Staring through the front window of the Mediterranean-style home she’d lived in for over four years now—Thad had moved them in here after he’d received his first half-million-dollar fight purse—Tiana felt like a visitor, a temporary presence. The feeling got stronger every time she looked out at the feral garden. It had been a wonderful sight when they’d first moved in, massive and variegated and tended daily by a professional grounds man who serviced many of the properties on this row. She’d spent hours out there, under the palms and acacias, reading her fantasy novels and relishing the perfumes of the tropical flowers that surrounded her at all times. It had been a haven. Far removed from the packed charity events and the crazy fight nights she’d attended dutifully, yet never with any great pleasure.

 

But ever since Thad’s “episodes” had begun—more like mood swings at first, from which he’d snap at her for no apparent reason—just because she was there…ever since he’d got it in his head that Murray, their gardener, was hanging around so much because he had his eyes on Tiana…well, her haven had been tainted. She couldn’t make him understand that a garden this varied and cosmopolitan needed careful attention, and no, it wasn’t a job any old granny could do with gardening gloves and a watering can. So, once the hothead had got rid of poor Murray, who was so offended by what Thad had said to him he’d never spoken or waved to Tiana again, Tiana had taken it upon herself to learn all she could about botany and the care of plants. To protect her haven, to keep it healthy and happy so that it, in turn, could go on doing the same for her.

 

A lot to learn. Maybe too much in too short a time.

 

As Thad had changed, so had the garden around her. Lord knows she’d done her best to manage the sensitive, temperamental nature of things—plants, fruit, love—but as their relationship had deteriorated, she’d gradually lost her enthusiasm. For everything. Trips to the mall, where she’d wander around in a kind of nervous shopaholic funk, only really buying things she thought Thad would approve of: cocktail dresses, negligee, and health food for her never-ending weight-loss diet he insisted on and against which she secretly railed. Those afternoon outings were empty, sucking holes in the middle of her day, except when she met up with her sister, Cassie, who always knew how to perk her up.

 

So that was her life now. The garden had long since grown out of control, like her relationship with Thad, and as she stared out the front window, remembering things the way they’d been in the beginning, Tiana realized her time here was coming to an end. One way or another, she would not be here much longer. A part of her had already died. It was maybe only the grief from losing that part of herself, the sweet, wide-eyed Tiana from high school, which made her feel anything for Thad anymore. As much as she hated what he’d become, what he’d done to her, deep down inside he would always be the cute and cocky jock who’d given her the best surprise of her life when he’d asked her out—not one of the cheerleaders or the bling brigade, but her, slightly chubby Tiana Crowe. Her only fashion sense was what her sister gave her, and her only claim to fame, love-wise, had been a hot-but-fumbled few minutes after hours in the drive-through burger bar where she worked when a horny colleague called Aaron had convinced her to let him see her boobs in the storeroom. It had gotten real sticky real quick when he’d stuck his hand up her skirt and made a not-altogether-unwanted play for second, maybe even third base. But neither of them had noticed Hersh, their pedantic assistant manager, return for a copy of the weekly schedule…which happened to be pinned on a notice board at the back of the storeroom.

 

She shook her head, smiling at the memory, but it had mortified her at the time. To be the center of gossip like that, and to know that Hersh, middle-aged and a stickler for Muslim protocol in his own community, had seen her half-naked and getting felt up like that. Sheesh. No wonder she’d kept to herself after that, at least until Thad had blown her mind that day in the gym. He had taken her to one side, away from her classmates, who were all watching…

 

“Are you busy Saturday night?” he’d asked.

 

“Um, no, I guess?”

 

“Because someone told me you liked theater.”

 

“Yeah? I mean, yeah. I do. I love theater.”

 

“Cool. My mom got tickets for this play on Saturday night—a pirate play—but she and Dad can’t make it, so I was wondering if you wanted to go with me instead. Supposed to be good sets and all that. Pirates. What d’ya reckon?”

 

“Wow, I—I’d love to. Pirates? Is that the name of the show?”

 

“Pirates of something…ah, I can’t remember. They’re good seats though. So you wanna come?”

 

“Yes. I’d love to.”

 

“Cool. Here’s my cell number. Just text me your home address and I’ll come pick you up about seven thirty.”

 

“Wow, yeah. I’m looking forward to it. Pirates are awesome.”

 

“Yeah. So, that’s cool. I’ll see you then.”

 

“Sure.”

 

As he’d walked away in his tight polo shirt and football shorts, that tight ass of his drawing admiring gazes from all the girls in her class, Tiana had said his name under her breath. From that moment on, her life had changed completely. So what if Thad had gotten the theater thing ass-backwards? Pirates of Penzance was a comic opera, not a play; she’d had to fake a headache at the intermission to get the hell out of there, not because she didn’t like it, but because she could tell he was bored out of his mind and was only staying for her benefit. It was the first and last time he ever set foot in a theater, and she’d teased him about “the pirate play” for years after. At the intermission, they’d gone to the cinema instead to watch the latest big superhero film. Her turn to be bored. And to his credit, he’d asked her, about half way through, if she was enjoying it. She’d lied and said it was good. Thad had then waited for a romantic scene in order to lean in and kiss her, and suddenly she wasn’t so bored.

 

From then on, nothing about her life had been boring. People at high school had looked at her in a whole new way. She’d had lots of intense sex with a guy whose appetite was insatiable, and she’d followed him wherever he’d travelled on his incredible MMA adventure. A world she never knew existed had opened up for her; it had quickly become glitz and glamour, posh hotels, and VIP treatment at whichever venue they’d visited. Thad had always been a talented fighter, but Tiana had to admit she’d been gob-smacked at how high and how quickly he’d climbed the UFC ranks.

 

The glitz and glamour. She’d miss it when the inevitable happened. But tonight she had to make another dutiful appearance at his side. The Homes for Heroes charity campaign was one of the sport’s most popular. Its latest gala event, to raise money for wounded and disadvantaged war veterans, was due to start in a couple of hours.

 

“Come on, babe.” Thad clapped his hands to get her attention. “Game face on. You’ve not even started getting ready.”

 

“There’s not a whole lot there for me to change into,” she replied, referring to the revealing sapphire Valentino gown he’d bought especially for her tonight. He claimed he’d seen some Hollywood starlet wearing it at a movie premiere, and he’d thought it would suit Tiana’s figure. Well, yeah, if she wanted to show more cleavage than Katy Perry at the Grammy Awards. The plunging neckline almost reached down to her navel. Good thing it was a tight fit, or her charity “contribution” would be more than anyone bargained for tonight.

 

“You don’t like it?” The way he said it, he seemed to be daring her to disappoint him. Tiana had learned from experience not to let that happen, though it was becoming more difficult to avoid all the time. He was so…touchy these days. Nothing she did seemed to please him anymore.

 

“I like it fine,” she said. “But that actress you saw wearing it…she was B-cup at most. I’ll practically be spilling out of it. Just so you know.”

 

“So what?”

 

“You never used to like me showing too much skin like that. Everyone will be staring.”

 

He didn’t look at her when he said, “That’s the whole idea, babe.”

 

“Okey-dokey.” Feeling like some sort of expendable commodity, she grabbed the dress in its wrapping and took it up to her room to change. But the man she imagined herself pleasing with this sexy, expensive designer number was not Thad. No. But would he be there tonight? At a charity event for veterans? Dax Easterling was notorious for avoiding big functions like these—she’d asked around—but something told her that the first time they’d met had been at one of these Homes for Heroes benefits. And he was a former Marine himself, which made it likely he’d want to attend. More than that, she hoped he would want to attend for another reason, for the same reason she kept thinking about him.

 

There’d been something between them that day in the café. Something she didn’t want to forget. At a time when nothing seemed to be going right for Tiana, even a glimmer of hope for life after Thad was better than nothing.

 

Convinced she looked her absolute best, complete with the diamond necklace he’d borrowed for her, Tiana felt a kind of defiant pride as she walked into the living room. He’d been right about the dress and about her figure—they were a perfect match. She had roomy hips, and her boobs had kept their shape surprisingly well.

 

One compliment, one wink of appreciation from Thad and her pride would last throughout the night. Instead, he glimpsed her from the corner of his eye and turned his back, hunched over the telephone in the corner, his voice lowered almost to a whisper.

 

Tiana flipped him off behind his back, then admired herself in the big mirror. She checked the time. Not quite the last minute but cutting it close. The fact that he hadn’t shouted up after her was suspicious. How long had he been on the phone? And why the hushed conversation, the sheepish way he’d turned away?

 

Have I just caught the son of a bitch red-handed?

 

She tensed and felt her heart squirrel in her chest. He can’t be that big of a rat, can he? Calling some ring girl slut while I’m right here? She decided to get closer in order to listen in, but her heels gave her away on the tiled floor. Thad abruptly—and conveniently—ended the call before she reached him. He looked her in the eye but didn’t even check out her cleavage. He was hiding something. That son of a bitch was hiding something.

 

“Who was that?” she asked.

 

“A friend. Whoa, is that the time? We’d better get going.”

 

“Ah-ah.” Tiana stopped him, reached for the phone. “When I hit redial, who will pick up?”

 

“I told you—a friend. Go ahead if you don’t believe me.”

 

She clocked his eyes darting from side to side, as though he was weighing up possible outcomes. “You’re bluffing,” she said. “So what’s her name?”

 

“I told you. A friend. You don’t know her—him. You don’t know him.”

 

“What’s her name, Thad? I mean it.”

 

“You’re getting hot over nothing. We should go before it gets late.”

 

“One last time: what’s her name?”

 

Thad squared up to her, his mouth now a thin line. Without warning, he snatched the phone off her and hurled it against the wall. It smashed. “Fuck you! Her name’s Adi, and I don’t give a shit who knows.”

 

Tiana stepped back, expecting him to lunge at her, but he didn’t. He just stared, his wide eyes dancing, an absurd look of hate and amusement itching at his features. It was as though he was ready to burst out into a cruel, giddy laugh.

 

“Where does that leave us?” She didn’t realize how timid her question was until later, but right then, it was the most diplomatic thing she could think of. Because inside the shock of finally hearing his admission—she’d suspected his affair for months now—she was not as angry as she’d expected she would be. No, it was more…inevitable. It made her sad, deeply sad. After all they’d been through, he didn’t give a shit who knew he was banging someone called Adi.

 

She couldn’t get past that stupid name. Adi. It sounded like a cheap European car.

 

“I think you know the answer to that,” he said, pacing about the room, working himself into an indignant lather.

 

“Jesus, you make it sound like I’m the one who’s to blame here.” Her turn to vent a little steam—more controlled than he deserved, but she was wary of his temper. The smart move here might be to just get the hell out ASAP before he snapped.

 

Then he did, but not in the way she’d expected. Thad erupted a horrid belly laugh that echoed around the house. “Priceless.” He clapped her sarcastically. “I’ve gotta hand it you, babe, you’ve got the innocent act down real good. Another sap might buy it, but I know you, remember? I fucking know you. I knew you when you were a money-grubbing little piece out of high school, following me around the amateur circuit like some doe-eyed groupie when all along you were sniffing around for what you knew I was going to earn. You come off all innocent, sweetheart. But I say any girl with no job and a rack like yours is playing at least one guy at all times. Innocent? Yeah, whatever. You’ve taken my money for years and you’ve put out whenever I’ve asked for it. In my book there ain’t nothing innocent in that equation.”

 

“You son of a bitch!” Before she knew what had happened the silver trophy was flying through the air at him. One of his most prized trophies, the nearest one she’d plucked from the mantel. He ducked just in time. It shattered the big mirror into bits.

 

He took a step away from her, like a cocky predator who realized he was treading on uncertain ground. She had her claws out, and he’d never seen her like this. Not ever. He didn’t know what to make of her.

 

Tiana snatched another trophy and cocked her arm ready to throw.

 

“Even think about throwing that and I’ll kill you.” He meant it. She resisted, but she didn’t put it down. For some reason, it felt like her deterrent. As long as she held onto it, it might spare her a beating and a half. Instinct was all she had to draw on at this point, now that she’d shown her claws.

 

“For Christ’s sake, Thad, where’s all this coming from? I mean have you ever loved me?”

 

He pulled his face in such a flippant, childish way that it was as though she’d just asked him if he wanted to hold hands with her in front of his football chums in junior high.

 

“Well, have you?” she reiterated.

 

He looked her in the eye and shook his head.

 

Tiana leaked a warm, bitter tear.

 

“Let’s just say you got what you wanted,” he said. “At least you thought you did. You thought this was your gravy train for good. Me? I’m just getting started. I see something I want, I go for it; I don’t sit around whining about it. Let’s face it, if it wasn’t for me, you’d be a fat, divorced soccer mom fucking your way up the social ladder in some suburban hellhole. But you’d get there somehow. You’d jiggle that rack until some rich divorcé came running. I think that’s what you wanted all along: this lifestyle, spending other people’s money, never having to get out there and make your own way.

 

“But you’ve had your last meal ticket, Tiana babe. I’ve had enough of your shit. Adi knows the score. At least she’s honest about what she wants and whom she’s had to screw to get here. But you? I don’t think you’d even admit it to yourself. You’d just go on sobbing your little heart out to the next poor rich sap who had a thing for bouncy broads. You’re so—”

 

“I’m leaving.”

 

He raced across the room to block her. “You’re not going anywhere.” Something flared in his eyes as he got near her. Tiana cocked her arm again. This time she swung.

 

Thad caught her by the wrist. Squeezed. The biting pain forced her to drop the trophy, which he caught. “I’ll take that, sweetheart.” The way he said that—it was the blackest thing he’d ever called her, and it struck her heart, dead center. “If I didn’t need you to make me look good tonight, you wouldn’t still be standing right now. No one throws my own shit at me!”

 

Tiana lifted her arm in case he attacked her. Instead, he put the trophy back on the mantel and gave her back her purse. “Just remember, you were this close to having your fat ass dragged to the pool and drowned. So be on your best behavior tonight. Smile and flaunt those tits and put on a good show, and everything will be okay.”

 

Though she was shaking uncontrollably, Tiana still had the wherewithal to ask, “What happens after that?”

 

“We’re done. We’re finished. I don’t want you cramping my shit anymore. Okay?”

 

She gave her most pathetic, supplicating nod and followed him out. But already, behind the timid exterior, she was thinking ahead, plotting ways to make her break. If not tonight, then definitely tomorrow, without ceremony, before he had a chance to blow his insane top completely and take her with him.

 

Tonight she would put on a show, her final performance of their last act together.

 

After that, improvisation. For the rest of her goddamn life.