CHAPTER FIVE
A house in mourning was more dismal than the cemetery where the dearly departed rested. Lenore hung her wet cloak and bonnet on the rack near the front door and paused to listen. Except for the steady click of the pendulum in the grandfather clock occupying one corner of the foyer, the house was quiet, shuttered in a pall of gloom.
The soft glow of the low-burning gasolier allowed just enough light to prevent a person from tripping on the rug or the nearby stairwell in the dark. When her father was alive, it had blazed like a star caught in chains. Arthur’s death wrought many changes in the Kenward household, none of them welcome.
The flicker of firelight danced across the surface of the parlor’s partially open door. Lenore stepped inside and spotted her mother in her usual place—one of three chairs furthest from the fireplace to prevent any stray coal dust from falling on her hem. A nearby lamp provided illumination for the stitchery on which Jane industriously plied her needle. She glanced briefly at her daughter, features pinched, before turning her attention back to her needlework.
Lenore sighed inwardly. Tonight would be as the many nights before it—awkward conversation saturated in resentment that slowly built to a hot argument. “Hello, Mama.” She swept across the room and sat down opposite her mother.
Jane didn’t look up or return Lenore’s greeting. “You almost missed supper.”
“Then Constance is serving earlier than usual. It’s not yet half past five.” She reached out and pressed her fingertips to the teapot. Cold.
The needle whipped ever faster through the cloth, a sure sign of Jane’s agitation. “Your aunt inquired after you. You were missed.”
Lenore poured herself a cup of the tepid tea, foregoing the milk and sugar. “Mama, Aunt Adelaide does not like me. I very much doubt I was missed.”
Adelaide Evenstowe, a galleon of a woman, didn’t like children in general but reserved most of her contempt for her niece, whom she deemed headstrong and inappropriate. She’d done more than her fair share in convincing Jane to send Lenore off to boarding school, an interference for which Lenore had never forgiven her.
She sipped and made a face. The tea had grown bitter as well as cold. She set it aside. “Did you enjoy your visit?”
Jane’s mouth compressed into a scowl as bitter as the tea. “Yes.”
The heavy silence between the two women grew, and Lenore waited for her mother to fire the inevitable first volley. The housekeeper’s appearance offered a temporary reprieve.
“Miss, I didn’t hear you return.” She gathered up the cups and set them on the tray along with the teapot and accompaniments. “A fresh pot for you? It’s miserable outside.”
Lenore nodded. “Thank you, Mrs. Harp. That would be lovely.”
Once the housekeeper left, Jane spoke. “Even Constance disapproves of you gadding about this late in this weather.”
Lenore picked up her own sewing, a handkerchief with a complicated embroidered border whose completion had so far eluded her. Maybe because she found it duller than watching grass grow. “Mama, I don’t think Constance’s remark on the weather bore any connection to whether or not she approves of me being out and about.”
Jane’s needle flashed and flew, the taut fabric popping with each jab of the pointed tip. “It’s both improper and dangerous for you to be on London streets alone.”
“I brought flowers for Papa’s grave.” She remained silent regarding her conversation with the Guardian.
The whip stitching slowed for a moment before picking up speed once more. “And visited that airship harlot in Maldon.” Jane finally looked up at her daughter, her eyes, as dark as Lenore’s, reflecting the flames from the fireplace. “Your duty is to your family, Lenore, not her.”
Lenore groaned. “Mama, what duty is there in sitting for hours listening to Aunt Adelaide abuse our poor pianoforte and complain that the tea is cold or the fire too hot or the room too drafty? And Nettie is a respected captain, not a harlot.”
Jane hissed at the sudden snarl in her thread. “I’ve never understood why your father tolerated that woman.” Her eyes narrowed. “You realize she’s no longer welcome here?”
“So I assumed. Why do you think I went to Maldon instead of inviting her here?”
“Why do you even associate with her at all?”
This had ever been a point of contention, not just between Jane and Lenore but between Jane and Arthur. Lenore had once thought her mother feared the association between her husband and the airship captain was one of a more conjugal nature. As she grew older and observed the repartee between Arthur and Nettie, she abandoned the idea.
While their friendship was unusual and likely perceived as something else, the inventor and the captain were nothing more than professional colleagues of like minds. Had Nettie been a man, Lenore still didn’t think Jane would have approved of the friendship. The class divide was too wide and too deep, and one Jane believed never should be crossed.
Much to Jane’s disgust, Lenore didn’t agree and embraced her father’s more egalitarian views. “I associate with her because she is my friend as much as she was Papa’s.”
Simmering silence fell between them again and lasted through supper. Lenore wished with all her heart that she and Jane might one day reach past the endless squabbles and arguments and meet on common ground. With no other siblings and Arthur gone, they only had each other, and Lenore stared into the heart of that fact, both sad and frightened.
Jane finished her last course and excused herself from the table, the heavy slide of her skirts audible in the dining room as she ascended the stairs to her bed chamber. Lenore pushed aside the remains of her pudding and drained her wine glass, happier with the solitude than with her mother’s disapproving presence across from her.
Mrs. Harp entered to clear away the supper remains, and Lenore rose to help her. Constance Harp had been in service with the Kenward family since Lenore was still on lead strings, and more than a few times it was Constance she was tethered to in those early childhood years. Her grief over Arthur’s death was as profound as that of his wife and child.
She offered Lenore a sympathetic smile. “How was your papa, Miss Nora?”
Lenore followed her to the kitchen with the remains from supper. “Regrettably quiet. His manners regarding civil conversation have lapsed abominably.”
The housekeeper chuckled. “It’s good you visit him as often as you do. Good for you both.”
Lenore didn’t argue that. It was true. Visiting her father’s grave eased the grief. Her brief conversations with the fascinating Guardian presented their own charm as well. She said nothing of this to Constance. “I hope to convince Mama to accompany me next time.”
Constance took the dishes from her and stacked them near the dry sink. She dusted her hands and gestured to the door with a thrust of her chin. “It’s never been her way to reveal what’s inside. Give her time, miss. She grieves for him in her way.”
Lenore followed the direction of her gaze. Not once had she witnessed Jane shed a tear since her husband’s death. “I’ll trust your word on that, Mrs. Harp.”
When the housekeeper refused her help with the dishes, Lenore left the kitchen with promises to rise early to start the Friday ironing.
It was far too early for bed, and she was too restless to read or sew. The windows on the stairwell’s first landing revealed a back garden made bleak and bare by the winter cold. The rain had stopped, leaving the branches of cherry and apple trees Jane lovingly tended through every season to drip in the deepening evening.
Lenore had inherited a little of her mother’s skill with plants, but it was nothing compared to Jane’s innate magic. Her father often joked that his wife was the only person he knew of outside the Guild mages who could plant a broken stick in a coal heap and watch it flower into a great oak.
The greenhouse Arthur had built for his new wife nearly three decades earlier glowed softly in the darkness, lit not by candles or gas but by the numerous blossoms of white roses, lilacs, lilies and violets housed inside. Their soft luminosity reminded her of the Highgate Guardian, as pale as a new marble headstone draped in black weeds.
Each time they met, he drew her like a ship to a shore beacon and sent flutters through her belly. So oddly beguiling. Truth be told, his was a visage one might see in a danse macabre mural—spectral and strange as if bound to earth by the thinnest of threads.
Quod fuimus, estis; quod sumus, vos eritis - What we were, you are; what we are, you will be.
She shook her head to clear her grim thoughts and padded softly to her room so as not to disturb her mother. Dwelling on the legend of the Three Living and the Three Dead guaranteed nightmares, and she had no wish to lay awake half the night imagining skeletons dancing with the terrified living.
The temperature in her room made the rest of the house seem warm by comparison. Cold air drafted in from the partially open window, bringing with it the fresh scent of air cleansed by rain and a touch of the damp. She shut the windows and pulled the drapes closed before lighting an oil lamp with shaking fingers. The shawl she draped over her shoulders offered some warmth, and she added another from her wardrobe for good measure.
A book on steam engine design lay next to one of poems by the poet laureate Tennyson. Lenore traced the poetry book’s cover design. A finely made book with its gold-tooled leather and gilt-edged vellum pages. A beautiful book. An expensive one given to her by a man who’d likely spent three months’ hard-earned wages to obtain it.
Lenore made a mournful sound in her throat. Nathaniel. She closed her eyes, remembering his ready smile and eyes as blue as bachelor’s button. She thought of him every day, but lately, in the weeks following her father’s death, he was constantly on her mind.
She knelt before the chest at the foot of her bed. Inside were stored various keepsakes—sketches her father created for her, letters from Nathaniel posted from Madrid and Provence, St. Petersburg and Milan. Bound to the London suburb of Camberwell, where her longest adventure away from home had been the annual trip to rainy Bath, Lenore had traveled the world through Nathaniel’s letters.
He never spoke of the Redan, and the few times she’d asked him about the dimensional rift and the horrifics, he turned pale and taciturn. Whatever he witnessed during the barrier battles, it was as far removed from the beauty of lavender fields and marble palaces as one could get.
She found what she sought beneath the stack of beribboned letters and books of pressed flowers. Lenore carried the muslin-wrapped package to the table, unwrapping the cloth to reveal a folding case containing her most precious possession. The lamp’s yellow light bathed the ambrotype photograph, highlighting the hand-tinting the photographer had added to enhance the photo.
A man posed next to a desk, dressed in his Sunday finery, elbow resting casually on the desktop as he stared at the viewer with a solemn expression. Sandy-haired and broad-shouldered, he was a fine specimen guaranteed to catch the eye of any woman from fifteen to fifty. He had certainly enthralled Lenore at their first acquaintance. That Nathaniel Gordon seemed equally enamored with her still left her in a state of wonder. And deep sorrow.
She outlined his figure under the protective glass with one finger, recollecting his wide smile and the way he made her laugh with his witty remarks or go round-eyed at the stories of his travels. He had a way of wishing her good day that made her blush and Jane growl under her breath if she chanced to witness it—a flirtatious tipping of his pot hat that managed to convey both humor and keen interest.
A memory superimposed itself over the one of Nathaniel. The tall, elegant Guardian tipping his imaginary hat in a manner that made Lenore’s stomach jump into her ribs. An uncanny mimic; a strange coincidence surely. Lenore frowned, staring into the distance.
It was more than the hat tip. The way he shrugged or tilted his head as he listened to her talk, even the smile—gracing a face that looked nothing like Nathaniel’s—seemed familiar. How did two men, so vastly different, exhibit such similar movements and expressions? Or send butterflies whirling through her chest?
Lenore shook her head, frowning harder. She was spending too much time at Highgate cemetery; it was making her daft and even more melancholy. Despite the puzzling hold he had on her, the Guardian was nothing like Nathaniel Gordon.
She shuddered at the thought of what her mother might say if she knew of Lenore’s fascination for the keeper of the dead and the reasons behind it. A spinster bemoaning her unmarried state so much that she imagined the behavior of a lost love on a being who walked two worlds. That Lenore had no interest in marrying after Nathaniel’s death wouldn’t change Jane’s opinion.
She kissed her fingertip before pressing it to the ambrotype. “My darling boy, you are the husband of my heart. I will love and miss you until they lay me in hallowed ground. There is no shame in that.”
It was still early for bed, but Lenore had promised Constance help in the ironing, and that meant awaking well before dawn if they had any hope of completing the chore the same day. Lenore wrapped the ambrotype in its muslin envelope and carefully returned it to its place in the chest.
The kitchen was deserted, dishes cleaned and put away. Lenore blessed Constance’s name under her breath when she spotted two hot water bottles resting on the stove’s still-warm surface. She wrapped one in a towel to take back to her room and warm the sheets.
A ribbon of light crept under the library’s closed door. Lenore paused in the dark foyer. She hadn’t noticed it on her trip downstairs. The comforting crackle of a fire reached her ears as she drew closer, along with the crisp turning of a book’s pages.
Her breath grew short, dark fancies engendered by hours in a cemetery and conversations with bonekeepers. She eased the door open slowly, half certain she’d find the ghost of Arthur Kenward lounging in his favorite chair by the fire, a book in his lap, his pipe in his hand.
What met her gaze made her throat close and her vision blur. Jane, not Arthur, sat in the favorite chair. A book rested in her lap, and in her hand she held a glass of port instead of a pipe. Firelight caressed her hair, bronzing her long braid where it draped over one shoulder. She had changed for bed, her white gown partially concealed by her robe. She wore Arthur’s dressing gown over the robe. Dry-eyed and expressionless, Jane stared into the fire, sipped her port and raised the dressing gown’s cuff to her nose for a long inhalation.
Tears dripped down Lenore’s cheeks, and she eased the door shut before making her way to the stairs. The spinster wept; the widow did not, but more than one woman grieved the loss of a loved one in the Kenward household.