Chapter 8
Gemma
I knew keeping secrets was going to be tough but I found out Lila, and her father would take things to a whole new level when she called me just as I finished dinner. I hadn’t told her about my job, and I hoped that she wouldn’t be mad at me, but she’s the one who had been out of touch for the past few days.
“Congratulations, Gemma!” her voice sang the word, and I breathed a sigh of relief. I had almost expected her to chew me out and ask why I’d gone behind her back, but I should have known better. Lila wanted the best for others and always had.
“I was going to tell you, but—where have you been?” I’d tried to call after my first day to no avail.
She let loose a sound of frustration. “I’ve been with Daniel at his place. We’ve been having some serious issues with his job and relocating, and frankly, I’m exhausted with the commute.”
“Sorry, I didn’t know you two were having trouble.” They’d seemed like things were perfect.
“No, we’re fine. The issues are with his job, but I wanted to warn you. My father is pissed off at me, and he’s going to play twenty questions with you. I was hoping you’d keep the things I’ve told you in the past about Daniel and me a secret.” I knew the things she was talking about specifically, without asking. The most important one being the pregnancy scare they’d had a little over a month earlier.
“Of course.” I had kept her secrets forever and his as well and I often wondered if I’d lose them both if either’s truth ever were exposed.
“I told him that I want to move out and he’d go crazy. I know he’s only flipping out because it’s Daniel, and now he’s insisting there has to be some hidden reason why we want to rush things. He even accused me of being pregnant and said that Daniel is a master manipulator and insinuated that he'd brainwashed me.”
“Wow, it sounds like he’s gone off the deep end. Thanks for the warning.” I wondered if my working for him had come at a bad time. I’d hoped that he’d see his daughter happy with an older man and the idea of being with me wouldn’t turn him off.
She laughed. “If he starts talking to himself or mumbling under his breath, stay clear. It’s better than trying to reason with him. Trust me, I know.”
“So, what is up with you and Daniel? You two did kind of come up with the marriage talk awfully fast. I remember just a couple of months ago you didn’t want to be stuck in a marriage.”
“I was just scared. The truth is, it’s not easy being with an older man. He’s so much more experienced in life, and sometimes it’s painfully obvious. But then it’s wonderful because he takes such good care of me.” I hated hearing the negative, but I could imagine how wonderful I would be too and closed my eyes wishing so desperately to have that with Whitt. I’d never had a man take care of me like that; like I was his special girl.
“Well, I have to admit I’m a little jealous, Lila. It sounds like you’re really in love.”
“I am, and it’s not just the sex, which is mind blowing, but it’s the way he puts me first. He’s so worried that something will happen to me on those long commutes that’s he’s trying to be closer, but the company he works for is not being good about transferring him. He was going to get a different job, but he makes such good money.”
“You’d think your father could see all of that.”
“He’s jealous. He’s losing his baby girl. He’d die if he knew Daniel has me call him daddy in the bedroom. It would break his heart.”
“I’ll be sure and not let that one slip.” I made a face knowing I couldn’t possibly imagine a situation where that would come out.
Lila chuckled softly. “Oh, I can’t even believe I told you that.” It had only made me want her father even more and wished things could be that way for us. I’d love to call him anything in bed, in the heat of the moment.
“It’s okay. Your secret is safe with me.”
She let out a long breath. “I didn’t want you to end up in the middle if he brings it up. It’s best for you to know and pretend you don’t. Daddy will calm down in a few days when he comes to his senses.”
“When have you thought about having the wedding?” I thought it might be best to steer the conversation from Whitt for a while.
“We’ve talked about waiting a month, or maybe at the end of the summer.”
“Definitely not the spring wedding you’ve always dreamt of.”
“Yeah, but at least I still have my handsome groom, and I’m learning that’s all that matters. And I’d still like for you to be my bridesmaid. If we have an actual ceremony. I hope though I doubt my daddy will walk me down the aisle.” Her voice broke, and I hated hearing her so upset.
“Which one?” I had only said it hoping to get a laugh, and sure enough, she giggled, but then I heard a pounding at my door.
“Hold on, Lila. Someone’s at my door.” I went to peek through the peephole and found Whitt, red-faced and angry on the other side. “Hey, I have to go. I’ll call you later, okay?”
I made sure the call had ended before I answered the door. “Whitt? What are you doing here?” I decided to play dumb was the best course of action, and he grabbed both of my hands and met my eyes.
“Is Lila hiding something from me?”
Saying no right away would be too obvious so I shook my head and pulled my lips in tight as he pulled back and raked his fingers through his hair as he paced the floor.
“She’s talking about moving out and getting married to that Daniel. That guy has so much influence over her.” He clenched his fist, and I went to the couch to offer him a seat.
He joined me there and looked me in the eyes.
“Tell me she's not get pregnant, Gemma. She’d tell you that, I know she would.” He gave me a challenging glare as I shook my head.
“No, she’s not. She’d tell me that for sure. Have you ever thought that maybe she loves him so much and that’s the only reason?” I rested my elbow on the back of the couch and leaned against my hand.
“Love? He’s an old man. What does he want with a young girl like Lila? She’s got her whole life ahead of her, and she could do better.”
“You know, just because that’s your opinion, doesn’t mean that everyone else is so bothered by an age gap. Love doesn’t know age, and neither does attraction.”
“Attraction is different. There are boundaries.”
“And she’s twenty-two years old.” I let out a long sigh.
“I don’t know why I thought you would understand my side of this; you thought you were ready for me at eighteen.” And I had been. I wanted to tell him I was and I’d always been. But I decided to let him ramble. He turned his head and mumbled something under his breath, and I knew that was my sign to steer clear.
“We’re not kids anymore.”
“I know that.” He waved his hand dismissively. “But she’s still too young. You’re too young. I remind myself of that all the time, and—
“You do?” I narrowed my eyes and scooted closer to him on the couch. “What do you mean?”
“Please, Gemma. Of course, you’re an attractive woman, but it doesn’t make things okay.” He shrugged and looked away then he turned back toward me, shifting in his seat and taking my hands, which this time, he held gently.
“I know I’ve asked you to keep things secret before and I know that you keep Lila’s secrets as well, but I’m begging you, Gemma. If there is ever anything that you think I should know, you’ll tell me. If she’s ever in any kind of danger or if that Daniel does anything to her like knock her up, or God help him if he hits her.” Desperation burned in his eye, and I gave him a nod, and he pulled me closer. “Say it, Gemma. Promise me.”
“I promise.” I knew it was a promise I could only keep if I felt she was truly in danger and I didn’t think that would ever happen. Not to Lila and not by Daniel.
“Thank you.” He reached up and stroked my cheek and then pulled me into his embrace. I closed my eyes and smelled his cologne. It was like all of my dreams were so close to a reality that I wanted to kiss him. But it wasn’t the time.
He pulled back and looked into my eyes. “You’re a good friend, Gemma, to Lila and to me, you both mean a lot to me.”
I wanted to ask how much I meant and kiss him deeply. “You mean a lot to me too, Mr. Porter.”
He sat there a minute and looked around my house and then raked his hand through his hair again. “I’m sorry that I barged in here like this.”
“You’re welcome to come anytime. I wasn’t doing anything. I bought a new blouse.” I held it up, and his eyes widened.
“Do you like it?”
“It doesn’t look like it would cover much.” He scratched his hairy chin.
“You want to see it on me? Then you can tell me what you think.” Before he could answer, I leaned up and stripped off my shirt and slipped the new one on. His eyes widened that I’d done it right there.
“I’m sorry. Maybe that wasn’t appropriate of me.” I gave a devilish grin, and he laughed.
“I think you know damned well what is and isn’t appropriate. You like to try and shock me, don’t you?”
I lifted a shoulder. “Maybe I do.”
“You’re a very naughty girl, Gemma. You should learn to behave, especially around the office. Dax is still making inappropriate jokes about you.”
“He’s a nice guy, though. Or so he seemed.” I liked teasing him about Dax.
His hand fell on my shoulder, and he gave it a squeeze. “Looks can be deceiving.”
“Would it bother you if I was interested in him?” I lifted my shirt, but he put his hand out to stop me.
His face fell, and he narrowed his eyes. “I don’t think you are. I think you like to tease me. You know he’s not right for you.”
“Too old, or not right?” I lifted the top up successfully over my head, and his gaze immediately fell to my breasts.
“Both,” he spoke softly as if in a trance and then he met my eyes.
I leaned in closer still wearing nothing but my thin, lacy bra. “Who do you think I should be with then?”
“I find it hard to believe that you don’t have a boyfriend lurking around here somewhere.” He glanced around the room and laughed. Then his eyes focused on me. “Put your top on.”
“I don’t have a boyfriend. I haven’t ever really.” Not since our kiss.
“They don’t know what they’re missing,” he said, glancing down at my body.
“Yet, you do, and still, you don’t want me?” I challenged him.
“I want lots of things, but mostly, I want what’s best for you, Gemma.” He reached up and cupped my chin, and I turned my head to the side, lying on it like it was the only place in the world I wanted to be.
“I should be going, Gemma. I’ll see you tomorrow.” He got up, and in a moment, he was gone.