Joss strapped the last of his bags to Emilia’s saddle and gave her a pat to apologize. “I’m sorry, old girl. I know you’re not eager to be on your way. I’m not either.”

She whickered in response and bless her generous heart, followed readily enough when he led her out of her stall and into the aisle through the center of the stables.

Ahead, he could see the lowering late afternoon sky through the open doors. Maggie was right about the weather. The smell of snow lay sharp on the air.

Then a sight more dangerous by far than any bad weather appeared in the doorway.

“How is Emilia’s leg?” Maggie asked, coming into the stables but keeping her distance. Like him, she’d changed into dry clothes.

Joss hadn’t seen the woman who haunted his every thought since they’d returned to the house after skating. He’d gone upstairs to pack his few things, and she’d disappeared into the kitchens, he assumed. Downstairs anyway.

He’d guessed she avoided farewells. If she felt the way he did, like someone scraped out his liver with a rusty pitchfork, he couldn’t blame her.

By God, he didn’t want to go. And that reluctance was yet another sign that he must. And quickly.

His mother would be damned proud of him. If he ever told her about the lost, enchanted days in this hidden valley. Which of course he never would.

“She’ll carry me as far as the village,” he said, although he feared he might be too optimistic. Emilia had stopped limping yesterday, but she was a long way from full fitness.

“You could take Bob.”

“Then questions would be asked.”

“Oh, that’s right.” A wry smile curled Maggie’s lips and made him want to kiss her. Hell, he always wanted to kiss her. Now he’d actually done it, he was hungrier than ever. “I’m not very good at romantic intrigue.”

“The weather’s closing in.” And the night. What he’d give to be looking forward to lying in a nice warm bed beside Maggie, instead of tramping through a snowstorm. “I must go.”

“Yes, you must.” She didn’t move.

Nor did he. “I wondered whether you’d decided not to say goodbye.”

“I wouldn’t be such a coward.” Her shaking hand held out a small bundle. “I prepared some food. And I put a flask of Dr. Black’s best brandy in there, too.”

“Thank you.” Joss took the bundle and turned to pack it into his saddlebag with his sketchbooks. He had a few ideas for modernizing the house. But mostly he wanted to leave it as it was. It was lovely and unique and unspoiled. Like the woman who lived in it.

“I will come back, I swear,” he said into Emilia’s flank.

“I hope so,” Maggie said, and at last he heard her voice wobble.

It shouldn’t gratify him to know she grieved over his departure, but of course it did. When he rode away, he wanted her bawling her eyes out. He wanted her to cry until the triumphant day he galloped back down the drive and took her into his arms. That was how much of a bastard he was.

Joss turned to face her and immediately felt like a swine for wishing her unhappy. The misery in her expression twisted his gut.

You’re leaving for her sake.

But the words rapidly lost any power. So rapidly that if he didn’t leave right now, he wouldn’t.

“There’s something I need to do first,” he said with sudden decision.

She frowned at him in puzzlement. “What?”

“This.”

He grabbed her by the waist and hauled her up against him.

Maggie gave a shocked squeak, followed by a delicious sigh of surrender as his mouth crashed down onto hers. When he’d kissed her in the snow, she’d been shy and uncertain, although she’d worked out the basics with impressive speed.

This time, he made no allowance for her inexperience and plundered her mouth with all the passion she stirred in his soul. She moaned into his mouth and twined around him, holding him like she never wanted to go another day without having him near.

Joss held onto her too long. He held onto her not nearly long enough.

He wrenched away, curling his hands around her arms to keep her upright as she sagged toward him. He didn’t feel too secure on his feet himself.

“Remember that, Maggie,” he said almost savagely. “Remember that, until I come back to you.”

She stared at him with wide blue eyes and didn’t speak as he flung himself on Emilia’s back and urged the mare into the cold air.

Joss didn’t look back. He didn’t trust himself to keep going if he did.

For a long time, Maggie stood in the stable doorway and looked out over the snowy hills surrounding the estate. Because of the lay of the land, she couldn’t see Joss as he rode down the drive and turned onto the road across the fields, the road that would eventually take him to the outside world. That outside world would quickly claim him back as its own, so he’d forget whatever charms he imagined he’d found in Fraedale.

As she waited, the afternoon grew colder. Stamping her booted feet to restore circulation, she wrapped her shawl more closely about her, but didn’t think of going inside to the warmth.

Not yet.

The wind whistled around her ears and stung her cheeks and eyes. She wasn’t crying, but with every second that passed, the sorrow lodged in her stomach expanded. Until it was the size of a boulder. Until it was the size of a mountain, ready to tumble down and crush her to nothing.

She bit her lip, without looking away from the empty hills. Already she missed Joss so much. At last, she understood the true cruelty of her situation.

She’d been lonely for years. Since she’d left her father’s vicarage after his death. Worse since her mother passed away.

But Joss’s absence was a physical pain, a crippling loss. Loneliness bit far more viciously, when it focused on one desired person.

Finally she saw what she wanted—dreaded—to see. The light was nearly gone, but against the snowy landscape of the high hills, the man leading his horse was clearly visible.

Joss must have decided to walk to save Emilia’s leg. Maggie frowned. If he ran into bad weather with a lame horse, he mightn’t reach the village.

“Dear God, keep him safe,” she whispered into the dusty, hay-scented shadows gathering around her. Her breath formed clouds in the freezing air. “Keep him safe, even if he forgets me and never comes back.”

The sound of a human voice after the long silence made Bob whicker from his stall. Smith twined around Maggie’s legs, with a plaintive miaow to say she hadn’t been fed since Easter.

Still Maggie watched as the man and his horse climbed up toward the pass and disappeared over the brow of the hill.

He’d gone. And with his leaving, all the warmth and laughter and joy—and, yes, the promise of passion—had gone, too. If Maggie’s life had felt bleak before Joss’s arrival, now it seemed unbearably barren.

She struggled to find the will to move, to put one foot in front of another. Smith complained again, and she bent to stroke the cat’s black and white head.

Duty called. Emotional devastation didn’t change that.

Feeling as though she was ninety years old and every movement hurt, she settled the animals for the night. As she crossed the yard toward the house, it started to snow. How she hoped Joss was approaching shelter.

Back in the kitchen, she slumped onto the settle in front of the roaring fire. It was nearly dinnertime, but she didn’t do anything about preparing a meal. The thought of food made her stomach curdle. Smith curled up on her lap and bore Maggie’s sobs with good grace—for a cat.

She could live without Joss. She’d only known him four days. That shouldn’t be long enough to change her whole future. A few kisses, some companionship, a compatible soul to share laughter. None of these things were necessary for survival. Although they’d been so very nice.

She’d go on. She had to.

And perhaps in time, he would come back as he promised.

But the precious intimacy they’d found during these snowy days would never return. The bond between them had been a product of their isolation.

Most likely Joss wouldn’t come back, and she’d continue as she had before. It would be as if nothing had happened. Because in the world’s eyes, nothing had. Nobody would ever know she and Joss had shared this house without the benefit of a chaperone. There would be no local gossip about the naughty housekeeper up at Thorncroft Hall, and what she’d got up to with the London visitor. Even if Joss had left her as innocent as when he’d arrived.

Or almost.

She remained a virtuous woman. Her chastity had been assailed, and she’d emerged triumphant.

Maggie didn’t feel triumphant. She felt bereft and alone. Anger beat back her despair as she fumbled for her handkerchief and blew her nose.

Twenty-five years of spotless propriety, and what did she have to show for it? Her good reputation and respectably preserved virginity didn’t make her any happier.

She’d never imagined resenting the moral strictures she’d always obeyed. But as she sat forlorn in an empty house, when she could be enjoying Joss’s kisses and lying in Joss’s bed, her choice didn’t seem nearly so clear-cut.

Joss had guessed how close she verged to throwing over her principles. He hadn’t left just because he feared for his own restraint. He’d left because he knew that Maggie hovered a kiss away from surrender.

She’d never learned how to dissemble, and he was a perceptive man. He must guess she was falling in love with him. To his credit, he’d done the only thing a man of honor could do. He’d gone.

And to her credit, she’d let him go.

She didn’t feel much like patting herself on the back. Instead she felt like her courage had failed her when she’d most needed it, and as a result, she’d made the greatest mistake of her life.

Oh, she knew the price of following the primrose path. The fishing village in Kent had its share of fallen women and bastard children. And her gentle, loving parents would never understand why she might go against everything they’d taught her to believe.

But love had its own imperatives. And sitting in front of the fire on her own—and facing a life that promised more solitude—she couldn’t help thinking that sin might have its compensations.

The lantern revealed an endless fall of white against the blackness. Joss sensed the hillsides crowding closer and closer as he approached the pass. The wind howled about him with an inhuman shriek. Despite the protection of his hat, icy water trickled down the back of his neck. Beneath his booted feet, the road was treacherous with ice. Behind him, Emilia continued to make awkward progress, favoring her lame leg.

“Not far now, girl,” he said, but the gale whipped his words away.

Probably a good thing. They were a damned lie.

He’d thought he was cold the night he stumbled onto Thorncroft Hall, more a matter of good luck than good judgment. It didn’t compare to this icy hell. And yet he couldn’t be much more than a mile away from the hall.

He staggered into a thick snowdrift and only kept his balance by wrenching at Emilia’s rein. He rapidly reached a stage where rational thought failed. One stubborn vow played over and over in his head.

I must leave Maggie. It’s for her own good.

I must leave Maggie. It’s for her own good.

Each grim syllable tolled like a dirge as he lumbered onto the road that took him back to his real life.

His real life wasn’t this backwater. His real life was business, and London, and his friends and family, and the beautiful, sophisticated women who passed through his bed without leaving a trace on his heart.

It was pure winter madness that right now only one woman’s face lived in his memory. She was a slender redhead who was far too good for him.

Emilia nuzzled his back, and he realized he’d come to a dead stop in the blizzard. Even his thick wits recognized this was the surest way to ensure he never left this valley alive.

He took a swig of his godfather’s brandy and patted his horse’s snowy coat. “I’m sorry I dragged you out into this,” he said through chattering teeth, as he slid the flask back into his pocket. He faced into the strengthening wind, which had veered around to blow straight toward him. “I had no choice.”

But as he trudged ahead, making minuscule progress, he couldn’t help remembering Maggie’s stricken expression when he’d left. He’d nearly turned back at that moment, said to hell with honor. Joss Hall would recognize no law but the law of desire.

Was he out of his mind to struggle out here, when a mile behind him, Maggie waited? Warm. Welcoming. Beautiful.

Innocent. Unprotected. Gallant.

No, he couldn’t ruin her for his own selfish pleasure. He wasn’t such a cad, God blast it.

Joss gritted his teeth and narrowed his eyes against the flying snow. He pushed on and with every step, he battled to find some shred of compensation in doing the right thing, when wickedness was, oh, so tempting.