Chapter Five
A few hours later, Daphne awoke from a restless slumber, and without taking the time to break her fast, she performed her toiletries and ordered the carriage to be ready. She had to call upon her dearest friend, Georgiana, the Dowager Duchess of Hardcastle—and now Viscountess Montrose, after marrying Rhys Tremayne, one of the most fascinating and dangerous men known to the London underworld. Daphne required his peculiar brand of service, for he was a broker of information and secrets.
After last night, she needed an arsenal to fight against her husband and his uncanny shrewdness. Scandal alone would not be enough, not for a man who was so self-assured and ruthless, and who with little effort had almost taken her in the library on the chaise lounge. Oh! The mere memory had her heart racing. It was as if her body had rebelled against her heart and mind, and she could not allow that to happen again.
She closed her eyes. If she were to ever fall with child, the freedom she had been hoping for would never be attained.
Almost an hour later, she arrived at one of the most sophisticated townhouses in Mayfair. She alighted from the carriage and the butler opened the front door without her knocking, bowing as she entered.
“Thank you, Milton,” she said with a smile as he collected her pelisse and bonnet.
She glanced up to see Georgiana strolling toward her, and a soft sigh of relief slipped from Daphne. Seeing the beautiful, serene countenance of her dearest friend released the tension and anxiety she hadn’t realized she held in. She could always count on Georgiana for sound and insightful advice without recriminations.
“Dearest Daphne, how I’ve longed to see you,” Georgiana said, holding out her hands.
They hugged and, arms around each other’s waist, they made their way to the drawing room. Soon she was seated opposite her friend on a plush, rose-colored sofa, taking tea.
They exchanged mild pleasantries for a few minutes, then Georgiana said, “I can see you are disturbed. Is all well?”
Daphne sighed. Confiding in her dearest friend was a trifle more difficult than she had imagined. “I want to know my husband’s secrets,” she said mildly, ignoring the sting of guilt.
Georgiana considered her over the rim of her cup. She took a few delicate sips. “Daphne, you’ve admired Carrington for years.”
“Have I?” she said, hating how shattered she sounded. “I’ve admired his dedication to his duties, but I believe it stopped there. It would be quite silly of me to hold any affection for the wretched man.”
“Oh Daphne, I’ve been a poor friend. I know you have been morose of late but not this badly. Why do you want Rhys to ferret out your husband’s secrets? Whatever shall you do with them?”
“They will be my bargaining power.” Her heart lurched at the very notion of acting in such a reprehensive manner.
“I’m disinclined to pry, Daphne dearest, but I must ask—why do you need such power over your earl?”
“I want a divorce, and he is disinclined to grant my request because he wants an heir and a more agreeable marriage.”
Georgiana flinched, and then set the tea and saucer on the beautifully designed rococo table with a clink. “Upon my word, how did Carrington react to your position?”
“With more aplomb than I expected. I was not beaten or banished to an estate in Scotland. Instead…he…he touched me, kissed me.” Incredulity rang through her voice, and a flush ran along her entire body. “I admire him still, sometimes, but it is not enough,” she said with a small, tight smile. “I told him my desire for us to separate. He knows he must be the one to petition Parliament. I have no grounds upon which to stand unless I am willing to lie in the most horrible way and say he is terribly cruel to me in a physical manner.”
Georgiana sucked in a horrified breath. “I would ruin him myself should he dare hurt you,” she hissed, her blue eyes flashing.
“I daresay I am finding the courage to free myself from the shackles of duty and an empty marriage.” Daphne took a sip of her tea. “Do you know my marriage is still unconsummated?”
Georgiana stood. “This calls for stronger libation.” She walked over to the sideboard and filled two glasses with amber liquid. Then she returned and handed one to Daphne, who traded her tea for the stiffer drink. She took a sip of the liquid, coughing slightly.
“Our wedding ceremony was very small and intimate, but I thought it was beautiful. I was so naive, so filled with admiration and budding love for my earl I did not take note of his chilling distance, nor did I question why a man of such esteem and wealth would offer for me.” She took a steadying breath. “After our wedding breakfast, we traveled separately to Cheswick Manor. It was when he came to my chambers hours later that I understood our marriage was not real at all.”
The worst of it was that he had tried to consummate their union. The memory of his cold eyes as he’d ordered her to undress and lie on the bed still had the power to distress her nerves. She had complied, shaking with nerves and alarm, wondering where the man she had fallen halfway in love with that day in the rain was. He had been so cold, so clinical as he had parted her thighs, taken some thick cream from a jar, and touched between her legs. There had been some pain as he slid his fingers into her, and her breath had hitched on a sob. Sylvester had recoiled, his face a grimace of disgust before he had slammed from the chamber. The mere memory had humiliation burning the back of her throat.
“And in the ensuing years, he has treated me with chilling civility and nothing more.”
Sympathy filled Georgiana’s eyes. “I never knew.”
“I was too ashamed for anyone to know how empty my marriage really was. He did not beat me, nor did he limit my allowance and the lavish lifestyle I chose to hide my turmoil beneath when he had all the power to do so. But I’ve been so lonely, Georgie. Six years, and now he wants to waltz in and demand my compliance with what he wishes.” Her throat went tight. “I cannot ignore the desires I have in my heart just because he decrees it to be so.”
“And his secrets will give you that which you need?”
“Perhaps.”
“Your husband has a formidable reputation, Daphne. I would hate to see you injured.”
Do you not love me?
Don’t be a silly twit, sentiment has nothing to do with our union and it never will.
She closed her eyes briefly against the memory of their exchange the day after their disastrous wedding night when she had been determined to understand what was happening. “He cannot pretend to love me, nor I him.”
“And if he loved you?”
She stared at her friend. “It does not signify.” Yet there was a frightful surge of longing in her heart.
“I doubt Lord Carrington would ever consent to a divorce. The scandal would be horrendous. I do not see him even taking such steps if you uncover what matters to him most.”
She made a hopeless gesture. “Even if I made a fool of him?”
“Good heavens, whatever do you mean?”
“I intend to procure a lover. One that I will flaunt to the ton. All of society would know, and my husband would be forced to act.”
“I do not know if your plan has merit or if you are acting foolishly,” Georgiana said, appearing truly shocked. “Carrington is not a man to trifle with, Daphne. Surely you would like to have children, and that is what he is offering you. Perhaps tender sentiments will come after.”
Longing filled Daphne’s heart. “I am three and twenty. I am certain there will be time after.” Though there had been a time when she had envisioned a son with black hair and green eyes, and a daughter with similar delightful features. “It will not be easy, but I must do something. I would fail myself and my heart several times over if I did not try and instead relented at the very first sign of his resistance. To stay in such a cold marriage would be disastrous to my happiness.”
“Pray do not believe I am unfeeling, my dear Daphne, but you may have little choice. That is the way of the world in which we reside. We ladies do not get to shape it, though we have the wit and intelligence to do so. Until that time, I fear we must bend to it,” Georgiana said gently.
A notion Daphne vehemently rejected.
“Your earl is ruthless enough that no one would dare cross him and aid you in the ruination of your reputation to force his hand.”
She took a deep breath. “I…have you heard of Madame Salome?”
Georgiana’s eyes widened. “Daphne, you would not dare!”
“Then you have heard of her?”
“She arranges liaisons of all sorts, and she is known to set lovers together. My husband tells me much about the world he lives in, but where did you hear of Salome’s notoriety?”
Daphne flushed, taking a delicate sip of her brandy. Months ago, she had overheard a few ladies discussing the madam’s services. They hadn’t realized Daphne had been in the library, lying on the chaise lounge, stealing some quiet before she would return to the card rooms where she had lost an alarming amount playing whist. “Do you believe your husband could arrange a meeting?”
Georgiana looked horrified. “And then what?”
“I’ll ask her to arrange a very discreet liaison. Then we will make it known that Lady Carrington used her services.”
“Will you actually have a night of passion, or is the impression of impropriety all you seek?”
Daphne lifted her chin stubbornly. “My husband is not a fool. I am committed to a night of indiscretion.”
Her friend nodded, sympathy glowing in her eyes. “I’ll ask Rhys to make all the arrangements. When it is done, I will send you instructions.”
“Thank you,” Daphne said softly.
“No gratitude is necessary. You are my dearest friend.”
They spent the rest of the afternoon catching up on gossip, and Daphne visited Georgiana’s delightful daughter in the nursery. She was only a few months old but unmatched in beauty and wit, as her mother had declared several times. Daphne had tacitly agreed.
An hour later, the elegantly appointed carriage rumbled along the cobbled road taking her home, which would no longer appear dull since her husband was in residence. The entire atmosphere seemed to change whenever he was home. Even the staff seemed more energetic and happier, and Daphne reluctantly admitted she also found herself more at ease. Once she had anticipated dining with him, possibly crossing wits and retiring to their chambers or sitting in the library before a roaring fire, each to their own devices or reading to each other. She had been so certain he would eventually relent and allow her closer. But her husband had had the amazing capacity to stare right through her.
A lump grew in her throat as she forced herself to consider his offer. A child, perhaps several, and intimacy within their marriage. Oh, how she had wanted to turn into his embrace last night and offer herself up to his ravishment. The diabolical fiend. And how irritating that he made her want him, with so little effort on his part. But what had he truly offered her? Certainly not a life of happiness where she would be secured in the love and affection of her husband. Possibly he would visit her bed a few times until he got his heir and spare, and then what?
More loneliness. Sylvester had all the power, and she had endured feeling helpless for so many years. No longer did she desire to be caged by the will of a man who had never proven himself consistent in their relationship with anything but his indifference.
Only the promise of love could ever entice Daphne to consider her husband’s overtures, and she doubted the man was even acquainted with the concept.
For so long she had been lonely, and empty, and so unhappy. The ray of hope had only arrived when she’d plotted to move on with her life. Now he had decided they would have a normal marriage, at the cost of whatever she wanted. Daphne knew it was the way of the world that men were the ultimate deciders of women’s fates, whether they be wives or daughters. But in this instance, she would fight to be in control of her own future—an extraordinary, if not impossible, feat—but she had to try.
…
Almost twenty-four hours after Sylvester had kissed and pleasured his countess, he could still feel her beneath his skin. It was strange that he could not rid himself of the aching need being with her, though briefly, had ignited. The day had passed in a curious blur, and several times he had thought of her while he should have been reading the reports on his various estates that had piled up in his absence. Tasting his countess’s passion had been the single most pleasurable encounter of Sylvester’s life. Not in the top five, or two, but the most wonderful. And it felt very foolish to admit it. The wild flavor of her had felt like an assault on his senses, leaving him disoriented.
How had he not known his wife was this sublime? Even now, his body screamed for its own pleasure, for a release it had been denied for years. He still wasn’t quite certain how it had happened. Something powerful and desperate had risen inside him at the thought of her with another. The tight lid on the desire he had kept checked had been pried open, and he had kissed her with all the pent-up longing he had for her. Not only that, he had wanted to wipe away the very idea that another man’s touch could linger in her memory.
She’d left the library as if he had been the devil. He had let her go, too stunned by his visceral reaction to her and the ease at which she roused his anger, his lust, and this unknown tenderness.
How he had prevented himself from chasing her, he did not know, and perhaps never would. For a few precious minutes, he had been a starving man who had been given his first taste of something sweet and delightful. To center himself, he had drunk a few glasses of brandy in the taunting emptiness of his library, perplexed at the desire to have her with him. Their banter, though filled with such anger and tension, was the most invigorated he had been in years. Something in him had been taken apart and reshaped with her fiery demands.
Sylvester couldn’t imagine how she thought a divorce was a credible solution. The scandal that would taint his family would linger for years and generations. Though he had not been a man who was overly concerned with society’s views for the last few years, the denial of her request had been powerful and immediate. His heart had been a dull, aching thud inside his chest, and the feeling of loss that had torn through him had been hard to reconcile.
He never touched me. The lying, wretched beauty. Victor would not lie to him, and the man’s report mentioned kissing and the ease of familiarity between lovers.
Unless…
Sylvester frowned, remembering the impossible tightness that had gripped his fingers, her whimper of discomfort. Not the reaction of a lady with a recent lover. Then he recalled more. The jolt of shock when he had glided his tongue against hers, the sound of wonderment when she had found her release, the way she had blushed so prettily and had been unable to meet his eyes. Sylvester couldn’t explain the profound depth of relief that swelled inside. His wife did not have a lover, nor had she ever had one.
She’s still mine and she has honor.
With a rough sigh of frustration, he closed the ledger his estate manger had sent from Scotland and tossed it carelessly atop his desk. It was time to accept defeat. There was a part of him not ruled by logic that wanted to think about the woman upstairs. They had dined together that evening, and the silence between them had been chillingly familiar…and it should have been expected. They had sat at opposite ends of a large table that could easily seat twenty and had eaten a truly exquisite meal of veal escapoles with a marsala sauce, trout roasted with almonds, and mushroom fritters. Followed by a lavender-flavored cream and peaches from his estate. A peculiar disquiet had pierced him, and Sylvester had found himself staring at his wife throughout the meal.
She had noticed, bestowed upon him a bland smile, and then excused herself. Her walk had been jerky, and he had sensed the nervous tension. Perhaps she had accurately read his thoughts to visit her tonight. He would not dally on the matter of securing his line.
He stood and made his way from his study, down the hallway, and up the stairs to his chamber. His valet waited, but he dismissed him without undressing. Sylvester sat on the edge of his bed, distantly noting for the first time how different his chamber seemed. His wife had redecorated, discarding the drab gray wallpaper and had replaced it with dark blue silk with silver patterning. He glanced around, noting the sofa’s light blue velvet brocade matched the heavy curtains over his bed.
Sylvester stared at the door connecting their chambers. She had retired over two hours past. Was she still awake, anticipating his arrival? Or would that connecting door be firmly closed? The last time he had been in a bedchamber with her, he had been unable to rouse his desire to consummate their marriage, and he had been harsh in his rejection of their union. It was foolish of him to even expect it to be unlatched, but he pushed to his feet and padded silently to the door. It was locked. Turning on his heels, he made his way to the bedside table and opened the top drawer, collected the key nestled at the bottom, and returned to the connecting door. The key fit, pushing out the one on her side of the door, and he made his way into her chamber and over to the bed.
The fireplace burned brightly, and the room felt warm and inviting. His countess had also redesigned her chambers in softer shades of blue and pink, colors that accentuated her pale skin and hair. Where his room was in straight lines, giving a strong masculine effect, hers was a garden of summer blooms, of which she was the most beautiful by far. The entire picture was one of elegance and sophistication.
Sylvester stared down at his countess as she turned in the large four-poster bed, agitated even in slumber. He blinked at the sight of the wolfhound sleeping beside her. He knew of no other lady who would have their dog in bed with them. She looked so young and innocent, her lashes long and thick against her pale skin.
I want to be held…kissed, loved.
Love, an emotion Sylvester had never truly thought he could apply to himself. He hadn’t wished for it for himself, and had never considered it, not even in the confines of his marriage. Love…such a foreign concept. What good was love to anyone?
He hadn’t even considered she’d refuse to submit to the marriage bed. How arrogant of him. But then, he hadn’t truly dwelled on the motions required to get his wife with child. Sylvester had intended to be as perfunctory as possible when he went to her bed, which he planned to do at least twice a week to get the deed done. He’d wanted no sentiments between them, he wasn’t even sure he was capable of tenderness. He was not the same man of years past. He’d seen an ugliness in humanity that had changed something within him. He had hardened, his hands had taken the lives of those who intended to kill him, and the reputation of ruthlessness he had garnered had not been lightly gained.
As if she somehow sensed him, her lids flickered open, and her lips parted in a silent gasp. As they stared at each other, he felt a peculiar tightening in his chest at the vulnerability he spied. His countess visibly swallowed. She understood he was in her chambers to get on with his business of making an heir for his line, perfunctory, without messy emotions, and she could not deny him. He also spied the resolve to hold back her passion for him. Anything they did tonight would be a cold and calculated coupling. Dutiful.
Suddenly the very notion of her submitting to him out of a sense of duty, of feeling helpless against his power, hurt somewhere inside, deeply. The dark depths of her eyes were reflecting so many emotions they took his breath. Have you become like the masters of the slaves for whom you fight so passionately?
Her words had been harsh but accurate. If a man wanted, he could treat his wife similarly to how slaves were treated, as chattels and nothing more.
Their marriage had started on rocky, ill-formed grounds, and he could not imagine a time it would be amiable and pleasant, despite his hope for a companionable union where they liked each other. But he did not want her unwilling. He wanted her eager and wet and crying for his possession. His wife’s taste had been dark, rich, and sinful, and it was those delights he wanted in his marriage bed. Not duty.
I’m lonely, an empty shell. The pain in that declaration had cut into him, creating a biting sting like a poison-tipped dagger. That sweet girl who had risked her life to save her puppy believed she was an empty shell. A peculiar longing welled inside him. Sylvester had often wondered what it would be like to be not quite so alone in the nights, to have a lover to confide in, to share his fears and triumph. It had been his choice to excise her from all aspects of his life, and he had done so without consideration for what she would suffer. Had she wanted more than the pomp and ceremony of a countess? How startling to think her loneliness was perhaps the same as his, how strange, but perplexingly fascinating.
What might they find together if they allowed themselves the indulgence? What might he find beyond the lust he felt for her delectable body. A friend, perhaps?
The silence pounded and stretched, yet neither spoke.
Sylvester felt as if he was seeing his wife for the first time since they had been married. How often had he possessed a similar thought in his life? How often had he reflected on his marriage and cursed the day he had spied her in that damn river? He had chosen this life many years ago, the only choice he believed he had at the time, and had directed his energies into a cause he had thought honorable and worthwhile, something in which he had been determined to not fail.
His wife rustled, tugging his attention to her.
“There is too much uncertainty between us to be intimate.”
The softly spoken words, which hinted at a vulnerability she had not shown before, was a crushing fist against his heart. In the library, he had admired that his kitten had grown claws, and had the roar of a lioness. Now… He glanced down. Her fingers were clenched in the sheets beneath her, and her eyes were a wide pool of apprehension.
I am now your lord and master, you will do as I say when I command it, disobey me, my countess, and I will break you.
The words he had slung at her with such furious bitterness right after their vows had been completed echoed through him. Tempering his rage and disgust had been hard. While his bride’s eyes had been bright with excitement and what he had believed were false tender emotions, her father had acted with self-importantance like a stuffed peacock, and her brother, too, had acted as if they had arrived, as if crowns now sat upon their heads and riches were laid at their feet. All while his sister had lain irreparably harmed in bed, hurt, confused, and shamed.
Inexplicably, he knew Daphne was remembering their wedding night, when he had thought to take her to get the deed over with, using his creamed fingers to break her virginal barrier. He hadn’t been harsh, but he had not treated her as a lady of delicacy and refined sensibilities. “Will there ever be a time when things are certain between us, my countess?”
“I cannot submit to my duty.”
I don’t want you to. It was unexpected and even unsettling, this desire to be gentle with her. “I do not want you to accept me in your bed because of duty,” he said gruffly. He wanted her wild and screaming her pleasure, more than how he wanted to take his next breath.
Her eyes widened, and those brown orbs went soft with relief and confusion. “That’s rather indulgent of you.”
A painful, aching tightness lingered inside of him. He turned on his heel to retire to his chamber and hesitated. “I assure you, upon my honor, I’ll never take you by force, Daphne.” Then the devil in him added, “I’ll wait until you are willing and wet for my touch, until the need to be filled is a crippling ache that keeps you awake at night, until anticipation and hunger cloud your beautiful eyes.”
“You have a terribly long wait ahead of you…Sylvester.”
He smiled at the pique in her voice. Satisfaction filled him. He wasn’t an easy man. Over the years he had grown hard, and no matter how he tried to soften, it eluded him. He did not want a woman who would dissolve into hysterics at the first sign of danger, or raised voices, or his anger. This was how he wanted his countess—defiant and unafraid. The notion that she had feared him burned along his skin like acid. It bothered him greatly, and he couldn’t understand the reason behind the disquiet. He did not require her love or her trust, for he had no deep sentiments to give.
Only an heir and an agreeable marriage, and that could be achieved with seduction.