Chapter Twenty-four
JB opened his eyes to a welcome sound. A heart monitor beeped his existence. The last thing he remembered, hot pain had drilled into his chest. He’d stumbled, plunging into the water. Cold, dark water.
His head hurt like someone had banged him with a ton of steel. A groan escaped his mouth when he tried to raise his left hand to touch what felt like a bandage on his chest. Throbbing aches and pains radiated from every part of his body, including ones he hadn’t known existed. He let his hand drop back to the sheet. To heck with the bandage.
Warmth against the fingers on his right hand stirred him back to the moment. He looked at the only peaceful spot on his body. Marcy…his wife slept with her cheek resting lightly on his fingers. The only part of his right arm and hand not sheathed in a cast. He flexed his arm muscle, and pain shot straight to his brain. No need to do that again anytime soon.
He wiggled his fingers against her cheek.
Her lashes fluttered. Her eyes opened. Her smile said everything.
“We seem to be spending a lot of time at the hospital.” He sighed with the exertion. “How long have I been here?”
“Three days.”
She stood, then leaned and kissed him. Rested her forehead against his. Tears trailed across their lips as they kissed again. Hers? His? Didn’t matter.
Marcy drew away enough to look him in the eye. “I thought I lost you.”
“I thought I lost you, too.” He tried to raise his left arm again, groaned, and let it fall. Even now he wondered if she’d stay by his side or leave for the other room, so-to-say. He’d be content that she was there at the moment. “What about Wilson?”
She shook her head. “You got him. He won’t bother anyone again.”
JB nodded. His insides eased. The danger was over. Part of him hated Wilson for what he’d put Marcy through. Part pitied the man for the loss of Carla, the daughter he loved.
The bed shook as Marcy reached for the nurse’s button, sending a fiery jolt across the side of his chest. How badly was he hurt? He moved his feet. Okay. His legs. Okay. His torso. Hot, searing, razor-edged pain. Not okay.
Dr. Crowley entered the room, followed by the nurse carrying a syringe. She straightened JB’s good arm enough to give her access to the IV port.
“What’s that for?” JB said.
“You’re awake, so I figured you might want something to take the edge off.” The doctor grinned. “Now if you don’t want the shot, just say the word and—”
“Okay. Okay, I get the picture.” Heck, yes, he wanted the shot. Bucking up for this damage wasn’t an option. “Only enough to take the edge off.”
His wife winked and then nodded. He shook his head. What had they done to him? From the looks of the equipment, the feel of his body, and the grateful look on Marcy’s face, they’d done whatever it took to keep him alive. Even doc looked worried.
Dr. Crowley evaluated the wounds. Listened to vitals.
“Well?” JB asked.
Doc charted and conferred with the nurse. She changed his bandages.
“Let me know if any of this hurts, JB.” The doctor pushed and poked and prodded at most places not covered by a cast, needle, or gauze.
JB grimaced. Groaned. Nauseated. What was that noise? Himself? Couldn’t be. Not him. He could take anything. Always had, always would. Yet the noise he heard spew from his mouth didn’t begin to express the agony inside.
“You can stop any time.” JB growled.
Dr. Crowley paused. Looked him in the eye. “Does any of that hurt?”
“Yes. It hurts.”
“How much?”
JB swallowed, blew out a quick breath. Clenched his teeth. “One heck of a lot.”
“Good. We’ve finally got some honest communication going between us. Not like when you were here after the explosion.” The doctor grinned and left the room, followed by his nurse.
Thank goodness they were gone. JB wanted no one but Marcy right now. Wanted to get an idea of where they stood.
She eased her hand under the sheet, rubbing her fingers back and forth on the inside of his ankle, then returned to her place in the chair next to the bed. He missed the heat of her skin against his.
“Why didn’t you ever tell me Truman used to be FBI? Still does some work for them?” She shot him one of her gotcha looks.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” This wasn’t what he wanted to talk about right now.
“Don’t pull that with me. My mother and I had a nice, long talk about marriage and the law. You and Truman and my dad.” Her voice didn’t sound sad or angry, just mater-of-fact. “What gets me is, all these years, I thought she’d played it safe with a simple businessman for a husband, when it was just the opposite. Guess you don’t always know what’s going on in someone’s life.”
Not sure of where this conversation was headed, he stayed quiet. He glanced around for a pitcher of water. None. Not even a glass of ice chips. Nothing in sight to ease the pain of waiting for her to get to the point. He guessed a man waiting for the verdict of a jury must feel about the same way. ‘Cause his future was in her hands, and her answer might be no. Might already have his bag packed and sitting on the porch.
Well, she had another think coming this time. He might have left easy the last time. But he planned to go down fighting this time. Fighting for her. For them. Hell…why didn’t she get this over with and say what she was gonna say?
She covered his fingers with her own. “I always knew you were one heck of a lawman, but these past days have made me see just how good you are. The FBI, the DEA, the…the…well, any of those initialed agencies would be lucky to have you.” Her fingertips rubbed against his palm. “I’m so damn proud of you.”
Here it was. Her way of pushing him out the door. “So what are you getting at?”
“I just wondered if you had considered staying in Crayton.” She fidgeted with the edge of the sheet.
Stay? Of course he planned to stay. With her? Depended on Marcy. He was who he was—the law—now and forever. If that wasn’t good enough for her, then so be it. He’d never doubt himself again. “You trying to go back on your promise to show me how much you care?”
She tilted her head and stuck out her tongue, crossing her eyes. “No. It’s just, before Landon left town yesterday, he asked the doctor when you’d be able to get back to work.”
“Sounds like he was in one damn awful hurry to leave Crayton.” Couldn’t the man see the police department might need a little help at wrapping up the case?
“That’s not it. He got a phone call that his wife wasn’t doing well, and he needed to head home.” She blinked, then rapidly batted her eyes. “Did you know she has cancer? They found out the day he was late to that past assignment you worked together. The one that started this whole thing.”
JB hadn’t thought he could feel any worse, but he’d been wrong. Cancer? Diagnosed that day? Explained a lot…one hell of a lot. “I didn’t even know he was married.”
Was that how he wanted to keep living? Always keeping your personal life secret. Trying to protect your family by never sharing the bad times with others. Not even the good times. At least if you had a community like Crayton around you, there were people who cared enough to be there as you celebrated accomplishments. And there to see you through the pitfalls.
As soon as the fuzz of pain and medications got out of his body, he’d call Landon. See if there was anything he could do to help the guy.
“Anyway, I figure you’ll be going as soon as you’re well.” Marcy brushed her fingers against the sheet covering his legs. “Seems the FBI doesn’t want you to quit. They think you’d be perfect for some position in the Springfield office.”
JB rolled the idea around in his head. Kept coming to the same conclusion. He and the FBI needed to part ways for good. But he still planned to work in law enforcement. “Do you want me to go, sugar? I mean, I did make you a promise.”
“No. I don’t ever want you to go.” She laid her cheek against the hospital gown covering his chest. “That’s one promise I won’t hold you to.”
“I guess if you need me that much…” He gave a fake put-upon-sigh. “…then I’ll have to stay.” That should rile the Marcy he loved.
Her head popped up. “Need you that much? I don’t need you. In fact, you can leave any time you want.” A mischievous expression belied her words. “Go ahead. Leave. See if I care.”
“I think you care more than you say.” He grinned and reached for her with his uncast arm. If she could feel the pain that small movement caused him, she’d know how much he cared.
She came to him willingly, taking in his tongue as it swept against her lips. Gave as much in return.
“I care a lot. So no matter where you go, no matter what you do, I’ve decided to go with you.” She poked his shoulder, then laid a kiss on the same spot. “No matter how much you aggravate me.”
“What if I get hurt?”
“Look at yourself, JB.” She palmed her hands up in front of her and gave him the once over. “Do you think you could be hurt any worse than this and survive?”
There was the crux of the situation. Might as well lay the cards on the table.
He formed the question first in his mind, then took as deep a breath as he could muster right then. “So what happens if a bullet finds its target, and I don’t get up?”
“I faced that possibility, Jean Bernard Bradley. Back on that hillside when Wilson slammed the poker down at your head, I couldn’t tell if you were still breathing or not. And as I jumped into the water, the sound of the guns exploded around me, and all I saw was the jerk of your body on impact.” Big tears spilled from her eyes and rolled down her cheeks unabated. “I thought you were dead.”
She swiped the back of her hands across her cheeks. “I was sinking in that cold, dark water, and all I could think was that you were dead. That I’d drown because you weren’t there to pull me out. But, I fought…I fought to reach the air again. To live. And one stroke at a time, I made it to the top. I survived, because I kept fighting to live.”
He longed to reach out to her but knew she needed to walk through this emotion on her own. He’d done the same last year when he thought he’d die. When he discovered he wasn’t invincible and that all he could do was fight till the end. His own survival back then had made him see that no matter what, he just needed to get up one more time. Throw one more punch. Struggle for one more breath.
“Guess I’m stronger than I thought.” She smiled.
“You always were. I’ve just been waiting for you to figure that out.” Now that she had, JB wondered what effect that would have on their future. Was she so strong she wouldn’t need him at all? Or strong enough to let him be there for the good times and the bad? “You still haven’t answered my question. What happens if I don’t make it off the ground one day?”
“Well, it all goes back to what you said about the hazards of being a lawman. We’ll face that if and when that ever comes.” Sucking in an extra-extra-extra-deep breath, she managed a tiny upturn of her lips, then kissed him sweetly. “Besides, loving a man like you is already one damn big hazard in itself.”
He couldn’t argue with her there. Except he’d like to go on record that she wasn’t a walk-in-the-park herself. But he wouldn’t. He lived for her sassy comebacks and stare-down arguments. Besides, she only called him by his full name when she was stone-cold serious.
“That sounds good, sugar. But I was thinking—”
“Don’t you dare try to talk me out of this,” Marcy focused her eyes on his and lifted her chin, then lowered the rail and nudged him to move over. “You’re my husband, and I belong with you. We can go to Springfield or St. Louis or all the way to Washington, D.C., if that’s what you want.”
With what strength he had, he scrunched himself across the bed till he rested against the other rail. “I was trying to tell you that I’m never leaving you, sugar. Not even if you pack my bag and set it on the front porch. And for now, let’s just stay in Crayton. Soon as I’m well, I plan to talk to Sheriff Davis about getting my old deputy job back.”
She jerked a quick nod, and smiled. “Good. That means you can be the new sheriff.”
“Sheriff? What about your uncle?”
“Says he’s calling it quits. Gonna let the younger guys carry the load.” She fluffed every pillow on the bed. “Deputy Evans says they couldn’t pay him enough to do the job. He and Kennett have already endorsed you as their choice.”
Sounded like he’d been the topic of conversation as he lay there knocked out the past few days. Sheriff? Maybe.
From what he’d heard around town, Crayton was getting a new factory next year and an expansion on the medical center, plus an outlet mall had just broke ground midway between the lake and the city limits. The town was ripe with growth, and he was ready to settle into a police department that needed his background.
Funny how life gave you what you wanted if you managed to stay alive long enough. JB held the covers back and motioned Marcy to climb in beside him.
“Do you think it’s okay?” His wife glanced at the door.
“Do you think I care if it’s okay or not?”
She shook her head and giggled, then shimmied into the space he’d made between him and the rail. Every shake of the bed jolted shots of pain through him. First one spot, then another. She finally settled in. Nestled her head against his chest. Cuddled. Nestled again.
He grimaced. Groaned. Clenched his jaw.
“Did I hurt you?” Her voice already eased into a sleepy mew.
“Nope. You’re fine.” Dang, her settling worked his pain threshold. About a twelve on a pain chart of ten. No matter. Marcy was beside him, and the pain meds would kick in soon. The nurse would have a fit. The doc would call this highly improper. Too bad. Feeling her against him was the best medicine he could imagine.
“JB?”
“Yes, sugar.”
She leaned up on her elbow. “I’ve also decided to scale back on my marriage counseling business. Not entirely, but a little.”
He bit back a smile. “But you’re so good at it.”
“True. But I’m going to diversify, as big business would say.” She nestled against his chest.
He grabbed the rail and gripped. Gripped tighter and tighter till she stilled. He blew a long breath of air. “How?”
“Huh?”
“Diversify how?”
“Oh.” Her body relaxed into her dreams. “First, I’m going to volunteer at the women’s shelter over in the county seat. Second, I’ve decided I need a hobby. You may not have noticed, but sometimes I can be a little intense. So I’ve been studying the horticulture book and have decided to grow things. You know…like tulips and tomatoes and…” Her fingers pressed against his chest. “…babies.”
Babies? The meds must be kicking in, because everything she said made sense. Babies. Yeah, he could see them with a few kids. They’d need a bigger house.
“I love you, JB.”
“I love you, too, sugar.”
His mind and body eased into a pain free float as she jiggled closer. They were both alive. And even though he’d been hurt worse than ever before, here was Marcy. In his bed. Snuggled against his side. She’d even offered to go with him any place he ever wanted to go.
He tucked his cheek against her hair and grinned. His risk of a lifetime had paid off.