Nick

It’s been over a week since I started my apology campaign, and I’ve gotten nothing.

My text messages to Kami still show as unread. She hasn’t called. Felicity hasn’t passed any messages.

Neither has Ares, but I know he saw her, because he told me so.

Saw Kami.

That was it. No mention of how she was doing. If she asked about me. Where they were.

If she was alone, or if she had any other dates.

Zeus improvised a story when he realized I was too curious, but I didn’t believe the thing about her getting caught having sex in the zebra enclosure, because she told me once that the only zookeepers she’s friends with are female, and she wouldn’t have sex at the zoo anyway because it would be mean to the animals to introduce unsanitary conditions into their living environment.

Pretty sure she was trying to dissuade me from taking advantage of her behind the gorilla enclosure because she didn’t want to get caught having sex in public, but then, I don’t want to screw around where goats or chickens have been screwing either, so I didn’t question it.

We’re getting dressed for our game in Calgary. Klein’s starting again. I’m just sitting the bench in case he gets winded or hurt.

I don’t play every game—coaches don’t think it’s good, and while it might seem like we’re the laziest motherfuckers on the ice because we don’t go anywhere, we take the most hits and sweat the most under all those pads—but I don’t sit out as many as I have this season so far either.

I stare at my phone before I tuck it into the locker, but on second thought, I pull it back out.

What the fuck could it hurt?

The phone’s ringing before I remember we’re two hours behind Virginia because of time zones. She should be getting ready for bed.

But it’s already ringing.

She’ll just let it go to voicemail if she doesn’t want to answer. She’s stubborn enough to ignore my texts, she’s probably stubborn enough to ignore my calls too.

But to my utter surprise, there’s her voice. “Hello?”

“Kami! Kami. You’re—you answered.”

Lavoie catches my eye, then drops his gaze like he’s not listening.

Ares isn’t as polite. He watches me while he stretches.

“Hi, Nick,” she says warily. There’s noise in the background. People. Bowling balls? Definitely buzzers and bells.

“Are you out on a date?” I blurt before I remember I’m a fucking hockey player who doesn’t get tongue-tied and insecure over my sister’s friend being on a date.

Oh, fuck it.

My heart’s about to pound out of my chest, because if she’s out on a date, she might be meeting the man of her dreams right now.

Fucker probably couldn’t find her clit with a map and a flashlight, but if that’s what she wants, fine.

That’s her business.

“I’m out,” she says slowly. “Did you need something?”

“On a date?” I press.

Swear to god, I hear her roll her eyes. “Not at the moment, no.”

Fuck, this is what relief feels like. I’m jelly-kneed and wobbly-thighed. I sink down on the bench in front of my locker and stare at Calgary’s logo on the carpet. “I just—just wanted to see how you’re doing,” I say.

“Aren’t you supposed to be playing a game right now?” she asks, and the concern in her voice is a life raft.

She still cares.

“Yeah. I mean, no. In a few minutes. Not yet. Klein’s starting. I’m—” I’m stuttering and stammering like I’m a freshman in high school asking the head senior cheerleader if she wants to come watch a cartoon movie with me and my family. “Your cousin Judy still setting you up on dates?”

“You mean Muffy?” she says dryly.

Muffy. I knew it was something funny. I grab my wallet and look for a piece of paper to scribble the name on. “Just making sure you’re paying attention.”

“You are utterly ridiculous.”

There’s a smile in her voice. I can hear it, and knowing I put it there lifts a weight I didn’t realize I was carrying.

Muffy.

I’m googling her as soon as I hang up.

“I like to think the ridiculous is part of my charm,” I tell her.

“You really need to stop with the gifts. It’s not necessary.”

“Bet nobody else you’ve dated would’ve thought of today’s.”

“That’s because normal people don’t buy thirty Heifers for Humanity in another person’s name. Or ask for all thirty of the gift goats that they give with the heifers to go to the honoree. I have enough stuffed animals for a goat orgy.”

I’m grinning now, because that was fucking brilliance.

Maybe not the part where people in third world countries will be eating Sugarbear’s cousins, but the part where I got cows into her apology gifts.

“It’s too much, Nick. Please. I get it—you’re sorry. You don’t have to keep sending presents.”

I’ve never had a real girlfriend, but I’ve dated casually plenty, and there’s one thing I’ve never found in another woman—the desire for me to not spend my cash on her.

How can I not like Kami?

She’s just good people. Selfless and shit.

“Maybe I just want to send my friend birthday presents. Maybe it’s not all about an apology.”

“Nick…”

“I can’t send people farm animals anymore. I have to channel my creative energy somewhere.”

Lavoie snorts. Frey outright laughs. Zeus is smirking.

Only Ares shakes his head like we’re all three bananas short of a fruitcake.

There’s a shriek on her end of the phone, and then a roar of people cheering. “Where are you?” I ask.

“Whoa, dude. If I can’t have phone sex in the dressing room, neither can you,” Zeus says.

“Wrap it up, Murphy.” Coach walks in and scowls at me.

“Gotta go,” I tell Kami. “I’ll call you later.”

“Nick—” she starts, but Lavoie snags my phone and ends the call for me.

Or maybe in spite of me. Because I didn’t want to hang up.

I wanted her to tell me she was having a miserable time and answered because she wished I was with her.

I wanted her to ask me to call again soon instead of me just telling her I would.

I wanted to her want me.

“Oh, fuck,” I gasp.

Lavoie rolls his eyes. Frey grins. So does Zeus.

Ares, though, pins me with a yeah, you idiot, and you’ve got your work cut out for you, don’t you? look.

Because they know. And they’re right.

I’m in love with Kami.