A wave of heat hits me the second I step off the helicopter. "Whoa," I say.

The Airman next to me chuckles. "It takes some getting used to, ma'am."

"It's like being inside an oven," I say. "Is it like this all the time?"

"Hot as hell now, freezing cold in the winter," he says. "Welcome to Bagram Air Force Base."

I'm in Afghanistan against my mother's expressed wishes, but I had a gap in my schedule and even she could reluctantly agree that it would be good publicity. A nice side bonus of the trip was that there was no way short of Hell itself freezing over that my mother would join me.

But I didn't do this to get away from my mother, although my motives were, I admit, partly selfish. The non-selfish part of me wanted to do a USO tour so I could give something back to the people serving over here.

The selfish part of me missed Hendrix. Present tense, actually -- misses Hendrix. I don't know how you can miss someone you hate so much, how you can loathe someone yet crave them with every fiber of your being, but I do. My mother wanted to arrange a meeting between Hendrix and I, something that would play well on television, go viral on social media -- a dramatic reunion between the country star on her USO tour and her Marine stepbrother. The Colonel said it was a stupid waste of resources, flying Hendrix in from wherever-the-hell he is out in Afghanistan just to see me. When he mentioned that it would be dangerous for Hendrix and whoever was with him to travel, convoy from wherever they were just to catch a plane to see me, I refused to let anyone get in touch with his unit.

Part of me still fantasizes that I'll walk out on the stage tonight, and Hendrix will be there in the crowd, smiling at me with that cocky grin. It's naive, a stupid wish, and even though I know it is, a little piece of me is crushed when it doesn't happen.

* * *

In the back of the limo, Hendrix slides his hand between my legs, and I swat it away. "Seriously," I whisper. "We're almost at the studio. Don't even try it."

He laughs. "Make sure you mention in the interview how totally full of yourself you are," he whispers. "Because I wasn't even attempting to get it on with you."

"Whatever, dude. You're always trying to put your…" My voice trails off and I glance at the tinted mirror that separates us from the driver.

Hendrix puts his mouth close to my ear and it gives me chills when his breath tickles my skin. "Cock?" he asks. "Put my cock in your warm wet pussy?"

He says the words, and it's like an automatic response – I'm immediately wet. "Stop," I order, sliding to the other side of the seat. "Behave."

"Yes, ma'am," he says. But he's chuckling under his breath.

I stick my tongue out at him, and he grins at me. "Careful sticking your tongue out like that, sweet cheeks," he says softly. "Or I'll give you something to lick."

"Right here in the limo?" I ask. "You wouldn't dare."

Hendrix starts unbuckling his pants, and I squeal, louder than I mean to, and the driver cracks the window, asking if I'm okay. Hendrix, of course, is the epitome of angelic.

"Yes, I'm fine," I say, glaring at Hendrix as the window goes back up.

Hendrix takes my hand and presses it against the front of his pants, showing me his hardness. I should snatch my hand away, but I let it linger there a moment too long. When the car comes to an abrupt stop, I jerk my hand away and look out the window, feigning innocence. Feigning professionalism.

What the hell happened to my professionalism, anyway? I'm a giant ball of need and want and desire, preoccupied with Hendrix. We're like two high school kids, unquenchable in our thirst for each other. I'm surprised my lust for him isn't written all over my face, visible for the entire world to read.

At least, I hope it's not.

I watch him sometimes when he sleeps. He doesn't know, but I watch him as he dreams, his sleep fitful. He hasn't told me what he dreams about, and I haven't asked. But my heart hurts for him.

On the television set, the reporter asks me questions, easy ones about my album and last year's tour. "You recently auctioned off your entire closet and raised half a million dollars for a veteran's organization."

"It's hard to believe I had that many clothes," I say, suddenly embarrassed. It was little more than a decade ago that my mom could barely afford to buy us sneakers. Now I'm wearing thousand-dollar shoes.

"Some people have criticized the move as a blatant act of consumerism, cleaning out the old to make way for the new."

"I –" I pause for a moment. I'm supposed to stick to the script, talk about how veteran's issues have always been important to me, about how I wanted to make a donation that was personally important and not just write a check. Hendrix stands on the side of the set, and he winks at me. "You know, it actually wasn't my idea at all."

The reporter leans forward, furrowing her brow, which I'm certain is one of those "listening skills" they taught her to do in journalism school to appear thoughtful. "And who do we have to thank for this?"

"It was a friend's idea," I say. "I mean, my stepbrother's. Hendrix's. He's a friend. And a veteran. I guess, well, you could say he orchestrated the entire thing." I'm babbling, nervous when I talk about Hendrix, and I have to force myself to stop and take a deep breath so I don't continue to babble and confess all my secrets on set. I can already feel the heat on my cheeks, the flush I get when I talk about Hendrix.

She nods and smiles. "After the break, we'll hear more from the lovely Addison Stone, and she'll sing one of the songs from her upcoming album."

* * *

"No, mom." I'm on the phone with my mother, who says something snide about "sticking to the script," followed immediately by an indictment of my television wardrobe. Hendrix rolls his eyes when he hears me speak, able to tell immediately who it is, and I turn the other direction, but he follows, standing in front of me with a glint in his eye. When he mouths the words, "Hang up," I shake my head, and he smiles smugly before reaching out and sliding his hands underneath my skirt.

When he discovers I'm not wearing any panties, he gives me a look, the look that tells me exactly what he wants from me. My mother is in the middle of a diatribe about the importance of my image, and I murmur "uh-huh" every few seconds, but what I'm really focused on is Hendrix and his magic fingers that are meandering lazily between my legs, stroking me, sending waves of pleasure rippling through my body.

Hendrix whispers in my ear. "Hang up on her. I'm going to keep going."

I shield the phone from him, trying to maintain my composure. "I can't," I mouth. Surely he understands the importance of playing along with my mother, my manager. And with the record studio. So I pretend to listen to her while I watch Hendrix shrug, and kneel at my feet, parting my legs with his hand. I don't make a pretense of resisting, because I want him more than anything.

My mother's voice seems to get smaller and smaller, disappearing until it sounds like she's in a tunnel someplace far away, as Hendrix covers my pussy with his mouth, his tongue exploring me the same way his fingers were a moment ago. I exhale heavily, trying not to moan. "Yes, mom, I'm exercising. Yes. Hendrix has me on a new workout program."

Hendrix pauses to look up at me, his lips shiny with my wetness, then reaches around me and slaps my ass cheek loudly.

"It was nothing, mother," I say. "I think Hendrix dropped something." Meanwhile, Hendrix is eating me like I'm his last meal on earth, pulling my clit into his mouth with greater ferocity when he hears me speak to my mother. I clutch at him, intending to pull his head away but in reality pulling it closer.

When he slides his fingers inside me, I do moan. Out loud. While on the phone with my fucking mother. I cough to cover it up, but she asks what's happening. "I – I think I'm going to be sick," I blurt out. "Nausea."

She says something about vomiting being an acceptable form of dieting, but I hang up on her before Hendrix can do anything else, and throw the phone across the room. It bounces off the sofa and falls onto the floor with a clatter, and right now I don't care if it's broken into a thousand little pieces.

Hendrix strokes me with his fingers. "About time," he says. "I was thinking I was going to have to bend you over and slide my cock inside that sweet pussy of yours in order to get you off the phone."

No one has ever talked to me like this, just bandied around words like "cock" and "pussy". Of course, no one has fucked me the way Hendrix does either. And I do mean fucked. Hendrix fucks me the way I thought only happened in movies, passionate and rough and sweaty, hair-pulling, earth-shattering sex.

"Now that I'm off the phone, what are you going to do?" I ask, and he looks up at me, his eyes clouded with desire.

Then he does what I want him to do – he slides his fingers from between my legs, bends me over the sofa, and fucks me the way I want him to. He rides me hard and fast, jerking my head back as he pulls on my hair, and when I come, I scream his name before collapsing into a sweaty heap against the sofa.

Afterward, he runs his hand down my back and over my hips. "Let's get the fuck out of here, Addy," he says.

"Where?" I'm not sure if he's talking about today or permanently, and I'm not sure I care.

"Road trip?"

I grin. "You have the schedule. You're the boss. Can we?"

"Say it again."

"Say what?"

"Say I'm the boss."

I laugh and try to slap him from where I stand, but I can't reach him, bent over like this, and Hendrix chuckles. "I'm not saying it again. I think you misheard me the first time."

"Come on," he says, slapping my ass. "Say it and I'll tell you the schedule."

"Fine," I say, with a mock-exasperated sigh. "You're the boss. But only when it comes to the schedule."

"What-the-fuck-ever," he says. "Screw everybody. We have a couple days before the awards show. Let's road trip."

I agree, caught up in the afterglow of sex. I don't know if it's the sex, or it's being with Hendrix that's making me giddy and reckless, but I don't care about dropping everything and taking off with him.

That fact alone should scare me.