K e i r a
Bobby had warned me about the moment. My old boss had seen the way Kona and I carried on after years apart. It had made her laugh how just Kona’s smile, a single look he threw in my direction, left me a little flustered with the faintest blush working over my cheeks even after nearly a decade together.
“It hasn’t happened yet,” she’d said the last time I’d seen her, five years back when Bobby ignored the doctors and the pastors and settled back home with her sons in Nashville, waiting on death. Her body had been so frail, and her normally dark skin had gone pale and thin.
She’d been the only real mother I’d ever had. When I arrived in Nashville I was nineteen and pregnant and heartbroken over what life had thrown at me, but Bobby had opened up her home to me. Nearly as poor as I was, she gave me a job and a room to rent over her small garage until I got on my feet and my stride was steady. She’d always offered advice; most of it I’d taken, but some I didn’t bother with since those bits of wisdom almost always concerned men—a concept I had no intention of revisiting.
And then, Kona came back into my life.
“It’s been what, sugar? Going on eight years now that he talked you into marryin’ him?” she’d asked just a few days before she died.
“Around that, yeah.” There’d been a wicked twinkle in the old lady’s eyes, something I hadn’t seen from her in the two weeks we’d returned to Nashville to say our goodbyes.
“Hmm.” That little noise always meant something, mainly things she’d keep to herself until the time she knew she could annoy me the most.
“What?” I’d asked, leaning next to her on her bed. Out in the yard Ransom and Kona took turns slinging Mack and Koa over their shoulders, then spinning them around, pretending to be giants with kid-sized lumps growing out of their backs.
Bobby watched them along with me, a slow working smile twitching her lips. “Eight years, and the moment hasn’t happened.”
“We’ve had plenty of moments, Bobby.” She’d waved me off, laughing a little when I waggled my eyebrows.
“I’ll tell you something straight.”
“I expect nothing less from you, lady.”
She’d taken my hand, rubbing her blunt fingernails against my palm, same as she’d done years before when I’d get upset about how miserable it was carrying such a huge baby at only nineteen, or when there weren’t enough customers at the diner for the tips to do more than barely cover groceries.
We’d sat there next to each other, those faint, slow touches moving over my skin, watching the family Kona and I’d made as if the struggles didn’t matter, because none of them had kept us from that moment.
“You and Kona have had some worry, there’s truth in that for sure and, I reckon you’ve had even more happy.” I’d nodded, not watching her when my mouth quirked up on one side. But I felt the look she gave me and for a brief second I’d wondered what she’d seen when she looked at me. “Happy is good. Worries come and we all take them as we can, but there’s always a moment, sugar, when a woman and man know each other well enough, long enough that they truly can’t keep anything from the other.”
“We have that,” I promised her, pulling my attention from the window to watch her shake her head.
“No, sugar. Not yet you don’t. It’s that moment no one ever really tells you about. When a couple share a look, a feeling and know right in their bones, right to the marrow, that they are set right where they are, that this other person is the one who won’t keep anything from you, who you can’t keep yourself from. They know you, sugar. They know you like the print of their thumbs and the true nature of their own minds. The dirtiest, filthiest, most shameful bits of you, they know it. They know it and they go on wanting you all the same. That moment comes, Keira and you either hold tight or you run like the rip of light at starless midnight.” She moved her head against her pillow, exhaling at the effort before she spoke again. “It hasn’t happened yet, but it’s coming. I see that plain.”
“Bobby…I don’t understand…”
“You will, my sweet girl.” She’d slowed her movements over my palm. “Don’t worry over that moment coming, Keira.” Bobby closed her eyes, stifling a yawn and I kept my gaze on her, waiting for her to explain. “You’ll only need to worry if it doesn’t come.” Bobby tilted her head, that small, sweet smile warming my chest as she blinked twice to stare at me. “The way that man looks at you, the way you look back at him, me, I don’t worry so much. That moment’s comin’.”
But it hadn’t. Not yet. Not five years later. Not in the shift of our lives, the moments that shook us, tempted us to give in. Not even then, the moment still hadn’t come. Now, the moment haunted me, followed me, as Kona and I headed out for a few days away at a familiar retreat in Tennessee. “We need some time alone, Wildcat,” Kona had told me, and he was right, we did. I hoped that the cloud that had covered me earlier would lift once we got to our special place in the mountains, that I’d be able to shrug off the darkness that wouldn't let me go.
But the tension had mounted with every mile we drove from New Orleans. Kona still kept his hand relaxed, palm open as he drove—an invitation to touch him, show him that I hadn’t forgotten how well we’d always moved together.
Point. Counterpoint—from the time we were kids just figuring out what we wanted from each other.
He always had an answer for any complaint I had. He always tried to figure out a problem when it came head on. Maybe that was the issue. Kona had done the one thing he promised he’d never do—he shut me out, tried to fix things on his own. The intention had been good. He wanted to protect us. But not being allowed to help him carry that burden? That hurt more than I thought it would.
And yet, despite what Kona had done, hadn’t my sin been worse? Hadn’t I been the one courting disaster, letting it live and fester under our roof, letting it convince me my husband was a liar? Hadn’t it been my own weaknesses that had almost brought all our worlds crashing down?
A small shudder worked up my spine as I stared out of the window, closing my eyes to will away that dark cloud that had descended over me. To my left Kona concentrated on the road, but I caught the slip of his gaze as he glanced my way and I exhaled, knowing what he wanted, knowing he deserved anything I could give and I slipped my hand onto Kona’s palm, fingers whispering against the deep lines of his skin. His hand was warm and when I kept my palm pressed against his, Kona squeezed my fingers and he moved his wide thumb over my knuckles. But I didn’t look at him, or study his expression. Instead I let the silence keep, let it fill the cab of the Denali as I watched the roving mountains around us pass by.
I’d always loved Tennessee. It had been a second home to me when I left New Orleans as a kid, running from my heartache and my mother’s expectations. But I’d settled in Nashville and as exciting and sweet as Music City was, there was no escape there. Not like the serenity Gatlinburg offered.
The trees around us loomed on forever it seemed as Kona drove through the tourist traps and the miles and miles of cabins and pancake restaurants. The traffic was thick with tourists’ cars cluttering up the winding roads as we moved through Sevierville, and on into Gatlinburg proper before heading deeper toward the mountains.
Kona had made the suggestion to get away when Koa and Mack hadn’t moved from within a few feet from him on his first day home. He’d understood. Those kids loved him, had missed him, and didn’t understand that we needed time to begin mending the fractures that Cass had leveled at us. When Mack insisted on Kona and me staying in the den as she and Koa played yet another round of Left for Dead on the game console, my husband had leaned close to me, stretching his arm around my shoulder, trying, it seemed, to keep what he wanted to say out of our kids’ ears.
“We need some time away.” I’d been unaccountably nervous at his words, still letting the guilt and upset I felt wedge between us. When I only nodded, gaze flicking to our kids who dutifully ignored us as they played, Kona continued. “They’re scared I’m not gonna stick around.” It was his laugh that surprised me, had me jerking my gaze at his expression.
“They missed you.” He had to know that, to see how they stuck to him since he’d been back at the lake house.
“I know that, baby. I just…I need some breathing room.”
Koa yelled at Mack's game play and the sharp shriek of his voice had me leaning away from my husband, my ridiculous worry brimming back to the surface as he continued to watch me. Seconds later, the upset forgotten, Koa and Mack continued to play and I kept my attention on them. Kona stopped staring at me. In my peripheral I spotted the slow movement of his head turning toward the kids and his sharp profile as he watched them. But when he spoke again, his voice was low, directed at me.
“The things I want to say to you…to…to do to you, can’t be done with them around.” He swallowed and the sound was audible. It struck me as funny, how this big lumbering man, my husband of thirteen years, could seem so nervous even when the meaning behind his words held such promise.
Again I only nodded, knowing he caught the movement. Still watching the game play, Kona moved his body closer and I closed my eyes as his sweet breath hissed across my cheek. “I want to take you away. Just for a little while. To be with you. Only you.”
It hadn’t taken much sweet talking to get Ransom to agree to staying with his younger siblings while Kona and I left for the mountains. He had been happy to stay, happy that we were making efforts to ease the hurt and upset of the past few months.
Kona cleared his throat, adjusting his hold on the steering wheel as he nodded to the right and my gaze went to the side road that would bring us as close to the Great Smokey Mountains National Park and the even more remote gravel road that lead to the cabin we owned. It was a quiet place, one that would leave us undisturbed by the tourists, one that Kona and I visited often over the years when we needed to leave the pressures of our respective careers behind us, when the need to be alone grew heavy between us.
The gravel under the tires popped and shot across the heavy fallen leaves that covered much of the road as we moved along it. We were surrounded by forest, unobstructed by the industry of tourism or the modern advances that tended to converge and bombard any peaceful hideaway spot in the world whenever commercialism came calling.
We’d bought this cabin just before our first anniversary, spending a week here, a few days there, rarely venturing beyond the back porch of the cabin that overlooked a small stream along the back of the property. It hadn’t changed much since then with the exception of our adding another small cottage some sixty feet away for when family trips to the cabin had grown too crowded. A local man, Brad, along with his cousins, acted as groundskeeper, keeping the place tidy and handling rentals when we left the cabin available. Driving up, spotting the trim lawn and the landscaped bushes that lined the drive, I noticed they hadn’t slacked in their job.
“I’ll get the bags and open the cabin. Stay here until I know it’s okay for you to come in,” he said, squeezing my hand before he left the SUV. Still so damn overprotective.
The last time we’d been here, the trip had gotten cut short because Bobby’s condition had worsened and we were needed in Nashville. Now there had been a less permanent but still stinging disruption in our lives. I sat in my seat while Kona brought the bags to the front of the cabin, watching him—that still-strong back, those wide shoulders I’d held onto so many times before, the small waist that hadn’t expanded much in the years since he’d left the NFL. He was still so beautiful, my perfect fit, the same cocky Hawaiian linebacker I’d fallen for as a freshman in college.
Kona’s movements were graceful, a fluid mixture of power and strength but behind his expression was a gentleness not many people ever got to see. He was a protector, had a strength I doubted I’d ever see duplicated. He’d touched me more intimately, more surely than anyone ever had before. He knew my body, my mind better than I did and held my heart tight within his sturdy grip.
I really didn’t deserve him. That cloud circled, billowed until I shook my head, smothering the pathetic feeling that overwhelmed me and I forced a smile on my face when Kona nodded for me to come inside. I was out of the SUV, tugging my bag over my shoulder as I walked up the porch steps, nodding a thanks when Kona opened the door for me.
The place was cozy, that hadn’t changed over the years. I’d always loved the seclusion of the cabin, but really appreciated the quiet when we came in the fall, when the weather turned frigid and Kona would start a fire, the pop and crackle of the burning wood only adding to the comfortable silence.
We moved around each other, not speaking really, each of us taking in our surroundings and I wondered if Kona was thinking about all the things we’d done in front of that stacked stone fireplace. There had been one night we slept naked right in front of that fireplace, curled around each other, limbs twisted together like pretzels. He’d woken me twice that night, once moving behind me, holding me still as his hard body fit against and then inside mine. The other time it was Kona’s mouth and fingers on the cleft that joined my thigh and hip, that had stirred me.
“I’ll make sure the hot water heater is on. Nine and a half hours is a long drive and I want a shower.” He stood behind me at the rear of the cabin as I dumped my bag on the dining room table and stopped in front of the large window that looked out to the back of the cabin. The leaves on the trees had turned orange and were peppered with a spotting of bright red and yellow. The massive oaks formed an arch of color against the mountain backdrop in the distance with large smoky clouds obstructing the mountain tops from view.
Taken with all that natural beauty, I startled slightly as Kona came up behind me, slipping his arms around me, the heat from his body eliciting a shiver of desire from my quiet form.
“It’s…a…it’s a big shower, if you remember.”
I wanted to forget myself, to give up my guilt and worry and become that playful partner I once had been. But even though my body cried out for him, my feet and spirit were leaden, and I stood still, not responding to his long fingers on my shoulders. I hated myself, but I couldn't make myself turn to him, and finally he walked away, sighing loudly, which my misery took as an accusation.
“You’re a fucking coward, Keira,” I told myself, sliding my forehead against the glass before I closed my eyes, blocking out the beautiful view in front of me and the temptation that wanted me in the bathroom.
My husband rarely pressured me. Not when we were eager, desperate kids wanting nothing but touch and sensation, forgetting that we should be cautious. Believing that our youth somehow made us invulnerable to consequence. He didn’t pressure me at all today as we settled into the cabin, unpacking and organizing our groceries to keep us from having to go out for at least a few days.
He kept quiet, still trying to engage me while biding his time. I knew Kona. He wouldn’t push and as long as I went on acting like a timid coward, not brave enough to talk to him about how I’d allow our lives to almost unravel, he’d give me the distance I seemed to want.
The last of the groceries put away, I walked to the rear of the cabin and the sliding glass doors that lead out onto the back porch. Kona had disappeared out there a half hour before mumbling something about firewood. I knew he was annoyed with me, with how frigid I was being, how skittish. I couldn’t blame him. Now he was working himself into a sweat as he swung the axe over his head, breaking down several large logs stacked along the back of the cabin, a physical task he enjoyed and that Brad knew to leave for him whenever we let him know we were coming. From my vantage point I could see Kona work, those large, round muscles bunching, flexing under the thin t-shirt he wore. Despite the cool temperatures outside, Kona had worked himself hard and sweat collected across his chest and at the base of his lower back.
I found that watching him swing that axe in a rhythmic display of strength was oddly relaxing. Until, that was, he paused to take off his tee. It was a charcoal gray shirt, the cotton soft with age, the Captain America logo splitting in the center. Kona still wore it often, claimed it was his favorite “geek tee.” But as he tugged off the shirt and wiped it over his wet face, I didn’t think about Marvel or the First Avenger or anything at all except the way my husband moved under the bright sunlight; how the ridges of his stomach were still very defined, how the years of morning runs, over hours and hours he still spent in the gym had crafted the aging athlete into something a man twenty years his junior couldn’t manage—a wise man, aged and still fit, finely strong.
Small streaks of sweat trickled down his back as he continued his work, the flexing of those strong muscles kept to the rhythm of his swing. There was a cascade of dark freckles over his shoulders that disappeared into that dark skin and a small smattering of black hair gracing his chest and down to his stomach. Watching him work, seeing all that beautiful skin, the effort of his body as he moved had focused my attention on the lines and dips of his shoulders and arms. How many times had he held me with those arms? How often had I grazed my teeth and tongue over that chest or across those shoulders?
Standing there, watching my husband like he was a perfect stranger, the sensation of desperate need came over me. Just then, I wanted his hands, his mouth on me. I wanted him to touch me. I wanted to touch him. The sensation was so overwhelming that my nipples hardened and I had to lean against the glass door, holding my palm flat on the surface to keep from stumbling where I stood.
Kona continued moving, splitting the wood and throwing each log into a neat pile next to the back steps, unaware that the more he moved, the harder it was for me to breath, the harder it was for me to keep from touching myself.
He paused to stretch his shoulders, his body like something carved from marble and my hand drifted to my breast, tugging on my nipple as he lifted the axe again, once, twice... But then he stopped, and looked over his shoulder as if my body was calling out to him, and his gaze caught my hand on my breast, my lips parted with desire.
There was no need to be embarrassed. He was my husband. I was his wife. We’d played games, watched each other in the most intimate moments of our lives. There was nothing he hadn’t seen of me. But just then, having been caught staring openly, with what I was sure was little more than abject lust, I felt opened, raw.
The expression on his face just then, that deep smolder in his eyes, the hunger lacing around his features, told me there how much he still wanted me. No matter what disaster I’d made of our lives, no matter that I’d invited the enemy into our lives, Kona still wanted me. And I would have let him have me. Right there. I needed only to open the door, to strip myself of the worry about the mess we’d made of our lives and go to him. I almost did. But as my hand moved to the door, Kona’s gaze was pulled toward the back drive and I heard the sound of revving engines. The moment was irrevocably lost.
Kona lifted his hand and waved a greeting with a forced a smile on his face as Brad, flanked by two other men, drove up on their mud flecked four wheelers. I saw Kona exhale and his jaw tighten as he picked up his sweaty tee from the back steps, stuffing it over his head. He spared one long look at me, something that promised he wasn’t remotely done with me before he greeted the men. I noted, with some alarm, that all of them had shotguns resting on their shoulders.
The men talked in a circle, Kona towering over them, arms crossed, but he was smiling and nodding along, just another one of the guys. One of them must have cracked a joke, because they all laughed, even Kona, then Brad slapped him on the back. Almost as a group they turned toward me standing at the window, the strangers nodding a greeting, Brad offering a wave which I returned, my face reddening, before they continued speaking. I couldn’t help but think that the joke had been at my expense.
After a few seconds Kona approached the cabin, the irritation in his features present in the tight work of his jaw when he moved his teeth together. His steps were slow but sure and I moved back when he opened the door, stretching his arm above my head on the glass, blocking me from the others’ view.
“Baby, Brad said there was a bear and some cubs spotted down the front of the property.”
“Bears?” I forgot for a moment about anything that had stalled between us with the groundkeeper’s appearance. “Is it…when? I mean, is it safe to be outside?”
“There’s no real danger, but it might be better to stay inside for now. He said normally he wouldn’t be worried, but they’ve been going through people’s garbage the past few weeks so they’ve gotten kind of bold. I think it’ll be okay as long as you stay inside but Brad and his cousins are going to ride around the property, create some noise, scare them off. They've asked if I want to join them.”
Alarmed, my eyes flew to his face, but he straightened, almost defiant, as though he knew an argument loomed. I couldn’t hold back my surprise, though. “Are you crazy?”
“Not that I know of, makamae.” Kona looked over his shoulder when Brad cleared his throat and stalled him with a nod before he turned back to me and came inside, closing the door behind him. “I’m just gonna ride the property with them. It’s no big deal.”
“It is if there’s a freaking bear outside. A mama bear at that, Kona. Jesus, you know what those animals are like when their babies are involved?”
“I’m familiar.” He lowered, coming so close that I could feel the heat of his body still remaining from the work he’d been doing. “Trust me, I’m not stupid. I know not to come between a mama bear and her cubs.”
“Kona. No, this trip is supposed to be about us. It’s supposed to be about…”
“You remember that now?”
His words were calm, but they struck me almost like a physical blow. I blinked. “What the hell is that supposed to mean?”
His laugh was sharp, and my shock quickly switched to anger as he walked away from me, heading into the bedroom to grab a fresh t-shirt from his suitcase. I trailed behind, frustrated with myself over how my body responded to the sight of him half naked, despite how annoyed I was with him.
“Shit, Keira, you know what it means.” Kona shoved on his shirt, grabbing a towel from the en-suite bathroom to rub it over his face and neck. “I practically beg you to come get a shower with me this morning and you ignored me. You’ve been ignoring me for...” He stood in front of me, seemingly calm, but his nostrils flared, giving evidence to his own anger. “I’m your husband. I know things were fucked things up before, but we came here to work things out and all you’ve seemed to do lately is pull away from me.”
“I did not…I was just…” The grunt I released had nothing to do with the sound of the weak bleat of the four-wheeler horn when it blasted an interruption. Kona’s features went hard, severe and I warred between wanting to smack him and kiss the life out of him. “I don’t want you to go out there with a bunch of rednecks itching to kill a bear.”
Shoulders lowering, Kona rubbed his neck before he held my face between his hands. “They don’t want to kill anything and if I go with them, I can make sure you'll be safe.”
“So you leave me alone?” He dropped his hands, grunting as he moved from the room.
“You’ll be fine as long as you stay inside.” He was nearly to the door before he stopped, gripping the handle before he straightened his shoulders and turned toward me, pulling my arm until he had me right against his chest. “I love you, Ku`u Lei. I’d do anything to protect you. Even piss you off.” Then he kissed me before he pulled back, forehead against mine. “Go take a bath. Do something to keep yourself busy and when I get back, we’ll finish what you started with that fucking look you gave me through the window.”
Then he was out of the cabin, heading towards where our own ATV had been stored under a tarp. “Lock the door!” he called back to me, revving the four-wheeler’s engine before heading out with the others in a crunch of gravel, and I moved to the door to push the deadbolt home, staggered to suddenly find myself alone. Something to keep myself busy? Nothing would, not when he left to tangle with a bear and shotgun-wielding rednecks.
Moving around the kitchen an hour later, I still wasn’t settled. I kept looking out the window, waiting to see the four wheelers approaching. I’d made dinner that was now cold and uneaten in the microwave, stifling the urge to call him, to make sure he was all right, but I couldn’t keep from constantly glancing toward the window and the black night around the park and property which only doubled the knot of worry sinking in my stomach. Nothing on TV interested me and even a half an hour chat with my kids only managed to distract me for a little while before my nerves doubled and I thought maybe taking Kona’s advice about a bath might help.
Another hour passed and the water in the tub was still hot. I kept releasing some of the water, then filling it back up again, closing my eyes to remember exactly what those sensations were that Kona had worked in me this afternoon. Collected in that memory was imagined, horrible things I tried to clear from my mind—Kona shirtless wrestling a huge bear; Kona’s skin ripped and mangled, the shriek of his cry as the bear gutted him. I shuddered, pressing the balls of my hands into my eye sockets, hoping to clear those horrible images and I said a small prayer, begging for his safe return and that not an inch of his beautiful body would be hurt by that animal fiercely protecting her babies.
There was only a small cluster of bubbles covering my legs and they slid down my skin, across my thighs as I eased back, eyes closed trying like hell not to let those horrific images consume me. Kona was strong. He was a fierce fighter. He wasn’t some idiot that didn’t know better than to antagonize a wild animal. But I couldn’t help myself.
My God. The image was horrible, overwhelming, and made me feel like an incredible idiot. Kona gone. Kona lost. Kona not…I squeezed my eyes shut, scrubbing my face with my wet hands. All this time, hours and hours, days since we reconciled and I’d been fretting over my guilt. Guilt that came from what I’d almost let happen. Lies I’d almost believe. God, it could have been so much worse. It could have been a situation we’d never came back from. But it wasn’t, that didn’t have to be, unless I let it.
I could keep my guilt, let it widen that wedge between us, let it push us further and further apart or I could get the fuck over it and live for the future that was right there in front of me. I could let go of my guilt and my worry and my fear, and let us be us again.
As I laid there with the hot water soaking into my pores and the lavender salt crystals I’d poured into the water warming my joints, I was gripped with the sudden sensation of being watched. That feeling kept me still, alert, but I didn’t open my eyes, didn't move at all. A bear couldn’t get into the cabin and even if it could, it certainly wouldn’t move with any kind of stealth or quiet. No, it was a different kind of animal, a familiar one, one I welcomed.
I knew it was him. He’d do that often, just watch me in the bath, seeming to like whatever emotions worked in him as he watched me. I was naked and wet, two things Kona had always insisted suited me best and when I slowly opened my eyes and caught him standing there, his gaze working over my skin, I had no doubt how much he liked seeing me like this.
Kona looked unharmed, a little wind burned from buzzing about on that four wheeler. But he didn’t seem tired or worn by the exertions he’d made today. In fact, with the slow drag of his gaze over my body, I got the impression he was invigorated, eager. The idea of what eagerness did to him had me moving my legs together, making small waves in the bath water that did nothing to ease the ache that throbbed right in my center.
I’d thought of touching myself while Kona was gone, but didn’t want to be caught a second time for something that he clearly didn’t want me hiding. Besides, my worry had kept any real thoughts of arousal from my mind. Now my body had easily edged right back to arousal, especially when Kona’s face remained tight and that gaze slicked over my naked skin like a breath.
The room was quiet and the only noise came from the low hoot of the owls in the trees nearby and the rapid increase of my own heartbeat.
He watched every move I made, eyes dark, focused on me as I stretched my head back against the lip of the tub. It was a large porcelain bathtub with jets I hadn’t figured out how to turn on, shaped in a triangle at the center of the bathroom.
Kona didn’t speak as he walked into the bathroom and knelt beside me, arms stretched on the tile. I parted my lips, meaning to ask him if everything was okay, if they’d spotted the bear, if there was something more than what I thought I saw in the look he gave me as I’d watched him chopping wood. But then he shook his head, gaze steady, sure as he moved like a panther, features not quite blank but guarded enough that I wasn’t sure what he planned or what he wanted.
I couldn’t see the dark brown of his eyes for how wide his pupils were. One hand lowered into the water, disappearing, coming up to slide over the front of my shin, up to my knee. That steady expression remained unchanged, even as he teased my wet skin with his fingertips over to the top of my thighs as he inched closer.
“You can’t look at me like that, Wildcat.” His voice was so low, so deep that I didn’t dare move, barely breathed as he spoke. “You looked at me like you wanted to taste my skin.” He only waited a second, one eyebrow arching, a dare that told me he wondered if I’d deny it. I didn’t. “You should know by now, my skin, my body, baby, it’s all yours. Anytime. Anywhere.” Kona moved in closer, stretching his arm as he lowered his hand toward my inner thigh. “But I know your looks. I know when you look at me the way you are right now that you’re aching. You wanted to touch yourself, didn’t you, baby?” A slip of his fingers and Kona grazed his thumb against my pussy. “Didn’t you?” he asked but didn’t wait for my reply.
All thoughts of worry, of us being annoyed with each other before he left to find the bear slipped from my mind as he touched me. Kona’s fingers were firm, rough but so teasing, still gentle as he cupped me, thumb at my clit, fingertips in a slow slide up and down my center. And when I opened my mouth to answer him, Kona silenced me with those long, thick fingers easing inside me. I arched against him, my lips parted, breath wispy.
“You haven’t looked at me like that in a long time, Keira.” Closer now and Kona brushed his free hand against my cheek, resting it on the base of my neck. “Like you wanted to watch me move and just touch yourself. Touch yourself like…like this…” He separated my lips, slipping two fingers deeper inside me, so deep that he easily found my G-spot and began the work that was so easy for him. As always, Kona knew how to touch me, how to rub his bent knuckle over that ridge, teasing, caressing until I couldn’t stand the sensations he worked inside my body.
I stretched my hand, moving it from the side of the tub to my breast but Kona clicked his tongue, head shaking when I looked at him. “No baby, that’s for me to do.” And my protest, halfhearted and weak, died completely when Kona came to his knees to reach closer and take my nipple in his mouth. All thoughts of bears were forgotten and my world spiraled down until it only contained this tub, this water, my opening body, and my wonderful, demanding husband, my world.