Chapter Six
Perran Castle
Genevieve wasn’t distressed that Lucifer had taken her to a chamber other than her own. In fact, she was rather pleased by it.
They could continue their conversation here and, perhaps, she could even wrest a complete and utter promise that he would permit her to buy her freedom. The longer she spent time with the man, the better, and injury or no, she wasn’t going to let that conversation die.
She wanted her freedom.
But she’d had to twist her ankle to do it. At least, that’s what Genevieve thought she’d initially done when there was shooting pain in her ankle as she put weight on it. But it was much better now as she sat upon a comfortable chair in a chamber Lucifer had brought her to. It was a rather spartan chamber, with a bed, a table and benches, and little else. Lucifer had even had the chair brought in from another room.
Now, Genevieve sat upon it with her foot propped up on a bench from the table. Her brown cloak was tossed aside and her leg was propped upon a pillow. Lucifer was standing over an older man as he poked and felt at her ankle.
Genevieve didn’t even know who the man was, but she assumed he was the physic Lucifer had sent the servants running for. He reeked heavily of alcohol as he grunted and sighed, his bad breath billowing up in her face as he inspected the ankle she’d twisted. Finally, he stood up.
“Hot and cold water,” he said in oddly-accented English.
Lucifer looked him curiously. “And do what with it?”
The physic pointed to her ankle, skin exposed as she kept the skirt of her dress tightly wrapped around her legs to preserve her modesty. “Hot and cold compresses,” he said. “First hot water, then cold water, and so on. Do it for the rest of the day.”
With that, he staggered from the chamber, taking the heavy smell of alcohol with him. Lucifer was already speaking to a male servant, instructing the man to bring both hot and cold water, and plenty of rags. As the servant fled, Lucifer shut the door of the chamber and turned to Genevieve.
Their eyes met and, for a moment, neither one spoke. They simply looked at each other. Finally, he smiled weakly.
“At least you did not break it,” he said. “That is good news.”
Genevieve nodded. “Who was that man? The one that stank of drink?”
Lucifer lifted his eyebrows. “A very good physic,” he said. “Unfortunately, he cannot control his drink, so he is drunk at any given hour of the day or night. Even so, he has steady hands even when he is drunk. Con keeps him on because he is so skilled.”
“Con?”
“Le Brecque.”
Genevieve should have known that, but she’d only heard the leader of Poseidon’s Legion addressed by his full first or last name. She watched Lucifer’s face as the man came over to her and peered down at her ankle.
“He is your friend,” she observed.
He looked at her. “Who?”
“Le Brecque.”
Lucifer nodded. “We are as brothers.”
“How did he come to be a pirate?”
Lucifer sat down on the bench that was supporting her outstretched leg, careful not to jostle it. “Like me, he fell into it,” he said. “Every man in Poseidon’s Legion has a great story to tell, but Constantine’s is perhaps greater than most.”
“Why?”
He was looking at her slightly swollen ankle as he spoke. “Because he is the bastard son of Henry V,” he said. “He is Henry’s eldest son and, had he been legitimate, it would be he sitting upon the throne of England now and not that weakling Henry. England would be in very good hands, and Edward and Warwick would be easily subdued.”
Genevieve was quite surprised to hear this. “Is he truly?” she said with awe. “A royal bastard, I mean. He should be commanding great armies of men and not relegated to the seas.”
Lucifer nodded, glancing at her. “As I should not be commanding men upon the seas, either, but assuming my proper place as Wolverhampton’s heir,” he said, watching her smile apologetically. He smiled in return. “I will say it once more – every man here has a great story to tell, but some are greater than others.”
Genevieve was prevented from replying as a pair of servants entered the chamber, bearing bowls of water and boiled linen. Lucifer stood up and began organizing things, setting the bowls of water together on a nearby table and making sure one of the servants was sent to bring in a bigger pot of water they could boil over the hearth. A big iron arm located inside the hearth was used to hang the water over the flame.
As Genevieve watched, Lucifer soaked some boiled linen in the hot water and placed it over her ankle, holding it snuggly. It was very hot and Genevieve hissed uncomfortably. Lucifer glanced up at her, apologetically.
“I am sorry,” he said. “It must be done. It will take down the swelling.”
Genevieve simply nodded, wincing with pain when he squeezed her ankle. “I must say that I’ve never had anyone tend me so carefully,” she said. “Certainly not my father, and my mother died so long ago that I do not even remember such things.”
Lucifer shrugged. “It is right I should tend you, I suppose,” he said. “It was I who brought you outside to walk. I suppose it is my fault that you slipped.”
Genevieve shook her head. “It could have happened anywhere,” she said. “It is not your fault. But I am curious about one thing.”
“What is that?”
“Why did you bring me to this chamber? Why did you not take me back to my chamber?”
He didn’t look at her. “This is my chamber and I brought you here because the last thing you need is to be tripping over all of the dogs in the chambers you share with your sister,” he said. “Of course, I’ve noticed those mongrels. Here, there is no danger of you tripping over anything.”
It sounded like a chivalrous declaration and, increasingly, it was difficult for Genevieve not to feel giddy over the man’s behavior. Their conversation in the bailey had revealed something about the man, something deeper than she could have imagined, and she very much wanted to continue their dialogue. She remembered something else from their conversation, the last thing he’d said to her before she’d twisted her ankle – do you think that I would just throw you out into the dangerous world?
For a pirate, he was making a remarkable attempt at showing the chivalry and compassion that noble knights displayed. But, according to him, he’d been trained as a knight and had served as one for a long time.
It would seem that the noble knight was still there, underneath the pirate façade.
“May we continue our conversation from the bailey?” she asked. “We were speaking of where I would go once I obtained my freedom, and you asked if I could sew.”
He nodded as he pulled the compress off. “I recall.”
“If you do not need an interpreter, then mayhap I can sew for you and your men here at your fortress,” she said. “As I told you, I can sew very well. I could make things for your men and charge them for the privilege.”
He plunged the compress into the cold water, wringing it out. “I suppose you could.”
“Who makes your clothing now?”
“There are a few female servants in the kitchens that provide that service, but they are not very good. I have my clothing made in St. Austell.”
“I would be happy to make and mend your clothing from now on.”
He put the compress on her ankle, glancing up at her as he did so. “For a price, of course.”
“Of course. How else am I to buy my freedom?”
She was pushing hard on earning her freedom and had been since their conversation began. Not that he blamed her. What had started out as a subject he was considering last night now because a subject he didn’t want to talk about. Freedom would mean she would leave him, and he’d come to the unalterable conclusion that he didn’t want her to leave him, at least until he figured out what, exactly, he seemed to be feeling. Curiosity and interest had turned into something else, something that made his insides quiver and his palms sweat. It was so different than what he’d felt for the duchess those years ago – this seemed to be deeper and far less superfluous.
It was something more.
God, that scared him.
“Are you truly sure you want to do that?” he asked. Then he saw the look on her face and realized it was probably the most foolish question he’d ever asked because his tone suggestion that, perhaps, he didn’t want her to do it. Quickly, he continued. “Buy your freedom, I mean. What of this aunt in Carlisle? What if she will not permit you to live with her? Then you will be alone in the world, with no one to protect you, nowhere to go.”
“But… but you said I could sew to earn my way.”
He shrugged, pressing the compress down on her ankle. “Of course you can. But is that truly all you want to be in life?” he asked. “Clearly, you are quite accomplished. Far more accomplished than most women. And you are very beautiful, meaning you would make a great prize for any nobleman. Is that not what you planned your entire life? To be married and have a home of your own?”
Genevieve thought on that seriously. “I think that any chance of my having a normal life ended when my father betrothed me to de Noble,” she said. “He has promised me to a husband I do not want. What good and decent man would take me when there is a legal contract with another man?”
Me! Lucifer’s mind screamed. He was feeling like the most foolish man in the world at the moment, wrestling with thoughts and feelings he’d never before experienced, and utterly unable to voice them.
“What if he was not a good and decent man, simply a man who wanted you and would be kind to you?” he asked before he could stop himself. Horrified, he tried to cover his gaff. “The world is not made of only virtuous men, my lady. There are plenty of other men who would be a descent husband and you would have a good life. They would be proud to have you as a wife.”
Genevieve watched him as he spoke; he wouldn’t look at her. He kept his head down, focused on her ankle, and he seemed very determined into talking her into marrying someone other than de Noble. She was confused. Would he, or would he not, allow her to purchase her freedom? Why was he trying to make it seem as if she had other options when the truth was that she didn’t?
“I suppose that when I was younger, I hoped for a handsome husband and a home of my own,” she said, uncertainty in her voice with the turn of the conversation. “It is what all young girls hope for. But the moment my father sealed the contract with de Noble, that became impossible. But I sense you have other intentions, Lucifer. It seems as if you are trying to convince me that finding another husband will be a better life for me. Does this mean you do not intend to allow me to purchase my freedom?”
Lucifer didn’t know what he meant. All he knew was that he didn’t want her to leave. And he certainly didn’t want her marrying anyone else, but he couldn’t let her know that. Feeling like an indecisive idiot, he pulled the cold compress off her ankle and went back over to the bowls of water.
“Nay,” he said after a moment. “It does not mean that I do not intend to allow you to purchase your freedom. As I said, you are a valuable commodity, so I suppose it does not matter how I get my money for you, only that I get it. If you wish to purchase your freedom by being a seamstress at Perran Castle, then I shall allow it until Constantine returns from his wedding trip. He may have something more to say about it but, until that time, I shall permit it.”
His words were cruel and welcome at the same time. He would allow her to purchase her freedom, but it was clear that he was only concerned about the money. That was all she meant to him. Genevieve had never felt more disappointed in her life.
… Hurt.
“I… I will earn my keep, I promise,” she said. “How much do you want for my freedom?”
Lucifer looked at her, thinking she sounded depressed. He wondered why. Wasn’t that the answer she wanted? He was trying to do what she wanted. When their eyes met, he simply couldn’t look at her. He was afraid she would see the confusion in his eyes. Lowering his gaze, he went back to the compress.
“I have not yet decided,” he said. “I will give it some thought and let you know.”
Genevieve didn’t press him. She was feeling so incredibly sad that tears were stinging her eyes and she truly had no idea why. The man was a pirate, her captor. Yet in the short conversations she’d had with the man, she’d felt such warmth and attraction for him that she could hardly describe it. She knew she’d seen warmth in his eyes when he’d looked at her but, now, she realized she must have been imagining it. He was talking about the money he could make from her and those certainly weren’t the words of a man who was feeling something.
Perhaps there really was no warmth.
Genevieve truly had no idea why that should distress her so, but it did. She was coming to realize that her game of charming the man, her attempts to seduce him to her will, were turning the tables on her. In her attempts to charm him, he’d thoroughly managed to charm her in return with his soft-spoken but deep voice, the big dimple in his cheeks when he smiled, and the way he had of looking at her that made her insides turn to jelly.
Aye, she could admit it. But in doing so, there was great angst in her heart. How could she remain with a man who saw her as nothing more than a commodity? Lucifer was a man she was very much attracted to and the thought that he would never see her in any other light was painful.
Genevieve hadn’t been exposed to many men in her time, and certainly not enough to discover a fondness for any of them. But Lucifer, a man she’d tried to injure, but a man who had shown her compassion beyond compassion, had managed to prick his way under her skin. Now, he was there, and she had no idea how to remove him.
She didn’t want to see him anymore.
“Will you do something for me?” she asked, her throat tight with emotion.
Lucifer could hear the tone of her voice, sensing that something was amiss. “What is it?”
“Will you take me back to my chamber?”
He set the compress down. “Why?” he asked. “Are you feeling unwell?”
Genevieve nodded. Then, to her great embarrassment, she burst into quiet tears.
Lucifer was stricken. He had no idea why she was weeping but, then again, women were mysterious creatures. Perhaps it was nothing more than a woman having an attack of the bad humors, which happened all of the time, or perhaps it was more. Genevieve didn’t seem like a weak-willed woman who was prone to bad humors. Quite the contrary.
She was the strongest woman he’d ever seen.
“Are you in pain, my lady?” he asked, rather gently. “Tell me where it hurts so that I can…”
She cut him off. “Nay,” she said. “Please… just take me back to my chamber.”
Lucifer didn’t like to see her cry. Nay, he didn’t like that in the least. “Will you please tell me what is wrong?” he asked. “Mayhap I can help.”
“You cannot help!” she burst. “You have already helped enough! First you say you are going to sell me to the highest bidder, and then you suggest that I may be able to buy my freedom, and then you tell me that I am worth only money to you, as if… as if I am nothing more!”
She suddenly stopped, realizing she was spouting the thoughts that were on her mind, certainly not things she should be saying to Lucifer. She didn’t want to have to explain herself.
But Lucifer caught on. Calmly, and with great deliberation, he sat back down on the bench that was supporting Genevieve’s foot. All the while, he couldn’t take his eyes from her.
“You are more,” he said quietly. “I have come to see, since last night, that you are much more.”
Genevieve sniffled into her hand. “More what?” she said. “More money? Do you see how much more you can get for me?”
He shook his head, feeling very badly that she was upset. God, it was such an unsettling feeling, as if he had no control over anything. But he was starting to realize the things he’d said to her since their association had the woman rattled. He hadn’t meant to upset her, but that’s exactly what he’d done. Yesterday, her tears would not have bothered him. But today, they did.
A great deal had changed since yesterday.
“Will you please tell me why you weep?” he asked. “If you are hurting, then I shall bring the physic back so he may ease your pain.”
Genevieve wiped at her eyes. Was she hurting? She was, all over. She was hurt and she was feeling stupid. The physic couldn’t ease what she was feeling because, in truth, she didn’t even know what she was feeling. Not completely.
All she knew was that Lucifer… nay, Rhoan… had made her feel something.
“I have had a difficult few weeks,” she said, sounding snappish and unhappy. “Sometimes, I will cry for no reason, but you should not worry. I am grateful that you will allow me to buy my freedom and Vivi’s freedom, and I shall work very hard for you. You will not lose money, I promise. Now, will you please take me back to my chamber or must I find it myself?”
Lucifer didn’t know what to say to her. There was a great deal in his mind, and perhaps even in his heart, but he couldn’t bring himself to say anything. He wanted to tell her that he wanted her to remain with him at Perran because he wanted her to stay. He wanted to keep her, to even marry her, but saying that to the woman scared him to death. He’d never thought he could ever bring forth those words. But the more he watched her weep, the more he wanted to tell her what he was truly feeling.
Yet, it would be sheer madness, coming from him. He was her jailor. Yesterday, she tried to brain him with a broken table leg and today, he was in love with her? The entire thing was madness. Perhaps he needed to get away from her and clear his head. Perhaps then he might find some peace with what he was thinking, with the turmoil he was feeling. Perhaps then, her tears wouldn’t rip at him like they were now. But in his turmoil, he grasped her hand laying on her lap in an impulsive gesture to comfort her. Yet, the moment he touched her, something very strange happened.
Bolts of energy, like flashes of lightning, shot up his arm and into his chest, causing his heart to constrict. Everything was constricting. Genevieve must have felt it, too, because she gasped at his touch and her fingers instinctively tightened. Perhaps that was where those strange pulses of energy were coming from – her tight grip on his fingers, which he couldn’t seem to remove. In fact, he didn’t want to remove them. One small touch had him reeling and, suddenly, he wanted more. That beautiful, bold woman had his entire world rocking. Unable to pull away, he heard himself groan and, in the blink of an eye, she was in his arms.
His kisses were like fire, consuming everything they came into contact with. This maddening, frustrating, delectable woman filled him like a roaring blaze. He was blinded by it. The last time he kissed a woman like this, it had been that hungry duchess and she’d been all over him like a bitch in heat. He’d been all over her, too, but it had been purely physical. Only physical.
But this… this was different.
He could hear Genevieve gasping as his lips suckled hers, draining the very breath from her. She tasted sweet and her skin was like silk beneath his fingers. Her hair, as soft as a newborn kitten’s fur, drew his touch. He was touching her everywhere, experiencing her with every sense he possessed – sight, taste, smell, touch, and hearing. Every sense he had was filled with her, and the constriction in his chest was causing him to breath in harsh pants. In truth, he could barely breathe at all.
It had been far too long since he’d been with a woman, so long that he lacked the ability to restrain or pace himself. His mouth had moved to her neck, now suckling the tender flesh of her neck and shoulder as Genevieve wrapped her arms around him and held him close. She was in no way resisting him, pressing herself against him as if she’d been wanting it all her life.
Was it even possible she wanted him as badly as he realized he wanted her?
His hands were drifting to the stays on her dress, boldly loosening the laces, yanking the left shoulder of her bodice down so it exposed her left breast. God, it was a beautiful breast, so firm and full, with a puckered nipple. He captured that nipple in his mouth before she could utter a word of protest, and suckled on it as hungrily as a starving babe.
Beneath his hands, Genevieve bucked and gasped, and before either of them realized it, he’d lifted her up and carried her over to his bed, still attached to her breast. Then, she was on her back with her left breast exposed as he tossed up her skirts. There was a jewel beneath the silk and linen that he sought, and he would have it. He was a pirate, after all, and pirates sought treasure.
This was the greatest treasure of all.
Her thighs were soft and white, tender-fleshed, and he pulled them apart as his head plunged beneath her skirts, his mouth coming to land on the sensitive interior of her thighs near where her legs joined with her body. The skirts were rather voluminous and they fell back over his head, trapping him in the darkness with her woman’s center near his mouth. He could hear Genevieve gasp as his seeking lips found the dark curls between her legs, his tongue lapping at the tender pink folds.
He had his treasure.
He knew she was virgin. That had never been a question in his mind. Therefore, he slowed his pace, far less of a frenzy and far more of a languid pace as he stroked her with his tongue, suckling on the thick lips and feeling her buck beneath him. She had tried to pull away initially, embarrassed with the new and intimate sensations, but she wasn’t pulling away any longer. In fact, she was simply trembling, the quivering growing more violent as he began to tease her tiny bud of pleasure with his tongue. His fingers began to probe her and it was enough to cause her to experience her first release, something Lucifer very much wished he’d been able to feel as God has intended, with his rod buried deep in her folds, her tremors begging for his seed. But the last time he did that, he’d had a son he’d been forced to relinquish, and he wasn’t about to do that with Genevieve.
No matter how badly he wanted her.
But that didn’t stop him from untying his braies and lifting himself up, tossing up her skirts again so that they ended up over her face and head. Now, all he could see of her was her body from the waist down and he wasn’t disappointed. It was as perfect as the rest of her.
His great manroot, freed and hard as a rock, was desperately seeking a release but he would deny it, at least the kind of release that most men found. Instead, he began to rub it against her, thrusting his hips in such a way that he was simply rubbing himself all along her wet pink folds without penetrating her. When Genevieve moaned with the sheer power of his actions, he dipped his head down and kissed her through the fabric of her skirts. He could see the outlines of her face in the fabric and he kissed her delicately, with only the fabric between them.
It was the most erotic thing he’d ever done.
It had been over ten years since Lucifer had last taken a woman, and every second of those long, lonely years was coming out in his touch. The warmth, the longing, and the emotions he was capable of were in his touch as he grasped Genevieve’s hand gently in his big hands and kissed her tenderly through the fabric. He ground his pelvis against hers, feeling her heat and wetness against his seeking manroot but, in this moment, it was far less about the act of physically releasing himself and more about the awakening emotions he’d kept suppressed all of these years.
Genevieve had awakened them.
When he finally released himself, it was not on her body but on his bed, on the dirty linens that he slept in. It was a climax of great satisfaction, but his physical release was secondary to the myriad of emotions stirring in his heart. When he finally flipped down Genevieve’s skirts, he found her gazing up at him, her beautiful face flushed. Feeling awkward, and deeply emotional because he couldn’t bring himself to speak of what he was feeling, he lifted her off the bed.
“I suppose I should apologize for that,” he said, still holding her in his arms. “I do not know what came over me.”
The warm expression on Genevieve’s face cooled. “You mean that you did not mean to do that? Any of… that?”
He shook his head as he sat her back on the chair she’d been sitting in and released her from his embrace. God help him, he felt so much confusion that he couldn’t even look at her.
“I do not know what came over me,” he repeated. “But you are so beautiful… I could not help myself.”
Genevieve looked at him, stunned. She thought for certain he’d kissed her because he’d wanted to, because he was feeling the same attraction that she was. She’d started out this morning wanting to seduce the man, so she could have her way in all things. But now, her selfish wants were the furthest thing from her mind. She was coming to care for this man, her jailor, and even more so now that he’d kissed her as he had. He’d touched her body – she’d permitted him to – but, God, she’d wanted him to touch her so badly. She regretted nothing.
But, clearly, he did.
Embarrassed, and ashamed, she simply hung her head, pulling her skirts down and pulling her bodice up so she was properly covered again. Ten minutes in the man’s arms was all she needed to convince herself that she felt something deeper for him than she’d cared to admit.
But he didn’t feel the same way.
“If you are looking for absolution for your weakness, I cannot give it,” she said, her tone dull with sorrow. “I have asked you to return me to my chamber. Will you do this? If not, then send for someone who will.”
Lucifer looked at her, all of the things he wanted to tell her right on the tip of his tongue, but he couldn’t bring himself to say them. She sounded sad and dejected, and he didn’t want her to feel like that. But he couldn’t bring himself to comfort her. Perhaps what he needed was some time away from the woman to figure out what, exactly, he was feeling. He was so concerned she would think him a fool that sheer fear kept him from saying what was in his heart.
He needed some time alone to think.
Without another word, he bent over and swept her into his arms, carrying her from his chamber and back to the chambers she shared with Vivienne and the dogs. When he left her there with her sore ankle and a sister with many more questions than answers, it was silently as well. He couldn’t even bring himself to bid her farewell. He was too confused, too emotional, and too ashamed to do any of it.
All I need is time and I can tell her what I am feeling, he told himself as he walked away. Meanwhile, she will remain here where I will see her every day. I will not permit her to leave me, not ever.
At least, those were his thoughts. He couldn’t even tell her, not even as he shut the door and heard her muffled tears as Vivienne tried to press her for answers.
In hindsight, it would be the biggest mistake of his life.