Chapter Four
WINTER
“The cleanse.”
*Present
I thanked God as I slipped into the house that none of my stepbrothers were home. Josh hadn’t been here in months, choosing to stay at his mom's after everything that had gone down with Caden last year. He never came right out and said it was because of me but he didn’t have to, I knew exactly how he felt about me without him having to say a word.
When Caden went to jail and Josh left for his moms the beatings started. My stepbrothers were smart, they would wait until my mom wasn’t home or until they were sure I wouldn’t be brave enough to say anything. The truth was that even if I had told someone, anyone, no one would have cared. Not even my own mother, I had always felt more like an obligation to her than a daughter.
I always wanted to go to college but that was when the plan really came full circle. I knew my mother wasn’t going to pay for it and my stepfather definitely wasn’t going to pay for it. If I wanted things to change, if I wanted to escape, I was going to have to do it on my own.
The weekends were the worst if my stepbrothers had been drinking so I was relieved to find them not there. They had probably shacked up with one of their many girlfriends, deciding their need for pussy was greater than their need to deliver bodily pain to me.
That was one line they had never crossed, nothing sexual had ever conspired between us. I didn’t know why they hadn’t tried, why it was a task they had never been interested in trying to accomplish, but it was one I was thankful for. It was a bitter reminder that no matter how awful things got, they could always get worse. It was something that I always tried to repeat to myself when I felt like complaining and after my run in with Caden, it definitely felt like one of those times. Any relief I felt from the absence of my stepbrothers was short lived when I opened my bedroom door and felt a hot rush creep into my body.
Caden was waiting for me.
I flipped the switch but nothing happened, the room stayed dark. I jolted to my closet and swung the door open, pulling on the string that hooked its way into the light on the ceiling but just like with the other bulb, nothing happened. I slammed the door and swung around, searching the darkness.
“What did you do to the lights?”
Silence.
I felt my heart starting to race inside of my chest heavily, filling with fear. He was here, waiting, playing some kind of game with me. I hated the dark and he knew it, I felt so helpless and lost. “Caden,” I whispered, taking a step forward. “I know you’re there.”
I heard a soft creak from the other side of the room and let out a half yelp as I lunged my body into the back of the door, searching for the knob to get the hell out of there. When I finally found it and tried to thrust it open, nothing happened. It was locked. I had somehow trapped myself inside when I shut the door behind me. I dropped my purse to the floor. “This isn’t funny.”
When still no answer came I felt tears starting to prick the back of my eyelids. “Please,” I pleaded. “Please, don’t do this.” I felt like my throat was closing in around me my heart was pounding so hard.
Caden had his hands around my body in seconds, pulling me against him and then tossing me onto the bed before climbing on top of me. “That was fucking pathetic, Winter. Is that what you would do if someone broke into here and tried to attack you? Beg and cry?”
I tried to swallow my tears but it was too late to hide them.
He punched the mattress next to me in anger and climbed off me. “It’s not even funny, you’re so fucking pathetic. Way to give me a challenge, pet.” He was disappointed in me, furious at my lack of ability to defend myself. “The only person you should be fucking submitting to is me. At this rate, everyone in town would be able to take advantage you in a million different ways before you even realized what the fuck was going on.”
It was insane but somehow the thought of letting him down effected me in ways I didn’t want to fully admit. “I’m sorry,” I found myself apologizing without fully understanding why.
“You’re always fucking sorry, pet.” He stood on the other side of the room, flipping on the small lamp on my desk to reveal just enough light to make his dark features glow. “Get over here.”
I looked down nervously. Was he going to make me play again?
“Now,” he demanded.
I slid to the edge of the bed and got up, slowly closing the distance between the two of us. It was strange how being close to him again, after all this time, brought out the same exact emotions inside of me. The fear, the need to please him, and the games. God, the games.
They were never-ending.
He shrugged his jacket off and looked me up and down, pausing over the tightest parts of my dress. “I’m the only one who gets to see you like that from now on, Winter. You want to dress like a slut then it will be for me and me alone, do you understand me?”
“Yes, Caden,” I whispered.
“Kneel before me.”
I found myself on the ground before I even realized what was happening. He nodded in satisfaction, walking in a circle possessively around me. I felt like I was a piece of prey, being circled and groomed by a lion before he attacked and devoured every piece of me.
“That’s a good pet,” he praised me before disappearing behind my back again. “It’s a shame that you’re such a fucking cunt, Winter, or I may have decided to keep you for a while.” His presence was firm behind me, his hardness already starting to press into the back of me under the fabric of his pants.
I wanted to turn around, to look at him while he spoke to me but I knew better than to risk it. Caden didn’t want me bugging him, asking a million and twelve questions; he wanted me on the ground while I looked up at him with wide doe eyes. Like an obedient little pet.
“I didn’t call them, Caden,” I coughed out as he continued to circle me. My body was trembling now, anticipation and confusion about what was going to happen to me taking over. “I wouldn’t do that to you.”
He tensed. “If you ever bring that night up again, Winter, I swear to God I will lose my fucking mind. You don’t know anything about that night, that means you don’t get to talk about it.”
“I was there too, Caden,” I said softly.
“That doesn’t mean you know shit about it,” he snapped. “If I ever have to have this conversation with you again, I promise you what you witnessed that night will look like a walk in the part compared to what I fucking do.” He grabbed me by the chin and forced my eyes into his, showing me just how much he meant it. “Don’t start acting like a bad pet now, baby, it’s too soon for that.” An evil glisten crept into his eyes. “We haven’t even gotten to anything good yet.”
I shivered slightly. Something told me his definition of good was drastically different than mine. I glanced to the side of the room when he released my face and caught my image in the mirror. I looked stunned and lost, my jet-black hair hanging in limp strands around my face outlining my two red cheeks. My chocolate eyes looked almost dead and my normally covered body looked foreign in something so short and revealing. It had been a long time since I really looked myself in the mirror, really processed what my body looked like.
I saw the slight redness of the bruise I had gotten hours earlier creeping out from underneath one of my thighs and immediately tugged my dress down, not wanting Caden to see it. I had no idea what he would do if he realized what my stepbrothers had been doing to me; if he would even care. Why would he? He hated me more than he hated anyone else in the world. Still, I didn’t want to have to deal with any more humiliation. Not with Caden. Everything about our situation already mortified me enough.
“I have to go,” I mumbled, trying to stand up in a panic. I had to get out of there. I had to figure out a way to cover up what was going on underneath my clothes before he saw them. I thought I remembered seeing some old makeup of my moms in the bathroom; maybe smearing enough of it on would do something to conceal the marks. I had never considered it because I never had to worry about it before.
“Where the fuck do you think you’re going, pet?” Caden shoved his hands into my shoulders and pushed me back down to the ground. “Did I tell that you could get up?”
“No, but…” I shook my head.
“That’s right,” he cut me off. “I didn’t.”
My chest was rising and falling heavier than normal.
“You’re even more nervous than normal,” he observed, calling me out right away. “Why is that, pet?” He looked directly at the spot between my legs. “The thought of taking me raw too much for you to handle?”
Taking him raw? Oh, my God.
“Relax,” he continued. “We’re going to walk before we run.”
What the hell did that mean?
I was terrified that he was going to pull my dress off and see my body, the anxiety was overwhelming me, making me almost as nervous as the thought of him putting his hands on me in a sexual way period. It wasn't that I didn't want him; I just didn't want to be a letdown. He could have any women he wanted, how could I measure up to that? I tried to think of a way to avoid it, a way to get out of the situation.
“Can we turn the lights on?” I asked quickly.
It was risky, trying to outplay him. Caden had a way of doing the exact opposite of what I wanted. I was hoping that by requesting the lights be left on he would leave them off and in turn wouldn’t be able to see much of my body in the darkness. Trying to outsmart the master wasn’t a smart move and I should have known it wouldn’t turn out the way I wanted.
Caden chuckled and moved to the back of my body again. “You don’t need to worry about the light being on or off, Winter. In fact, you aren’t going to know one way or another.” Before I had a chance to ask any questions I felt something soft brushing the back of my neck and covering my eyes, slipping me into a sea of blackness.
My body started to shake.
He was blindfolding me?
I hated the dark.
“Caden,” I warned.
“Shh,” he soothed. “Relax, little pet, it’s fun. You’ll see.”
I couldn’t see him but I could feel him, slowly pacing back and forth like a master overlooking his property. My hands itched to reach forward and remove the blindfold, revealing the light again. It made me uneasy not being able to see what he was doing. “Why do I have to be blindfolded, Caden?”
He sighed. “You’re just going to have to trust me, pet.”
I was just going to have to trust him?
Was he delusional?
How could I trust him when he was doing shit like this?
My heart thumped, thumped, thumped in anticipation.
What was going to happen next?
“Where are you?”
Silence.
“Caden,” I pleaded, desperately.
He was getting off on this.
As fucked up as I thought he was, I couldn’t exactly hate him for it, not when my own wetness was forming so rapidly between my legs that I thought I was going to cum all over my carpet any minute.
I felt him suddenly, taking my hands and whipping them behind my back sternly. “Put your wrist together, Winter.” Once they were in a place that satisfied him he leaned in and brushed his teeth against the side of my ear. “Now don’t fucking move them until I tell you.”
God, what was happening to me?
I had never felt anything like that before in my life. I had thought I’d been turned on before, thought I knew what it was like to cum hard when I was touching myself, but nothing had ever consumed me like that before. Caden was sending my body into overdrive and he had barely even touched me yet. I should have been more scared then hot but the juices at my center were telling a different story. Was he going to put his hands down there?
I gaped in shock when I felt something sharp sticking into my skin. When Caden was done tying my wrist in place he pulled on the wire holding them there a few times to make sure it was secure. Then he proceeded to circle me all over again, taking in every inch of me in my short little dress. Blindfolded, hands cuffed behind my back, kneeling before him like my sole purpose was to do nothing but please him.
I was finally the physical adaptation of what he had accomplished with my mind long ago. Completely and totally at his mercy. I had tried to stay calm, I really had, but I’d never done anything that intense in my life. Every small noise sent another shot of anticipation through my body.
Where was he?
What was he going to do to me?
“You’re blushing pet,” he breathed into my ear, causing my body to start trembling all over again. He licked the side of my neck, letting his smooth lips suck for a few seconds. “I’m not sure I’ve ever seen such a beautiful sight before, Winter.” More sucking, more torture with his tongue. “You, bound, kneeling before me in a dress that you should never be allowed to fucking wear.” He slipped one of his hands into my shoulder and squeezed. “It’s too bad you’re such a pathetic, fucking waist, pet.”
I could barely register his words. I was too busy thinking about the fact that his lips were all over my skin. Caden Dean was kissing me. Even if it wasn’t on my lips, it was still thrilling. I pressed my thighs together tightly in an effort to not drip any liquid from my growing center on them and hoped that he wouldn’t notice. Between the shaking, wetness, and clenching I knew it was only a matter of time before my desire shot through me.
I just hoped I could control my screams when it did.
Caden wouldn’t like me doing that without his permission.
His hand grabbed my chin and jolted my head up. “Are you paying attention to what the fuck I’m saying, Winter? Or are you plotting how to ruin my life all over again?” He sounded pissed; as if the knowledge that he couldn’t read my mind was frustrating to him.
Well, he could join the club.
I wanted to know him more than I wanted anything else.
“I’m listening, Caden.”
“You better be, Winter, it would be nice if you could be a good girl, just for fucking once.” He reached out and brushed his fingers against my lips, pushing them apart and sliding in and out as he grazed my teeth with his knuckles. “Are you ready?”
I couldn’t talk with his fingers in my mouth so I just shook my head. I had no idea what he was asking me if I was ready for but apparently, I should have. I closed my eyes inside of the blindfold and tried to get out of my own head. The thumping in my chest was so strong it was making it hard for me to see straight.
And then I felt it.
Something big and hard pressed against the side of my face. Holy shit, when had he taken his cock out? And when had it gotten so damn hard? I started to panic. It was one thing to think about what it would be like to suck Caden Dash’s cock. It was another to actually do it.
“Caden,” I admitted before he had a chance to expect more than what he was about to get. “Um, I feel like I should tell you…” I could feel his cock tracing small circles around the bottom of my lips, getting closer and closer to the point of entrance. “I’ve never…”
I could practically feel the satisfaction coming off of him. “Say it, pet.”
I cringed in humiliation. “I’ve never sucked a cock before.”
He leaned down and pushed my hair out of my face before whispering huskily into my ear. “That might be the only time you’ve ever said the right thing at the right time in your life, Winter.”
I immediately flushed.
“Tell me,” he ordered. “Tell me, pet.”
I knew what he wanted but saying the words out loud felt so dirty, so wrong. On the other hand, I didn’t want to find out what would happen if I disobeyed him. I cleared my throat slowly. “Your cock is going to be the first one I ever have in my mouth,” I groaned, shocked at how much the words turned me on.
Caden growled and pried my lips apart roughly, shoving himself between them fiercely. He roared in pleasure when I gagged right away, enjoying the sensation on his cock.
I had never felt something so large in my life. And if it felt that big I could only imagine what it looked like. I moved my mouth back and forth over the tip, determined to do my best to get every inch of it in my mouth but it proved to be an impossible task.
“Fuck, pet,” Caden panted over me. “Are you sure you’ve never done this before?” His hand brushed against the side of my cheek, running his touch over his cock through my skin. “You’re a natural.”
His words exhilarated me and gave me a sudden surge of confidence. I opened my mouth even wider and tried to take even more of him in. I lasted about five seconds before I started choking profusely. I was mortified and tried to pull away instantly but Caden moaned so loudly that it made my body jump back a few inches in shock.
I was doing that. I was turning him on that much.
I was about to release him but then I felt his hands on the back of my head, guiding me even closer to him. “Yeah, that’s it, pet, choke on my huge hard cock.” In and out he went, faster and faster. “Just like that, baby, let me hear you fucking gag on my cock.”
I started choking without my permission. As usual, my body and mind seemed to give Caden what he wanted before I had a chance to fully process it. It was like he had some kind of magic spell over me that made it seem impossible to displease him, I didn’t want to ever let him down.
“Oh, fuck,” he huffed in pleasure. “Good girl, that’s my good little pet, Winter.” He moved my head faster, pushing deeper and deeper. “You like that, don’t you, baby? You like sucking my big cock?” He thrust faster and faster, letting the spit forming around my mouth drip down and fall all over my dress. “I know you love it, Winter, finally getting what you’ve thought about all these years.”
I hated how easily he could read me. How easy it was for him to call me out. No one knew how crazy it was that I was enjoying this more than me but I couldn’t exactly control it either. I tried to move my hands to the front of my body before I remembered they were tied behind my back. It wasn’t fair, he was able to touch me as much as he wanted but I couldn’t even see how good he looked when he was turned on.
I groaned and moaned loudly without my permission, proving what he had already suspected. This whole experience was leaving me extremely hot and bothered.
His pipe was starting to pulsate on my tongue, jerking heavily.
Was he…? Holy shit, he was going to cum!
“Fuck.” His grip tightened in my hair and he roared with anger. “Yeah, take it just like that, Winter.” He was growing closer and closer to the edge. “It’s the least you can do after what you did to me.” Harder he went against the back of my throat. “After trying to ruin my fucking life.”
Before I could respond my mouth was filled with a sweetness I had never tasted before. As soon as it hit me what was happening I sprung back out of shock but Caden was there, holding my head into place. “Swallow that shit, Winter, all of it.”
I moaned softly and let it drip into my throat.
Caden pushed into my tongue a few final times before pulling himself out of my mouth. I could hear him breathing heavily over me, coming down from what had just happened between the two of us.
He slipped his huge arms under my body and swooped me up rapidly, throwing me down on my bed and freeing my hands in one swift motion. He grabbed my hands right away when I tried to reach for the blindfold. “Leave it on,” he snapped.
“Caden,” I pleaded.
I was way too wet for this.
“Shut up.” He pushed my hands firmly into the mattress and sighed before pushing his hand up my dress and over my center. “You’re fucking wet,” he accused. “Listen to what I say next very carefully, pet.” His fingers ran smooth strokes through my panties. “You won’t touch yourself again until I give you permission to do so. The next person who’s going to make you cum is going to be me and I swear to God if you disobey me, I’ll know.”
Dread overcame me. He was forbidding me from masturbating? How could I make a promise like that after what he had just done to my body? “You’re just going to leave me here?”
He half laughed. “You don’t deserve any fucking pleasure after what you’ve done, Winter. Now like I said, you better not fucking touch yourself or I swear you’ll live to regret it. You need to cleanse your body.”
“Cleanse?” I repeated.
“Yes,” he said sternly. “For all the sins you’ve committed.”
He tore his hands away from my center and leaned into me. “You’ve been evil, Winter, and it’s time for you to go without the same way I did. Cleanse your body of all the sinful things you’ve done.” He licked my ear and then sat up, heading across the room.
I heard his footsteps stop but didn’t dare remove the blindfold.
“When I show up here tomorrow morning, I want you waiting by the door for me, kneeling like a good girl.” He turned the doorknob and stepped out into the hallway. “Let me know you’ve heard me, Winter.”
“I heard you,” I bit down on my lip trying to ignore my throbbing pussy.
“Good,” he paused. “I hope you know this is nothing compared to what I have planned for you, pet.” He slammed the door shut so hard that the walls felt like they were shaking around me.
I sighed at his statement.
There was no need for him to waste his breath.
He didn’t have to tell me what I already knew.
What would happen tomorrow?
Happily ever after? Try happily ever nightmare. So, why are you still so turned on, Winter? I pushed the voice away and turned over on my side, trembling into a deep sleep.
Caden was back, back, back.
And I was screwed, screwed, screwed.
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