Chapter Seven
Three days later, fresh from the shower, Kirk made his way out toward his office when he heard the moans and sexual demands filling the air. Bella sat behind his desk where he’d left her to search for something. He couldn’t recall what it was, and he knew she was looking at his website along with his porn selection.
“See something you like?” he asked.
Bella looked up at him, her cheeks red and flushed. She looked like a naughty girl that had been caught watching porn.
She’d been caught, but she was far from a girl.
Moving behind her, he leaned down. This was one of the scenes where it was a woman with three men. He was the guy in her mouth. “That was a long time ago. One of my younger movies, as you can see.” He pointed out that he’d not gotten the ink he now possessed on his back.
“Yeah, I mean, wow, you’ve done so much.”
“Does this bother you? I’m clean, I promise. I get tested every single time.”
“No, it doesn’t bother me. It’s kind of surreal to see our scenes have become bestsellers, and some of the comments are a little … much.”
Their scenes had gone live through the company’s website a few days ago. He knew they were doing really well as Gus had called him and asked if they both wanted to do more. Lindsey, his manager, had also told him that everyone knew to go to him. They were together, and Bella didn’t have a manager, which annoyed him.
Pushing some hair behind her ears, he stroked her cheek. “Bella, I … I want to make this work with the two of us.” He knelt down beside her, staring up into her eyes.
“I know. We are, right?”
“No, I mean … this is not just some fun for me. I know you’ve had a bad experience and I promised myself not to pressure you and again I’m breaking all my old rules, but I want you.” He paused and gritted his teeth. “I’ve never told anyone this in my life. I refused to say the words until I knew that was how I felt.”
“Kirk?”
“I love you,” he said. He smiled. “Wow, I really do love you. I know our meeting and our first day together was incredible, and it certainly will need to be doctored in years to come if we have kids.” He saw the shock on her face. “Is that too soon? Okay. I would love to one day have a family, and we’ll deal with whatever that means at the time. I want to have a life with you.”
“We’ve only known each other a few weeks.”
“Some people know on that first moment, Bella. They know how they felt, and it never goes away. Those feelings get stronger. When I’m with you or when I’m away, my feelings for you never diminish. They never go away; they always get stronger.” He cupped her cheek as he held her hand, kissing her knuckles once again. “I love you. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. There are times I feel awful because the worst thing that happened to you, is probably one of the best things to ever happen to me.”
“What do you mean?”
“If Eric hadn’t done what he did, and I wasn’t given this opportunity to be with you, I wouldn’t have known who you were, or ever known these feelings.” He pressed her hand against his chest. “You’re in here, babe, and I don’t want to let you go.”
She cupped his face and kissed him hard. Sinking his fingers into the back of her hair, he held her tightly, not wanting to let her go.
“I love you too. I’ve been so afraid to say that in case it made things awkward, but I love you so much, and I’m so scared right now.”
“No need to be scared.”
Sitting her on top of the desk, he pushed everything out of the way and kissed her deeply, not wanting to let her go. Lifting up her shirt, he threw it across the room, followed by her shorts. Spreading her legs, Bella grabbed his cock, running her hand up and down the length.
Moving her hand out of the way, he pulled her back, put the tip of his cock at her entrance, and slammed in deep. They hadn’t had sex in several days, as they’d been busy, and he was desperate to feel her, to be inside her.
“Fuck, baby, that is so what I need.” Sinking his fingers into her hair, he fucked her hard while kissing her lips. She lifted up, thrusting onto his cock. He couldn’t get deep enough.
He pulled out of her, moved her so that she was bent over his desk, and pounded to the hilt inside her. Gripping her hip, he tilted her head so that he could claim her lips. This woman was all his, and he was never going to allow another man to know how precious she was. That was all for him, and he was a selfish enough bastard that he would never let her the fuck go.
“You’re all mine, baby, all fucking mine.”
She whimpered. Sliding a hand between her thighs, he teased her clit, feeling the answering clench around his dick as he continued to fuck her.
“Yeah, that’s right. Your body knows who you belong to, Bella.”
“You, Kirk. I’m all yours.”
She cried out as he pinched her clit, then soothed it out with his fingers. He’d never told another woman that he loved them before. Bella was the first, and he knew deep in his heart that she’d be the last.
He’d found that one special woman who meant the world to him, and there was no way in hell he’d ever let her go.
Kirk thrust hard and deep, waiting for her to find her release before allowing himself to find his own. When she came on his cock, squeezing him hard, only then did he allow himself to come.
****
Moving in with Kirk was kind of surreal to Bella. At first, she thought it might be a big mistake because they’d barely known each other, but as time went on, her love for him only grew stronger.
He’d quit the porn—she’d not asked him to—and she’d also decided against doing any more scenes. She’d gotten lucky in finding the man she loved in that one day of filming. Chad had also been a lifesaver. The money Eric made from selling their film helped her settle her debts. Also, she was working again for Lindsey in her office. Lindsey didn’t just manage porn stars but also models and struggling actresses; it went across the board. Bella loved working even though Kirk told her she didn’t have to.
Kirk also helped her to build her confidence so when they were seen together and noticed, she didn’t run and hide. She no longer felt ashamed of the film her ex unleashed.
Speaking of her ex, she’d had a run-in with him in the park while out walking with Kirk.
“Bella,” Eric said, forcing her to stop.
Kirk stood by her side, his hand on her back.
“What do you want, Eric?” she asked.
“You mean this is ex Eric? Ex who sold your sex tape and made your life a misery, Eric?” Kirk asked.
“The very one.”
“I’m sorry, Bella. I had no idea—”
“You cheated on me, and instead of deleting it, you decided to use it because I wouldn’t stay with your cheating ass? I lost my apartment, my career; I lost everything because of you.” She shook her head as she stared at him. “You know what, you’re not worth it because if you’d not done all of that, I wouldn’t be where I am today, and I am a lot happier.”
Of course, Kirk had to have the last laugh. He shook a surprised Eric’s hand before punching him in the face. Afterward he’d called Chad in case of a lawsuit, but none was filed and that was the last she heard from him.
“What are you thinking?” Kirk asked.
They sat in an Italian restaurant celebrating the past year together. She couldn’t believe it had already been a year since she’d been on set with him making a porn flick.
“Just the incident in the park the other month,” she said.
“With Eric?”
She nodded.
“I spoke to Chad, and nothing has ever come of it. Clearly, he realized he needed a punch in his smug fucking face, but then, if he’d seen our film, I’m sure he’d be having a pity party right now.”
“I still can’t believe you punched him.”
“He deserved it, and you know a lot of guys would have applauded him for what he did. There would also be a whole bunch that hated him for it, and I’m one of them.”
The waiter brought them over their food, and she thanked him.
Kirk poured her out a generous glassful of wine, and she noticed his hand was shaking a little bit.
“Are you okay?”
“Yeah, of course.”
She could tell something was off with him. “Are you wanting to break up?” They’d been together for a year, and a lot had changed between them. She thought they were doing really good, but now she was starting to freak as she didn’t know what to think about what was going on.
“No, of course not,” Kirk said as he looked at her. “Breaking up is the last thing on my mind.”
“But you’re shaking and you look nervous. You never look like that, and okay, I’m starting to freak out a little bit. You didn’t have to bring me to a fancy restaurant to do that. I’m a normal girl. You could break up by text or email or to my face at home.”
“I don’t want to break up with you, woman.” His hand went into his pocket and pulled out a small velvet box. “Because I want to ask you to marry me instead.”
This made her silent. Her mouth fell open, then closed, then open.
“Marry you?”
“Yes. I love you, Bella. There’s no one else that I want to spend the rest of my life with, so I’m nervous. I’m forty-one years old, and I’ve never asked a woman to marry me before. You’re the love of my life, and I’ve never loved any woman the way I love you. You’re my soul mate.”
Tears filled her eyes.
“I’m also nervous because I don’t want you to say no. I’ve never done this, but I’ve got a fifty-fifty shot at you saying no, and I don’t want that.” He held the ring up. “So, Bella, I was wondering if you would be willing to give me a chance?”
She stared at him and couldn’t believe that he was asking her this question or that he had any doubt.
“Yes.”
“What?” he asked, making her chuckle.
“Yes, a hundred percent, thousand percent, how could you ever doubt percent, yes. Yes, I will marry you. Yes, yes, yes, yes.”
He got up from the table, cupped her face, and kissed her. She was aware of people watching them, but she didn’t care.
The man she loved more than anything in the world had just proposed to her.
Kirk pulled away. “She just said yes. A big fat yes.”
The restaurant erupted into applause, and she couldn’t wipe the smile off her face.
“I’m going to make you the happiest woman on earth.”
“What do you mean ‘going to make’? I am the happiest woman on earth.” She tilted her head back, kissing him again.
The waiters came out with a bottle of champagne, a huge round of congratulations, and throughout it all, Kirk held her hand and she felt completely at peace with her life and what she’d done.
“I love you, Bella, more than anything.”
And she loved him too, with her whole heart.