only made things worse. More than once she’d attempted to casually look over her shoulder only to meet the curious eyes of several BBQ on the Bluff patrons.
“Are you two ready to order, or are you waiting on someone else?”
Ava startled as a young woman with a blond pixie bounced a pen against a pad of paper. “It’s cool if you’re still waiting. I’ve got a couple of nephews, though, probably around your little guy’s age, and all they ever do is eat. Figured he might be hungry.”
Ava smiled and turned to Owen, who gave her a pleading look.
“We are waiting for someone, but I guess it couldn’t hurt to—”
“Lily Green, since when do they let the cook out of the kitchen?”
At the sound of Jack’s voice, a warmth spread through Ava’s veins like chocolate fondue, hot and sweet and delicious. She shook her head. This was not the place to let his smooth baritone start—doing things to her.
“Since I’m short two servers this afternoon,” the other woman said with a grin. “And how about you tell me why I’ve already seen you twice in the span of four days? Luke told Tucker you’d be hightailing it out of Oak Bluff first chance you got.” She turned her attention to Ava. “My husband and Jack’s little brother, Luke, are good friends. Best friends, actually. But me and Luke? We butt heads like you wouldn’t believe. Wonder if big brother here is as difficult as the other.” She winked at Jack.
He smiled and slid into the booth across from Ava and Owen.
“Am I late?” he asked, and Ava shook her head. He glanced back at the woman with the notepad—Lily. And Ava couldn’t help the surge of relief she’d felt when the woman said husband.
“Start us off with that cornbread you sent over the other night, will ya?” Jack added. “I’ve been craving it ever since.”
Lily shoved her pen behind her ear and dropped the pad into her apron pocket. “You got it. I’ll get the rest of your order when I deliver the goods.”
Only after Lily was gone did Jack give Ava his full attention, and she had to remind herself to breathe when he looked right past her and let his eyes fall on Owen.
“Hey, bud,” he said. “You like cornbread?”
Owen narrowed his eyes at Jack—at his father—and Ava watched as the boy studied the man. Finally, her son nodded.
“Yeah, I like it,” he said, then looked back and forth between his parents. “My mom calls me that, by the way. Bud.”
She held her breath, and Jack cleared his throat. He was nervous, and Owen was already giving him the third degree. But then Jack crossed his arms and smiled. She wasn’t sure what she was expecting, but he seemed ready to take whatever Owen had to dish out.
“What should I call you, then?” Jack asked him, and Owen crossed his arms as well.
“You’re a friend of my mom’s?”
“I am,” Jack said.
“A good friend? Because if you were a good friend I think I would have heard of you before.”
Jack let out a nervous laugh while Ava seemed to ignore her earlier directive reminding herself to breathe.
“Truth is,” Jack started, “your mom and I used to be real good friends. Then I left town, and we lost touch for a while.” He turned his attention to her, his blue-eyed gaze steady and intent. And Ava’s heart stuttered like it had the first time she saw him in high school. “But I think I’d like for us to be friends again.”
Owen tilted his head toward her so that both of their gazes were fixed on hers.
“Do you wanna be friends with him again?” Owen asked.
Ava cleared her throat. “Yeah, bud. I think I do.”
Because friendship she could admit to wanting. Friendship was a start. What she wouldn’t do was hope—this early on—that it would lead to more.
Owen nodded and faced Jack again. “One more question.”
“I’m all ears,” Jack said, his lips hinting at a grin.
“Marvel or DC?”
Jack’s brows raised, and Ava bit her lip.
“And here I thought I was going to get a hard question,” Jack said. “Because the only right answer is Marvel, and the top Avenger, of course, is the first Avenger, Captain Steve Rogers.”
Owen pumped his fist in the air and shouted, “Yes! Okay, Mom. This guy’s cool. I think you two should be friends again.”
Ava’s breathing finally steadied, but she had a rising tide of emotion. Because Jack and Owen had connected. Her son had just given his own father the seal of approval. And she—well, she’d never expected this day to happen, let alone have it be a success.
“Cornbread for all my friends!” Lily said, placing a basket on the table.
The spell was broken, but a new one took hold as Owen devoured a piece before Lily even had time to leave the table. They all watched as he sank into the booth as he swallowed—satiated for the moment.
“Did he even chew that?” Lily asked.
Owen grinned and rubbed a hand over his belly. “Whatever I did, I’m gonna do it again.” He reached for piece number two, but Ava’s hand landed on his wrist before he could swipe another golden square.
“Drink something, bud. You’re gonna choke or make yourself sick if you don’t slow down.”
Jack scratched the back of his neck and squinted at Lily. “I remember my brothers saying this place had the best strawberry lemonade. You still got that?”
She shook her head, and Ava watched as Owen deflated.
“I change the menu monthly. But I’ve got a frozen strawberry limeade that’ll knock your socks off. What do you say?”
Owen perked up again. Ava smiled and lifted her shoulders. Jack slapped a palm down on the table.
“I guess that settles it,” he said. “Three strawberry limeades, and judging by this guy’s appetite, I think we’re ready to order.”
Forty-five minutes later, Owen was working off his short ribs at the vintage Pac Man machine with a stack of quarters—courtesy of Jack. Ava was still picking at her brisket sandwich as she watched Jack take a long, slow swig of his limeade.
“You’re good with him,” she said softly, and the anticipation of his response made everything inside her constrict.
He set his glass down on the red and white checkerboard tablecloth, running his thumb down the cool condensation. “I’m flying by the seat of my pants, here. I’m just lucky you raised an amazing kid,” he said, eyes trained on the hand still holding the glass, his voice rough. “Made today a whole lot easier.”
She took a chance, bold as it was, and laid her palm over his free hand. “We made an amazing kid,” she whispered. “That’s not all me, there.”
His eyes met hers, clouded with too much emotion for her to read. She guessed there was still anger—at her in particular. She owned that and would continue to do so. But pain lay beyond those blue irises, too. A pain she’d always wanted to take away, even when they were teens. But she learned too late that she hadn’t possessed that kind of power. And maybe she never would.
But Owen was pure magic. She’d felt that every day for almost nine-and-a-half years. And if Jack could lasso even a thread of it, maybe he’d understand the type of joy only a child could bestow.
“You mean baseball and Marvel? That just means he’s smart.” Jack laughed. “I gotta be honest,” he added, and Ava noticed he hadn’t pulled his hand from hers yet. “I didn’t think it would be a good idea to let this go beyond lunch.”
She sucked in a sharp breath, soft enough, though, that maybe it went unheard. But he did hear, because his hand left the glass and covered hers, her palm sandwiched between his.
Now her breathing grew shallow for an entirely different reason. She knew this discussion was about Owen, but Jack touching her was something else. Because his thumb moved in slow, soft strokes against her skin, and her stomach flipped with each small movement, making her forget for a moment what they were even talking about.
Owen. This is about Owen. It wasn’t the time for her to lose focus or get lost in thoughts of what might have been…or what could be. Owen and Cal Poly. That was all she could handle right now.
But this man who’d been so afraid of who he’d become already knocked it out of the park with their son, and she wasn’t sure what should come next.
“And now?” she asked, reeling herself back in.
“Now I kinda don’t want to let him out of my sight. Not yet. I mean—if it’s okay with you, I’d love for you both to come by the ranch after we settle up here. I could show him around, maybe even introduce him to the two assholes who live there.”
She bit her lip, hesitating. She’d already gotten more than she’d bargained for out of this day. She wanted to be near him—God, yes she did. But she didn’t want to fall for someone who might not stick around. She wouldn’t survive it again.
“I’m not sure that’s—” she started, but he interrupted.
“As friends, of course,” he said. “I’ll call ahead and let everyone know the situation.”
“Of course,” she agreed. “And maybe,” she added, knowing she needed to get the words out before she lost her nerve, “we should keep it as just friends, too. For now. While we’re figuring this out.” Her world was already spinning out of orbit. Anything more than friends would knock her off her axis wholly and completely. Then where would she be?
Just uttering the phrase made her chest feel hollow. There had been so much pent-up emotion in their first frenzied kiss—and in their stolen moment in the laundry room yesterday. So much that they couldn’t put into words was spoken in the touching of their lips. But Owen was the first priority. Plus, she’d gotten her hopes up about inviting Jack back into her life before, and it had crushed her to see he’d moved on. Simply because he hadn’t gone through with the marriage didn’t mean whatever was brewing between them meant anything.
It was probably nothing more than heat. Pent-up chemistry that would dissipate with time.
Jack stirred his straw in his glass. “Of course,” he said again, this time with less conviction.
“I’ll do anything I can to keep from hurting him, Jack. Anything. You need to know how much I want you in his life, but if he finds out who you are and you leave again? That will crush him.”
Because the crux of it was that she hadn’t meant to hold a torch for him all these years. But the reminder of how much she’d loved him was in her son’s eyes—in his very essence. Jack Everett had always been with her. After her failed attempt at reconnecting with him in L.A., she’d given up hope of ever seeing him again. If he’d ever come back to his aunt’s place, he hadn’t come looking for her. Now here he was, the man she always knew he’d become—and he had more power to hurt her than he ever did.
“You’re right,” he finally said, then slid out of the booth. He laid a couple of twenties on the check Lily had left. Ava opened her mouth to protest, but Jack simply shook his head. “Your money’s no good here. Besides, you heard how she’s married to Luke’s buddy, Tucker. They’ve been struggling a bit, so I want to leave a little extra—not that it will help.”
Ava slid out of the booth as well, marveling at Jack’s generosity. She wasn’t surprised at the man he’d become, not one little bit. But he wasn’t the only one who’d missed out on these past ten years. He was a natural with Owen. He could have been back then, too, if she’d have been brave enough to have given him the choice.
“I want to help you and Owen, too. I mean—” He scratched the back of his head. “I have money. And a promotion in the works. No matter what, you and Owen won’t want for anything, financially speaking.” He laughed. “As long as this damn vineyard doesn’t sink the ranch further into the hole.”
“I take care of Owen just fine,” she said, the words coming out sharper than she’d intended.
“Of course. I didn’t mean…” He trailed off.
“Look. I appreciate what you’re offering.” But this time she was the one without words. Because how did she tell him that she wasn’t looking for financial stability to come from anyone else? She’d fallen back on her parents in terms of money and an easy income since she’d graduated high school. She didn’t bring Owen here to meet his father just so Jack could offer them more money in the bank.
That was why she was finally applying to school again—why she’d take every cent of financial aid she could get and repay it with an impressive graphic design job—or maybe she could restore pieces at the San Luis Obispo Museum of Art. Whatever it was, she was going to do it. Owen didn’t need money. He needed a father. And she needed…Was it fair to insert herself into this scenario when she should put her son first? Because no matter how hard she tried, she couldn’t stop thinking of the what ifs.
What if she fell for him again?
What if he stayed?
What if he left?
Finally she crossed her arms and smiled. What they both needed was a subject change. “Is this where you take me up on my offer to help you get it up and running?”
He sighed. “Jack Senior’s lawyer doesn’t think we’ll get back what he bought it for without it thriving. Keeping it until then might be the only option.”
“Just tell me you need my help, and it’s yours,” she said. “It’s not harvest season, so things are slow at the Ellis Vineyard. I manage the shop and tasting room, mostly, but it’s not hard to get coverage for that if I need to. Plus, I’ve never taken a vacation, and I know the owners. I’ll just have to ply them with extra time with their grandson.”
He raised a brow. “You gonna tell them what you’re doing? Who you’re spending your time with?”
“I don’t answer to them,” she spouted, a little too defensively. Because despite being a grown woman, in a way she did. If it wasn’t for her parents, raising Owen these past nine years would have been a hell of a lot more difficult. “But I also have nothing to hide. So yes, I’ll tell them.” Until she knew how Jack was going to fit into Owen’s life, she wasn’t sure what to tell them.
“Fair enough,” he said, not pressing her to say more. So she didn’t. “Then I guess all that’s left is a question.” He cleared his throat and cocked his head to the side. “Ava Ellis, will you help me restore a vineyard?”
She grinned. “Well, Jack Everett, I thought you’d never ask.”
And just like that, the deal was done. He promised her he’d be in town for at least a month, and in turn she promised him she’d make sure Luke and Walker were well on their way to producing the maiden vintage by the time he left, if that’s what he decided.
For now she’d convince herself that the compromise would be enough. After all, none of this was part of Jack’s plan. She understood that.
He hadn’t planned to drive by the vineyard the other day. But he did. He hadn’t planned on fatherhood, yet he’d just spent the better part of an hour dissecting the friendship between Captain America and the Winter Soldier with his son.
He hadn’t planned on the vineyard, but he was staying to get it off the ground. And maybe—just maybe—Oak Bluff wasn’t where he saw his future.
But maybe now that things had changed…it was.