Chapter Eight
Hayden took his hand and led him up the rest of the stairs. His body thrummed with need, a years-long hunger still unfulfilled. Anticipation swelled within him, but there was also a little hint of fear. He’d never had a cock inside his ass… maybe a finger or two from a past female lover who enjoyed that sort of thing. The sensation usually pushed him into overdrive, making him come almost instantly.
But a cock was a lot bigger than a finger.
When they stopped beside Hayden’s made bed, he took Jesse into his arms and they kissed again. It felt like a continuation of that first kiss, finally realized and made whole. Hayden ran his hands all over Jesse’s body as they stood there.
He tensed as each minute passed, a mixture of excitement and concern filling his veins.
“I won’t hurt you,” Hayden said. “I promise to be careful.”
“Have you been with another man before?” Yes and no were both wonderful and terrible answers. Jesse wanted to be the first… yet knowing Hayden had experience with this kind of thing would’ve helped put him at ease.
“You’re the first man in my bed… but not the first virgin ass.”
While the thought of Hayden with anyone else wasn’t a welcome thought, still knowing he was the first man in his friend’s bed comforted him somehow. But that also brought up Hayden’s sexual exploits… and the potential consequences of that.
“Are you clean?”
Hayden nodded. “I might’ve drowned my sorrows in female flesh, but I always covered my cock.”
“Good,” Jesse whispered.
“Just as I plan to do tonight,” Hayden said.
Jesse smiled, thankful Hayden was willing to have safe sex… yet the thought of having the man skin to skin was exciting, too.
Hayden reached for Jesse’s cock, stroking it in his strong hand. “I’d love to feel you without it… someday soon I will.”
Jesse closed his eyes, the thought of more of this exhilarating.
Hayden leaned in and took his lips again, that strong hand of his moving up and down languidly.
Slowly, Jesse felt his body relax. His body moved against the friction Hayden built in his cock, the slow ebb and flow of the motion lulling him deeper under the man’s spell. Soon, Hayden coaxed him to the bed. He moved on top of the comforter, centering himself on the bed.
He didn’t know exactly what to do. He’d never had sex with a man before… so he wasn’t sure where to move. He got onto his hands and knees, his body stiffening again.
“Roll over,” Hayden whispered.
“On my back?”
“Yeah.”
Jesse turned and lay down, looking up at his friend. Hayden’s hand returned to his cock, the gentle massage relaxing him a bit. After a few minutes of masturbation, Hayden opened and lifted his legs, nearly folding him in half. Splayed like that, he felt vulnerable for the first time. He wasn’t used to being the one fucked… and his position made the realization of what was to come really hit home.
His heart beat a little faster, doubt coming to his mind for a moment. It only got worse when he saw Hayden pull a bottle of lube from the drawer.
Things were moving so fast…
Yet considering the years of glacial pace… maybe it wasn’t fast enough.
When he felt the caress of Hayden’s slick fingers against his asshole, it felt too good to fight. One hand was still on his cock, the other stroked him from balls to ass. He lifted his head some and caught Hayden’s stare for a moment.
“How’s that feel?” Hayden asked.
“Good,” Jesse said between labored breaths.
He relaxed some, but stiffened as he felt the tip of Hayden’s finger press against the puckered hole.
“Breathe,” Hayden reminded him. “Relax…”
Jesse met Hayden’s stare. He drew in one deep breath…
And hissed out the air as his friend slipped one finger knuckle deep. It didn’t hurt… it was pressure, a hint of pleasure… not enough pleasure. He rolled his hips, needing more.
“Whoa,” Hayden murmured. “Slow down.”
Jesse groaned when Hayden withdrew the finger… but groaned even louder when two replaced the one. A shuddering breath overtook him, the pleasure mounting. He hadn’t expected it to feel… so good. He held Hayden’s gaze as the man slid knuckle deep inside.
“How’s that?” Hayden asked, his voice low and softer than Jesse had ever heard it.
“More,” Jesse spat.
A slight smile crossed Hayden’s lips. “In a minute,” Hayden said before he began to stroke his fingers in and out of Jesse’s body.
It was heaven…
It was hell…
His body convulsed on the bed, an unknown need he’d never experienced taking over. Jesse trembled all over… sweat coating him. He needed… more.
When a third finger was added, he hissed in pain. The stretch burned as Hayden slowly opened him. But that sting faded quickly, the slow motion of his friend’s fingers bringing pleasure to mask the hurt.
He moved unconsciously, pushing against those fingers and that need growing into desperation. Jesse felt the rising tide within, another orgasm building at the base of his spine. Within reach, it seemed too far away.
“More,” he pleaded.
Hayden slipped his hand away, leaving Jesse empty.
Nooo!
Seconds later, Jesse saw Hayden slipping a condom over his thick cock. He swallowed back the rising fear. Once they crossed this line, there was no going back…
But they’d already passed so many already.
Once Hayden was covered, he grabbed the lube and coated his cock, and then gave Jesse’s ass another thick swab with his fingers. He angled his cock against the hole and lifted his stare, capturing Jesse’s.
“Ready for me?”
Jesse nodded. He couldn’t speak… he struggled enough to simply breathe.
The pressure against his anus brought another hiss of pain. The thick head slipped past the thick band of nerves, and the pain was intense. But as soon as Hayden got past, the pain immediately began to lessen.
Inch by inch he was filled.
When Hayden was deep within, he paused. He ran a palm along Jesse’s abdomen and chest. “You okay?”
He felt so… full. It had hurt, but Jesse could already feel the pleasure growing. “Yeah,” he whispered.
Hayden held himself still… but Jesse could feel the man trembling against him. He knew Hayden was likely dying to move and holding himself back for Jesse’s comfort. Ever so slowly, Jesse moved his hips. Jesse rolled them again, and this time, Hayden moved a fraction and met the downward stroke.
“Fuuuuck,” Hayden cried, closing his eyes. “You’re so fucking tight.”
He leaned down, bending Jesse more, and stole a hungry kiss before sitting up again. He fed a few inches of his cock into Jesse’s body, his eyes hooded and sexy as he stared down.
Jesse looked up at Hayden, still shocked they’d gotten to this point. It was in that moment, staring up at the man he’d secretly loved for so long… that he was truly able to feel that bond they’d always shared. Hayden laced his fingers through Jesse’s hand and brought it to his lips. He kissed the back before rubbing his bearded cheek against it.
“You don’t know how long I’ve wanted to be here, inside you like this,” Hayden whispered. “I love you, Jesse.”
Jesse caressed Hayden’s cheek. “I love you, too.”
Hayden’s eyes closed for a split second and when he reopened them, they shone with emotion.
They began to move, starting slow. Slow turned into steady. Hayden stroked his cock while he fucked Jesse. They writhed together on the bed, seeking absolution. Steady soon turned into something akin to frantic.
Jesse sensed that Hayden still held himself back. Jesse wanted all of it… but he knew he wasn’t ready. His body needed time to adjust. As it was, the pleasure of Hayden inside him was overwhelming. He had no idea it could feel so good to have a cock in his ass.
Or maybe it was who was attached to that cock that mattered.
He stared up into Hayden’s face and saw the pleasure in his friend’s face. It looked much like the what he’d seen bits and pieces of that night long ago. The moans were the same, only louder… stronger…
And they’re for me.
Jesse’s body tensed, the orgasm slamming into him. His back arched as much as it could, pinned under Hayden’s body. He cried out, the release tearing through him. His cock erupted between them, splashing onto his stomach and Hayden’s hand.
Hayden came seconds later, filling the condom instead of Jesse’s ass.
When they were both drained, Hayden slowly slipped from Jesse’s ass. They were both breathless, arms and legs entwined as they gasped for air. Jesse’s heart thundered in his ears, and he worried it would burst from his chest.
Silent moments passed.
Once his heart and lungs had caught up, Jesse didn’t know what to say. He feared anything out of his mouth might break the spell they were under and things would go back to where they’d been heading.
He couldn’t bear to lose this man.
His best friend.
His lover.
His everything.
Hayden’s hand snaked out and ran along his jaw. His head was turned, to face Hayden.
“I can sense you overthinking things from over here.”
Jesse tried to smile, but fear made it hard to form. “Where do we go from here?”
Hayden leaned in and placed a gentle kiss on Jesse’s lips. “One foot in front of the other?”
“You know what I mean. What is this?”
Hayden leaned on his elbow and looked down at Jesse. “What do you want it to be?”
“I hadn’t thought that far ahead.” He’d spent his entire life a straight man. He’d spent the last year a straight man in love with his male best friend and hiding it. Now he didn’t need to hide it… did he? “Do we let our friends know?”
“We can do this whatever way you want,” Hayden said. “But Clay and Adam already know how I feel about you.”
Jesse frowned. “They do?”
“I had a bit of a meltdown two weeks ago… after…”
“After I pushed you away.”
Hayden turned his gaze off Jesse’s face and nodded. “I thought I’d ruined our friendship. I went to talk to Adam and Clay was there…”
“Have they worked things out?”
“I don’t think so,” Hayden said. “Clay was there, packing his shit.”
Jesse sighed. “Sorry, I didn’t mean to interrupt what you were saying…”
“You’re concerned about them. I get it. I am, too.” Hayden lifted a hand to Jesse’s lips and rubbed a thumb over them. “Long story short, I got drunk after you pushed me back. I ended up at their place… and I told them everything. Clay has a family friend who’s a relationship therapist down in Florida. I had some vacation time saved up. He let me head down there for a couple of weeks to get my head straight. Huge fancy house, right on the beach… I’m totally in the wrong business.”
Jesse hated that he’d pushed Hayden so far. The drinking. The mindless sex. Running off to Florida. “I’m sorry I hurt you.”
Hayden shook his head. “We both hurt ourselves. You’re not to blame for what I did to me. I should’ve told you how I felt a long, long time ago. Instead, I did a piss poor job at hiding it.” He caressed Jesse’s cheek. “I don’t know how you did it so well for so long.”
“Well? I’d shoved it so deep that I couldn’t dig it out of the hole it was in.”
Hayden smiled wryly. “But you did. And I’m glad.” He leaned in and kissed Jesse again.
Jesse wasn’t sure there would ever be enough of those to satisfy him. He deepened the kiss, still hungry.
But his body wasn’t quite ready for a second round.
Yet.
“So this guy in Florida… he helped you?”
Hayden nodded. “He helped me see what I was doing to myself. He told me I needed to let you go.” Hayden chuckled. “And then you were right there waiting for me the second I got home.”
“I was scared it was too late. That I’d already lost you.” Jesse took a deep breath, trying to calm his emotions. “I can’t lose my best friend.”
Hayden shook his head. “You’ll never lose me, Jesse.” He slid in beside Jesse and wrapped his arms tight. “I care about you too much to ever truly let you go.”
Jesse slid his arms around Hayden. “Same here.”
They lay there for a long time, just holding on to one another.
Old friends make best friends.
In bed.
The End