Chapter Five
After Alonzo made her come and he’d found his release on her stomach, he’d gone to her bathroom, grabbed a towel, cleaned his cum from her, and then left. It had to be one of the strangest, most erotic moments of her life.
Why had he left?
Did she do something wrong?
She’d brought herself to orgasm many times with her hands. She wasn’t immune to wanting sex or even desiring it. There were times she wished a man would approach her, ask her out, or at least do something which would lead to sex. So far in her life, she’d gotten nothing, nada.
As far as her experiences went, last night failed on so many levels.
He licked her pussy, got his rocks off, and nothing else.
Didn’t it lead to sex?
Did she even want sex?
Why the hell was she sitting in the library with Caesar crawling around, thinking about the man who’d gotten her off? He probably had a whole host of women crawling in and out of his bed, begging to be his plaything.
The last thing she wanted to do was to be his play anything.
She’d never even thought about Alonzo as anything other than her boss.
Now, it was like he’d crawled under her skin and she couldn’t stop thinking about him. He was there all the time, and even as she smiled down at Caesar, who slapped her leg with one of his toys, Alonzo stayed there.
“Ah, I see you escaped here,” Michele said, entering the room.
Tessa looked up at the other nanny, who looked pissed off. “It’s where we always go.”
“And do what? Sit, watching him drool.” Michele dropped down to the floor as if she was in trouble.
“Why did you take the job as a nanny if you can’t stand kids?” she asked.
“Please, the pay is amazing. Besides, getting one of the made men or even a solider would be a step up in this world.”
“That’s what you’re after, a guy?”
“Yep. I want to be taken care of. Working sucks. I don’t want to scrub all my life for nothing at the end of it. If I’ve got to suck a bit of cock to get ahead in this world, I got no problem with that. Most women give it up for free. Me, I just want a little something at the end of it.” Michele laughed. “Don’t look so shocked, Tessa. Maybe you should spread those legs of yours and see what you can get. A virgin like you would get a pretty penny around here.”
“No, thank you.” She felt sick.
“You’re too much of a prude. That’s what Alonzo wants from you though. I bet he just wants to be the guy to get your cherry. To fuck you nice and hard and make you bleed as he does.”
“Shut up,” Tessa said.
“What are you going to do about it? I’m not going anywhere, Tessa. You think you can fuck the boss, get what you want. I’m not going to let you do that.”
“You have no idea what the hell you’re talking about.” She got to her feet and started to pick up Caesar’s toys.
“I know he came to your room last night. I heard the moans right outside your door. You act like you’re all sweet and innocent, and you may be a virgin, but deep down, you’re a slut. You’re desperate for cock.”
“I don’t like the way you’re talking in front of Caesar. Clean your mouth out or stop talking.” She picked Caesar up.
“You better watch your step, Tessa. I know who you are, and you’re going down.”
Tessa’s heart raced as she left the library. Caesar started to fidget in her arms, and she just needed to get out of the house.
Michele’s words kept ringing inside her head, and no matter how hard she tried, she couldn’t make them stop. She walked to the front of the house where one of the guards stood watch. His name was Liam, and she explained she wanted to take Caesar out. Within a matter of minutes, she had Caesar dressed and ready for a walk. Being his nanny, she had the responsibility of taking him out, feeding him, and knowing when to put him down for a nap, bathe him, everything.
She loved kids so much, and she hadn’t even realized how much until she started to care for Caesar.
Even with Liam and another guard at her back, she drowned out their footsteps as they followed her.
They lived not too far from a park. It was a small one but offered a walkway for anyone who wanted to take some time away with a small play area for kids. She found it easier for her to think there.
Of course, it reminded her of the park where her parents always took her when she was growing up. She’d often sit on the swings with her father behind her, pushing her. He always told her to fly, to reach for the stars, to never let anything get her down.
Once inside the park, it was easier to drown out the two men. A couple of women gave her weird looks, but again, she ignored them. Pushing Caesar past the play area where a couple of kids were playing in the sand pit, she got onto the pathway and just started walking. This, to her, was better than any running machine. She got the fresh air and the feeling of actually going somewhere.
She didn’t like Michele or her accusation, not one bit. She’d been working with the other woman for a year now, and there was just no getting past how … horrid the woman was.
Michele didn’t care about Caesar. She only cared about herself, and it bugged her. Her accusations about her and Alonzo bothered her.
Last night wasn’t supposed to happen, but it did. What the hell was she supposed to do now? How could she face him again?
This was all too much.
She’d have to quit.
With her father no longer part of his team, maybe she could live a quiet life. A life away from the mafia. Away from everything.
The thought alone filled her with such joy, and she couldn’t contain her excitement and just being alone. Being herself.
With a spring in her step, she rounded the park four more times before finally heading toward the gate.
However, there was no chance of her escaping as the reason for her troubled thoughts stood right at the gate. She noticed all of the other parents and kids were gone. The park was completely empty.
Jessica stood at his side, as did Benedict.
“I didn’t steal him,” she said, walking faster so that she stood in front of them.
“We know you didn’t, silly. We’re here to take him. That’s all.”
Alonzo hadn’t said a word.
“He should be ready for his feed,” she said, handing over the stroller.
Jessica took it. “Thank you.”
She watched as Jessica and Benedict both left. When he tried to put an arm around his wife, she pulled away. There really was no love there.
The two guards who’d followed her left to keep an eye on Jessica.
She stood alone with Alonzo, Cole, and Demetri.
“I don’t like it when you leave the house without my permission,” Alonzo said.
“I was only doing my job. I’m not allowed to do that anymore?” She looked past his shoulder, not liking others seeing her with him.
“Come,” Alonzo said. He held out his hand, and she really didn’t want to take it, but she did. They were in public, and this wouldn’t go well for either of them if they got caught.
They walked toward the swings, and he ordered her to take a seat. Being ordered around started to grate on her nerves. Remembering the feel of his lips between her thighs though, she sat down on the seat.
His hand went to her back, and he gave her a gentle push. Rather than fight him, she lifted her legs up and allowed the push to carry her. When she drew her legs back, he pressed on her back, and she was once again in the air.
For a short time, she could imagine her father being here, or at least feel him in the air as she reached for the stars.
The longer she sat, climbing higher and higher, more of her troubles melted away until nothing was left. Nothing mattered in her life.
Not being a nanny.
Not Michele.
Not Alonzo.
Or the fear that her life would one day end in a bloody war.
There simply was nothing.
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It would have been so easy to fuck her last night. To take her cherry and have her screaming for him, begging for more. Only, Alonzo didn’t just want her for sex. There was no way he’d waited two years for her for it all to be over in one night.
Clearly, she had trouble dealing with what they’d done together. He’d checked the surveillance footage he had around the house. From what he saw, she’d looked like a crazy person, needing to escape, and he didn’t like it. He didn’t like her wanting to get away from him.
He used Tessa’s own momentum to watch her fly higher in the sky.
“What do you do on your downtime?” he asked, looking at Maxwell. The older man was one of his most trusted allies and soldiers.
“I take my daughter to the park.”
“Isn’t she a little old for the park?”
“Maybe. Either way, whatever troubles she has in her young mind, they melt away. All I have to do is give her a push.”
The memory came to him fast, and as he pressed his hand against her back, watching her fly, he thought about her father. Maxwell had always been worried about her safety. About what being part of the mafia meant to her well-being.
This was not a place for everyone.
Even Alonzo had thought about leaving it behind, only he couldn’t. Once he was part of it, there really was no going back.
Cole and Demetri stood away from them.
He checked the time, and saw it was a little after seven. They’d need to leave soon. She had to be hungry.
When she came back, he didn’t push her again.
She started to slow down, and he moved to stand in front of her.
The smile died on her lips as she caught sight of him.
Slowly, back and forth, she stopped, and he stepped forward. When he gripped the chains of her swing, she stayed seated.
“Whenever you need to come out here to clear your head again, come to me.”
“My dad told you,” she said.
“He told me a great deal.”
“You’re not my father.”
“Tessa, what I want to do to you is not fatherly. It’s the furthest thing from fucking fatherly I can think of.”
Her gaze went to his chest. “I … I don’t think I should work for you anymore.”
“You’re not leaving. That’s not even going to be an option.”
“Why are you being so difficult?”
“Why are you?”
“I’m not part of this world.”
“Your father was.”
“And he told me so much about it. You’re going to have to marry within the family. to further your connections. This, it can’t work. Please, don’t make me become something I don’t want.”
He reached out, stroking his fingers across her flesh. She really was so beautiful, so soft.
She was everything he wanted in a woman, but within his world, he could get her killed.
A good man would send her away.
Would allow her to live a life that made her happy.
He wasn’t a good man.
Nor a nice man.
He wanted her.
Plain and fucking simple.
There was no way he’d ever let her go, not without a fight.
Stroking his fingers through her hair, he tugged on the band that kept the long, brown locks in place.
It slid out with ease, and he cupped the back of her head, tilting it back so that he could stare into her eyes.
“I’ll never make you become something you don’t want, Tessa. I don’t get to be told what to do.”
“But you’re going to get married.”
“I’m still very much single. Unless you have something in mind. We could leave right now. Go to Vegas. You could be mine by the end of the day.”
She shook her head.
He leaned in close.
“No one else tells me what to do. If I want to marry you, I’ll marry you.” He pressed a kiss to her cheek.
He heard her indrawn breath and smiled. She really was so sweet and caring.
Watching her with Caesar, it had been next to impossible for him to not claim her.
He wanted to fuck her.
To take her.
To make her his.
In his world, he didn’t wait around for the right moment; he took. Moving to her lips, he stared into her eyes and then took her lips. Her hands left the chains and gripped his shoulders.
As he bit down on her lip, she let out a little cry, and her mouth opened. Unable to resist, he slid his tongue in, tracing across her teeth and meeting her.
She stroked him back, and he deepened the kiss, drawing her off the swing and into the warmth of his body. His cock stirred, and if they were back at home, he’d have taken that precious virginity of hers.
He wasn’t a good man or a kind man, but Tessa made him do crazy-as-fuck things.
“Sir, you have reservations at the restaurant,” Cole said.
Breaking from the kiss, he tucked Tessa’s head against his chest. He didn’t respond to Cole.
Tessa breathed deeply. One of her hands splayed across his chest.
“Reservations?”
“You’ve been out most of the day. I told Louise not to bother with making us food. Come on, let’s go and eat.”
She tugged on his hand. “I can’t.”
“Why not?”
“I’m not dressed.”
He smiled. “You don’t have to worry about a thing.” He walked back to the car, still holding her hand. Opening the door, he helped her inside. Cole and Demetri both sat at the front.
He wouldn’t allow there to be any distance between himself and Tessa. Wrapping an arm around her shoulders, he pulled her close.
“I miss my dad,” she said, the moment the car started moving.
“I do as well.”
“Did you like him?” she asked.
“I adored your father. He was a good man. A strong man.”
“A bit of a joker as well,” Cole said.
He’d not put up the partition.
“Your father was well-liked, Tessa,” Demetri said. “We all lost a part of ourselves the day he was taken.”
She nodded, but she didn’t try to fight him.
They arrived at Louis’s restaurant, which had been repaired from its latest vandalism attempt.
As always, the place was thriving. Louis served the best Italian cuisine around at affordable prices. It’s one of the reasons Alonzo invested in the place when he first needed some startup capital to help. Cole and Demetri sat at the bar while he helped Tessa into his usual booth.
“I don’t mind if you want them to sit with us.”
“I want you all to myself.”
“I think at times you’re expecting something from me, and I don’t know what it is. I know you’ve been nice to me since my father’s passing, but how long is that going to last?”
“You think the only reason I want you is out of respect for your father?”
She shrugged. “Isn’t it?”
He chuckled. “You’ve got a lot to learn about men.”
“I have?” She tilted her head to the side.
“Yes. Men who just respect your father wouldn’t buy you a whole new wardrobe for you to look nice in.”
“I’m returning those clothes. I can’t afford them.”
“You return those clothes and I’ll chain you to my bed and spank your ass.”
“You’d beat me?”
“No, not a chance. I’d never put a bruise on that skin. First, I’d get you so hot for me. Your pussy would be dripping for me and only for me. I’d get you ready to take my dick. To fuck you. When I slapped your ass, giving you the spanking you deserve, you’d be ready for it, baby. You’d be ready for me to fuck you, to take you so hard that you were screaming for me to not stop.”
Her eyes had dilated, and she pressed her thighs together. Her body begged for it.
“You say a lot of dirty things.”
“And you love it, Tessa. You can deny it if you want, but your body, it wants to be fucked. It screams for my cock.”
“So, all you want to do is fuck me?” she asked.
Her cheeks were so pretty being bright red.
“Look at you, saying naughty words. I want to drive my cock inside you, feel you come all over it. Those lips, I want them wrapped around me when I take you, fucking your throat. I can’t wait to suck on those tits as you ride my dick. I’ll teach you everything you need to know.”
“We shouldn’t—”
“Why not? Tell me, Tessa, you’ve not thought about it? You’ve not thought about me being inside you. About being fucked. About taking my cock.” He saw the answer was she had. She’d thought about him a whole lot. He smiled. “Don’t worry, I’ll never take what you’re not willing to give.”
The waiter brought over their menus at his signal.
He knew how to work with her kind of need.