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“What you love, your enemy loves to take from you.”
—The Secret to My Success
—The Secret to Survival
Despite the arousal nearly burning him alive, Lazarus hadn’t been able to shake his self-directed fury. Over the past week, he’d been dedicated to Cameo’s recovery, too afraid to leave her side, constantly beleaguered by the fearful thought, Will she harm herself?
He’d been struck by helplessness and savage possession. Can’t lose her.
Kill the demon, revive the girl.
He should have left when his sky serpents told him about Hera, how she’d attacked his former allies and destroyed every home Lazarus had ever known in the mortal world, all in an attempt to find Pandora’s box. But he’d stayed put, determined to protect Cameo. Determined, and yet he’d still failed to prevent an enemy to attack.
He was ashamed. She was his μονομανία. He should have taken better care.
She doesn’t just ruin my body, she ruins my concentration.
Before playing in the mud, he should have opened his mind to ferret out the Amazons. He should have erected defenses. The fact that he hadn’t planned ahead...had only concerned himself with Cameo’s happiness...
He should walk away. No, he should flash. The act would take him farther, faster. He wasn’t good for her. Soon he wouldn’t be able to protect her at all. The crystals had thickened on his arms and legs and had crept deeper into his chest. The moment they breeched his heart, he would have no defense against anyone, even bunny shifters and puny humans.
He still couldn’t bring himself to leave.
Later. He would deal with the worst decisions later. But not today.
He led Cameo through the fortress halls and into their bedroom, where he locked the door, sealing them inside. He tugged her into the bathroom, his intention clear. She offered no protest.
He’d bathed her every day for a week, every shower an exercise of his strictest control. Having her naked curves in his arms had been as much heaven as hell.
He turned the knobs, water pouring from the spout.
“Wait.” She placed a hand on his biceps and squeezed gently. “Now that I’m thinking clearly...or somewhat clearly...Juliette’s words keep replaying in my mind. Tell me, Lazarus. Please. Do you know where Pandora’s box is?”
He ignored a flare of panic, barely resisting the urge to cup the leather-covered pendant hidden under his shirt. It had left his possession only when he’d bathed Cameo; he hadn’t wanted to risk contact with her skin, had feared the worst. But he now feared Hera finding it more, so he always kept it on a chain around his neck or within his sights.
The former bitch queen had to know what Cameo meant to him. Worse, she knew how the crystals had weakened Typhon, allowing her to strike at Lazarus’s mother. She already suspected the same change was overtaking Lazarus. Now she waited for the perfect time to strike.
Every day he’d expected her to show up at the fortress.
“Lazarus,” Cameo prompted, and worried her lower lip.
“The time for talking has ended.” He stripped, grace beyond him. Weapons thudded to the floor. He ripped the necklace over his head and dropped it beside a dagger. His shaft was long and thick and harder than the titanium they’d found inside the griffin cave.
She stood before him fully clothed, her gaze heating as it roved over him. The distraction had worked. She trembled as she traced her fingertips along the crystal veins draping his shoulders. “There has to be a way to save you,” she croaked.
Sorrow would not intrude. “There is,” he replied. Leaving her. An impossible feat, as he’d already proved.
Hope brightened her features. “How?”
“We’ll talk. Later.” Steam escaped the stall and enveloped them. Outside, thunder boomed. A new storm brewed. Through the window, lightning flashed. “I want you,” he rasped. Every inch of her. Nothing withheld from him.
Her tongue glided over her red, red lips, leaving a trail of glistening moisture. The shield around her mind vanished without any probing, her thoughts inundating him. She wanted him to feel the lust sizzling inside her, wanted to be vulnerable to him and for him. Her nipples ached for his touch, his tongue—only his. Her belly quivered, and between her legs, she throbbed with need.
She imagined him thrusting inside her, and she loved it. He loved it.
Lazarus’s iron control utterly snapped. With an animal-like snarl, he backed her into the wall. Beautiful female. My willing captive. He ripped away her clothing, filling his hands with her beautiful breasts, her sweet little nipples puckering against his palms. My female.
Must slow down.
Must savor.
“I will do anything you desire,” he breathed into her ear. “Tell me, Cami. Tell me what you want.”
Shivers cascaded through her. “I want to get clean...so we can get very dirty.”
The longing in her voice eroded the edges of his calm facade. He’d missed this. Missed her so deeply he wasn’t sure how he’d breathed without her.
He nipped her earlobe before picking her up and placing her inside the stall. The steam had thickened, enveloping them both with sultry abandon, turning the small enclosure into a dreamworld.
“I’m going to make you come so many times you lose your mind.”
“Lazario!” Her nails scoured his shoulders.
“My Cami.”
Hot water rained over them as he soaped the mud from her exquisite curves. Little moans and mewls escaped her, driving him insane with lust.
He pressed her against the cool tile and kissed her with bone-deep ferocity. She alone held the power to give him breath. She was the only anchor amid a violent storm.
She melted against him, her nipples abrading his chest, the friction maddening. Grinding his erection against her, drawing new mewls from her, he cupped and kneaded her beautiful breasts. But the contact wasn’t enough. With her, nothing would ever be enough. He would always crave more.
“I’m desperate to get inside you.” He needed to brand her, needed to bond her body to his, now and always. “You haunt my every waking hour, star in my every dream.”
She nipped at his lower lip. “You are my dreams.” Her arms wound around him, and she rubbed her thigh against his.
He caught the underside and lifted her off her feet, forcing her to wrap her other leg around his waist. Then he ground his shaft against her core with greater force.
With her mental shield down, Lazarus heard her demon whisper words of discontent—going to forget this—in an effort to sow discord and therefore sorrow. Rage surged through him, setting the crystals in his veins on fire.
“I’ll make this so good the demon can’t erase it, love.”
Love. He’d called her love. Was that what she’d become to him? And he’d meant his words as a vow. Even if she begged the demon for a total memory wipe, the image of Lazarus would forever haunt her.
“Yes. Please, yes.”
He kissed her, greedily drinking from her. Her nails combed through his hair and sank into his scalp. An action born of the same desperation he’d battled since returning to the fortress, making his heart careen against his ribs. Her passion stoked his own.
“I’m so close already,” she rasped. “I’m going to...”
He stilled, ending her quick descent into oblivion. Screeching in frustration, she pounded her fists into his shoulders, hitting with enough force to bruise him.
“Now, now. There’s no reason to fret. You killed Juliette in under five minutes.” He licked the corner of her mouth, the seam of her lips, before his tongue played a carnal game with hers. “I owe you a reward...”
He forced her legs to lower. Then he did something he’d only ever done with her. He willingly dropped to his knees, granting her a position of power. Why not? She’d enslaved him in ways Juliette hadn’t. Ways he relished.
Through his lashes, he looked up at paradise. The tantalizing dip of her navel. The strength in her stomach. Her breasts crested by hardened peaks. A pink flush stained the surface of her skin as water droplets rained over her. His tongue captured one on her outer thigh.
Her fingers combed through his hair. Nibbling on her lower lip, she applied pressure to his nape to draw him toward her. “Take me, then.” The command of a queen. His queen. “Take me well.”
Lazarus leaned in, so close he could scent her unique musk...she held her breath, waiting, eager...before he lifted to his haunches and sucked on her nipples, teasing and taunting her. She made a sound of frustration followed by a sound of ragged need.
He flicked his tongue over the swollen crests until both were swollen and hopefully throbbing. As her hips writhed, he kissed the outside of her navel, dipped inside it...then licked down, down, as if finally giving her what she wanted most...only to turn his head and bite her hip, where the wings of her butterfly tattoo glittered on her skin.
“Enough! I need to... Pleeease.”
“Can’t resist such a sweet plea.” He slid his hands up, up her legs. When he reached the source of her desire, he thrust a finger deep inside her, at the same time licking her little bundle of nerves.
She screamed his name, just the way he liked.
Damn, she tasted so good. Was even more intoxicating than ambrosia. His perfect little lollipop. His tongue and fingers worked in tandem, propelling her need higher—propelling his own need higher. Her inner walls were hot and wet and so wonderfully tight around his finger.
His shaft ached with pain and with pleasure.
“Lazario...” A groan.
My woman desires more. He wedged another finger inside her, stretching her, preparing her for a more intimate penetration.
Then her soft lips parted, and she moaned his name. “Please...please...”
Frenzied, he shot to his feet and shut off the water. He picked her up, his motions shockingly unaffected by the crystals. His passion was simply too great. He carried her to the bedroom and laid her across the bed, pinning her body beneath his. Wet skin against wet skin. Long ebony hair spilled over the pillows like ribbons drenched in a rainstorm. Her arms and legs wrapped around him. With no other preamble, he surged inside her.
Her back bowed. She closed her eyes and cried out as she climaxed around his shaft. Pleasure morphed into agony as he fought his own need to come. Nothing had ever felt so good, so right, but he forced himself to remain still.
Savor. He wasn’t ready for this to end.
When she sagged against the bed, a panting, boneless heap, he had a flash of rational thought. “Should have covered this earlier. Birth control?” Sweat trickled down his back, only to steam off his overheated skin.
If he had to withdraw from her, he would. He would suffer, but he would do it. He’d never wanted children, had never wanted his love for his child used against him, had never desired to sentence a child to a cursed eternity weakened by something as innocuous—and insidious—as crystals.
“I’m given a shot every three months.” She practically purred the words. “I’m good to roll.”
Heady with relief, Lazarus hooked his arms under her knees and angled her body for deeper penetration. With his first thrust, her languid contentment vanished. Moaning, she arched to take him deeper still.
He slid out with slow reverence and then thrust back in. The ecstasy! His skin pulled taut over his bones. Out...in. Out, in. The pressure inside him built. Her inner walls slick and hot, he increased his speed until he was pounding inside her, again and again. The bed rocked, headboard slapping the wall. Pictures fell, glass shattered.
“One more kiss. One more touch,” she pleaded. “One more everything.”
He slammed his mouth into hers, finesse beyond him. She met his ferocity with pure feminine aggression. Their breaths mingled. Through the connection of their minds, he knew how close she was to a second climax. How desperately she ached, as if she’d never experienced satisfaction.
He lifted his head and rasped, “Look at me, my beautiful μονομανία.”
Her eyes opened, meeting his, her silver irises wild with lust. Then she screamed his name, her inner walls squeezing his length. He felt her pleasure, both physically and emotionally, and his own climax ripped through him.
With a roar, he jetted inside her.
* * *
Cameo opened her eyes, roused from the sweetest sleep of her life. Lazarus dozed beside her, his arms wrapped around her, and her heart melted. Was this the first time he’d slept since her bout with depression?
A tender smile shaped her lips. Poor, sweet darling. He’d taken such good care of her. She stretched and grinned at the lovely soreness in muscles long unused. Yes, he’d taken very good care of her, and in more ways than one.
Sex with him had been eternity changing. He’d catapulted her to heights she hadn’t known existed. He’d done the impossible and quieted Misery. And through it all, he’d looked at her and touched her as if she were a precious treasure rather than a hated anchor.
Living without him would not be possible now.
Perhaps he felt the same about her? He’d called her monomania. Spelled μονομανία, the Greek word for kink or obsession.
A single doubt nagged at her, however. When she’d mentioned Pandora’s box, some dark emotion had flashed in his eyes. Guilt? Anger? If she were his obsession, he would have told her if he’d found the artifact. He wouldn’t allow her to wonder and worry needlessly.
Despite his moniker, Lazarus was kind and caring. At least, he was kind and caring with her.
Fear prickled along the nape of her neck when she saw that the crystals had spread farther down his chest. She wanted so badly to talk to Torin and Keeley, but she wouldn’t betray her man’s trust. Not even to save his life.
After all, there was a way to stop this. He’d said so.
Whatever he needed to do, he would do. Whatever she needed to do, she would do. End of story.
As carefully as possible, she extracted herself from his embrace. Already mourning the loss of his heat and hardness, she donned a robe and tiptoed to the vanity, where she sat and peered into the mirror.
“Help me help him,” she whispered. “Show me what to do.”
The glass remained intact.
“Please,” she said, desperate.
Nothing. No change.
Why! Why would the mirror deny her now?
Misery laughed, and her shoulders rolled in. But she caught the action and forced her shoulders to square. No! No more sorrow.
The demon stopped laughing.
A soft knock sounded at the door. When Lazarus gave no notice, Cameo stood and tiptoed to the entrance. Torin stood in the hall, his white hair in complete disarray and his expression grim.
Nerves suddenly razed, she closed the door behind her. “What’s wrong?”
He couldn’t mask his flinch. “I’ve wanted to speak with you for a week but...yeah. Anyway. As soon as you took off to find Lazarus, I started digging into his past. When Keeley saw my notes, some memories clicked into place for her.”
Her stomach churned with an influx of concern. “I won’t tell you anything I know, but I will listen to what you discovered.”
“He’s dying,” her friend announced, and she stumbled backward, hitting the door. “A few hours ago, Lucien and Viola confirmed it. As Death and the Afterlife, they see what we can’t. An end for you or Lazarus. But I know it’s Lazarus. His veins are filling with strange crystals, yes? Keeley informed me the same transformation happened to his father...after he met Lazarus’s mother.”
Horror petrified her muscles. She couldn’t move, couldn’t breathe. Torin’s emerald eyes filled with pity, but he said no more. No other words were necessary.
After he met Lazarus’s mother...
Cameo was Lazarus’s doom. She had caused the crystals to spread.
In the back of her mind, Misery began to laugh again. Only a matter of time before you want to forget the male, eh?
“I didn’t want to tell you,” Torin said, “didn’t want to cause another episode.”
Episode. What an innocent, insufficient word for the deluge of sorrow she’d so often endured.
He continued. “I asked Keeley if there is a way to save him, but every time she thinks about him, she gets wrapped up in two words. Well, three words if you count his name. Lazarus, king and butterflies.”
So. Cameo had been right all along. Butterflies did herald doom.
Light-headed, she reached out, found and twisted the doorknob, closing the door in Torin’s face. Tears filled her eyes as she raced back into the room and found Lazarus sitting on the edge of the bed.
He wore a wrinkled shirt and a pair of pants. His weapons were already in place. As he tugged on his boot, rage shimmered in his eyes.
“You know,” he said, his voice flat.
“Know that I’m the one killing you?” A barbed lump grew inside her throat. “Yes. I want you to go, Lazarus. Now. Never come back. You aren’t welcome here anymore.”
He yanked on the second boot and stood to his full seven-foot height. Unwilling to meet his gaze, Cameo strode to the closet, where she discarded her robe and dressed in a sports bra, a pair of fighting leathers and a tank top.
When she emerged, he was right there to greet her, backing her into the wall. “I won’t give you up,” he grated.
A promise. A promise that caused her heart to split down the center and bleed into her chest. “You don’t have a choice.”
“I always have a choice.”
Oh, really? She slapped him with every bit of her strength. Crimson leaked from his mouth as his head whipped to the side. His gaze narrowed to tiny slits.
“I attacked you,” she spit at him. “Go ahead. Tell me I’m your enemy now.”
His hands wrapped around her vulnerable neck. Instead of squeezing, he grazed his thumb over her wild pulse. “You will never be my enemy. Hit me all you want, love. I will never hit back.”
“Don’t call me your love.” He didn’t mean it. He couldn’t. The man who loved her would not betray her. “You are choosing to let me destroy you. You are choosing to let me deal with guilt and misery when you’re gone. You are choosing to—” Leave me. Her chin trembled. She quieted before she began to sob. Can’t do this.
She pointed to the door, her message clear.
Lazarus released her. Rather than leaving, he flattened his palms at her temples and leaned in until they were nose to nose, breathing each other’s breath the way they’d done when they’d last kissed. The memory would forever—
The memory. Her eyes widened. She could allow Misery to wipe her mind. And she would leave herself a note, warning herself about Lazarus. No, a note could be disposed of too easily. She could tattoo herself. Then Lazarus would have no reason to stay.
With the thought, she couldn’t breathe. Forget the bliss she experienced with this man? Forget his every kiss, his every touch and the feel of his body filling hers? Forget how she’d had hope for a better future, if only for a little while?
A fierce growl rose from him. “You will not forget me, Cameo.”
“My choice,” she said softly.
“Do it, then. Go so far as to tattoo yourself. I won’t leave you. I’ll stay here and romance you back into my arms.”
Have to stay the course. It’s for his own good. “You can try, but I’ll resist you.” She would find a way.
His hands fisted. “You want to keep me around, love. Trust me.”
“I don’t, I can’t—”
“Cameo, I have the box.”
No...he couldn’t. “You’re lying.”
“I often misdirect, misguide and mislead, but I never lie. I found it, fought for it, and now I guard it to save your life.”
Her earlier doubt resurfaced, but still she shook her head. “Keeley would have known—”
“Wrong. I used an illusion to hide its presence from her.”
“Your illusions aren’t strong enough—”
Suddenly the entire room erupted into orange-gold flames. They crackled around her bed, underneath the mirror Lazarus had given her, and on her curtains and rug. Heat enveloped her, and sweat popped up on her upper lip. She opened her mouth to shout for an extinguisher, but the flames vanished, taking the heat with them.
“You were saying?” Lazarus asked quietly.
“You...you bastard! You let me worry other immortals would find and destroy the box before I could find it. You let me stew over Juliette. Did you secretly laugh at me behind my back?”
“Never. I’ve only ever laughed at you to your face.”
Jokes? Now? Cameo slapped him again. “Where is it?” she demanded. “Tell me.”
“That, I won’t do.” He wiped the new stream of blood from his mouth before placing his hands against the wall behind her, caging her in. “You would use it to kill yourself.”
“I would never—” She pressed her lips together. Wouldn’t she? If Misery made her miserable enough... “Give the box to Torin. He won’t let me near it, and my friends will be protected from it.”
“And what will I receive in return?”
The question hung between them, a noose around her neck. After everything he’d done, how dare he try to bargain with her?
Knock, knock, knock.
“Go away,” Lazarus shouted, never looking away from her. “Well?”
Needing time to think, she ducked underneath his arm to open the door, expecting to find Torin. William and Hades stood before her, armed for war and unsmiling.
“We want the mirror.” William was steady on his feet. Actually, he’d never looked steadier. Determination cloaked him. Had he found Gilly, or a new reason to live? “We’re willing to trade for it.”
Can’t deal with this right now. “No, thanks,” she replied, and tried to shut the door.
Neither male flinched at the sound of her voice. Both slammed a hand on the ancient wood, ensuring the entryway stayed open.
Lazarus moved directly behind her, his heat enveloping her. She had never been so furious with another being. Not even Galen, after he’d removed her tongue. The man she’d accepted into her bed, her body, and her now decimated heart, had betrayed her. Had kept secrets from her. Had let her worry for nothing.
“What do you offer?” Lazarus asked.
Hades arched a brow, his mien as beautiful and sardonic as it was deadly. “What you desire most. Two round-trip tickets to Hera’s secret temple.”
Cameo inhaled sharply. The one thing Lazarus couldn’t refuse. His vengeance.
He stiffened, seconds eking by in silence. Finally, he said, “No. You want the mirror, you have to release me from your service. I’m done with war, done with vengeance. I wish to spend the rest of my days with Cameo.”
What? No! He was giving up, preparing to die? “The mirror is mine, not his,” she said through clenched teeth. “He gifted it to me. You guys want it, fine. It’s yours.” The cursed thing had given her hope. Had misled her as thoroughly as Lazarus. Laughing while butterflies flew overhead? Like hell! “But you will release Lazarus from your service, just like he asked—” he wasn’t in any condition to fight “—and you will give him Hera’s head on a pike.”
If Lazarus was the one to kill the former queen, Cameo would die. Somehow. If she had Hades see to the task, she would survive. Possibly. Plus, she would vengeance-block Lazarus, a prospect that came with two perks. One, she would teach him the error of his ways. Mess with the Mother of Melancholy and suffer. Two, he would grow to hate her and leave her. Then she could forget him, and he could live a long life without being hunted by the former queen.
Even as furious as Cameo was, she wanted him to live forever.
“In war, you pick a side. That hasn’t changed. So,” Hades said, “I will not release him from my service. Victory is too important. Also, I will not give him Hera’s head. She and I have an understanding. My offer stands as is. Two tickets to her realm.”
Playing hardball? “No, thanks,” she repeated, and tried once again to shut the door in his face.
“Okay,” he said in a rush, holding the entrance open with more force. “I can add a sweetener. I’ll give you the tools to defeat her on your own.” His gaze lowered to the necklace around Lazarus’s neck. He frowned, reached out.
Lazarus knocked his hand away, and the two males glared at each other.
“Just one ticket, then,” she said. “For me.” She would use her ticket to kill Hera without Lazarus and hopefully reap the same benefits. “And the tools.”
Misery started laughing again. Going to regret this...
Feeling as if she were dying inside, Cameo wrapped her arms around herself.
Hades smiled at her. “Sorry, poppet, but I won’t send you into the lion’s den without a lion. You’re getting two tickets.” He waved his hand in the direction of her vanity.
She glanced over her shoulder, wide-eyed when the mirror vanished from the wall.
“While I can’t get you past the blocks inside Hera’s temple,” he continued, “I can put you a few miles outside it. But be careful. There are traps everywhere. Oh. And remember. You can’t spell funeral without the word fun.”
There was no time to respond. Like the mirror, the bedroom vanished. A second later, a golden paradise appeared.