you becoming pregnant and going full term are highly unlikely, but there is hope. We can perform a surgery to remove most of the scar tissue.”
Those words killed me more than you’ll ever know. I know there’s a chance that doing the surgery might help me, but at the same time, if I have another miscarriage, it’s going to kill me even more. I don’t think I would be able to go through that again.
“There’s a chance of becoming pregnant and miscarrying again even with the surgery?” I ask my voice sounding so small and daunted. The doctor nods her head firmly. I can’t do that. I can’t get pregnant again.
Well, there’s my answer. The answer I was dreading. I should break things off with Dalton to save him from a lifetime of unhappiness because I can’t give him what he craves… A family!
-End of flashback-
When we get to Annie's place, she opens the door. I walk over to the couch and plop down. I break down. The tears that are running down my face aren’t just for me. They’re for the baby I lost and for Dalton. The one man that I’ve ever loved with my whole heart. The man, I think I destroyed tonight. If he ever finds out about what I’ve done. I hope he can find it in himself to forgive me when he does.
“I’m off to bed. Everything you need is in the spare bedroom,” Annie says with a yawn. I look at the time and it’s getting pretty late. It’s almost midnight, and we’ve had a busy day helping with the wedding, making sure everything went smoothly. I’m beat, too. My head is spinning from today’s events. I just wish this was all a bad dream and that I could wake up tomorrow morning in Vipers arms, cuddled into his side where I belong. I don’t belong there anymore, and I need to get that through my head. So, I don’t go and mess up his life any more than I have.
“Are you going to be okay?” she asks softly. I nod my head because, hell at this point I’m not okay. I’m not going to tell her that. I don’t know if I’ll ever be okay.
“Yeah, I’m fine,” my words are broken from all the crying I’ve been doing. She gives a faint smile and leaves the room. Well, I guess it’s time for me to take a quick shower and get to bed. I have to get ready to look for another job tomorrow. I can’t keep working at the club knowing he’ll be there and the women throwing themselves at him any chance they get. There’s nothing holding him back now from fucking each and every one of them, just to spite me. I don’t think I can be around that without wanting to throw myself at him, beg him for forgiveness.
Of course, I’ll have to continue to work there while I search for another job. I’ll give my two weeks’ notice tomorrow. I pray that I’ll find something in the meantime. If not, I’ll be stuck day after day, being reminded of everything I’ve lost.
It’s around two AM by the time I finally get settled into bed. It felt refreshing to take a shower and soak, but it didn’t do much good for my mental state. Did I really do the right thing? Fuck if I know. I must live with the consequences. My head hits the pillow, and all I can think of is Dalton and the look on his face when I betrayed him. My eyes tear up. I squeeze them tight, but the tears still escape and fall onto the pillow. I cry myself to sleep, weeping for everything that has gone wrong in my life. Everything that I’ve lost that meant so much to me in a matter of weeks.
3
Two weeks later…
My head’s pounding and my eyes aren’t even opened yet. I feel a warm body beside me. I grin, I was drinking heavily last night. Destiny makes me forget. Forget all about the bad shit in my life. Destiny and Tammy, are totally opposite of each other. Whereas Tammy’s brunette, Destiny’s bleach blonde. I’m just fucking happy that Destiny isn’t a brunette; I don’t want to have that constant reminder. I’m swearing off all brunettes, but Tammy dyes her hair most of the time, it’s usually black. So, I’ll stick with fucking blondes. I haven’t heard or seen Tammy since that night at the wedding. She’s been at the club of course, but tonight is her last night, and I’ll never have to deal with her again. My heart is plagued with sadness, but she made her choice. I’m going to live my life like, I would without her. I wonder if she’s seeing anyone or if she’s fucking someone. I shake my head, it doesn’t concern me anymore. She made that pretty fucking clear, the last time I saw her.
My eyes go wide as I take in the mess of my room. Well, it seems Destiny and I got a little wild last night. I chuckle. I look around for a condom wrapper but come up short. What the fuck? We didn’t use a condom? How fucking stupid can I be? FUCK! Most of the girls at the club are on something for birth control. So, I don’t think I have too much to worry about. I try to sit up, but my head spins a little. Fuck, I really drank too much last night. Fuck, today is going to suck. I need Advil for this dull pain in the back of my head.
Destiny moves cuddling to my side, and she moans softly. “Good morning, Viper,” she purrs, rubbing my stomach. She trails her finger down my abs to my famous ‘v’ the girls love. She moans in the back of her throat as she touches the corners of my ‘v.' Damn, she’s always fucking ready for me. Tammy pops into my head, and I shake the image away. I can’t let her bring me down anymore. She’s gone and she ain’t coming back. Destiny starts kissing my stomach, her lips dragging against my toned, hard stomach. Jesus, that feels good. I want to feel her lips somewhere else. Like the good girl she is, she knows what I want without me asking. She whips the blanket back and grabs hold of my cock, she teases the tip of my dick with her tongue.
“It’s not nice to tease, Destiny,” I growl. She giggles at me, giving me an innocent-eyed look. Her innocent is a laugh in a half.
“What? I’m not teasing you… that much,” she grins at me before licking me again. She winks at me before taking me fully into her mouth. My eyes roll back in my head.
“Fuck, that feels good,” a groan escapes from my lips. She works her way up and down my throbbing cock.
I’m getting close to the edge. I need to get her off my cock before I blow my load in her mouth. I need to fuck her. I fist her hair, pulling her head off my dick and she gives me a pout. I laugh.
“Don’t worry, baby, you’ll be happy in a minute when my cock is ramming into your tight little pussy hard and fast the way you like it,” her eyes dilate, and she moans. I haven’t even touched her yet. She’s always so responsive to everything I say or do.
She goes to get on top of me to ride me, but I stop her. She looks at me with curious eyes.
“I want to fuck you from behind,” my voice uneven from the pent-up energy within me.
She licks her lips and nods her head. She gets on her hands and knees on the bed, ready and waiting for my hard cock. My mind is so far gone, I don’t even put a condom on like I usually do. Well fuck, last night there was no condom involved, and she’s clean, and so am I. The girls at the club get tested regularly so, we know and she’s on the pill. I just want to feel her tight pussy choking the life out of my cock and forget about every fucking thing that’s shit around me.
She wiggles her ass in front of me. What a fucking beautiful sight it is. Nice and round, my hand comes up, and before I can stop myself, it comes down on her right cheek. She squeals out, then she groans wanting more. Well, my kinky little bitch is going to be getting a hell of a lot more.
I line myself up at her entrance, teasing her some, pushing the tip of my dick in then pulling it back out. She growls out in frustration, and I chuckle, knowing it’s driving her insane with need.
“Will you just fuck me already, Jesus Christ,” she hisses under her breath. Well, someone’s impatient.
Without another word. I ram my cock in balls deep, and she screams out into the pillow. She’s clawing at the sheets trying to move away from me. I know she must be feeling a little pain with the pleasure because for one thing, I have a big cock. I’m not bragging or anything, but it’s the truth. Fully hard, I’m ten inches. The girls at the club just love my cock. When they see me coming, I’m treated like a king!
“Yes,” she draws out, throwing her head back. “Give it to me hard.”
Don’t have to tell me twice. I work my cock in and out of her hot pussy, pounding hard and fast. She’s purring deep in her throat. She wants my cock, she’s going to get it every fucking inch of it.
I’m pounding into her so hard that the headboard keeps knocking on the wall. All you hear is the yells and cheers from the next room fuckers are listening in. Well, I better give them a fucking good show then, don’t I? I pick up my pace, and I slap her ass hard enough to leave my hand print. Destiny’s screaming and shouting out in ecstasy.
“I’m going to come, Viper… Yes,” she screams.
Her toes start to curl, and her body begins to shake. She starts calling out my name, and her pussy tightens around my cock. Her tight pussy squeezing me causes my balls to tighten. Within seconds, jets of my cum hit the inside walls of her hot pussy. Her body’s shaking on the bed from the aftershocks of her orgasm. My legs shaking, the sweat on my brow almost blinding. I’m definitely in need of a shower now. I pull out, and she whimpers. Fuck, I guess I went a little rougher than usual. She knows how it is, though with me. I use to be a lot less aggressive while fucking, but now it seems I have a lot of shit that I just want to fuck out of my system. I slap her ass before getting up off the bed.
“I’m going to take a shower. I’ll see you later tonight at the club.”
After I mention that, I get up and leave the room. I head to the bathroom that’s connected to my room at the clubhouse. I just want to soak and drown in my misery. My heart hurts knowing I’ve slept with Destiny multiple times over the past two weeks, but my head says ‘she fucking left us, forget about her,' only if it were that easy.
I get to work on time, which is a fucking miracle because I was sure that I would be late, but who gives a shit. On more than one occasion Ace has been fucking an hour late. I guess that happens when you have a hot pregnant wife at home. My mind wanders right to Tammy and my heart pinches, and I wince. Why in the fuck can’t I just forget about her like she did with me? I need to move on. I can’t keep doing this, she’s gone… It’s over.
I walk in the big doors to the bike shop, and I’m stopped dead in my tracks when I see Alison and Ace near the bike he’s been working on for the past week. Thank fuck, he got the job because there’s no way my head would be able to handle it. I’ve been working the little jobs on the bikes for the past two weeks, and even that seems to be hard for me right now. Which is fucking stupid because I’m the best mechanic the club has. But I guess it doesn’t help when a woman fucks with your mind. Ace knows what happen and the look he gave me when I told him what happen was one of pure shock. Alison was pissed at her sister, but it is what it is. I can’t change her mind.
When I walk over to them, Alison turns and gives me a weak smile. “Hey, Viper. How are you feeling today?” she says softly. What does she expect me to say, I’m all better now that her sister is gone? I’ve moved on? My heart feels like it was ripped from my chest and stomped on repeatedly, by the fucking heels her devil sister was wearing at her wedding? “I’m a little better today than I was yesterday. I’m taking it day by day.” She nods and places her hand on my shoulder, giving it a light squeeze. She turns and kisses Ace before leaving to say hi to Pit. That old man loves Alison probably just as much as Ace. Well, maybe not as much as Ace, but you know what I mean. He loves her like his own.
“So, did you both enjoy the honeymoon? I didn’t really get the chance to talk to you about anything other than the fucking drama, about Tammy and me.” Ace grunts and grabs the wrench and goes back to fixing the bike.
“The honeymoon was great.” I can tell he's trying to play it down to spare me but fuck if I care about how I’m feeling right now. He should be able to talk about his wife and how the vacation was without thinking that he’s going to make me blow up. I shake my head with a small smirk.
“Don’t lie to me fucker. I know for a fact that you two didn’t leave that room.”
Ace chuckles and nods. “It was fucking amazing. I swear with her being pregnant, she’s even fucking hornier than before. She always wants me to fuck her everywhere and anywhere we can. That woman has become unsustainable. She wants my cock every chance she gets,” I burst out laughing my ass off at him. He turns his head, and his eyes widen a little. I stop laughing and turn to see what he’s looking at. Alison is standing behind me about two feet away with a huge smirk on her face.
“I’m hornier now, am I? Well, you better hurry up before I have to leave. The bathroom is calling us, Hayden.” His eyes widen and his mouth parts. I can’t help it, but it’s too fucking funny to see how much Alison has changed. To be able to stun the VP of all things is priceless.
“It’s not nice to tease, woman,” Ace hisses at his wife.
I shake my head at him and walk over to Alison.
“How’s the little guy?” I ask. She rubs her stomach grinning.
“She’s doing, well. Found out were having a baby girl. I can’t believe it,” she squeals with joy, and I couldn’t be happier for them both. Ace will have his hands full with that one. There’s a pang of sadness in my chest, knowing that Tammy and I had a baby once, but that was taken from us. The loss leaving me an empty shell of a man I used to be. I lost everything I’ve loved aside from the club. The club’s my family, and they always will be. They’ll be there for me. Women come and go. Tammy proved that to me when she left.
“Ace, treating you like the princess you deserve to be treated like?” my voice comes out in a teasing tone. She laughs.
“Yes, he’s been amazing with me. Even with all my weird cravings.”
There’s a silence between us, and it’s like she knows what I want to know even though I don’t ask it.
“She’s doing okay. She’s been moping around the house for the first week, but she seems to be getting better.”
What the fuck does she mean she’s been moping around the house. She’s the one that fucking said we were finished. How is it that she’s acting like it’s a huge deal?
I can’t even say anything because I don’t want to upset Alison. I just nod my head.
“She just started going out a bit now. She went for coffee with an old friend. She didn’t tell me who it is, but it’s like clockwork every Saturday morning, she’s gone to the little coffee shop near her apartment.” It’s like she’s hinting on that I should check it out. I don’t want to end up causing a scene at the coffee shop. The poor little old lady that owns it would have a fit. I wouldn’t want to be the cause of her having a heart attack.
Now I laugh. “Do you really think that she’s moping around because of me? I don’t think so. She probably only needs to get laid, and her toy isn’t around anymore,” my voice comes out rougher than I wanted but hey, it’s the fucking truth. The truth hurts they say.
Alison’s eyes widen, and she gasps. “That was uncalled for Viper. Just because she ended it, doesn’t fucking mean that she isn’t hurting just as much as you are,” she hisses and walks around me. She gives Ace a kiss and tells him she’ll see him at home. Ace glares at me then goes back to fixing his bike. What the fuck just happened?
Well, hell what does she want me to do? She was fucking someone else; she didn’t need or want me anymore. Fuck this shit. I have a bike that has my name on it, and I’m going to fucking fix it without Tammy even crossing my mind.
4
I’m at the club working like every other night since the break-up. How could I be so fucking stupid and not talk to him? I should’ve told him about what was going on, but I was too scared in disappointing him with the news. My stomach feels a little uneasy tonight. I got no idea what the hell is going on lately. I feel fine one minute, and then the next I feel like crap.
Viper will be here tonight, probably avoiding me like he has. He has even gone as far as avoiding the bar, sending his new fuck buddy, Destiny to fetch his beer. My heart breaks knowing he’s with her every night, while I’m at home crying my bloody eyes out. I should just shout out, ‘I never cheated on you’ then tell him what’s going on but I can’t. He's too far gone. What we had is too far gone. I don’t know if I could get past him sleeping with Destiny. Even if we aren’t together anymore, it doesn’t hurt any less.
There’s been a new guy that has been coming in every night of the week, his name is Thomas. He’s a nice guy from what I’ve found out by talking to him. He noticed how I was the first night, my mood being down and annoyed. He asked me out for coffee, and we ended up talking about what happened and what not. I feel like I can talk to him about anything. I never really could do that with a guy before. He turned into the best guy friend, you could ever want. He hasn’t hit on me once, which was a nice change from the men that come into this bar. Like yeah, we're in a strip club and what not but, fuck I’m the bartender. You have better luck getting laid by the bitches on the pole than me.
I serve the guys at the bar for the last time. After tonight, I’m done with the club, and I won’t have to be back in here unless Annie needs me, but besides that, I’m done with this life. I can’t face Viper every night. A constant reminder of the mistake surely, I made by what Alison keeps telling me every chance she gets.
She’s told me over, and over this past week that I made a mistake. But there’s no use thinking about the past. I can’t change what happened even if I wanted too. The lies came out to save him the heartache of not having a family.
Thomas and I talk for a bit longer; he’s asking me what my plans are for after I’m finished up here for the night. I only have about two hours left. I’m not working a full night, thank, God. Maybe we can grab a bite to eat and watch a movie. I know what you’re thinking, it sounds like a date. Well, let me assure you, it’s not.
Viper walks through the door with the new prospects. They are going to be patched in this weekend. So, I’m pretty sure they are here to celebrate a bit beforehand. Viper and the guys walk right by me. Viper doesn’t even glance in my direction, I frown because he usually looks at me. He might not smile or anything, but he still acknowledges me. Tonight, he totally just blew me off, and that right there shows me, I’ve really pushed him away for good. I should be happy in some sort of fucked up way, but I’m not. I’m torn in two when my eyes cut down at the end of the bar where they take a seat. Annie comes out from the back, and when she sees Viper sitting at her end of the bar, she gives me a sympathetic smile.
I return her smile with a little one of my own. She puts her finger up to the guys and heads my way.
“Are you okay? Tonight you seem a little off with Viper being here.” God only if she knew.
“Yeah, I’m fine. It’s stupid, don’t worry about me,” she gives my arm a squeeze in comfort and walks back down to them.
The door bangs open and a woman I’ve never seen before walks through it with a look to kill. Annie gasps out and runs around the bar and heads towards the stranger. The woman looks pissed. Wow, Annie must know her. I see Viper and the guys still waiting on their drinks. Well, here goes nothing. I take a deep breath, and Thomas follows my eyes, and he looks at me with worry.
“You sure you want to go down there?” he asks with a protective tone. I look at him and then back at Viper, and I nod my head.
“What harm will it do to serve them their drinks.” He nods his head and watches me as I walk down to the guys. My body is shaking with nerves by the time I stop in front of them. Viper isn’t even looking at the bar. He’s watching Destiny dance. My resolve crumbles and I turn to head back down to Thomas, but Blake stops me.
“Hey, can I have two beers and two ginger ales,” I nod my head and rush away to get them what they want. Stupid, I’m fucking stupid to think he would want me ever again when he has Destiny. I grab the two ginger ales and place them in front of them. I head back to grab the beers and when I get almost to the other end of the bar to place them in front of them. Viper’s staring at me with a look that has me shivering and not in a good way. His eyes are cold and distant with me, and I almost break. I can feel my eyes start to burn, but I blink the sting away.
“Here are your beers,” I mumble low, and I turn, hightailing out of there like a ball of fire before I break down crying.
Thomas gets off his stool and comes around the bar on my side, “Are you alright?” I can’t even talk right now because I’m worried I’ll break. So, all I do is nod while taking in deep breathes. I turned him into this cold person; I’m so ashamed of what I’ve done. I need to get away from here and not look back.
Thomas holds me to him saying comforting things, my eyes sway back down to the guys, and Dalton is staring right at us with a hard jaw, his eyes narrowing at us. My hopes are deflated when I hear Destiny’s squeal. She comes bouncing over and wraps her arms around Viper, her lips now touching his. Those lips used to be mine. He kisses her back, and it kills me to watch, but I can’t turn away. Thomas nudges me and when I look up at him he places a small kiss to my lips and the sensation is different than when I was with Viper. I gasp taken back by his kiss.
“I’ve wanted to do that since the beginning of the week. You shouldn’t be so sad all the time. If he doesn’t see what he’s doing to you by being with her, you deserve better than that.”
Hearing those words warm my heart. Thomas is so sweet.
“I have a question for you, Tammy,” he says, and I’m on pins and needles because I know Dalton is watching us. I can feel the hatred of his eyes burning into Thomas as he speaks.
“Will you do me the honor of going out with me tomorrow night?” He gives me a grin, and I can’t help but smile up at him. I nod my head. It’ll do me good to get out. He smiles brightly at me, placing another small peck to my lips. I look back down at them, and Destiny and Viper are on a full out make out at the bar. If I didn’t know any better, I would think they were close to fucking each other. My stomach turns, and my face pales. I need to get out of here.
Annie comes back behind the bar, and I tell her I need to leave. She looks at me with concern. “Are you feeling alright? You’re awfully pale.”
“I’ll be fine. I just need to get home and rest. My stomach’s bugging me tonight.”
She nods her head at me and gives me a hug. I grab my purse and head out the door with Thomas.
Once we're outside, he asks me what I want to do. I tell him I’m feeling a little sick and just as those words leave my mouth, my hand flies to my mouth, and I run to the side of the building and everything I’ve eaten today comes up. I feel Thomas rubbing my back then I feel nothing. My eyes snap up, and I see Viper standing there, and Thomas is on his ass with a murderous glare.
“Are you alright?” Viper asks, his voice sounds almost caring. My anger gets the better of me. The flashes of him making out with that bitch in the bar and then he’s out here trying to play the knight in shining armor. I don’t fucking think so.
“What the fuck do you care, Viper?” I spit out. “You should head back inside before Destiny comes out looking for you.”
I can see there’s a fight happening within him because he’s hesitant until Thomas gets off the ground and comes and helps me up, wrapping his arm around my waist.
“Come on. let’s go. You don’t need any more stress.”
Viper looks like he’s ready to kill. “Who in the fuck do you think you are?” he growls out.
“Thomas, the one taking Tammy home. She needs some rest. She doesn’t need you in her life fucking it up wherever she turns. I’ve been watching you this whole past week, and she doesn’t need this shit from you.”
Thomas helps me to his car to take me home, leaving Viper standing outside the club in utter shock. My head spins, and I feel like I’m going to be sick again. I close my eyes, praying that it’ll go away. I’m thankful that it does.
“Are you okay? Do you want me to pull over?” Thomas asks softly as he looks over at me quickly before his eyes turn back to the road.
“No. I’m fine,” I take a deep breath through my nose and let it out.
“Don’t worry I’m fine now. I just can’t wait to get home and relax with a nice long bath. I don’t know what’s going on with my lately with not feeling well, just out of the blue and then it goes away.”
“Ummm, are you sure you’re not pregnant. What you’ve said it sounds a lot like what my sister went through, when she was pregnant, and she didn’t know,” he says timidly. My eyes widen to the size of saucers.
“What? No, that’s not possible. The doctor confirmed that when I went for my appointment. Remember I told you that this week.” He nods his head and sighs.
“Don’t you also remember the doctor said there might be a small chance that you can get pregnant? What if you are? Do you want me to stop at the store before we get your place?”
Shit! I can’t be pregnant. I’ll end up losing this baby like the last, and I couldn’t survive it this time, not all alone.
“You’re not alone. I’m here. I’ll be here for as long as you need me,” Thomas promises. I begin to weep into my hands.
The car comes to a stop, and my head snaps up, and we're at the store near my place. My eyebrow rises at Thomas, and he gives a small smile.
“I’ll be right back.”
He hops out of the car and runs in then a few minutes later he’s back in the car, handing me a bag. I look into the bag, and I see two tests, two pregnancy tests to be exact. My eyes are brimming tears as I look at Thomas, his hand comes out and grabs mine, and he taps my hand.
“You’ll be okay. Just wait and see.”
I pray to God, he’s right. I don’t know what the hell to do. I’m so lost, I’ll be a single mother if it turns out I’m pregnant with Viper’s baby once again.
I’m in the bathroom with the door closed; my eyes are staring down at the tests that are on the counter beside the sink. I feel sick just looking at the results, both tests reading the same, positive. Shit! There’s a light knock on the door. “Everything alright, Tammy?” Thomas asks softly his voice rumbling through the door. My eyes start to mist. How in the hell am I in this situation again? Don’t get me wrong, I would love nothing more than having a baby, but I’m scared that I’ll lose this precious baby like I did with my last.
“I’m fine,” I breathe out.
“Can I come in?” he asks.
“Okay.”
He turns the handle, and his head pokes in, and he gives me a concerned smile. When he sees the tears pouring down my face, he walks over and puts his arms around me. He tries to soothe me; he lifts me up and brings me to my room. He lies me down on the bed and takes the covers placing them above me. He lies down on top of the covers. God, this man is so sweet. How in the hell is he still single? He holds onto me gently while we lay there.
“Everything’s going to be okay. You’re not alone.”
Those words mean more to me than he’ll ever know.
There’s a rumble of a bike outside, and I can’t help myself. I get out of bed and look out my bedroom window. I see the bike of the man that has been haunting me this past week. My heart hurts thinking about the little baby inside me, growing. My hand goes to my stomach, and fresh tears spring to my eyes. He’s looking up at the window and sees me, his face hardens. I can’t deal with him right now. I shut my blinds and go back to bed. I fall asleep with Thomas holding me.
I pray tomorrow’s a better day.
5
Tammy bolts out of here with that guy, and I see red. I move Destiny off my lap, and she whines a little. “I’ll be right back,” I mumble out and her eyes narrow at me.
“I know where you’re going. Why are you following them outside, Viper? I thought you two were done?”
I breathe in and out, trying to calm my anger. Who the hell does she think she is? She doesn’t have the right to tell me who to talk to and on top of that questioning me, about where I’m going? I don’t answer to her. She’s the woman warming my bed at the moment nothing more, and she knows this.
“I’m just going out to get some fresh air,” I say my voice calm and collective. She raises a brow at me, daring me to fucking lie to her again.
“Whatever. I’m almost ready to go,” she mumbles. She turns and heads to the back to get her things.
I march to the door quickly. I hurry to get outside before they leave. Are they leaving together? I don’t know why but it’s pissing me off knowing he could be in her bed tonight. I should just let it go but something inside me won’t.
Once I’m outside, I walk towards the cars, and I notice on the side of the building, Tammy’s on the ground puking her guts out, and that asshole is kneeling beside her, rubbing her back. My feet move without even thinking, and I’m over them in no time, I push the fucker away from her. He gives me a murderous glare, but I could fucking care less. My woman is on the ground sick and fuck if I’ll let him comfort her.
“Are you alright?” I ask, and she turns to me and glares.
“What the fuck do you care, Viper?” she spits out pissed off.
Before I can even say another word to her, she hisses at me.
“You should head back inside before Destiny comes out looking for you.”
Asshole gets up off the ground and comes over to her and leans down helping her off the ground.
“Come on let’s go. You don’t need any more stress.”
I’m raging, my muscles tense, ready to strike. Who does this fucker think he is?
“Who in the fuck do you think you are?” I growl out.
“Thomas, the one taking Tammy home. She needs some rest. She doesn’t need you in her life fucking it up wherever she turns. I’ve been watching you this whole past week, and she doesn’t need this shit from you.”
He turns them around, and they head towards his car. Once they get inside, he starts the car. My feet begin walking in their direction, but he pulls out of the parking lot so fast. I didn’t even get the chance to make it to the car.
I look at the taillights disappearing down the road. I grab my hair. “FUCK!” I shout out into the darkness of the parking lot. What the fuck is wrong with me? She made her choice which isn’t me and here I am trying to comfort her, checking to see if she’s okay. I shake my head. Why can’t I just fucking not bother with her, when she’s involved? Is it just too much to ask?
I head back to the club and Destiny comes bouncing over to me. “You ready?” my head is spinning, and I don’t want to deal with her tonight. I don’t want her to nag me every second she gets.
“Sorry Destiny, but tonight I just want to be alone. I’m heading home.” I don’t wait for her to reply to me. I turn and leave the club.
When I get outside, I walk over to my bike and hop on. I peel out of the parking lot. Before my mind can decide what to do. I’m heading towards Tammy’s apartment. I must be a sucker for punishment because I know that son of a bitch is with her.
I start to slow down when I see her apartment building coming up. The lights are on in her apartment, and that mother fucker’s car is in the driveway. I grind my teeth. I look up at her bedroom window, and I see her standing there. They’re in her bedroom? My face hardens when I stare up at her. She looks upset before she shuts the blinds, shutting me out of her life. It hurts just as much as it did two weeks ago.
I want to go up there and beat that ass with an inch of his life. I decide against it and head home. I can imagine how pissed off Tammy would be if I went in there now, fists banging on my chest. What a cluster fuck of a night.
The ride home is long and tortuous for me. All I can think about is Tammy, alone with that guy in her apartment. They’re doing Gods know what. I should have gone all He-men and broke down the door. Demand her to take me back. I’m sure what would of went over well.
I pull up to my house and park my bike in the garage. There’s no way, I’m going to the club house tonight. Destiny will be there, and I don’t want to be around anyone right now. The house is eerily quiet, and it pisses me off even more. Tammy should be here with me not him. Tomorrow, I’m going to pay a little visit to Tammy. I need to talk to her without the douche around.
I take a quick shower and head to bed. Come tomorrow morning, I’ll be near Tammy, and we’ll talk about shit that we haven’t had the chance to talk about because she broke it off and ran. Well, she’s done running. I’ll chase her if I have too.
My bed looks empty and cold, but I’m too tired to give a fuck right now. My head is swimming. I need some sleep to think probably about what I’m going to say tomorrow when I see her.
I close my eyes, and all I can see is Tammy with her legs spread open touching herself. I groan, grabbing hold of my cock. I start stroking myself, squeezing my cock in my hands imagining that her warm tight pussy is wrapped around my dick. My hand starts pumping up and down, and my balls start to feel heavy. I hear her moans inside my head over and over again. Not before long, I’m shooting my come off like fireworks, hot jets of my come hitting my stomach, all the way to my chest. Fuck that was fast. Shit, I’m royally fucked!
I clean myself off and throw the blanket over me. Sleep comes fast, and I sleep the best sleep I’ve had in the past two weeks.
I can’t believe he actually got up and left me here, to go check on her outside? What the fuck is he doing? She dropped him faster than a hot potato and here he is waltzing outside to see her. I don’t understand men; they are a weird creature, that’s for sure. She told him it’s over and it’s been two weeks, and he’s still thinking of her. Last night yeah, we might have had some drinks and what not but I wasn’t wasted, and he called out her name in his sleep. It pissed me right the fuck off, knowing that he’s dreaming of her when he was with me.
I’m sitting at the bar waiting for him to come back in and Annie, who by the way doesn’t fucking like me as far as she can throw me, because of certain someone, let me give you a guess… She’s brunette, and she has Viper by the balls. Yup, the bitch, Tammy. Well, the bitch dropped him, and I’ve always warmed his bed. Why would now be any different? Annie’s staring at me like I’m some whore and it’s starting to piss me off.
“Do you have a problem with me or something? I didn’t do a fucking thing to you,” I hiss.
She laughs and shakes her head. “Oh honey, don’t act all tough with me. I can beat your ass into next week without a problem. If Tammy and Viper work out whatever they have too and they get back together, and if I hear about your skanky ass around him. There’ll be hell to pay, and I can promise you that, you won’t be going up and down a pole for a while once I’m finished with you.”
Blake and Cole the prospects burst out laughing. My face is burning with hate. Stupid bitch!
“We’ll see about that,” I mutter. I get up from the stool, and the door opens, and Viper comes back in looking pissed.
“You ready?” I ask, and when he answers me, I want to slap the smug look off Annie’s face.
“Sorry Destiny, but tonight I just want to be alone. I’m heading home.”
He nods to the guys and turns and leaves me standing there. Fuck no! He ain’t going to be having second thoughts about her once he finds out the little secret I’ve been keeping, but seeing as he’s going to be sniffing around her again. Well, it’s now or never. Tomorrow, he’s going to be seeing me in a whole new light.
6
When Thomas dropped me off last night, we exchanged phone numbers. He told me he hopes I feel better for tomorrow and I told him, I’m sure that I’ll be up to going out for supper. He asked me if I was alright to be alone and I nod my head at him. When I opened my door, my head was spinning, and my stomach felt awful. Thomas told me he’ll stay till I fell asleep, so he knows I’m okay. It’s sweet of him. My stomach kept turning like I ate something that was bad. I took two Tums and went right to bed. I didn’t want to think of anything that happened last night.
This morning I feel much better than I did last night, that’s for sure. If I still felt like I was last night, I would have to text Thomas and let him know that I won’t be able to go for supper tonight. I might take a little nap before I should get ready. I wouldn’t consider tonight a date, maybe he does but I think it’s just a friendly supper, that’s all. I’m not ready to date. I don’t even want to think of the trouble of having another guy in my life. Especially, when I have my ex to remind me every time I see him, that I might have made the hugest mistake of my life.
I must have fallen asleep on the couch because I wake up from the sound of knocking coming from the front door. Oh, my God, Thomas is here already? Shit! I jump off the couch and look down at what I’m wearing. It’s not a total disaster, but this isn’t what I’m going to wear to go out for supper.
“One second,” I shout out and run to the bathroom. I take a quick look in the mirror to see if my hair looks okay because hell, I don’t want to show Thomas my rat's nest. I look at the time and it’s four-thirty, he’s half an hour early. There’s a knock at the door again.
“I’m coming,” I shout out reassuring him. I don’t want him to think I’m making him wait.
I straighten out my clothes then I open the door with a smile on my face, but once I see who it is, my smile turns into a little frown. What in the fuck? I know pardon my French. What is he doing here? He has flowers in his hand, and he gives me a little smile that doesn’t reach his eyes. He looks different from the strong Viper, I know. I broke him, oh my God. I broke the spirit of the one man that holds my heart, even if he has moved on with Destiny. I still love him.
“What are you doing here?” I squeak out, and he looks me up and down.
“I came here to talk to you,” he says his voice sounding tired and broken.
“Well, talk then.” He sighs and shakes his head lightly.
“Can I come in or are we just going to talk in the hallway for everyone to know our business?” he asks. I bite my bottom lip. I don’t want everyone to know what’s going on that’s for sure. Noisy ass neighbors, want to know everything. I open the door a little more, and he walks in and stops at the end of the carpet. I close the door and my nerves on all over the place. He’s here, and Thomas should be here soon. This isn’t going to go well.
“What are you doing here, Dalton?” I ask again, hoping he’ll finally give me an answer. He sighs and rubs the back of his neck.
“Tammy, I’m tired of this. I’ve had enough. I don’t care if you,” he swallows roughly and then continues. “Cheated. I want you back. I can’t stop thinking of you,” he mumbles out, and my heart breaks a little for him. I can’t go back to him, what happens if it turns out I can’t get pregnant?
“Dalton, I’ve told you we can’t. I don’t love you anymore,” I say trying to sound convincing but I’m sure he can see right through it. He scoffs shaking his head. He moves towards me and pins me against the wall, not hard but enough to hold me there and he leans down and kisses my lips. I can’t let this happened. I try to push him away, but it’s not use. He releases my lips and looks down at me.
“I know it’s bullshit, I know you still love me, Tammy. I still love you more than anything, and I’m done playing games. I want you back.”
I’m to the brink of tears because I do love him more than anything, but will he still love me if he knew I probably won’t be able to give him the family he so secretly wants?
“Dalton,” my voice comes out uneven. He puts his forehead against mine and sighs.
“Please. I never had to beg for anything in my life before, but I’m here begging you. Please give us another chance,” he says, lifting his forehead off mine. His eyes glossy as he stares at me begging me to give in. I’m so utterly lost in his eyes. There’s a knock at the door, I’m snapped out of the trance. My eyes go wide.
“Shit,” I mutter under my breath. I know this time, it’s Thomas.
Viper looks at the door then back to me with questioning eyes.
“Are you expecting someone?” he asks, looking back at the door. My cheeks flush, and I nod my head.
“Is this someone a man? Maybe, the same man from last night?” he growls out, and my eyes widen, but my body betrayals me, my panties are soaked. I love it when he growls, it always did get me so wet.
“I’ll answer the door and don’t say a word.” He grunts leaving me against the wall. He walks over to the door and opens it. I can’t see Thomas because he doesn’t fully open the door, but I can hear just fine from where I’m at.
“What do you want?” Viper hisses out.
“What are you doing here? Is Tammy here? We're supposed to go out for supper,” Thomas mentions. Viper looks back to me with his eyes wide and then he grins. He turns back to Thomas.
“She’ll have to chancel, sorry bud. She’s not going on any dates with you or anyone else for that matter. We’re back together so you can take a hike.” He says closing the door and locking the latch.
I’m standing there with my mouth wide open from shock. I can’t believe he told Thomas that. He looks at me daring me with his eyes to deny it. I could try and deny it, but my body is giving it away. My chest is heaving up and down from want. I know I shouldn’t do anything with Dalton, it’ll just make things worse, but I just can’t help it. He’s so yummy, and I’m hornier than a teenage boy watching porn.
He stalks slowly towards me, licking his lips and I know, I’m done for. My body is screaming, yes take me, while my head is saying that it’s a bad idea. At this point, I’m throwing caution to the wind because my body needs this probably more than he does. He’s had someone to fill the void. I haven’t even had sex with another man since we broke up. The feeling of jealousy hits me knowing he’s been fucking Destiny.
“What about Destiny?” I spit out. My jealousy getting the better of me. He stops in front of me breathing rough and grabs the back of my neck.
“Destiny was someone to help with the pain, and even then, it didn’t work. All I thought about was you.” He grunts out before slamming his lips to mine, and the jealousy slowly fades away. He lifts me up, and I wrap my legs around his hips, he holds me against the wall. His hand grabs my breast and lightly squeezes, a moan escapes past my lips. I grind my hips a little causing him to groan, and he latches onto my neck, nipping lightly at the base of my neck. I close my eyes. God, did I miss this.
He releases my neck and looks down between us, he grins at me putting me to the ground, only long enough to strip me from my pants and underwear. He groans seeing that I’m still shaved, just how he likes it. He lifts me up off the floor again, and his cool belt is against my pussy, it’s sending my nerve ending on fire. I want him so badly.
“Please,” I say, surprising myself. I’m not one to beg, but right now, I’m begging to get fucked.
“Don’t worry, baby. You’ll get what you want,” he says, chuckling.
“Less talking, more fucking,” I say, and my words surprise Viper, he grunts trying to get his belt undone. He seems to be having troubles. So, I reach down and help him. Once his belt is undone, he grabs the zipper pulling it down. He shakes his pants down his legs. His erection slaps my pussy, and I groan from the heat of him touching my clit. His head gliding against it, slowly. I bite my bottom lip.
His hand snakes down between us, he moves his cock from my clit, and he rubs my clit with his finger. I’m like a cat, scratching at his shoulders. I’m not sure why but it feels like it’s ten times better.
“Fuck, your soaking wet, Tammy,” he grunts out, shoving a finger in my pussy and my toes curl.
“Yes,” I hiss out, and he pulls his finger out of me, and he rams it back in. My back lightly hitting the wall each time. I bite my lip, enjoying the feeling of his finger working itself inside me. He pulls his finger out of my pussy, and I whimper from the lost.
He holds me there with his hips, he takes off his shirt, seeing his lickable body sends me close to the edge. God, I miss his body. He’s perfect. My hands touch his hard stomach, and he groans, feeling my hands rub up and down his stomach. He grabs the bottom of my shirt, I lift my arms up. He takes it off me, and he throws it on the floor. We’re both breathing rough as we stare at each other.
“I want to feel you come around my cock,” he says, his voice rough as he rubs his cock up and down my slit, coating the tip of his cock with my wetness. He doesn’t give me time to say anything, he slips the head of his cock into my waiting pussy, and I moan, while he groans long and hard.
“Fuck, your tight,” he grunts.
“No one has touched this pussy besides me, right?” he growls out. I bite my lip and nod. He grunts his approval and slams into me. My mouth drops open, and his eyes close, he opens his eyes and puts his hand beside my head on the wall.
“You ready?” he asks.
“Yes,” my voice sounding breathless.
He begins to move, and I’m on fire. His thrusts are slow and deep. He’s thrusting in and out so, painfully slow that I’m about to lose it. He must notice I’m getting a little on edge because he increases his speed and slams into me harder. You can hear the echo of our skin slapping in the hallway of my apartment.
“Yes,” I hiss out, my eyes closed. My body is tingling, I’m so close I can taste it.
Viper leans forward and nips at my bottom lip, and I moan, he takes advantage of my moan by slipping his tongue in. Massaging it with his own, his thrusts not missing a beat as we duel for dominance. He rubs my clit and wins, I gasp in his mouth, and he groans, feeling my inner walls tightening a little around him.
“Fuck, you feel so good, Tammy. Whose pussy does this belong too?” he grunts out, his face pure pleasure with his cock nestled deep inside me. He pivots his hips, and he hits the magical spot that does me in, each time.
“Oh Dalton, it’s yours. I’m so close,” I purr. He increases his speed, he’s fucking me hard and fast like the Viper I know, the Viper I love. The Viper that makes me see stars.
“You going to come for me, Tammy? Going to come around my cock?” he asks his breaths short and uneven.
“Yes, oh fuck yes,” I squeal. He loves it when I swear so when the word escapes from my mouth he starts pounding into me like there’s not tomorrow. I’m on cloud nine. I feel my fast-approaching orgasm, and my toes start to curl. I try to hold off because I want us to come together.
“Tammy, just let go. I know your right there, baby. I’m right there with you,” he says not breaking the rhythm of his thrusts in and out of me. He reaches down and circles his finger around my clit, and I can’t hold back any longer.
“Oh fuck. I’m COMING,” I scream out in pleasure as my climax washes over my body. My insides tighten around Viper, and he groans my name. I feel his cock harden and his thrusts uneven and sloppy. He gives two more thrusts, and he stills inside of me with a satiated look on his face. He leans forward and puts his head inside the hollow of my neck, his cock still jerking inside of me. I groan feeling his cock touching my very tight walls, sending little shock waves through my body.
He kisses my neck, and I shiver feeling his unshaved beard touching my sensitive skin. He leans his head away from me. “You can’t say we don’t work, Tammy. You know we do,” he says, and right there it’s like a bucket of cold water washes over me. I feel the shame of not being able to tell him no.
“Dalton,” my voice comes out thick with emotion. I’m about to crack, but I swallow it down.
“Come on, Tammy. You know it’s true.”
“Put me down, please,” I ask, and he sighs. He slowly pulls out of me, and I wince. His sheer size and how hard we were going, I’m going to feel it for the rest of the day. Well, what’s left of it anyway.
I grab my shirt and pants, there’s not point on putting my panties back on, their damp with my desire. I grab my panties and put them in the bathroom. When I come back out, Viper is still here, and I notice he’s looking at my mail near the door. His pants are zipped up and his belt back in place. I narrow my eyes and notice he’s looking at the letter the doctor sent me. My eyes go wide with panic. I clear my throat, and Viper’s head snaps up.
“I think, it’s time for you to leave,” I say, trying to sound strong, but my voice cracks a little.
“Tammy, what’s this?” he asks holding the letter from the doctor up. I’m like a deer in highlights, I’m standing there with my mouth wide open and my eyes big as saucers.
I can see us now, happy about everything with not a care in the world and then bam like last time, our happiness was taken away after just a short period of time. I can’t, I just can’t do it. I can’t do that to him again. His face was pure agony when I uttered those four words ‘I lost the baby.' I can’t do it to him. I just can’t.
7
We just had wonderful sex, and now, she’s acting like I was the only one that wanted to do it. I know she wanted my hands on her. I could tell by the look in her eyes. She wanted my cock in her tight pussy. God, was she fucking tight. I close my eyes and rub my now semi-hard cock in my pants. She’s in the bathroom, and I see some type of medical paper with all her mail. It’s opened, and it peaks my interest. Is something wrong with her? My protective mode comes to play. I walk over to the open mail and reach for the paper, holding it in my hands I began to read.
‘Miss. Murphy. We are sorry to inform you about the results of fertile tests. There’s only a twenty-five percent chance of becoming pregnant, and there are high risks during the pregnancy if you become pregnant to be able to carry the fetus full term. We can run a series of more tests to see what the options are for you.’ That’s as much as I get to read because Tammy is now standing there clearing her throat. She looks almost scared like I found something I shouldn’t of.
“I think, it’s time for you to leave,” she says. I close my eyes because this is what it always comes down to with her. I’m getting tired of her always pushing me away.
“Tammy, what’s this?” I ask, holding the paper up in the air. Her eyes go wide, and her mouth drops open.
“What are you doing going through my mail?” annoyance fuelling her voice. What the hell does she expect, she left it out for anyone to see it.
Is that why she’s pushing me away? I remember at Alison’s and Ace’s wedding in the car ride there. I was talking about kids and how much I want them and that I can’t wait to be a father. Fuck, I’m so stupid. She must think that I won’t want her. She can’t think that I wouldn’t love her just because she can’t have a baby. I’ll love her no matter what.
“Tammy,” I start to say, and she’s shaking her head.
“Viper, just leave, please,” when she says Viper, it’s like a kick in the nuts. She’s not budging, she wants me out of this apartment.
“Tammy, shouldn’t we talk about this?” She shakes her head again at me.
“No, we’re not together anymore. What that paper says, it’s about me, not you. Please, just go. Destiny’s probably waiting for you,” she spits out, and she turns around and walks down the hall to the bathroom. I sigh, grabbing my hair.
“I don’t care for Destiny. She’s just been there to ease the pain. But even then, she can’t stop me from thinking of you no matter what. I always think of you when my head hits the pillow.” I raise my voice for her to hear fully and she halts for a second then she shuts the bathroom door. I close my eyes. This is going to be one hell of a cluster fuck to fix.
Just then the door opens quickly, she pops her head out. “Destiny is the one that was warming your bed for the last two weeks. I can’t believe I let this happen. When Destiny is the one you’ve been fucking. You used condoms, right? Do I have to get tested now because of her fucking cheap ass?” she hisses at me.
“I don’t want Destiny. Jesus, fucking Christ. Tammy, I want you.” I roar. She slams the bathroom door, and when I hear the click, it’s defying.
I hear the shower turn on and I feel like I’ve been kicked down repeatedly. I’m not sure what the fuck to do. She’s closed herself off, and I can’t seem to even talk to her about this. I’m going to wait here till she comes out of the shower. She can’t stay in there forever. I take a seat on the couch and lean my head back on the sofa and close my eyes and sigh heavily. When she comes out of that shower. I’m going to find out the truth behind that letter.
Five minutes go by, and she’s still in the shower. My leg starts moving up and down on my heel, my nerves are alive, and I’m worried about what she’ll end up telling me. Yeah, I know right. I sound like a pussy, but that woman in there, in that shower, is the love of my life and I’ll fight for her. I know I’ve fucked up over the past two weeks with Destiny. “Stupid,” I mumble to myself.
My phone pings in my pocket of my jeans and I groan because I know for a fact it’s either Ace or Pit. I grab my cell to check who it is and it shows Pit’s he texts me. That man won’t call unless it’s dire need and with texting, he’s one finger type of guy. I shoot off a quick reply letting him now I’ll be there.
I make my way towards to the front door. The echo of the water moves through the apartment. Should I tell her I’m leaving? I shake my head because between club business and her being the way she is. I don’t have time to argue about shit right now. After I find out what Pit wants, Tammy and I will be having a little chat. I don’t want this bullshit to drag on. It’ll end up either almost killing me or I go insane. Take your pick.
The clubhouse is in an uproar when I get there. The whole club is here. There are a few ladies here and there, but nothing like the usual amount. I hear yelling from behind the doors where the church is held. What the fuck is going on? I look over and see David with a grim look on his face.
I shake my shoulders, rounding my head and I walk over to the door, turning the handle and push it open. I’m in shock when I see Hammer on the table with blood soaking through his shirt. What the fuck? I shake my head at the scene and rush over to the table, stopping beside Stitch.
“What the fuck happened?” my eyes wide taking in the amount of blood and the groans coming from Hammer, make me wince. Fuck, he must be in a lot of pain.
“Isn’t there something you can give him for the pain?” I shoot out; watching Hammer twitch each time the Doc touches him. Poor bastard.
“I gave him a little something already. I can’t give him anything else right now. He’s more panicked than anything. All the moving around he’s doing is what’s causing him to be in pain.
“What the fuck happened?” I ask again. Pit comes crashing through the doors with a pissed off expression etched on his old face.
“Those sons of bitches from the ‘Pandora MC’ decided it was only fair that Hammer got hit and bleeds out, considering Ace killed Mark. They wanted one of us dead as revenge.” He spits out. His face turning red a little and the veins in his neck are pulsing fast.
“Calm down a bit Prez. You don’t want to end up in the hospital because of a heart attack.” He nods his head and closes his eyes and takes a couple of deep breathes. Those mother fuckers are going to pay for what they did to Hammer. I wonder if Pit contacted their Prez about this.
“I called the Pandora’s prez as soon as Hammer arrived here. How he got here, I have no fucking clue. He mumbled about being attacked and shot and that he drove here crazy bastard. He should have called one of us.” He shakes his head before he continues. “The prez didn’t know a fucking thing about it. I guess, there’s a new prez. It's run by Julian’s son now, Reece. Julian was having some health problems so, he stepped down.”
“So, it’s this Reece guy now that’s the prez? What the fuck did he say? He must have said something about Hammer being shot and left for dead.” My anger is boiling. Who do they think they are? If they want a war, they’ll fucking get one. Pit sighs while Stitch removes the bullet. Hammer hissing like a mother fucker.
“Fuck, that hurts,” Hammer groans, his jaw hard and tight.
“Well, it ain’t going to feel fucking good, now is it,” Stitch mentions and the glare he gets from Hammer. I cough trying to hide my laugh.
Stitch grabs the needle and thread and starts stitching Hammer up. I turn my head to look back at Pit.
“The prez is going to deal with the fuckers that did it. He promised. There were only three of the members that weren’t at the club. So, he has a pretty good guess at who it was. It was the three guys that were always at the club with that son of a bitch, Mark.”
Well, that explains it. Mark’s friends wanted to take revenge on one of our members. Fucking Reece, better do something about it because if he doesn’t. I’ll fucking handle it, and he doesn’t want me to be the one handling them.
“We have a meeting with Reese tomorrow night. To see what he’s going to do about those little fuckers that shot Hammer,” Pit growls. I’ll fucking be there no doubt and Ace too. I don’t want these little shits to get off the hook easy.
“Does LeeAnn know what happen to Hammer yet?” I ask. I can only imagine what she’s going through right now.
“She knows, we called her a few minutes before you showed up. I’m sure any minute now she’ll be busting through those doors like a mad woman,” he chuckles lightly.
Five minutes later LeeAnn comes in with a wild look in her eyes, searching around for Hammer. When she sees him on the table, she bursts out crying. Pit goes over and talks to her, and she calms down a bit. I hear the deadliest in her voice. “They will pay for what they’ve done right?” Pit nods his head, and she turns back to Hammer, who has opened his eyes and smiles when he sees LeeAnn standing there beside him.
“Hey Sugar,” his words a little slurred from the medication Stitch gave him. I shake my head grinning. She scolds him a little but then she breaks, she places a kiss on his lips. They have been together for five years, and it seems like they fall in love with each other all over again every day. That’s what I want. That’s what I could have with Tammy, but she won’t take the time to even give me a chance, give us another chance.
“Well, everyone the show is over. Hammer needs to rest. So, you all can go.” Everyone leaves the room but Pit and of course Hammer, LeeAnn and myself.
“Hammers room here is all set up. I don’t think it’s wise to get him into a car tonight.” Pit mentions to LeeAnn, and she nods.
“Thank you,” she says softly.
Pit and I help Hammer up and he groans, the fucker is going to be sore for a while. We walk towards his room with LeeAnn in tow and when we get to his room she opens the door, and we head in, placing Hammer down on the bed.
“Do you need help getting Hammer undress?” I don’t want to see the fucker naked, but LeeAnn is petite. So, for her to undress him, it’ll be hard. The guy is at least two hundred and thirty pounds. She shakes her head, a little smile playing her lips.
“No, I think I’ll manage. It wouldn’t be the first time I had to undress him, and I don’t think it’ll be the last.” I chuckle and tell her good-night. Then I leave the room.
What a fucking night! I need something, I need a fucking beer. I need Tammy. Fuck this, I head to the bar area in the club. I shoot beers back left and right. I remember bits and pieces of what happens after that. All I know is that I want to see Tammy; I need to be with Tammy. Next thing I know, is I’m getting one of the prospects to drive me over to Tammy’s apartment. It’s eleven thirty, and her light is on, so I know she’s home.
I knew she had a date tonight, that asshole that I opened the door to earlier. I have my ways of finding out shit. I wasn’t too happy about it but what the fuck can I do? She told me no, that it won’t work but do I listen? Nope, here I am at her apartment, standing at her door ready to knock.
My hands feel like they weigh a fucking ton when I bring it up to knock on the door. I just want to see her face. A minute later, she opens the door, and her eyes widen taking in my presences.
“Umm, what are you doing here?” her voice betraying her, I hear the huskiness in her voice. She’s just as horny as I am. She’s probably so fucking wet right now that her panties are soaked, that is if she’s wearing any. Hum… I can’t hold back the groan that comes out of my mouth because I love the fucking taste of her pussy on my tongue. The sweet and salty of her juices are addictive, I love it. If I could, she would be my breakfast, lunch, and supper.
My cock hardens against my jeans, the zipper digging in. I shift my cock in my pants, and her eyes go wide as she stares down. I know she wants my cock and she’s going to get it. I need her right now. I had her once today, and that was nowhere near enough.
I grab a head of her neck and bring her to me, kissing the shit out of her. She moans against me, her hands running up and down my torso. I walk us in the apartment kicking the door shut. I bend down lifting her up by the ass. I make my way to her bedroom, my mouth devouring her lips and then her neck. She’s grinding herself against me and groans. She’s putty in my hands.
“Do you want me to fuck you up against the wall? Do you want my hard cock slipping in and out of your tight pussy? Give in, Tammy. I want it, and I know you want it.” Her eyes dilate, and she bites her lower lip, bringing it between her teeth.
“Yes,” I thought for sure she would fight me on this, but I’m just fucking thankful she said yes. My head is fuzzy from all the beers. I just hope I’m up to the task and I perform.
She’s wearing a nightgown; I just fucking hope she has no underwear on underneath it. My hand goes in between us and my fingers touch her bare pussy. Fuck, Yes!
She’s wilting against me while my fingers tease her soft flesh. Her heat wrapped around my fingers.
“Now, please fuck me. I’m so fucking horny, my insides feel like they’re on fire,” She doesn’t have to tell me twice. I place her on the bed, and she looks like a goddess lying there.
I fuck with my belt and my zipper and then push them both out of the way. I rip off my shirt. I look into her glazed over eyes. I lean over her on the bed, giving her a kiss before slamming into her. She screams out, clawing at my shoulders. Fuck, I love it when she’s rough like that. She loves when I’m rough and hard. I want her more than my next breath. I don’t want this to end tonight, but I know she’ll throw me the fuck out once where finished. I might as well try and enjoy this for as long as I can, before she switch’s personalities. That’s one thing with Tammy, one minute she’s cool when it comes to us and then boom, she’s fucking nuts and throws me the fuck out of her life faster than a bouncer at a night club.
She’s moaning and biting her lip while she scratches at my back. I pin her to the bed with my hips, my cock still nestled inside her hot pussy. Once she sees my upper body, her hands roam all over my stomach, and I bask in the feeling of her hands touching me. Desiring me. I know, how much she loves my body. She outlines my club logo tattoo with her finger. God, she knows how to rip me, how am I going to be able to walk away from her after this? I don’t want to walk out of this door tonight, not after this.
“Fuck me, Dalton.”
My body is fucking hotter than a volcano, right now. I want to give her exactly what she wants, so, I fuck her hard. She’s close because I feel her walls tightening around my cock.
“I’m close,” she says her voice deep and rough.
She reaches down and swirls her finger over her clit, and I can feel her starting to get even tighter, she’s right there. I’m not far off either. I pick up my pace, and she’s screaming out my name and tightening to the point, I swear if it was any tighter it would cut the circulation off around my cock.
I hammer into her over and over, and my balls are heavy, and I feel them getting tighter. I come inside of her, with my head in the hollow of her neck, grunting out her name as the first squirts erupt from my cock. When I pull out of her, she whimpers a little. My cock is full of my come mixed with hers, no condom again and I don’t give a fuck. I want her pregnant with my child and after seeing that letter at her front door. I want her barefoot and pregnant.
“Oh, my God. This shouldn’t have happened.”
Did she just say that after I fucked her brains out?
“Well, it did, and I don’t fucking regret it one fucking bit,” I say. She gets off the bed, her legs shaking a little as she tries to catch her bearings. I can tell our little fuck fest took a lot out of her because her eyes have little bags starting. I think it’s time for me to head out, even if I don’t want too, but I don’t want to argue with her about it tonight. She’s tired, and I’m getting there. Both of us like this won’t do either of us any good.
“I’ll talk to you tomorrow okay? We are going to talk about this. What happened between us just now is not something you should throw away, Tammy. I know you know it, but you're just being stubborn as fuck about it.” She nods her head because she doesn’t have it in her to fight right now. Good, because my head can’t take it right now. I place a kiss on her forehead and one to her lips quick, and then I leave her apartment, the prospect is in his car waiting for me. Thank fuck he stayed. My ass would have had a long walk home if he left. I would have had time to sober up before hitting my front steps.
“Clubhouse or your place?” Blake asks.
“My place.” He nods and starts the car and pulls away from Tammy’s. I tell Blake the address.
Tomorrow should be fun, we’re heading over to the Pandora’s for a meeting with Reece. I’ll have to make sure my piece is fully loaded in case something fucks up, and one of those fuckers shoot first. I’m not taking any chances. I don’t trust those fuckers. First Ace and now Hammer being shot, I’ll be prepared for them.
Blake pulls up to my place and drops me off. Once I shut the car door, he leaves to head back to the clubhouse. I smell like Tammy, and there is no way I’m hopping into the shower and washing her scent off me right now. I sleep better when I can smell her around me. I need a good night sleep after these past weeks.
Thoughts of Tammy pregnant and in a white wedding dress plays over and over in my head.
Once my head hits the pillow, within a matter of minutes, I’m dead to the world.