In the heat of battle, Corporal John Hunter could never differentiate between silence and absolute noise. Years had passed since his first engagement, but every time, the sheer discord of sound blended together. The cry of bugles sounding orders, the clash of bayonets, the rat-tat-tat of firearms somewhere in the distance, the hollow concussion of the cannons—each one of those things heralded someone’s doom. To take heed to any of it was to fall into fear. To fear was to make mistakes; to err was to die. No matter the odds, the sounds of battle were so overwhelming that they were no different than silence.

Yorktown was just like any other engagement.

Oh, the strategists might have begged to differ. There were more clouds, more night. Less frost than some of the battles he’d taken part in. Someone had talked prettily at them about how the freedom of this nascent nation was at stake and some other things John had listened to with his hands curling into fists. The colonies didn’t care about John’s freedom, so he returned the favor by not caring about theirs.

In the end, all battles were smoke and shit and death, and John’s only goal was to see the other side of this war without being forcibly acquainted with the Grim Reaper. Fight. Survive. Go home to his family. The most basic of needs.

The night was dark around him and his fellow infantrymen. The spiked branches of the abatis had left scratches on his arm; the charge up the scarp had John’s heart pounding.

They’d crept through the ditch and were approaching the final defenses of Redoubt Ten—a wall of sharp stakes, somewhat battered. A group of fools ahead of him was negotiating how best to storm the parapet. John held back. Apparently, the idiot in command of this maneuver wanted to lead the charge. Sutton, one of the other black men assigned to storm the redoubt, was hoisting him up.

Nothing to do but join them and hope for the best. Nothing to do but survive, fight, and return to his family before anything ill happened to them. Fight, survive—

John stilled, the chant in his head dying down.

There was a reason he let the background noise of battle fade to nothingness in his mind. It left room for wariness and suspicion. There. Behind them, back toward the abatis—there was a shadow.

It moved, man-shaped.

The person behind them was large and almost invisible, and he lay in wait. John’s comrades hadn’t noticed him. In their haste to get in, they’d all left themselves vulnerable.

All of them but him.

Damn it all to hell.

Silence and noise mingled in John’s head. Perhaps the gunfire from the feint on Fusiliers Redoubt a ways off was loud; perhaps it was nothing. Perhaps the man he saw screamed in defiance as John turned toward him; perhaps he was silent.

Fight. Survive… Damn it.

There was no hope for it. John couldn’t wait to see what would happen. He lowered his weapon, said a prayer for his sister, should his soul become irreparably detached from his body, and sprinted back toward the shadowed branches of the abatis.

The man’s head tilted. John braced himself, waiting for the man to fire a weapon or raise a blade, but instead the fellow just waited in silence. One second. Two.

John crashed into him at full speed, driving his shoulder into the man’s chest. God, the other man was huge. The impact traveled bruisingly through his body. Still, John wasn’t exactly tiny himself. They fell together, hitting the ground. It took one moment to get his bayonet into position, another to drive it forward, blade seeking the other man’s belly.

It didn’t make contact. Instead, the fellow hit John on the head with the butt of his musket. John’s head rang; he shook it, pushed the echoing pain aside, and rolled out of the way of the next bayonet strike.

There was no time to think, no time to come up with any plan except to survive the next instant, then the next. No room for fine blade work, either; John swung his musket like a staff.

The other man blocked the strike, and the force of gun barrel meeting gun barrel traveled up John’s arm. The battle had all but disappeared into a pinprick, into this moment between two men.

“God,” the other fellow said. “You’re strong.”

John refused to hear his words.

John had neither energy nor emotion to waste on conversation. Fight. Survive the war. Go back to Lizzie and Noah and his mother. He’d promised them he would—stupid promise, that—but he’d break the entire British Army before he broke that promise. Men who let their attention slip perished, and he had no intention of perishing. He gritted his teeth and tried to smash the other man’s head.

The other man ducked out of the way. “Nice weather for a siege, isn’t it?”

John’s almost perfect concentration slipped. What the devil was that supposed to mean? Nice weather for a siege? Did that mean the weather was good—it wasn’t—or that bad weather was preferable during a siege? And what did preferable even mean between the two of them? Siegers and the besieged had different preferences.

Ah, damn it.

This was why John couldn’t let himself listen to battle. Anything—everything—could be a distraction. He shook his head instead and threw his entire weight behind his next strike.

It wasn’t enough; the other man was taller and heavier, and their bayonets crossed once more. He was close enough to see features—stubble on cheeks, sharp nose, the glint of some distant bombardment reflected in the man’s eyes. They held their places for a moment, shoulders braced together, their heaving breaths temporarily synchronized.

“It’s your turn,” the man said with an unholy degree of cheer. “I remarked on the weather. Etiquette demands that you say something in return.”

For a moment, John stared at the fellow in utter confusion. “I’m bloody trying to kill you. This is a battle, not a ball.”

He pivoted on one foot, putting his entire back into whirling his weapon. This time he managed to whack the other man’s stomach. A blow—not a hard one, he hadn’t the space to gather momentum—but enough that the fellow grunted and staggered back a pace.

“Yes,” the man said, recovering his balance all too quickly, “true, completely true, we are trying to commit murder upon each other. That doesn’t mean that we need to be impolite about it.”

Fucking British. Would he call a halt to take tea, too?

“If you prefer,” the man continued, sidestepping another blow, “you could try, ‘Die, imperialist scum.’ The moniker is somewhat lacking in friendly appeal, but it has the benefit of being true. I own it; we are imperialist scum.”

What the hell?

“But aren’t we both?” The conversation, like the battle, seemed interminable. “You colonials are displacing natives as well. I will give you this point. You’d be quite right not to use that particular insult. It would be rather hypocritical.”

Not for John, it wouldn’t. His presence in this land could not be put down to any volition on the part of his black mother, who was the only ancestor the colonials counted. But now was not a time for the fine nuances of that particular discussion. It was not, in fact, the time for any discussion at all.

He swung his musket again, heard the crack of the weapon against the barrel of the other man’s musket.

“It just goes to show. Politics is obviously not a good choice of conversation among strangers, I suppose. My father always did say that, and damn his soul, he is occasionally right. What of books? Have you read anything recently?”

There were still a few soldiers making their way through the abatis, streaming past them. One went by now, glancing in their direction.

“Can’t we try to kill each other in silence?” John snuck out a foot, attempting to trip the other man. His enemy danced away.

“Ah, is that it?” The man brightened. “I see. You can’t fight and talk at the same time? My friend, Lieutenant Radley, was exactly the same way. I drove him mad, he used to say.”

Used to? Ha. As if anyone could ever become accustomed to this jibber-jabber.

“He died in battle,” the other man continued, “so possibly he was right. You probably shouldn’t listen to my advice on this score. I don’t have the best record.”

Their weapons crossed again.

“Except”—unbelievably, he was still talking—“I obviously should not have told you that. I’ve given away an important advantage. Damn it. My father was right again. ‘Think before you speak,’ he always used to say. I hate when my father is right.”

John didn’t want to think of this man as someone with family, with friends. War was hell enough when you were just killing nameless, faceless individuals.

There was nothing to do but get it over with as quickly as possible, before he started thinking of his enemy as a person.

He threw himself forward, caught the other man’s shoulder with his, and managed to send him off balance. A moment, just a moment; enough for John to clip his hand smartly with the butt of his musket. The weapon the man had been holding went flying. John hooked one foot around the man’s ankle; his opponent landed flat on his back. John pushed the tip of his blade into the man’s throat.

The man’s hands immediately shot above his head. “I surrender the redoubt!”

John froze in place. “Have you the authority to do that?”

“No,” the other man answered, “but let’s be honest, it’s only a matter of time, don’t you think? Excellent tactics on your part. I almost didn’t see you coming. Somebody ought to surrender it eventually. Why not me?”

“Sorry,” John said, and it was quite possibly the first time he’d ever apologized to an enemy on the battlefield. “I’m going to have to kill you.”

“Ah, well,” the other man said. “You know your duty. Be quick about it, if you must. Better me than you, don’t you think?”

Literally no other person had ever said that to John on the battlefield. John frowned down at the man in front of him, and…

And, oh Christ. He suddenly realized that he’d heard of this man. His friend Marcelo had mentioned something about encountering him before. British officer. Tall. Meaty. Blond. He’d chalked the tale up to campfire boasting. When he’d heard there was a madman who couldn’t stop talking, John had imagined something along the lines of a berserker, frothing at the mouth. He hadn’t expected a mere prattle-basket.

“I think it’s better me than you,” John said, frowning down at the man. “You can’t possibly agree.”

A flare from the battle reflected in the other man’s eyes, temporarily illuminating him. John didn’t want to see his face. He didn’t want to see the haunted expression in his eyes. He didn’t want to remember him as a person. He should never have let the clamor of battle give way to the sound of conversation, because he suspected that the tone of this man’s voice—all gravel and regret—would stay with him all the rest of his days.

“Don’t make me go back,” the man said, so at odds with his cheery conversation on politics. “I can’t go back to England. Dying is not my preferred form of non-return, but for the past months it’s the only one I’ve been able to think of.”

John tightened his grip on the musket. He couldn’t listen. He couldn’t think. In battle, he could only allow himself to be a husk, an automaton. Fight. Survive. Killing was a necessary part of war. He’d learned not to look too hard at his enemies, not to ask too many questions. He’d learned not to let himself dwell too much on the men who perished at the other end of his musket.

It was always a mistake to listen during battle. Here he was, hesitating, when it was either John or the man who’d asked him about books and the weather. He could make it painless—as painless as death by bayonet ever was.

The man gave him a sad smile. “It’s nice weather for dying, isn’t it?”

He was lying. He had to be lying. This was the sort of thing for a lying officer to do—to converse politely, as if manners meant a damned thing on the battlefield. John pushed his bayonet down a quarter inch.

“Go on,” the man said.

His permission made it even harder. John didn’t want to do it, but it was John or the prattle-basket, John or the prattle-basket, and John had come too far to perish now.

A bugle sounded.

John looked up into chaos. He could hear cheers, could see the lieutenant colonel in charge of this attack—Hamilton, was it not?—clapping one of the soldiers on the back. Ah, the idiot in command had survived storming the parapet after all. While John had been fighting, his fellow soldiers had stormed the redoubt and taken it.

It was done. They’d won.

He eased up on the bayonet. “It’s your lucky day. You’re a prisoner now, instead of a dead man.”

“No.” The man’s hand clasped around the musket barrel, holding the bayonet in place. “No. You have to do it.”

“What?” John stared at him.

“You have to do it,” the man instructed. “Do you understand? If you Americans take the redoubt, Yorktown falls. If Yorktown falls, the war is over. If you don’t kill me now, they’ll make me go back to Britain, and I can’t go back.”

“Can’t?” John swallowed and looked down.

“Can’t.” The man shut his eyes.

They’d called him a madman, and John had imagined a demon on the battlefield, not a man who talked of politics.

Perhaps it was mad to prefer death to a return to a place that could never be called home, but if that was madness, it was a madness John knew. He’d once been enslaved. He knew what it was like to yearn for freedom, to prefer death to a return to a state that robbed him of choice, of freedom, of humanity. The fellow was obviously given to dramatics. John doubted anything so horrid waited for him back in England. Still… He understood.

He didn’t want to have anything in common with a blond British officer…but he did.

He should take the man prisoner. Should call for reinforcements. Who knew what this man would do if John gave him the opportunity?

“I can’t go back,” the man said again.

John should never have listened. Damn it, damn it, damn it. He swore and threw down his weapon.

The man struggled, propping himself up on his elbows.

“Then don’t.” John took off his coat. “Here.” He held the garment out.

It wasn’t much—a bit tattered, and God knew what it smelled like; John couldn’t detect the stench any longer.

The man stared at it.

“It’s not red.” John shook the coat. “It’s a mess out there as it is. Get muddy enough and nobody will know who you are. If you don’t want to go back to Britain, turn into an American. You talk enough; I’m sure you can come up with a believable lie. Get out of here. Don’t go back.”

The man stared at him. “Why would you let me go? I’m the enemy.”

“Enemy?” John rolled his eyes. “Take a good look at me. I have little love for…what did you call them? The colonial brand of imperialist scum. I have no enemies, just people I fight on a battlefield.”

The officer sat up. Looked at John. John knew what he was seeing—not the broad shoulders, not the determination John knew flashed in his own eyes, nor the set of his square jaw. No, this blond prattler who talked of manners and politics would see only the brown of his skin.

John was an idiot to offer anything. But he knew too well what it was like to have no hope of help and to find it anyway.

Here, he thought to the woman at the well who had shaken her head, denying his existence to the man who sought John. John had crouched hidden behind the bushes until the threat had passed. She’d looked at him then. She hadn’t spoken; she’d only nodded and left, as if she hadn’t changed his life with that simple denial. Here. I’m paying you back for that after all.

“I don’t want to talk to you,” John said. “I don’t want to be your friend. I’ll kill you on the battlefield if I have to. But if you’re desperate enough to die, you’re desperate enough to abscond. If you don’t want to go back, get rid of your damned officer’s coat and take mine.”

The man stared up at him. He looked at the coat, at the musket that John had tossed aside.

Slowly, he took John’s coat. “I won’t forget this,” he said. “I’ll pay you back someday.”

John had heard that particular promise before. He’d heard it when he saved his father from being crushed by a falling mast. He’d heard it when he’d rescued another man in the Rhode Island First on the battlefield. Half the time, white men didn’t even bother with empty words to assuage their consciences—at least not to the likes of him. The other half? They never remembered their promises. They didn’t have to.

John shook his head. “Don’t bother.”

“John?” Elijah’s call came from further in. “John, is that you down there? Are you wounded?”

He turned, leaving the British officer alone with his coat. He was already faintly regretting his choice—the late-autumn night was cold enough that he’d want that coat before morning struck.

He would never see the man again.

In the dark of the night, the man had no idea what John even looked like. Even if it were day, he’d never be able to distinguish John from any other black man. White men rarely could.

“I’m Henry,” the officer called after him. “Henry Latham, at your service.”

Henry Latham no doubt thought he was an honorable fellow. He’d tell himself that one day he’d return the favor, just as he assiduously avoided contact with anyone who looked like John. There was little use puncturing his illusions.

John knew that the roll of his eyes was hidden by the night, so he took care to imbue an extra dose of sarcasm in his tone. “I’ll be sure to remember that.”

“John?” Elijah was coming closer. “John, are you well?”

“I’m alive,” John called in return. “Alive and unharmed.” His body was already protesting the unharmed designation, his shoulder twingeing, his head still hurting.

Ha. He had already forgotten the name. He’d never hear from the man again.

* * *

Henry Latham knew that time was running out.

Well. Not in the literal sense. Time never ran out. It only ran on, continuing at its own inevitable pace. But in a little while the Continental Army would be on the move again, following the inevitable peace accords. The time it would take him to find John would be massively increased once that happened.

In addition, there was the problem of Henry himself. Some men prided themselves on remembering and repaying every obligation. Henry…well. He always intended to pay his debts, but then…he forgot. He could never keep any one thing at the forefront of his mind long enough to concentrate on it. This time, though, it would be different. This was New Henry, and New Henry was…

New Henry was confused, baffled, and on the run from the British Army. That made him exactly like Old Henry, except he’d overtly committed treason and absconded in the heat of battle.

Technically, it had been after the redoubt was surrendered, but not by much. If that wasn’t the heat of battle, it was perhaps the warmth of it.

The good thing about war was that it had proven all too easy to sell a few items of personal jewelry for funds—so many others were fleeing—without drawing much attention. New Henry had money. New Henry had clothing. New Henry just needed a plan. His started like this:

1. Find John. By his uniform, he was a corporal, most likely in the Rhode Island Regiment, although Henry had not been able to verify that for certain. Family name? Hometown? All unknown, but that was no reason to discard a perfectly good first step, especially when the remainder of his plan looked like this.

2. …?

3. …!?

4. …

5. Cheese? Maybe cheese. Cheese was good.

Taking John’s jacket and running off had been undoubtedly the most impulsive decision he had ever made in a life predicated upon what his father called rash whim and unpremeditated fancy.

As it was, he had a name—John—and a face and a rank. He’d made inquiries—not careful ones; nothing Henry did could ever truly be called careful—and found that there had been black soldiers under the First Rhode Island Regiment, and as the Rhode Island forces had been decimated, the resulting Rhode Island Regiment been pulled piecemeal into the assault on Yorktown. It was a start.

John, maybe from Rhode Island. He could wait years and lose all hope of the trail, or he could do what he was doing now: He could walk up to the enemy encampment with nothing more than a smile and a pack containing his secret weapon.

He sauntered up to the soldiers standing guard at the entrance to the camp and smiled as if he belonged.

“A good day to you, gentlemen.”

They exchanged suspicious glances.

Ah, damn. The accent. Henry’s accent marked him as a creature of exclusive British public schools and that terrible year at Oxford before everyone—from his father to the dean to the unfortunate brace of goats that he really hadn’t meant to send down the Cherwell on a barge—agreed that further schooling was probably not in anybody’s best interests.

But Americans came from Britain, too.

The two soldiers frowned at him.

Henry just smiled at them. “If I could impose on you for some assistance, I would be deeply in your debt.”

The men continued to stare at him without blinking. How they managed to do that, Henry would never know. It was a useful skill, not blinking. Did their eyes not dry? How did they accomplish that?

Oh. No. The one on the right blinked. Ah, well. So much for that theory.

“I am a cheesemonger,” Henry said. It was a complete lie, but the story almost didn’t matter. “Cheese is my livelihood. I am here for the purpose of purveying cheese.”

The men exchanged confused glances and Henry made a mental note: Next time, less emphasis on cheese.

“We don’t want any cheese,” one finally said. “Move along.”

“Oh, ha! I’m not here to mong my cheese at you.”

Blank stares met this.

Was mong even a verb? It had to be; what else did a monger do, if not mong?

“I encountered a soldier of your company in town,” Henry said. “He coveted my cheese—my delicious, crumbly, fragrant cheese.” Emphasis on fragrant. Henry had smelled infantrymen five months from a bath who reeked less than the cheese wrapped in his pack. “He wanted a bit for his journey home and asked me to bring a goodly amount by.”

The two men softened incrementally.

“I’d hoped you might be able to direct me in his…ah, direction.”

“Who is it?”

“John,” Henry said brightly. “He’s a corporal!”

“John. Which John? What regiment?”

“Ah… I’ve forgotten his family name.”

Oh, that made the story so believable. Who introduced themselves as only John? What a mess.

Henry went on brightly. “He’s an inch or so taller than I am. Muscular.” Henry still had bruises. “Deep voice. In the Rhode Island Regiment, I believe. He’s one of the Negro soldiers.”

Their faces changed on that last word, closing even more than they’d already closed before.

“One of the Black Regiment, then.” The one on the right gestured. “They’re over there. We wouldn’t know any of them by name.”

Henry thanked them and left.

He wondered, briefly, how they managed the headaches that must plague them with that attitude. He’d struggled with his own confusion for long enough before coming to his not-so-ideal strategy, but then, he was no great intellect.

He’d thought maybe in the infantry, it would be different. After all, these men were fighting for their ideals. It wouldn’t, he’d told himself, be like the British Army, with its rules and regulations and safeguards.

It seemed exactly like the British Army, down to the sneers. Maybe sewing stars and stripes atop a flawed fabric didn’t change the cloth. But there he went again. He was going to give himself a headache trying to puzzle it out. Henry shook his head and made his way in the direction the two men had indicated.

“I’m looking for John,” he said, when he’d found the encampment of black soldiers. “This tall”—he gestured—“strong, taciturn, participated in the assault on Redoubt Ten, from…the Rhode Island Regiment?”

A fellow stood. “What do you want with John?”

“I’m a cheesemonger.” Henry considered the rest of his speech. “He asked to buy some of my cheese.”

The man looked at one of his fellows. “Huh,” said the one who was sitting, examining boots that were as much hole as leather. “Cheese. I hadn’t thought…”

“It’s very excellent cheese,” Henry assured him. “And I promised him a discount.”

“What can it hurt?” one of them said. “Hunter is heading out. It’s not impossible. I’ll take you to him.”

Hunter. Hunter. He was John Hunter. Excellent.

“Cheese,” one of them muttered.

They conducted Henry through the darkening camp to a fire at the edge where a few men sat.

“John, this man—”

John looked up. In the days since the assault, Henry had tried to remember what his… benefactor? enemy? looked like. Tall, he remembered. He could have drawn the line of the other man’s profile, the prominent, chiseled ridges of the eyebrows, the shape of his nose.

This was the first time Henry had seen him in daylight, fading though it was. John, last name previously unknown, learned and…drat it, immediately forgotten again. Their eyes met, and Henry felt a current sweep through him. Him, Henry thought, one hand going to his heart. Him.

This man. There was a scar down his cheek—not prominent, just a line of darker brown slashed across his face. His eyes narrowed.

They’d talked that night—well, to be fair, Henry had talked. Still, fucking was the only thing more intimate than fighting. He’d seen something even in the darkness. In daylight it was more obvious.

John was utterly, bewitchingly lovely, and Henry had been already predisposed to bewitchment. His cheekbones were high. He wasn’t as tall as Henry remembered—something about a man trying to kill you made him loom in the imagination—but he was well muscled. John’s arm was bound with some kind of cloth in a sling, holding it against his chest. His lips pressed into a thin line as he looked at Henry.

Something deep in Henry’s gut awoke in that moment. It felt like a fundamental shift in his makeup. It was like the circular all over again. He changed again now, his breath cycling through him. He would never be the same.

Henry forgot everything he was going to say.

“John,” the man beside him said. “This fellow says you’re buying his cheese.”

“Cheese?” John frowned. “I didn’t want any cheese.”

“Cheese?” Henry said, momentarily forgetting his own story. “What cheese?”

The man who had brought him looked at him. “What do you mean, ‘what cheese’?”

“Oh. Cheese. Right. Never mind the cheese. John, it’s Henry Latham.” There were various other titles and whatnot that people often insisted on adding to his name, but they were all embarrassing and irrelevant in the moment.

John wrinkled his nose in confusion. “Who? I don’t know a Henry Latham. What do you have to do with cheese?”

“The cheese is a lie,” Henry explained brightly.

“What the hell?” the man muttered behind him. “I knew something was amiss. Wait. I recognize him. John, this man is a British officer. I’ve fought him before. I told you about him.”

John looked up. His eyes narrowed, and he looked at Henry in something like astonishment.

“Nonsense,” Henry said brightly. “If I were a British officer, I certainly wouldn’t be waltzing around over here out of uniform, would I?”

John stared at him.

“You remember me, don’t you? We met outside Yorktown. We talked about imperialism?”

“My God,” John said slowly.

“You actually know him?” That was from the man in the back. “Are you sure he’s not a British officer?”

“I do.” John swallowed. “I suppose that if he says he’s not a British officer, he’s not a British officer. How curious, though. He’s shorter than I remember.”

Henry couldn’t help but smile. “I knew you’d not have forgotten! And how could you doubt me? I told you I would find you, didn’t I? And here I am.”

John just looked at him. He did not look delighted. He looked surprised and suspicious. “Here you are,” he repeated. “What the devil are you doing here?”