Carmel
‘I’m sure this is all just part of the process,’ said Carmel. She didn’t know why everyone looked so worried. ‘They’re not going to leave us down here for much longer. It’s all fine.’
The time, according to Napoleon, the only one among them with a watch, was coming up to 2 pm, and they had still not heard from any of the staff at Tranquillum House. They had been down here for close to twenty-four hours now.
They all sat in a circle similar to the one from the previous day, when they’d introduced themselves. Everyone looked exhausted and grimy. The men needed shaves. Carmel was desperate to clean her teeth, but she wasn’t especially hungry, even though she hadn’t eaten for coming up to forty-eight hours, so that was kind of wonderful. If appetite suppression was one of the side effects of last night’s perfectly enjoyable drug experience, then she was all for it.
Each of them had confirmed for themselves that the only access point to the room was the heavy oak door at the bottom of the stairs, and that the door was undeniably, irrefutably locked with what looked to be a brand-new gold security keypad next to the doorhandle. Presumably there was a code that would unlock the door, but multiple combinations of numbers had been attempted with no success.
Frances had suggested that the code might be the same as the one given at the front gate of Tranquillum House.
Napoleon said he’d already thought of that but had no memory of the number.
Carmel had no memory of it either. She’d been crying when she arrived at Tranquillum House, suddenly struck by a memory from her honeymoon when they’d stayed at a hotel with a similar-looking intercom. It seemed stupid now. Her honeymoon hadn’t been that great. She’d got a terrible UTI.
Ben thought he remembered the access code for the front gate, but if he did, the number didn’t work.
Tony thought he remembered too, although he remembered one digit differently to Ben, but that number didn’t work either.
Carmel suggested the phone number for Tranquillum House, which for some reason she was able to recite, but they had no luck with that.
Frances wondered if the code was related to the letters of the alphabet. They tried various words: Tranquillum. Cleanse. Masha.
Nothing worked.
Zoe wondered if it was meant to be a kind of a game. An ‘escape room’. She told them there was a bizarre craze where people allowed themselves to be locked up in a room for the pleasure of trying to work out how to escape. Zoe had been to one before. She said it was great fun, with multiple clues concealed in what looked like normal objects. For example, Zoe and her friends had to find and assemble the parts of a torch that had been hidden around the room. The torch could then be used to shine a light on a secret message in the back of a wardrobe with further instructions. A timer counted down the minutes on a wall and Zoe said they got out just seconds before the timer went off.
But if this was an escape-room game it seemed it was a very tricky one. The yoga studio was virtually empty. There were towels, yoga mats, stretcher beds, water bottles, headphones, eye masks and burnt-out candles from the night before, and that was it. There were no bookshelves with messages in books. No pictures on the wall. There was nothing that could feasibly represent a clue.
There were no windows that could be smashed in either the men’s or the women’s toilets. No manholes, no air-conditioning ducts.
‘It’s like we’re trapped in a dungeon,’ said Frances, which Carmel thought was melodramatic, but then the woman wrote romantic fiction for a living so you had to allow for an overactive imagination.
Eventually, they’d sat back down, dispirited and dishevelled.
‘Yes, this is all just part of the process,’ said Heather to Carmel. ‘Spiking our drinks with illegal drugs, locking us up and so on and so forth. Nothing to worry about, it’s all fine.’
She was using a very sarcastic, familiar tone for someone Carmel had only just met.
‘I’m just saying we should trust the process.’ Carmel tried to remain reasonable.
‘You’re as deluded as her,’ said Heather.
So that was definitely rude. Carmel reminded herself that Heather had lost her son. She spoke evenly. ‘I know we’re all tired and stressed, but there’s no need to get personal.’
‘This is personal!’ shouted Heather.
‘Sweetheart,’ said Napoleon. ‘Don’t.’ The gentle way he scolded his wife made Carmel’s heart ache.
‘Do you have children, Carmel?’ asked Heather in a more civilised tone.
‘I have four little girls,’ said Carmel carefully.
‘Well, how would you feel if someone gave your children drugs?’
It was true that she wouldn’t want a single drug to cross their precious lips. ‘My children are very little. Obviously Masha would never –’
‘Do you have any idea of the serious long-term health consequences we could all be facing?’ interrupted Heather.
‘I feel worse than I’ve ever felt in my entire life,’ said Jessica.
‘There you go,’ said Heather with satisfaction.
‘Well, I feel better than I’ve ever felt in my entire life,’ said Carmel. It wasn’t entirely true, there was the teeth situation, but she did feel quite good. Her mind was filled with images she hadn’t yet had a chance to interpret, as if she’d just spent a day at some incredible immersive art exhibit.
‘I feel pretty good so far,’ admitted Frances.
‘I do have a significant headache,’ said Lars.
‘Yeah, me too,’ said Tony.
‘I feel like I might be down a dress size.’ Carmel pulled at the loose waistband of her leggings. She frowned, trying to remember some important revelation she’d come to last night about her body. It didn’t matter . . . it did matter . . . it was the only one she had? Somehow it didn’t seem quite so profound and transcendent a revelation when she tried to pin it down with ordinary words. ‘Although I’m not trying to change my body completely. I’m just here to get healthy.’
‘Healthy?!’ Heather banged her palm against her forehead. ‘This place has gone way beyond bloody dieting!’
‘Mum.’ Zoe put her hand on her mother’s knee. ‘Nobody died. We’re all still here. Just . . . please, relax.’
‘Relax?!’ Heather took Zoe’s hand in hers and shook it. ‘You could have died! Any one of us could have died! If there was anyone with underlying mental health issues that could have been exacerbated, or heart issues! Your dad has high blood pressure! He should never have been given drugs.’
‘People probably think you’re the one with mental health issues,’ murmured Zoe.
‘That’s not helping,’ said Napoleon.
‘Can’t we just pick the lock on the door?’ said Frances, and she looked hopefully at Tony.
‘Why are you looking at me? Do I look like I have a lot of break-and-enter experience?’ he said.
‘Sorry,’ said Frances. Carmel could see her point. Tony did look like someone who might have dabbled in a bit of breaking-and-entering in his youth.
‘We could try. We’d need something to pick it with,’ said Ben. He patted himself down and came up with nothing.
‘I’m sure there’s no need to panic just yet,’ said Napoleon.
‘It’s obviously a kind of problem-solving exercise and eventually she’ll realise that we can’t solve it.’ Lars yawned, then lay down on a yoga mat and shielded his eyes with his arm.
‘I think they’re watching us in here,’ said Jessica. She pointed to a corner of the ceiling. ‘Isn’t that a camera up there?’
They all looked up at the tiny security camera with a flashing red light above the blank television screen.
‘Yao told me they had some kind of security intercom system,’ said Frances.
‘Me too,’ said Carmel. ‘On the first day.’
It felt like a hundred years ago.
Heather leaped to her feet and addressed the camera. ‘You let us out immediately!’ she shrieked. ‘We did not come here to spend the anniversary of our son’s death locked in a room with strangers!’
Carmel flinched. She had forgotten the anniversary was today. The woman was allowed to snap and snarl as much as she wanted.
There was silence. Nothing happened.
Heather stamped her foot. ‘I can’t believe we’re paying for this.’
Napoleon stood and pulled Heather into his arms. ‘It doesn’t matter where we are today,’ he said.
‘It does,’ Heather cried quietly into his shirt. Suddenly she seemed diminished, all the rage gone, just a tiny, sad, traumatised mother.
‘Shhh,’ said Napoleon.
She was saying something over and over and it took a moment for Carmel to distinguish the words: ‘I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry.’
‘It’s okay,’ said Napoleon. ‘We’re fine. Everything is fine.’
Everyone looked away from what seemed like an unbearably private moment. Zoe avoided looking at her parents also. She went to a corner of the room, put one palm against a wall, stood on one leg and held her ankle in the other hand, doing a yoga class for one.
Carmel looked at the blank screen of the television, suddenly desperate to be far, far away from this family’s pain, which so dwarfed her own. She felt a sharp stab of homesickness. Her home was beautiful. She recalled this as if it were brand-new information. Not a mansion by any means, but a comfortable, sunshine-filled family home, even when it had been trashed by four little girls. She’d been the one to renovate it, to make it beautiful. People said she had ‘an eye’. When she got home she would remember to enjoy it.
‘I might see if I can kick that door down,’ said Tony.
‘Great idea,’ said Carmel. People were always kicking down doors in the movies. It seemed quite simple.
‘I’ll do it,’ said Ben.
‘Or I’ll ram it.’ Tony limbered up, rolling his shoulders.
‘I’ll ram it,’ said Ben.
‘The door opens inwards,’ said Lars.
There was a pause. ‘Does that matter?’ asked Frances.
‘Think about it, Frances,’ said Lars.
Tony looked deflated. ‘Let’s try to pick the lock then.’ He put his fingertips to his forehead and breathed deeply. ‘I’m starting to feel a little . . . claustrophobic. I want to get out of here.’
So did Carmel.