Link
Jesus Christ, my heart’s in my throat. My lips are so close to hers, touching them, caressing them. She feels too damn perfect against me. Why she thinks everything is pain—I will never understand. I get the logistics of it but fuck! I don’t want to hurt her. I brush my lips over hers once more but I let my hand linger on her cheek. I won’t move it. I won’t let her push that part of herself away. She deserves to feel. She doesn’t deserve to hide behind a fake pain that isn’t really there. She’s too young, and beautiful for that.
“Link, please,” she cries. I can taste her salty tears as they run down her face.
“I want you, Jordyn. I want to show you that the first time was nothin’ compared to now. I want to make you feel good,” I whisper against her. God, how do I control myself? This shit is new to me, too. My dick fucking aches in these sweatpants. I don’t want to hurt her. I don’t know that she even wants me to fucking be inside of her again—but the overwhelming need for her is too much for me to handle.
“I don’t know how to do this. I don’t know how to not feel pain, Link,” she cries.
“Do you want me, Jordyn? Do you want this?” I have to know. I have to know her answer before I get too far gone.
“Yes... but I’m scared,” she admits to me. God, this is harder than I thought it would be. I want her so fucking badly—I can taste her on the tip of my tongue.
“You take the lead. You show me what to do. You show me where I can try to touch you, Jordyn.” Her eyes fly open and see beams up at me. I kiss her softly once more before she nods.
“I’d never hurt you on purpose, darlin’.” She nods her head as if she already knows that.
She reaches for the hem of her shirt and pulls it over her head. I watch her body and the groan that escapes me doesn’t go unnoticed by her. She smiles shyly but I fucking love it just the same. I lean back and drag my sweatpants off while she watches me. The way she licks her lips, fuck... I’m in trouble with this one. I slide down the bed and lie flat on my back. This is a completely awkward position for both of us to be in. Neither of us know what the hell we’re doing. I do, from watching all kind of porn and jerking myself off more times than I care to admit but this, with her, it’s new.
“I’m scared, Link.” I grab my dick in my hand not able to handle it anymore. I stroke it up and down as she watches me. I grab a condom out of the nightstand and slide it on quickly as she watches me. Yeah, I’ve practiced that, too!
“It’s ok. You take the lead,” I tell her. Jordyn shyly climbs up and straddles me. She grabs my dick out of my hand before sliding down its length. Fuck, I didn’t expect her to just take it all in like that. Her head tilts back and her mouth parts. Her hands come to rest on my chest, sending flames through my body. It’s taking all the strength I have to not reach up and touch her body. It’s so goddamn beautiful mounted up on me.
“I don’t know what I’m doing.” She looks down into my eyes. I slowly move my hips when her eyes widen. She reaches for my hands and brings them to her hips. I can see the pain in her eyes. She has to realize that it isn’t real. I have to show her how good this can be. I let my hands sit on her hips for a few minutes, just rotating my hips a little. My body is so fucking taut I can barely stand it but she needs this right now. I know she does and I want to give it to her no matter how hard it is for me.
Once the look in her eyes slowly starts to fade, I circle my thumbs over her soft skin. She looks like she’s on the high of her life right now and I take advantage of that. I hold her hips a little tighter, raising my hips a little higher so that I can get deeper.
“Oh, God, Link,” she cries. It isn’t a cry of pain either. It’s a cry of pure bliss.
“Yeah, feels good, yeah?” I ask her. She nods her head as I keep moving. It feels fucking fantastic on my end.
“Link, kiss me... please,” she begs. I sit up, our chests coming to mesh with each other’s.
I see the fear in her eyes. I see the way she looks but I kiss her like she’s never been kissed before. I take all the air from her lungs. I pull her into me and I take her like she’s never been taken before. Everything about her and the way she feels is too damn good. It’s all too damn good. How the hell am I ever going to get enough of her? How am I going to hold off on touching her when she makes me feel like the luckiest man alive?