CHAPTER SIX
Liv took deep breaths, afraid she was going to faint again. She couldn’t believe Sebastian was standing in front of her, wearing nothing but a pair of low-slung jeans. He was as gorgeous as she remembered, as gorgeous as he’d been in the middle of the night when she’d been so certain she’d been dreaming.
And he had a wicked scar on his shoulder, one she had noted when he’d been poised above her, his body pushing into hers, but that she had dismissed as a quirk of her sleeping mind.
“What do you mean?” he asked, standing next to the bed. “Who is the bride?”
“I don’t know who she is,” Liv said, squeezing her eyes shut, trying to recreate the dream. “But she appears over and over in my dreams, dreams I’ve been having since you left. She was a bride, tossed from a carriage on her wedding night as they were being chased by giant wolves. The wedding party wanted to lighten the load so they could go faster, and she was the easiest to toss because she was petite. But she didn’t die…they turned her into a werewolf.”
The faint images of Scarborough stabbing Sebastian hovered behind her eyelids. “She showed me what you described. I dreamt it tonight. You and Scarborough at the river, him stabbing you, you going into the water…”
Liv snapped her eyes open. “I thought I just had a crazy, wild, active imagination, but…” She couldn’t even articulate where her thoughts were going.
When Sebastian had first said that Scarborough had stabbed him on that fishing trip, it had suddenly all seemed to make sense. The dreams had been reality, or showing her reality, and she had felt like she’d stumbled on an answer.
Now it seemed like sheer lunacy again.
Liv rubbed her temples and tried to clear her head.
“It’s not your imagination.” Sebastian sat down on the bed next to her. “Here is the truth, Liv, the whole truth, as unbelievable as it seems. The bride in your dreams is your great-grandmother. She was the first of the Lugaru line of werewolves, turned the way you saw it in your dream. She and the pack migrated to Canada from France and moved down into Wisconsin with my ancestors, the James clan.”
Liv knew her great-grandmother had been French, but she had known little other than that given that her own parents had died before she’d had much chance to ask them anything.
“Werewolves are real. I am one. You are one. Scarborough is one. As far as I know you never shifted before I was stabbed, but an emotional upheaval can cause the first shift.”
It had definitely been an emotional six months, there was no denying that.
But werewolves? It was impossible. They were the stuff of horror movies and medieval legends.
Yet she had seen Sebastian shift with her own eyes. She had felt herself shift in what she thought was a dream.
Sebastian was confirming the scene between him and Scarborough was real, and he had the scar on his shoulder to prove it.
“I…I don’t know what to say. This is…”
“Crazy. I know. But at least Scar and I had our parents to explain. Yours died before they could reveal the truth to you.”
Sebastian reached out and took her hand in his, and Liv stared down at his callused fingers covering hers, the touch warm and familiar. It brought a melancholy ache to her heart and she felt the tears pricking at her eyes.
If she believed in the impossible, in the insane story he was telling her, then she was a werewolf, a hairy, snarling beast.
But it also meant that Sebastian hadn’t left her willingly.
And God help her, she was actually thinking that was more appealing than shape-shifters not existing and Sebastian breaking her heart on purpose.
“I want you to understand something.” His expression was earnest, open. “The reason I never asked you to marry me was not because I didn’t want to be your husband. It was because I didn’t want you to ever feel that I had chosen you even in part for the purpose of an alliance, for the strength you would bring to our pack. I was pack leader, and you’re the sole survivor of our allies, a pack that has psychic abilities. Together, you and I would have given an edge to our pack, but I wanted no part of that.”
Sebastian’s finger trailed across her lip again, as it had the night before, and this time it was tender and soul shattering. “I just wanted you,” he said. “I wanted to be with you, for no other reason than for the fact that I love you.”
Liv felt her throat closing with emotion. The words he was saying were bizarre, convoluted, a description of a world she hadn’t known existed and didn’t understand, but when she stripped that away, what she heard was the truth in his voice that he did love her.
That the nightmare she’d been living in for the six months, the reality that had devastated her, was in fact fiction, and the dreams that had plagued her sleep were actually reality.
Nothing mattered but those last three words he’d just spoken. He loved her.
“Sebastian,” she said, nearly choking on his name.
He hadn’t betrayed her or used her. And now he was here, with her, and her emotions were sharp and too overwhelming for words. She could only stare at him, throat tight, eyes filling with tears, wanting to tell him she loved him, but unable to squeeze the words out.
But she didn’t have time to wonder or worry why she was speechless, because he closed the distance between them and brushed his mouth over hers, a soft sigh of a kiss, a gentle worship of her lips. Liv closed her eyes on a deep exhalation of air, her shoulders relaxing, fingers losing their grip on the sheet as he hovered over her mouth, in her space but not touching, his fingers traipsing across her forehead, down her cheek. This is what she wanted. Tenderness. The night before had been raw, exciting, a fantasy, now she wanted real, intimate, loving.
“I missed you,” he breathed, forehead resting lightly on hers. “The thought of you kept me alive when I was bleeding in that river.”
“I wish I had known.” Liv slid her hands down his shoulders, pausing to trace the mottled and angry outline of his scar. He had suffered as much as she had. More even, and her heart broke all over again for the pain he had endured, for how they had both needlessly suffered. There was dried blood on the laceration she had given him, and she shuddered as her fingers hovered over it.
Turning his head slightly, he brushed his lips over her fingers. “It doesn’t matter. What is important is we’re here, together, now. And that we’ll be together tomorrow.”
She sensed the question in that and she never hesitated. Sebastian’s eyes had always been oddly fascinating, one a pale sky blue, the other a mossy green, so different that she’d often thought they worked independently of each other, conveying their own distinct thoughts and emotions. An illusion, no doubt, based on the fact that the light hit them differently, but now as he looked up at her, there was no disparity, no variance.
Having experienced such little deep and unwavering love in her lonely life, she knew it when she saw it, and it was there in Sebastian’s unusual eyes.
“Yes, we’ll be together. Today, tomorrow, always.” Despite the last six months, despite realities that would have to be faced, it had always been, and always would be Sebastian for her.
Wanting to feel her skin against his skin, Liv pulled off the T-shirt he had just put on her and tossed it to the floor.
He kissed her then, a deep possessive kiss that swelled her heart and stirred her desire. As the touch lingered, as his hands moved to grip her shoulders, Liv became very aware of the fact that she was naked, he was naked. The sheet scraped against her tight nipples and rustled between her legs as she shifted to be closer to him. God, she had missed his touch, and as his kisses grew more urgent, hungrier, Liv dropped her mouth open and let him plunge his tongue inside her.
Tenderness had disappeared. His fingers were digging into her flesh and he was dominating her mouth, a hot skilled assault that left her limp and breathing hard, clinging to his arms for support. The fierceness of his possession both startled and excited her, and she suddenly realized there was one important piece of information Sebastian didn’t have.
“I have to tell you something,” she murmured between kisses, gasping when he nipped her bottom lip.
“Later.” Sebastian yanked the sheet down and eyed her breasts with blatant longing.
“No, it’s important.” She swallowed hard and tried to ignore the response of her body to his piercing gaze. “I never…we never…” She took a deep breath and forced the awkward words out. “We never had sex. Scarborough and I.” Her voice dropped down to a whisper on his brother’s name, and she felt her face heating up. This was a conversation she had never expected to have with him.
Sebastian’s eyes moved from her chest to hers and his eyebrows lifted. “Are you kidding me?”
She shook her head. “No. I just couldn’t.”
His hand came up and rubbed his jaw and he shook his head a little as he gave a small laugh. “That’s very good to hear. But what the fuck is the matter with my brother? Why the hell would he agree to live with you platonically?”
“I thought he was respecting my feelings, that he was giving me space until I was ready.” Now she wasn’t sure what any of Scar’s motivations had been. Not that it mattered. She was just glad she hadn’t shared anything more intimate with Scar than sleeping alongside him.
“I would have never agreed to that,” Sebastian said, his hand rising so that his fingers played with the very tip of her nipple.
The unexpected touch sent a jolt through Liv, and she sucked in her breath. “No?”
“No. I wouldn’t have been able to survive being so close to you and not touching you. I would have had you.”
“Very arrogant.” Not that she minded. To hear his possessiveness was sexy, flattering, arousing. “What if I had said no?” Liv realized she was leaning into his touch, and she tried to move back to put force behind her question, but he pinched her nipple between his thumb and forefinger, holding her in place with the desire his touch tripped off.
“I would talk you into it,” he said, his other index finger trailing down between her breasts to her belly button and dipping inside briefly before heading farther south. “And you wouldn’t regret it.”
Right as he reached the top of her pubic bone, he pulled his hand back and rested it on the linens pooling between her thighs. Liv gave a gasp of disappointment. In return, Sebastian gave her a small smile of satisfaction. “You wouldn’t regret it, would you, baby?”
She shook her head, her tongue suddenly feeling too thick to speak.
Sebastian yanked the sheet away from her body so that she was completely exposed to him, his palm pushing her knee so that her legs opened. His fingers fluttered over the small strip of hair there, tickling and teasing her. “Would you?”
Finding her voice, she said, “No. I wouldn’t regret it.”
Her reward was his finger smoothly sliding inside her. Liv gave a tiny moan. It was an unusual angle, with her sitting up, legs out, and the angle of his touch had him stroking her G-spot with unerring accuracy. “Oh, damn,” she breathed, her instinct to move backwards, away from the intensity of the pleasure.
But his hand on her thigh held her in place. “Stay.”
It was the simplicity of that command that had her going still, her thighs tensing as she tucked her feet behind them for a more comfortable position, her back arching as her hands came down on either side of his arm.
“You are so beautiful,” he said, his head dipping so that his lips were on her neck, kissing and sucking lightly.
His shoulder brushed against her chest and Liv shivered, every nerve alive and excited, every inch of her body aware of his. She had refused to think about this for six months, and only in her dreams had she indulged the idea that her sexuality still existed, buried under heavy emotion. But a few skillful kisses, a finger inside her, and a look of lust interlaced with love on Sebastian’s face brought all of her desire rushing to the forefront.
She loved sex with him, hot and wet and hard sex, and she rocked her hips into his touch with a total lack of self-consciousness. He made her feel beautiful, sexy, and she wanted to perform for him at the same time that she wanted to please herself. The way his eyes darkened indicated he liked what she was doing and she moved a little faster, pushing him a little deeper inside her.
“That’s it,” Sebastian breathed.
Liv leaned forward for more leverage and let the sensations sweep her away. The intense pleasure was like a whip, spurring her on to a quick, sharp rhythm, her eyes locked on his.
“Damn, that’s sexy,” he said. “Did you do this to yourself while I was gone? Did you use a vibrator?”
It hadn’t been often, but she had, so she nodded.
“Maybe you don’t even need me,” he said, his voice teasing.
It hadn’t even come close to satisfying her the way he did. “I do need you.” She panted, her muscles tightening around his finger, her hips slowing down. “I’m going to come.”
“Not yet.” He pulled his finger out.
Liv’s eyes flew open. “What the hell?” She had been right there, two seconds from completion.
“Shhh,” he said, his fingers brushing across her nipples as his lips teased her mouth. “We’ll get there. We have all night. I want to take it slow.”
Slow could happen later. Now she wanted to feel him inside her, full and throbbing and taking her, while she was one hundred percent awake and aware of what she was doing.
Sebastian was leaning over, his intention clearly to pull her nipple into his mouth, and she knew he wasn’t going to enter her yet.
Liv grabbed his head and stopped him. It was her turn to torture.
He looked at her in question.
She gave him a sly smile and moved down over him, gripping his erection firmly with her hand and flicking her tongue across the tip.
The moan he gave was almost as satisfying to her as his touch had been.